I am a recovering opiate addict..I have been clean for 17 years,and Just now listening to you describe withdrawals took me back to a time in my life that I try to forget..I had some medical issues that led me down my path of insanity and to be honest the only reason I am still alive is because of my mother's prayers..Thank you for sharing your experience,and just like you I had no what I was doing to my body until it was too late and I felt trapped.. Please keep sharing your life experiences because there are so many young ppl that need guidance and if you reach just one then that will be well worth your time and energy..
Thank you for sharing a little bit of your story… It’s insane how some of us become addicts in such a seemingly innocent way… I had no intentions of becoming an addict and I did not understand the severity of the choice. I made one night while I was partying. It was like a snowball that I did not see coming at all and before I knew it I couldn’t stop it. I know a lot of people that have become addicted to opiates as well from just how you described, a medical situation and it’s just all insanity because doctors and big Pharma I believe play a big part in keeping a lot of people addicted and subdued. Of course it’s not their fault if people become an addict, but these drugs are so dangerous and even as a 23 year old, I didn’t understand how serious one decision could be. Most of the time I talk about my prison journey, but I wanted to start talking about my addiction story as well because it’s a very serious one, it was a major part of my story, and it was a very hard battle to overcome. Thank you for your encouragement. Great job on recovering. I wish you nothing but the absolute best and The continued success in your walk. 17 years is a long time and I’m sure that your life is so much better now. Much love and respect to you and thank you again for your support and encouragement. 🙏🏼❤️
I had bad back pain. So my Pain Management doctor prescript me monthly 120 10/325 Norco's. After 3-1/2 years my back started to feel better, so I started weening myself off them. After I took my last one I had 8 days of hell. My heart was pounding, my nose was running and I wasn't hungry. NOT WORTH IT!!
20 yrs . Wow . God bless you and someone I loved for decades after he lost his life was a boyfriend of mine who I didn't even realize was a heroin addict until after we broke up . ... he was only about 36 when he lost his life to heroin . Some other woman had the Nightmare Horror of waking up to him dead in the bed next to her
Thank you for the encouragement… I’m actually writing one right now and I have some people reach out and try to help me write it, but they wanted to change some things around and make it a little bit more soft and fluffy… I didn’t like that idea, I don’t think people can benefit Like, or even dislike you unless they know the real authentic you so I’m trying to do it on my own and it’s taking a little bit longer as I have to learn all of the steps as I go, but I am doing it and I will definitely post when I have completed it. Nonetheless, thank you for the encouragement and the suggestion. I appreciate you! Much love and respect to you. ❤️🙏🏼
@@jenjengomezJen I totally agree , you have to stay true to yourself and what's the point of telling a true story if it's going to be watered down . Yes please write it in your own voice , your own words . If you're good at editing you can edit and proofread it yourself . If you have any photos or photos of your artwork that you get copyrighted ( and it's very easy to copyright your book as well as your photos through the Library of Congress on the internet ) well then you don't have to pay somebody to do the cover of your book . I really do think you should self-publish through the on-demand publishing and the reason is it might save you money in the long run but I'm not sure . I mean , you could get really lucky with a publishing house that will promote you and pay for you to do the tours onto the morning TV shows and what not to promote the book and to do public readings at various major bookstores ... or you could book those yourself and just be your own promoter and manager ? I've known several people who have published books but regrettably now I only know one and I haven't spoken to her in a couple years but she was not satisfied with her publishing company but didn't explain why . She's a very honest person so I would say you might want to avoid a publishing company called Page . And yes if you could do an audio book for it and have it monetized here on RU-vid a lot of people many many people would certainly listen to the whole thing ... I know I certainly would .
I feel every bit of your story. I actually went the other way with my DOC. I started with the OC 80 sprinkled with some Roxy 30 on the daily and fought that for almost 20 years. I eventually graduated to H and it had me hooked line and sinker. I went to rehab 5 times in the first 6 months of 2022. I had never done powder up to that point because I loved the opiates. After being separated from the H for the last time I swore I would not go back to anything that I could get physically attached to. I was offered powder and tried it and I loved the energy it gave me so I continued to use it in powder form until I was introduced to it in rock form. I became a crack addict in less than a week. It had me in its grip with no chance of letting go. I had stolen and pawned things before but this was on another level. I wanted to do nothing but smoke rock all day everyday. Even if I wanted to do something else it wasn’t possible because I couldn’t keep that little glass pipe out of my mouth. It took a bottom sufficient enough for me after all these years to finally relinquish control to God over my life. My sobriety date is 02/03/23 and not looking back. Thank you so much for your story as it can help give hope to someone struggling. God bless you
I had a friend who went through the same thing years ago . He had already had addictions in the past and so when he told me he was cooking crack for some people I knew he was also using it and then when I saw him my God he was so emaciated and I knew it was true about him using it . Then he vanished for over 2 years and told me what happened : He hated being an addict and he said he was in his living room praying out loud to Jesus please let him die if he can't get him off the drugs and he said just then the cops busted down his door and off to jail and then to prison he went . He said he was actually glad when they showed up at his door . I haven't seen him in years but I hope he is well and I hope he is free from addictions .
