Without love there's a feeling of shallowness within my heart that makes me sad and emotional but to love somebody again makes me feel anxious and vulnerable.
Sometimes, I feel like my head is under water except I’m the only one that’s holding it down; I’ve spent nearly the entirety of my life living in the comforts of chaos and so now, I find it hard to keep long-lasting relationships - I feel like no one really knows me, but I understand that no one truly will. I’ve sabotaged so many healthy relationships over the fact that I chose to play with fire, and then when I get burnt, I have no one else to blame but myself so I sit there feeling sorry for myself like I am right now. God, desire truly is the root of all suffering. I’m driven towards desire by desire, believing that the fulfilment of that desire is an end, but there is no end - I’m never satisfied. I continue to chase a feeling i’m not even familiar with. I want more, and more. I want the type of love that devours me. I want intensity and yet I am overwhelmed; many aspects of myself are in direct opposition to one another and yet I still crave consistency above all else. I want to be overwhelmed with love so pure and sweet just like honey. I don’t want to continue sucking on a lemon to convince myself of false perceptions.
I dont know how many times i re-lived this life but i wish i reborn one more time to live happily with my mom ,dad and my siblings cuz thats all i wanted and that was my only world
This has kinda proved to me that Gonzalez's voice is the standout feature of the band. The guitar is nice of course, very pretty and weepy, but the singing is really the instrument here.
Fully disagree. There’s a reason why these instrumental versions exist. Because their voice did not fit the melody at all. Much better without their voice imho
@@osaobeid7828 I agree with your opinion that the instrumentals are quite better. then again, I only hate the vocals because the lyrics are the same cliched sad boy shit but the singer is still good. I remember hearing this song for the first time and being caught off guard by the singing so I instantly searched for an instrumental
For me I love the instrumentals more because it leaves me with my thoughts and someone yapping lyrics just makes me stop thinking about what I'm thinking and I get annoyed so I play instrumentals Alot more. At the end of the day though it all comes down to opinion and your taste in it.
Yeah fr though, Im not gonna knock OPa opinion, but yeah nah, that guy's voice ain't it at all. I listen to this instrumental for a reason @@osaobeid7828
Am I destined to be this way? Was it the angle the moon set the day I was born? Or the way the wind blew? Or the temperature of the mild summers day? Or was it the pitch of my cry? I find that maybe it’s my fault. Perhaps they don’t want me as much as I want them all the times because maybe, maybe, maybe it was me. It’s always been them. Not me. First time. I was young and you were only a few months older. She was older, too, and I felt like a puppet in your hands. You didn’t like her? You took me. Oh, you forgive her? I am left in the sand pit with no one picking me up. Not even picking me out the sand to put on the grass, concrete, fence, no, just on the sand. Sand getting into my pores and my face. Second and third time it happens again. Now I’m intertwined with jealousy and slight rage whenever someone doesn’t pick me. They never do. I open my heart yet I remain stuck outside the gates of your’s. The others feel they can just walk in, but I don’t. Only one person can have the key. You said I do, but you people please. I can’t tell what you really want. I hate it, I hate you, but you’re my friend. Sometimes I wish I could just be alone. And it would be okay. No struggling or pain or overthinking or anything. But I am never alone. My thoughts my brain people the actions the words my heart my feelings all crowd me in a room cornered with no door no windows no holes not even a crack. I suffocate. Until one day I hope someone lets me breathe, inside the chambers of their heart, together. We have each other the key. This is it. It’s final. We live. We die. But with our keys in one another’s hand. Is that so f-ing hard?
The suffocation is real. The agony, envy, hatred, rage, disappointment, guilt, misconception, regret, insecurity, overthinking, struggle, hopelessness, all of them are real. But hey? at least the loneliness turned into lonesomeness. Now isn't that awesome..
It's making you cry every time You give your love to me this way Saying you'd wait for me to stay I know it hurts you But I need to tell you something My heart just can't be faithful for long I swear I'll only make you cry Maybe I'd change for you someday But I can't help the way I feel Wish I was good, wish that I could Give you my love now But I need to tell you something My heart just can't be faithful for long I swear I'll only make you cry I need to tell you something My heart just can't be faithful for long I swear I'll only make you cry
Everything you are going through right now is TEMPORARY : Thoughts, emotions and people too. Don't stress, you are gonna be ok 👌 . I'm proud of you 🫡❤️🫵🫂
الجزء المؤلم من الحكاية برمتها انه في نهاية اليوم سينام الظالم بكل اريحية و سهولة بينما يقضي الشخص الذي لم يقترف اي ذنب لياليه يصارع ، انا اتمنى ان تتحقق العدالة الكونية الالهية في قصتي
It didn't matter if you wanted to see me, see my body or anything. I'm not mad about that. I'm just sad, that despite everything, we stopped talking. And there's no way back. Do anything, but please don't ignore me. It kills me. You knew it. And you did it, just like other did to you in the past. I just wish you the best and ever, all my best wishes. I won't be able to see you grow anymore. And the little moments you shared with me felt like a trip to another world. Thank you.
