this song, it reminds of my boyfriend, he died a week ago, due to him killing himself, todays our third year of being together, im spending it at his grave. he had some heart issues and breathing problems. i dont know why he did it, we always facetimed together, we always called when we had the time, we hanged out, we dranked boba together, some people at my school, knew how he died, and knew about his death, and they would always tease me that, i dated a guy who had breathing and heart issues, and they asked why i dated him, and that why i loved him, i didnt mind that he had breathing and heart problems, i dated him because hes kind, he had a loving personality, he always took care of me, he would always find a way to make me happy, and always made the plan so we can hang out, i tried to attempt yesterday, the things that people say about him got to me, im sick of this world, im sick of people, i wanna spend my after life with him, i wanna go see him. heres a mini story of how me and him met. we met on roblox, 2018, and we met on mm2, i was sheriff and i shot him, and he told me i had good aim, and i said thank you, after that, he was behind me, because i was the sheriff, and the murd was chasing us, it was funny how he was behind me. after a couple of rounds, he asked for my snap, so i gave it to him, we are both the same age btw, and after talking and dating for five months, we decided to meet up, we knew eachothers age , and we both knew of how we looked like, it was May 4th, 2019, the day we met, and on that day, i wrapped my arms around him, and i never letted go on that day, we hung out, we played minecraft together. we spent days together, and he moved with me, (not really but, he was five houses down from me) and we went to the same school, after school, we would always hang out, we always went for a walk, we spent holidays together, we did everything together. and one day, which was a school day, we always walked to school together, (and yea we still went to school, even tho its during a pandemic) and by walking we were quarintined together, so we didnt need to distance. but we still had the choice. and we walked to school together, but after school, we hanged outside in the snow, but i had to be careful if i threw snow at him, because snow would have pressure, and if his heart got pressure on, then he would need to be rushed to the hospital, so i didnt throw snow on him. and he said he was going to spend the night with his mom. which was totally fine with me. because he had his medication and oxygen for his breathing at his moms place. and we txted that night. and when i woke up, i got the worst news, i could possibly get, my mom came into my room, and told me he had overdosed on his pain medication. i didnt know how to react, i didnt know what to do, but i couldnt go see him because corona, and they wouldnt allow visitors, except for his parents. he was pronounced dead that same day. i bursted into tears, i didnt wanna believe the fact that i lost my boyfriend. he was happy he was, i just wished i called him, and i wish i asked if he was ok or not. it was to late. even though we did text the night before. but i just wished i talked to him for a bit longer, after a day or two after he died, i didnt eat, i didnt go to school, i did online instead, i was miserable. i was in misery. my biggest fear was that i would lose him someday, and it happended. the day before our third year, which is today, i attempted, i wanted to leave this world, i wanted to spend my past life with him, some of the people at my school found out that he died, and made so much comments, and teased. i tried to hung myself. and i failed, i failed miserably. its me and kams third year today, its currently 10am, im currently hospitalized, i get to leave soon, but im going to spend me and kams third year at his grave, if i get the chance too. kam, i love you, i love you with the bottom of my heart. i wish we could spend today together. i planned our future. i imagined us lisenting to our song, and star gazing. kam, im so proud of you, for how far you have reached, and how far you did make it. i love you each day kam, rest easy, i promise we can meet soon. and to whoever who is reading this, thank you, and please cherish ur life, dont take it for granted, reach out if you do need help, i love you all, and im also proud of how far you guys have made it. :)
Lover is Day - Cuco [chorus] Time change we're different but my mind still says redundant things. can i not think? will you love this part of me, my lover is the day i can't forget. Furthering my distance from you, realistically i can't leave now but, I'm okay as long as you keep me from going crazy, keep me from going crazy. [verse 1] Straight up ahead you'll find a sign that says you can't get by with a lie, but if i stayed away by a thread from the glory pat and made my life harder lying 'bout the stupid shit i say. Then you wouldn't know a single thing about how i feel about you and all these really dumb things people feel, I'll take the bumpy road it'll probably break my legs as long as i don't show you what's ruining my head. Funny thing about you is you read me pretty well, but you you haven't found me yet at the bottom of the well. Annoying you with smoke signals asking you for help, 'cause your immediate presence lifts me straight away from hell. Me and Mr. hearth we say the cutest things about and how you seem unreal and we'd probably die so quick without you. Suffocating from the radiating air around us full of happiness we don't have brightness gone so dark without you girl [chorus] Time change we're different but my mind still says redundant things. can i not think? will you love this part of me, my lover is the day i can't forget. Furthering my distance from you, realistically i can't leave now but, I'm okay as long as you keep me from going crazy, keep me from going crazy. [verse 2] Family calls me crazy and my friends say I'm degenerate but you tell me I'm so generous and my self worth isn't hideous. The psychedelic canvas or the person I'm becoming went from horror movie on TV to happy ending princess me, Processing the information transferred from your mind to me at light speed like the falcon from the original star wars trilogy. Feeling like a free ol' me when I was 6 and no worries would stop me from reaching the stars a million miles away from me. Sick in the head for you and no cure has been discovered like a plague hitting my body except if I fall I'm just falling for you, conscious beyond knowledge alteration are acknowledged and the beauty you've inflicted is always in its action. Lovely day today, perfect time to open up to you but i know that you're having fun wouldn't wanna mess this up for you, but I'm happy that you're happy and at least I do that much for you. Always glad you're with me this emotion will be gone before you know.
The song playing 😄 The game in the background ☠ if you happend to not understand the game in the background is called Defcon which is a game about nuclear war and it's devestating effects
My girlfriend broke up with me about two weeks ago and I’m going crazy, we might be taking a break I don’t know it’s complicated but she’s indecisive of if she’s going to take me back later on, I’m going crazy, I don’t have anyone to talk to it about and I don’t know what I’m doing, I can’t control myself
I listen to this song whenever I feel like I'm spiraling to help me come back down to earth. It sucks as I'm currently in a position where I have a crush but I can't act on it because of a barrier that doesn't let me express my feelings to her. It hurts because she's currently being wooed by another guy who she started talking to at a hockey game.
I just want her to be normal again like we used to be,but ye it's all my fault i hope she doesnt forget me for doing it , and i told her to be happy without me goodbye.
I still thinking at my head my old neighbour she really cute and now she cancer survivor then i always hope if i have change to love with her then she love with another men my heart dissapeard-
this song really reminds of my ex, i met him on February 12th 2023,we clicked in quickly, i thought he was my soulmate like he meant so much to me, he was different from the rest of the guys, he was sweet,shy,understandable we got into so much fights and arguments nd i just cant move on it was our 6th month together but i didnt even do anything like we used to we used to be so close now i cant even look at him w/o disgust he promised me that we'd get married and have beautiful children, but unfortunately none of that happened, i get it was young love but it felt like it was the right person wrong timing like if i was abit older we'd still be together, i srsly cannot move on like he was everything to me he made me smile, laugh and more i get that he wasnt a good person but he was so good to me, (sometimes) i hope one day i can move on and find someone else. but for now ill cry myself to sleep and read our old texts. if u made it this far make sure to thumbs it up
Is nobody gonna talk that the picture is from the game "DEFCON 5"? It's basically WW3 and everyone gets nuked soooo Not fitting for the song but ok 1 hour loop
...This song is not fitting for a DEFCON background lool You're out here nuking other countries after losing naval warfare while getting nuked at the same time with this playing in the background