I have a similar story to yours..... I was 21 years old when I first started using and the very first time I used I injected I.V. I've been sober for almost 18 years (August 10 will be 18 years) I'm so blessed to be alive and living the life I have. I'm happily married and am fully thriving. I'm so happy that you're doing well and living your best life!
I’m in my 30’s and never tried anything. Majorly I think because of what they did to my oldest brother. He left home at 15 because of course my parents caught him and tried to help, then when my mom finally got a hold of him years and years later he was that homeless drug addict from the streets you mentioned. They tried to get him clean and while he tried, he couldn’t get his feet up, then he burned his house with him inside. My dad saved him and then it all happened over again until he got arrested for dealing. I never wanted to try, I was so scared to make my mom cry like she cried every night for him
How is your brother doing now ? Is he still struggling with addiction or has he been able to free himself ? Please don't tell me he passed away from an overdose ... or from being burned in a fire . Do you know how the fires got started ? Was his home a drug lab where he was the cook ? I'm sorry if I seem too nozy .
@@gardensofthegods he was high but already struggling with severe depression, he set it on fire while using because he wanted to die. The house was rented and he was living there. He is okay and alive, but he is in a Mexican jail and he may never come out.
@@mongdc jeeze that's sad that he wanted to die by fire ... not a pleasant way to go . But a shame he did that to somebody else's house . That's sad about him being in a prison especially one in a foreign country . I hope that somehow he can find joy and be able to get free from the Mexican prison and have a new lease on life
I am an immigrant from Moscow, Russia. Most of my friends were immigrants like me - Russian speaking Ukrainians, Armenians, etc. Many of us got strung in the 90s together. Out of all those people many died, many got deported and just a couple - are still here to tell the story. P.S. I am sure you hear this all the time but here is one more time - you are absolutely gorgeous.
Great content! Love watching your videos and interviews. I can relate so so much and my story is almost identical. I turned my life around and now making legal Dr./Lawyer money and have everything I ever dreamed of. But above all I have happiness I’ve never experienced. Keep up the hard work and keep on this path your on.
Hey girl nice to meet you. This is my first of your videos. What a story I would love to hear more. You should be so proud, you have come a long way. Many need to hear you. May God Bless you and your family.
I really appreciate your honesty!! I’m a recovering opiate addict and I’m so very grateful for sobriety!! I just know that you are helping countless people by speaking out ❤
Thank you for not only your kind words, but you’re encouragement also. It’s hard for me to tell stories without animation/enthusiasm and sometimes people mistaking it for or making light of the situation. That’s never what I’m trying to do… I just try to tell things exactly the way they are, and I also understand the fact that in social media, if you don’t have some sort of color to your storytelling, then it will be boring because when I watch them for me comes across flat.. so I appreciate the fact that you can understand what I’m trying to do and appreciate it. Addiction is a very serious situation and should never be taken lightly, but I really want people to understand how easy it is to become addicted to a serious drug and how it can completely destroy your life within a matter of months! i’m so happy that you are in recovery and I send you nothing but loves and positive energy to continue your path and continue to live your best life because after the hell that I’m sure you’ve gone through, because we all did, you deserve nothing, but the absolute best. Be your best self, live the best version of your life, and continue to know that you are stronger than any substance. Much love and respect to you from the bottom of my heart and thank you again for supporting and encouraging me ❤️✊🏼🙏🏼
So glad to hear you are well..I just recently lost someone who was addicted..a little of this and a bit of that..a troubled and tortured soul..unfortunately with 2 beautiful children...I do not know where they are...my words and actions were not enough..they were viewed with contempt...and led to a falling out..stuck feeling I did not do enough..
Come on now don't blame yourself . The fact that they had a falling out with you because they didn't want to hear the truth should be proof to you that you did all you could . And you know when those people suffer from addictions they are not themselves and you are dealing with the drug and the addiction ... you are dealing with the horrible grip that has on them . Don't blame yourself when you did what you could to the point of making it turn against you . I hope someday you will be able to find out what happened to the children so that you can keep in touch with them and tell them about what a wonderful person their parent was despite their addiction .