Edit: Ya'll I kinda regret saying 8th grade sucked...school is about to end in 2 weeks and I'm starting to FINALLY realize, "huh...I just realized I'm never going to return back to 8th grade ever again...frick 💀💀" 8th grade wasn't AS fun as 7th grade, but there's some things in 8th grade I'm literally going to cry over today. ANYWAYS, back to what I was saying 7 months ago at the time of editing this comment: Honestly, this song is literally how I felt on the last day of 7th grade. It was literally the best post 3rd grade year I've had in a WHILE. I'll admit I was very skeptical about leaving elementary school and wasn't ready for middle school, but it wasn't until I started enjoying 7th grade because I literally made so many friends and connected with so many people I probably wouldn't have met otherwise. I got attached to all my teachers and classmates since they were all super fun people (except my 5th period class, THEY hated me, but ironically I miss language arts the most mainly because of my teacher and the stuff we learned about...:( Especially the book we read at the end of the year that will always serve as a reminder to what once was a year with low expectations.) It wasn't until the last day of school that I finally got to appreciate all of that, but I already realized that day that it was way too late at this point. I remember being so depressed on the last day of school since I knew I was never going to go back, EVER. No matter how hard I might try to relive the experience, 7th grade was over. I got to laugh with the 8th graders one last time, I got to see my history teacher crack jokes one last time, I got to see my crush for the final time... (Whom I never got the chance to say goodbye too since he wasn't really interested in me, but that would be the last interaction I had with him.) I got to see my math teacher who believed in me one last time, I got the chance to see my inspirational language arts teacher say her final words before she left the school (she didn't die btw), and finally...I said goodbye to my science teacher, my bff who would move away, all my classmates who've I've gone very close with the exception of my language arts classmates. I think also why this year was the best so far is because of how much crazy stuff happened- LIKE ME AND MY FRIENDS GOT FRONTROW TICKETS TO OUR FIRST WITNESSING OF A FIGHT SINCE WE'VE NEVER SEEN ONE, AND THE FACT THAT THIS FIGHT LITERALLY WENT DOWN IN HISTORY FOR BEING ONE OF THE CRAZIEST FIGHTS IN OUR SCHOOL'S HISTORY OF BEAT-UPS 💀. LIKE- C'MON! IT WAS MY FIRST FIGHT! And ALSO the fact that one of my friends who was in 8th grade at the time (she's in 9th now) literally punched me for no reason at all and broke all my trust I had for her since she played the victim for the rest of the year when everyone knew damn well I was innocent 😭!..But aside all of that, 7th grade was just a banger. Idk why but it's so weird that I was so sad about 7th grade ending (even though I was still returning the school for 8th grade in 2 months) yet when I graduated 6th grade I just did not care at all 💀. Yea I was sad maybe a little but even when it fully hit me that elementary was over, It wasn't that painful compared to 7TH GRADE!! **Sigh** I would just do anything to go back to that time :(... To conclude this weirdly long essay about my life that nobody asked for, I remember how when the final rang on that bittersweet day of May 24th, 2023, everybody rushed outside the gates, some of them staying behind to say their FINAL goodbyes. I waited for the entire school to clear up, then I walked to my daycare I use to go to in the beginning of 7th grade but left because my mom left her Job. I said a final goodbye to my daycare teachers AND some of my friends who were there, and started the very slow walk outside the school. I'm not joking when I say this but it took me 10 MINUTES to finally reach my mom's car. Usually I would be out in 2 mins, but again, I was feeling so down so I decided to pretend I was ✨fRoZeN iN tImE✨ by walking around the left side of the school for the last time, knowing 8th grade won't be the same...So, what does this have to do with the song you may ask? Well, I having this song on REPEAT in 4th period because our teacher allowed us to have our phones out since it was the last day of school, and I listened to this song since I just wanted to let it finally sink in that 7th grade was over, and I actually cried in class but luckily nobody noticed 🥲. So now, whenever I hear this song in a video, all those memories start coming back. It's almost like a slideshow going through my brain projecting the different events that happened at my schools and crazy stuff. Oh, and that book we read in my language class, that one quote really does describe 7th grade as a whole...7th grade, in my heart, will forever "stay gold 💛💛..." :)
one time I was listening to this song while crying because my mom was fighting w my grandma and my mom sounded so angry and so hysterical and crazy and she kept screaming a lot. i cried so hard to this song
@@star-pp1ub as someone who literally hates middleschool and everyone in there i kid you not i was laughing, crying and jumping, i never had to see them mfs again! And trust me after highschool hit i didn't think bullying was that bad anymore 💀 i got builled in middle school changed schools became a loner and after going to college damn i rocked that shitt
this is making me so emotional. I recently injured myself and im a dancer and have a performance coming up, my last nutcracker because im a senior, and I just want to get better so that I can dance. update: i am able to dance now and perform but i need surgery in jan
We struggle to grow, to learn how to fly. Why? Just to die one day? I refuse to believe it, the path can be carved with a knife We must go on the journey without any fear and boldly approach our final frontier 🌪️👤
Gabriel is more connected to Chris now. We all share the awareness: the light behind all of our eyes. We all share one soul. He's within the calls of birds. The cries of new born children. And the flutters of the butterfly"s wings. Holding my man tight tonight and I have so much gratitude. I've been feeling suicidal and depressed and lonely and this opened my eyes. I'm thankful for life.
