I lost my cat and my girlfriend in the same week and when I listened to this song, I just started sobbing. Recovery is a long process for anything. I hope everyone is well. Love you all. -Wessel
Pretty sure I lost my gf of 3 years and idk where to start.. life and everything I love seem bare now. Music has been helping but damn.. good vibes and healing to you friend and us all
me every night: not knowing who i am or why i exist and why people think i dont and why i shouldnt just end my life now cause all im gonna do is get addicted to some shit in a cheap flat living off tins
yeah... im assuming we're all just yet another nobody... i mean i can express my depressed self here all i want but in real life i cant even speak to most people. maybe a lonely kid would make a good friend, if id ever talk to them. nice.
I spent 6 years of my life cutting, self hating, binge eating, starving myself and other things that came with being depressed. All because my life is shit. And even though I still get days and sometimes weeks where my mental health declines, the hopeless feeling buried at the pit of your stomach gets less and less each time. My advice to you is to be a little selfish. Do the things that make you happy regardless of everyone else. And even when your life is looking dull and as if it’s going nowhere at all, focus on the little things. Look around and ask yourself what is one thing I can pick out from today that made me smile, even if it was for just one second. Was it the leaves falling from the trees? The picture on the wall ? A conversation you overheard or even a video you saw online. Keep a journal of you want and never be ashamed to take one step forward, especially if it’s beneficial towards your mental health! It’s okay to feel like shit sometimes, like you’re whole world is falling apart as long as you can fine just one small thing to balance it out :) 🧸❣️
@@imillableue3954 We are all lonely here together, which means we are not really lonely at all. Finding comfort in your aloneness is better company than questioning your friendship with others. They’re the side characters darling, whilst your the main waiting for your moment.
I'm best friend's with this guy. All throughout high school if we ever needed someone, we would go to each other. I've known him for 13 years. It sounds weird but you could say we have a deep bond and we even dated in the past.. but it wasn't the right time. Anyway we graduated last year, he was my date to prom. He's always there for me. I feel so disappointed with myself now because his girlfriend is pregnant and I'm so happy for them. Honestly. But there's apart of me that wishes I just said yes to him right away instead of saying nothing. Fuck... I can't help but feel I've missed out on what could've been the best years of my life. Now whenever I see him, I always think of what could've been, and how stupid I was.
I make others and myself laugh so often, sometimes I forget how much I hate my life. And myself. Music like this reminds me of who I truly am. It reminds me of how I truly feel. Edit: wow a lot has changed in these two years, damn. To clarify things, because people still keep responding, I'm doing much better now. I went through what was necessary for me to start my life from the start. Things aren't going perfect, but I know that's just part of life and it's cool yk? If my dumbass could survive all that shit, you can too.
this is the kinda song that makes you want to lay in bed and hug your pillow while crying your eyes out. this is the song that makes you lay in bed and hug your pillow while crying your eyes out.
LYRICS: I never felt it when I was young I never knew where it came from Now I feel it like a hurricane And it's so hard to stop the rain It's so hard to stop the rain It's so hard to stop Starts out gold, but never stays The neon takes my breath away And now I feel it in my veins But I don't want to be afraid I don't want to live this way I don't want you to leave
does anyone else just feel so sad you cant cry anymore? and because of that you use songs that remind you of your repressed memories to cry because like same
It starting to get so bad. It's 4 am. I woke up and couldn't continue sleeping. It's Monday. I have online classes. I didn't study anything. I couldn't. I couldn't concentrate. I have nobody. Nobody can rely on. I opened up to a stranger who I have known for only 2 hours. Nobody knows ab how I feel. My parents are making it even worse by telling me my attitude is getting worse, which makes me hate myself even worse. And for who am I living. For my family ig. Bc I don't want to make them sad. I'm always in my room bc I don't want them to see me at my lowest point, but they think it's bc I don't like spending time with them.
