@@aguywhohikes1271 I do and it is insane. I am a Muslim and my OCD now says "I am the voice of god and i order for you to do this and that or else you will be punished" so i am succesfully breaking the fears down but my OCD does not want me to get out so easily. Thankfully the ocd voice contradicts the quran so that was the one thing that kept me strong in my fight but it really felt real and it does still. I kinda remove fear by fear like a layer. It is insane.
Hey Nick I have cut out almost all compulsion except that new compulsion of disputing has started which I am getting over bit by bit. Since a very long time I havent been anxious for more than an hour or so but I keep on feeling like I want to get myself back into anxious mode and it feels like my body wants to be anxious again somewhat like when you are getting rid of addiction and your brain just wants to push you back into the addiction. It feels like my brain and body isnt comfortable with me being not anxious over the same thing as I used to.
Hey danish - first off great job at cutting compulsions! And yes, this is classic back door spike material “why am I not anxious?!” “I need to be anxious” it’s another category of fear of fear!
Hello nic, one thing I’ve noticed about cutting compulsions is that your brain will find every excuse under the sun for you to do it. As an example, I recently got angry at my gf because she said something I didn’t like which triggered my belief “I must not feel offended or mistreated by my loved ones” causing me to have a panick attack. I tried my best to stop the compulsions to tell her how I felt and what she meant but my brain found ever single excuse to do so and I ended up listening to it :/
I feel like sometimes I don't know if I'm doing a compulsion. I guess analyzing if I'm doing one is a compulsion in itself. But with sensorimotor, I feel things like neck tightness, almost like I'm subconsciously measuring my breath/heartbeat. But wouldn't breathing shallowly, holding breath, breathing in a certain way, doing a compulsion?
Hey Bucky - yes it can be but it’s important to highlight a lot of that is automatic and as we make peace with sensations being present this tends to come down. And yes, trying to figure out what’s a compulsion and what isn’t tends to be compulsive.
Hi. You mentioned chasing results and not enjoying the day to day. I always thought that was a belief. Can that be a compulsion? How long before you start to feel better? A month?
Is it easier to understand acceptance and change beliefs after cutting the compulsions due to the anxiety being down? Iv noticed when i slip out go into a more "whole" way of thinking, then i can feel and think less black and white. And that makes things like acceptance easier to grasp
If you cut all compulsions and avoidances say for 2 months or however long it takes to come down and you havent worked too much on your beliefs and fears will it be mostly gone? Ie less intrusive thoughts, feel more at ease?