Mother, father, I'm sorry because I'm weak Sorry that I couldn't make you proud Sorry that I don't like that place, sorry that I get tired so much In that place I'm sorry that I'm not strong to bear all this I'm sorry that I'm not sociable I'm sorry that I'm not happy I'm sorry that I don't have friends I'm sorry that I told you I'm tired and I don't want to go to that place anymore I'm sorry .. ❤But what you said to me father is not nice It hurt me, I didn't expect you to tell me that, I expected that you would prefer my happiness and comfort as you used to be, but you.. have changed, I'm sorry parents, I want you to know that all this time I've been enduring., I did it for you 🤍 متخافوش باقا كنبغيكم و غتبقا ديما نبغيكم ✨
am i the only one that this song makes me remember every good time or good action i did to everyone to now? or just makes me overthink but in a kinda good way
i knew i was a rebound but it actually felt like i was loved by her, we’re friends now but i miss it the shit we did i wanna go back. but i know i cant it fucking sucks man. i wanna let go but i cant
A hug could change a lot more than you could imagine for a man so if you are a girl reading this go find the funniest class clown in your classroom and say I know what happening with you and give him a hug and I promise you he will tear up
Man, the video of the kid ringing the bell at a ramdom house looking for friends brought me here, so heartbreaking. Try being nice to everyone, their struggle might be even bigger than yours.
Just trust me you'll find one when you least expect it, i had mine snopping in for lays...the yellow ones thats how we talked 💀 But then again love hurts more than not having it, shes in a boarding school right now and hasnt made any friends i have been cold to everyone in class because i dont think its fair for me to have friends if shes having none
Live is death and death is freedom trust me an I can see you feelings in this situation an I say to you,don’t touch anymore drugs that’s make you sick and you will be dumb in this life more
I don’t know if my life meant forever to be miserable or is the reason of my misery is my family and environment? Sometimes I want to runaway from them but I don’t know why I didn’t make this move yet I’m done I don’t want to live no more
I’m already 25 and I don’t know what I’m waiting for Just living my days with emptiness and fear of missing out Waiting for the right moment to live my life but there’s no right moment
Meeting late 2020 and enjoying the time of our lives before, during and after covid was beautiful. But the absolute best part and the most amazing memories come from our university days. A whole new city for 2 years with our freedom and living together. Will never forget the memories we created. I love and miss her dearly. I will never forget us. LIMLO27 ❤
we will be man, all of us, life is a rollercoaster, their are ups and downs, and once you get to the end of it, you cant re-do it, so why not make the most of it hey?
We did a lot especially during this time of year but we all must let these feelings pass and keep going instead of staying stuck in the past. I remember our first snowball fight it was awesome
but God, every memery of us... yes i can relate to that. ive been sorta in love when i was younger, but not anything like it was with this one. it was my first and only (so far) in adult age, and when u love as an adult, its so much deeper, at least for me, because my capacity to love is much greater now than when i was a teen, knowing way more about life, and how to treat people nicely and knowing way more about myself aswell. man her energy and ambition and eyes. :L theres maybe hope for us still, but its not a big hope ill tell you that. thanks for sharing
I'm sorry, no matter what you've done no one deserves to feel any kind of pain. Take care and ya'll stay safe P.s everything is going to be okay it just takes time and its okay to cry because that's how you heal and become a better version of your self but make sure to pick yourself up. Keep moving forward...
The world is full of people. You just have to organize your like to meet new friends. And perhaps you will find love. Create things you like in your life : meet people to church, sports, music. I pray for you.