I'm just leaving this comment here. So that a month, a year, or a decade down the line if someone likes or comments on this thread, I can relive this song. Timeless.....
I feel you. Like when you go to show your friends a song and its so beautiful to you because every aspect of it is like watch a thousand butterflies majestically take off and it makes you feel like, "this is what the world turns for." But to them its just...noise. Like that?
Reading all of these comments makes me feel understood and not so alone, so whoever reads this: you're not the only one and I wish you luck with your life, plus you have a great music taste. Edit: Wow I didn't expect this to get so much attention. I'm glad to hear from everyone who commented that this made you feel even a little bit better :)
so empty and lost. this song is my only escape. thank you current joys. maybe i’ll still be listening to this in a couple years. maybe i’ll finally be happy then. someone pls interact so i can remeber this comment.
I love the visuals of this, my man's just pouring his heart out on the drums and everyone is just stone faced and emotionless. It can be taken so many different ways, maybe its supposed to be his fear that no one will like his art? Maybe it's a supposed to show how emotionally distant those around him are? Maybe it's just showing his fear of social rejection and what would happen if he tried sharing his passion with others? Such a simple video with so much emotional potential Or perhaps it'd just three am and I'm wishing I wouldn't wake up tomorrow? Honestly it might be all the above.
im still here and i still listen to this every day. i just plug in my earbuds and go about my day with this on, letting the song play for hours on repeat. this is the song of my life and it will never get old to me. its been a year.
This was me in my last relationship, I gave it 110% and received 5% back. Tried fixing all my cons from my relationship before this and tried my hardest and it still wasn’t enough.
Of course, I’ve had friends. They would just rather hang out without me. It’s my fault really, I never made an effort to change this anyways. I guess I had just always expected it would come naturally-that they would invite me. But, wait and wait I did, and nothing; nothing happened. I don’t think they’ll remember me.
You should try getting some new friends, sometimes it’s not always you that’s the problem. It could be them. You might just not fit in with that group. Try another group that you find you fit into naturally and perfectly into.
its always the same with everyone. im just that kid in the back who doesnt talk much. now im chock full of trust issues and paranoia from all the shit people ive dealt with, and my first instinct is to ignore people because they're all fake. so i just stay in the same room listening to the same music over and over, wondering why my life sucks so bad when other people have it worse.
Relationships are a lie over time feelings subside and you part your ways . Especially in modern day society where everything is controlled by social media , times are different:/
She broke my heart and left me alone to make my hands bleed picking up all the pieces. Finally glued everything back together after months just for someone else to break it once again.
I hope noone who knows me finds this comment - never before watered and felt so much to song as with this one. crazy how you can stumble randomly over something without expecting a thing. bittersweet, thats the word and feel.
Funny how I found this song... a few months ago I would sleep with the youtube music app opened at night beside my bed. I remember waking up out of nowhere, it was 4 am. I heard a soothing song that called my attention and you know how you hear everything more clearly and a bit louder when you wake up? it just hit me when I heard it and it felt really nostalgic. Just remember saving the song and going back to sleep again. Leaving youtube music with random music made me discover great songs like this one.
I'm currently on a two-week ''break'' in my relationship, and it already feels like a break up. I'm on and off with tearing up at home and work. I'm stacking my thoughts with activities to keep my coping. It hurts. The song helps me through and the video really resonates with my emotions of it. When the drummer goes hard at the end, and just looks exhausted and done, that really hit me. I feel like I'm in a roller coaster where I'm looping up and down constantly. Moments where I'll be at the top edge, screaming, ''I am not okay. I'm hurting''. Then, in other moments, where it's slowing down- making me feel like everything will be okay.
Breaks are good. It divides time and allows you both to breathe i suffocated with my last person and it was very unhealthy for both of us. Keep yo head up above
Your song motivate me to delete my social media accounts. Thank you! I had wanted to do it for a long time but was afraid of losing friends and experiencing FOMO and loneliness. It's been over a month now, and I'm really enjoying the isolation. It’s very relaxing.
