Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ would never think anything of the sort...Quite the contrary,actually!He died for you in the Cross so that you may be given the chance to go to Heaven,that's our home!Our homeland!I know what you might be feeling because I had THAT kind of intrusive thoughts in the past as well,but please,hang in there.The Lord is always with you,even when you feel like He isn't or everytime seems abandoned to itself.Trust me,it will get better.God bless you and your family,have a blessed day/night. :) ♡