@@phenometal2420 but in the end it all boils down to looks, if your good looking enough even if your a d*ck head your just so cool but if an average dudes trying to be a fkin human being and give some damn respect they are called pimps and simps BUT oh but if a good looking guy does it he's a gentleman.
instrumental music was pretty much the core of music and music theory for 90% of it's history. it was only when we could record audio and actually started using it for musical purposes in the early 1900s that it became normal to have lyrics with instrumentals. that's why classical music is still moving today, it carried the emotion that lyrics would do now. I prefer instrumentals even today because I feel that the tone of a song can make you feel 10x more than any words can. the part at 2:53 would normally just be in the background while artist sings, but by itself can invoke an even stronger emotion. my interpretation of it is the melody of a tragic situation becoming hopeless and the person enduring it has to either has to suffer through it or make the choice to let go of something they have been holding on to for a long time. that is why i still come back to this song, the instrumentals of this song are perfect in manifesting the emotion of grief, anger, hopelessness, in just 4 minutes.
whenever I hear this song, is it just me? or does anyone else starts crying and gets that burning sensation on their nose since that is the feeling of getting everything off your chest.
Give yourselves time to grieve and in time you’ll move on and accept they happened, I know you probably miss them sm but trust me eventually you’ll learn to move on, you’ll always love them in your heart somewhere but coming from a guy that was broken 9 months ago, it does get better.
Last time it lasted for like almost 1 1/2 years, but it was with my 13th best friend in the past when I was 9 in 4 going in 5th grade Congrats to me for not being over them for that long 🥳🥳
i miss him so much it absolutely kills me everyday knowing i wasn’t good for him, he broke up with me for another girl when he was all i wanted oh to just spend one more day with him i really love him and it hurts
I'm sorry. Know this. We humans go through pain, but the magical thing is we can relate. And I relate to you stranger, and it's ok, because God has us. And He Loves me so much even when I lost her I felt his love. And it made me cry and break down over and over again. ❤
@@chocolatemilk2003 The fact that your memories sadden you prove that you cared and are a wonderful person. You will be cast to the bottom many times, however, each time you climb up, the “bottom” rises meaning that eventually there will be nothing to climb out of. Keep climbing my friend.
She left me and went for her first crush , were all the memories we made together mean anything to her , how did she move on so fast ? Was I the problem ? Did she ever love ?
"Someday you will be at a weak point, you have to sit down, realize that its a game, life is a game. But you only have one life left. No save points, no respawns. So live your life to the fullest possibilities knowing that its your last chance to make something happen in your favor." -Me.
My Grandma was 80, i was 12. I loved her so much, i told everyone how she was so old and she was going to live until she was 100. I loved her so much! One day i went over to make cookies with her, and her daughter was there (my aunt lives with her.) I talked with my aunt for a while saying how Grandma was so lively, and she could cook so well. Grandma could'nt hear very well, so she couldn't hear us from the other room. I never understood why my aunt rita was so sad all the time. I always believed she would live until she was 100! She was so lively and well! But I never new i was going to lose her at 85. F*CK Covid.
Same. I thought she was the one but things just don't work out. She is amazing and she will find the one, and one day I will find mine and without a doubt you will too. But for the time being, I'm glad she is still such a wonderful friend.
I really really tried to let him go but I don't know what happened, why did I fall again why why why sometimes i just wish i could now why. He doesn't love me yet I adore him and I can't stop myself from going to the same cycle. I don't even remember the last time I slept 8 hours yet im crying over a boy when i should be sleeping how can someone destroy me so much, just how how how. Im really tired i sometimes just want to close my eyes and not wake up but I wanna live because all of the things I want but its really hard.
I won too but my past keeps dragging me down making me feel guilty for moving on. I used to get builled by a topper who's after all these years a suicidal person who thinks I'm just god gifted and smart. My parent keeps saying theve change I don't know who their even trying to convince is it me or themselve. I mean I have everything now life was supposed to feel atleast a bit better.
The fact that this feeling, pain and weekness is coming back again and again, is so dissapointing. I had the best summer in years i build up myself, physically same as mentally. Now im sitting in my room alone too scared to go to school, seeing my friends having fun without me. And nobody really misses me after all. Thinking im important and sadly realize that there are one one group of people i have that really cares about me... my family. So guys i dindnt want to give qotes but enjoy youre childhood, the time with youre parents and aspecially love youreself. There are no other people that can understand the exact same inside than youreself. luv u
Değmesin ellerimiz, Kavuşmasın bu gözler, Kavuşmakmıdır çare? Yoksa hasret midir bizi sürükleyen, Vel hasıl kelam, ""Bir umuttur imkansızlık"". Bilsekte asla kavuşamayacağımızı, Biz hep birbirimize aidiz.
"I'm scared without you, but I'm also trying to be brave. You always made my days brighter, but now they're dark. I'll miss you, but you wont miss me."
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