My best friend introduced me to Current Joys. He always told me how this would always clear his mind; how it would always make things better. I never understood how music could do such a thing. And one night, I put Current Joys on and Fear was the first song that played... and then I completely understood what he meant. This will always make me cry, but deep down I knew things would get better. I love playing this music when we’re off to long trips. Thank you, Current Joys.
Leaving this here, knowing full well that it's highly unlikely anybody will stumble upon my silly little comment, but if you do, please remind me to listen to this again!
During an intense period of depression, this one and Way Out Here were on constant rotation. Doing much better now (so grateful for psychiatric medication), but I still love them. Thanks Nick ♥️
Depression is the rain cloud that hangs over your head, slowly drowning you in your sorrows, hate and negativity, until you either die or find a way to stay afloat although it leeches the joy out of everything you do, not a cut that comes and gos, that’s just sadness
People who have experienced severe depression know that it feels more similar to an intangible and invisible wave of negative energy that causes you to feel down, lost, upset,angry and all the other worst emotions people experience.
Happiness is ephemeral. But this feeling, this desire to step away from all the things that make you who you are, and everything that you can't love anymore? Interminable.
oh how this song brings so many feelings even after two years. i remember the emptiness that ran through my body when you decided you didn't want me anymore. i remember that night before i had to leave i sat on the edge of the bed and jus looked at you... i remember the mourning pain of knowing this will be the last night i will get to feel your warmth next to me and how much i will miss you. i dont think i could ever explain the amount of pain i still remember when this song plays.. and even after two years.. its became weirdly comforting in a way. idk
I never felt it when I was young I never knew where it came from Now I feel it like a hurricane And it's so hard to stop the rain It's so hard to stop the rain It's so hard to stop Starts out gold, but never stays The neon takes my breath away And now I feel it in my veins But I don't want to be afraid I don't want to live this way I don't want you to leave
I don’t cry when I listen to these songs or feel hopeless I’m used to this lonely feeling I’ve learned a lot in high school I made good friends experience happy moments, love, loss, and failure learn a lot in love and to just let go when it doesn’t work out “if it fails it wasn’t love to begin with” that always sticks to me I’ve been with 4 girls but I had serious relationships with 2 and I was in loved but it didn’t last one simply didn’t feel the same and the other thought I was talking to another it hurt and took awhile to get over this and in the end I got use to being alone I always play these type of songs and sit outside in the afternoon on the way home from school and at night outside I’m almost out of high school I’m 18 I’m happy with myself and learned to live with this lonely feeling of not being important to someone else and I won’t lie to you I feel sad when I see other people happy with their beloved and it hurts me making me angry and jealous but I pray to god to take my pain away doubts and worries. All I got is me, my education, my mother brother, sister and dad, and my god with me. Now I just look at the horizon and trust that somewhere out there will be something better for me listening to this or some metallica, Mexican music, 90s music drake basically my playlist is bipolar and a mix of everything I know this supposed to sound sad but what can I say 😂. But I hope all of you find happiness I’ll just be waiting patiently listening to these songs one day but for now I have what my god gave me and I know he will have something better for me in the end I trust him and that’s how I live my life now having faith in god worrying less and praying more and I know I said I don’t cry when I listen to these songs I lied I do but I cry tears of joy because I’m not alone Jesus is with me and I hope my ex’s are doing well and may they find happiness and may you as well you will be happy some day be patient god bless you and I love you my brother or sister I’ll just be here looking at the horizon or something else like driving around or going with my mom to where ever she goes.
