DAILY TAROT ~ SOMEONE JUST WANTS TO GO BACK HOME... MASKS FELL OFF 

Thank you B❤🙌🏾😊

Leo rising checking in again on another banger of a reading. You wanted a comment? Well you got it! Grab your hot chocolate or popcorn and get comfortable. Here it is: He needs to come home to himself and God first before coming home to us. And I’m not being haughty; there’s just no way around it. How can I trust him to lead our family when he allows himself to be led astray constantly by anything and everything? I once read somewhere, it’s like a tumbleweed. One minute you’re on this side of the street, next minute you’re on the other side. He is listening to and following all these influences and ignoring himself. He’s lost, he has no stable roots, he is letting everyone and anything pull him in any direction they want him to go in, like a ragdoll in a washing machine. Oh, and “if you stand for nothing you will fall for anything?” Yeah, also that. He needs to trust himself more and begin with the stability and foundation from within. And this lack of ego self (the healthy kind) has shown up as unhealthy and distorted ego, making him arrogant, proud, rude, unkind, uncompassionate, angry, and just all kinds of unpleasant. In his search for knowledge and freedom, he has caused himself more confusion. I know he is searching for guidance but ironically all of these influences are just leading him further and further away from himself and his own inner authority, his inner sovereignty. So I will not let him lead our family while he himself is being led astray. I want him to get real and get right WITH himself, FOR himself FIRST. Do not come home to us until you have done that. How can you be a leader when you are still a follower, following energies that don’t have anything to do with us?! And yes he does work hard physically at his job just like the Capricorn sun he is but he buries himself at his workplace also as a way to avoid internal work and domestic work, and he abuses work as an excuse to be a tyrant around the home, which negatively affects my emotional state and ability to be present with the baby. He appears to be doing the right things on the outside, but he still isn’t connecting on a personal level. Yes he is adept at providing on the material plane but as a Leo rising I need him to come correctly from the heart space too. I acknowledge and appreciate some of his efforts and I can see he is trying with us, but there is a lack of emotion and lack of presence for some reason I do not know and it makes me too uncomfortable to receve him fully. This third party is not only getting in the way of me and him, it’s getting in the way of him and Source. And it’s an analgamation of different energies. Family members, friends, coworkers, religion vs. spirituality (a big one), lifestyles, habits, that damned alcohol, etc. I think he lacks the discernment to figure out what and how much of it is really good for him; he just lets anything and everything in in the name of “freedom”. No boundaries. Chaos and confusion. He thinks it’s all good for him and that it’s not affecting him at all but it’s all interrupting his connection to his intuition, to himself. It’s frustrating to witness and it’s frustrating to experience the version of him that he has become due to all of the distractions and confusion. I can tell there is misalignment or fragmentation within because he preaches constantly about peace but little things set him off all the time. He begs for peace from me because he doesn’t have inner peace. Oh and by peace from me he means shut my mouth. Don’t call him out on anything, don’t offer advice, don’t offer another perspective, just be quiet and play my role as an obedient little doormat of a babymomma. Fine. I will leave you to your messes then. I never text or call him. He stays blocked on my phone. He has to contact me through an app that makes him pay for each interaction. You wanted “peace” from me, well you got it. I will not be walking on eggshells here and I will be taking my valuable insight elsewhere. Has he realized by now that the chaos has not been coming from me but from all the other energies he invited into his life? That I have actually been trying to help him bring order to it all along? I’m still waiting… I hate how this is affecting both of us but I learned that it is not my responsibility to do his work. I’m always met with rejection anyway. And my voice will just get lost and disregarded in the sea of other influences he is already facing. He needs to come to these realizations and come home to himself on his own. I wish it were as easy as just telling him all of this to his face instead of desperately writing it out in an internet comment, but he has a history of impatience and refusal to humble himself even for a brief moment just to listen to my insight. He interrupts me and gets extremely defensive and then hurtful because he then resorts to shutting me down and personally insulting me, even just by me asking him questions! It sucks. He sucks. Dude, you suck. His attitude towards me has been so incredibly off putting throughout all of this and I just have to keep myself away for my own inner peace. He wanted to be left alone so he can deal with it all alone. None of it belongs to me anyway. I stopped taking responsibility for his failures and it has done wonders for my energy. And I’m sorry but I just don’t see this issue resolving itself any time soon. He has had these problems since long before we met. We are talking years, an entire lifetime of conditioning. These things don’t just disappear just like that. He is approaching 40. His father passed away when he was just a toddler. I cannot confidently speak on the other influences around him that raised him but I think it’s safe to say that it all has/had something to do with the disconnection to his own inner authority. I hate to say it but I have been sensing the toxic feminine energies for a long time now, as he does tend to operate from that energy himself unfortunately. Could be family members who are in another country or could be the mother of his first child (who has been withheld from his father for his entire life), also in yet another country. This was addressed in a previous reading but I believe he also has been confusing her energy for mine this whole time which would explain his nasty behaviour towards me. Wherever or whoever this energy is coming from, he needs to learn to protect himself from it. I know these patterns and behaviours don’t just get better over night but I wish I wish I wish they would already. I’ve just admitted to God today that I AM running out of faith. I am tired of waiting, I am out of patience, I am weary. I am giving it up to the Universe. I am pregnant with our second, in my third trimester. I’m so grateful for the help I’ve received from my sisters and my mother but truthfully I just want to experience that nurturing energy from a stable, grounded, self-assured, masculine MAN! Their father! I want it and I need it! Hell, I deserve it! WE deserve it! “It takes two to tango.” I have done the work to step into my best self for this next phase. Now it is time for us to receive the best version of him that he can be. Like, is this the part where we finally come together and build?? Can he please stop BACKsliding and just step FORWARD and INTO his Emperor way of being already?! Can we PLEASE move on to the timeline where we live happily ever after?? Or is this where we part ways? Because I am standing right on the threshold of the other timeline where I go and build with someone else… Who is this someone else? Is it the renewed and restored version of you or is it an entirely new being?? I feel like I keep getting glimpses of our timeline together but the little sneak previews are just not doing it for me anymore!! Hurry the eff up! Zzzzzzz….. I know that what I’m praying for will not come on my time and only His time but I. Am. Tired! I want this to happen sooner rather than later and I am not ashamed to express that desire. Sorry for another novel of a comment. I guess I like to go through several readings silently and then only comment when I feel called to release what’s been building up inside. Something about the title triggered me because I thought to myself the other day “he cannot come to me unless he goes to God FIRST” Cheers and Thank You for this timely reading, B.

Thanks B as always 😮 ❤

How much truth do you want? Most didn’t apply to me so left it for others to pick up. I do know I’m a pathogenic liar and nothing ever happened to my phone as I’ve been told anyway over and over and over.

The proof is in their action Amen

Where this happening at

When a lady says no a million times after being Assaulted by said person its not romantic. It is bizarre, macabre and totally josef fritzl kind of sick.