I first found this song when I was in downtown at 8 pm. There was snow everywhere and I was exhausted because of how much emotional, mental and physical pain I was in but had to hide to make everyone happy. 3 hours or less of sleep, memory loss and more. I was thinking of genuinely dying that night and finally earning some peace, but I knew it wasn't a good idea. Im still in pain and nothing has changed but the memory loss has helped me think it has gotten better. I think there is a future where i am happy and living properly. Future me is hopefully living her best life :)
I'm listening to random music on autoplay while studying and most of the music is just going through one ear and out the other. But as soon as I started to hear this one I stopped what I was doing and added it to my playlist. It just hits different in a beautiful way.
To my Future self Please stop cutting,Going to sleep late,Blaming your sulf For everything,Thinking about everybody,accept yourself,Start thinking about yourself,Go outside more As well... This is a message to me in the future. And everyone else who's going to be exact same thing as a minor. Take care of yourself everybody
I feel like these songs make me feel understood. Like I understand the type of emotions he’s feeling because I’ve felt the same. And it’s really lonely because not many understand what you feel deep inside
She doesn't know that I'm going thousands of kilometers away, and that every night I listen to this song until the day of my departure waiting for something that will never happen...
You've literally guided me through my own convoluted life in ways I could have never mentally or emotionally have gone through myself. Thank you for creating the art you have using the words you deciphered from your beautiful heart Nick. Thank you
Gladly it will end for us all one day, we just have to be patient, rushing for the end is painful and I fear pain anyways. Guess I gotta wait for nature to claim back this walking shell I've became and turn me to dust again. (Happy) new year everyone.
Up at 4:20 in the morning. I can't fall asleep. I'm listening to this because it bring back memories. Most of them are good but some are bad. Thank you for posting this.
Hey future me , welcome back. Yes, this is what it feels like, i know success isnt supposed to feel like this but this is what it is. In the end , whatever drove you all this way ,it left u hollow and now you realize that it was never about the destination but the path that lead u to it. Don't worry , dont do anything stupid . There is still a long road ahead my friend . Remember me my friend :) okay?
Being a heroin addicted hopeless romantic this song hits me particularly hard. The "I don't want you to leave" at the end will make me cry 10/10 times if i dont actively fight back the tears. It's 4:35 am. I just did a shot and I still feel sick. Methadone in a few hours to help me pretend I feel normal. Current Joys on repeat. Maybe today's the day i find happiness. Who am i kidding though. Im the best liar i know but still can't lie to myself.
Fear of growing up, fear of reality, man o man this whole year of 2019 is such a life lesson, I thought things would ease up, but seems like I gotta leash it up. I knew ever since I turned 18 life was gonna plummet like a trench with a never ending obyss, I miss when ignorance was bliss! I steady ask my self what is this, or why is this happening! But idk I'll be ok ig.
Nobody asked but here's a story time: When I was in fifth grade I moved in with my mom and away from my popularity and friends. I discovered I had social anxiety and now I'm stuck like that. Fifth grade was epic and some of the best moments of my life. Most Feild trips felt nostalgic and weird,yet I was extremely happy. Near the end my best friend left me for the popular girls. I was so confused we had a perfect relationship and all of a sudden she ignored me. Then one Feild trip she told me she was jealous of me and thought I liked her crush and I didn't know what to say. He was one of the people helping me through hard times and the main person I hang with because of her. Im currently her friend now but I don't like how she acted towards me for that boy. Tbh I thought he looked ok but I didn't like him. In the beggining of 6th grade her crush gave me notes every morning I was confused. Then he asked me out and k rejected. But then I look back on what the notes where saying and he asked how I was feeling and added funny jokes to the cover of the paper to make me smile. I caught feelings for him but after awhile I didn't feel like it anymore because we don't see eachother. Hoped you liked my story :,)
Dear A. you are the kindest, most amazing person ive ever met , and every time i think of you its like getting the best hug ever :) i love you so much A. thank you so much for having me in your life
All I really do anymore is sleep, watch streamers, and listen to music anymore. I have friends, but it’s kind of to the point where I just haven’t felt any lonelier.