'Im glad you are sober now since I know you were looking at alot of drug charges as well as theft charges before you went to prison glad those heroin charges were dropped against you.
Im glad to read people are getting sober or are now sober. Being on drugs cant be fun. Im glad i never smoked, drank alcohol or took drugs. Im glad youre in a better place and speaking to help people.
but they are fun....as Eminem said " ...i overdosed.... because drugs are delicious ". Having a drug habit is NOT fun tho; so i guess what you said was right, that BEING on drugs is not fun...well most of the time. Once you've scored and are ingesting/injecting then yeah, it's fun for maybe 10 mins. How confusing was that lol. Sorry. Anyway, am rapt to be part of the sober club now.
Love you Jenn!! We need more true crime!! And u should do current cases too!! And just all true crime! You’re just as good and intelligent, entertaining, all that as my favorites like Kendall Rea,Anne Elise, Christina Randel (who u remind me of too) You 2 should definitely do a collaboration! You girls would be so funny together!! Keep going girl! Been following u since the beginning, before you even had 1000! And pls do a video on what you use on your hair!!🔥
Love your stories Jen! I used to have this chic name on my chest and it was "Jen Jen" in big letters! So ironic!🤣 Haven't heard the term "Boy" an "Girl" in yrs!🤣 Keep em coming boo!
Thanks!! 🙏🏼 yeah, I figured that these terms would age me but it’s what we used to say back then so I had to use them lol I didn’t know what the heck they were at first, but once I knew, it was off and running to the races 🤦🏻♀️💔
She also tells the story on another Channel called something like True Crime with Andrew Cox but it does look like she tells it here as this is my second video and so I think she must tell the whole thing but then again this is only the second video of hers that I have watched
Thank you so much for your kind words! I truly appreciate everything you said! Just to be honest and to be fair, there is a beauty mode on which doesn’t change my appearance, but it does smooth the skin out. I don’t have that skin and I don’t look any different in real life, but I don’t have perfectly flawless in either… I have four and I have wrinkles when I smile. It’s not a bad thing, but I just, leave the mode on when I it makes me feel good to see my skin so flawlessly perfect but if anyone ever comments, I at least want to share that it’s not as perfect as it appears because that can be discouraging to other people if they think that there are some of us walking around out here with flawless skin. Anyhow, thank you again for your kind words and much love and respect to you! 🙏🏼❤️
@@jenjengomezThis beautiful and honest essence in you is what makes you even more beautiful.. and makes all the success coming your way all the more deserved 🤍
@@jenjengomezthank you for your honesty which is so rare nowadays . You might want to try Noni juice powder and the reason I suggest that is because you can get it very cheaply where as the juice is so expensive . Usually about 6 hours after drinking a teaspoon of it in a tall glass of water the skin of my face feels as smooth as a baby's bottom . It's also called Indian Mulberry .
Hey Jen Jen, yours’ is a great story. Good for you for being a survivor. Clearly, you have high intelligence, are definitely tough, and so very beautiful, wow! That’s the whole package. Best of luck in all you do👍🤜☘
Girl I got into a couple accidents at 30 years old. This was in the early 2000's. I started on Vicodin, then went to Percocet and then I was introduced to Roxy 30's. I was functioning and working while taking 35 a day. I then got prescribed Dilaudid. I was getting these from my pain doctors. Luckily I never stole from anyone but I did get 2 DUI's while on soma and xanies. Now this all happened before the database in Florida. Luckily I am alive and clean today. So proud of you girl!!!
I absolutely dig your manic story delivery and like everyone, I appreciate a wild story and feel like I have a similar stash of wild stories that I accumulated and yet can't believe it happened despite experiencing it myself. .I know a good channel when I see it and you def got a sub from me.
@@gardensofthegods I know, I didn't know what to call it, so I went with the first synonym that came to my mind and moved on with my day... and here you are, you want to argue semantics with a non constructive criticism? you must be such a great person to talk with and hella fun to hang out with...
You're the best! Thank you so much! And I love that you were the first for everything! You’ve been here with me for a long time and I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart and I really mean that! ❤️🥰✊🏼
Boy what very vivid image….mouth is watering thinking of that feeling…WOW….such an incredible feeling…. I thought like you… as a young man in the 90’s that’s what I thought of H… dirty drug I thought but when the oxy’s hit at the turn of the century and the price was getting so high, a friend I asked for a pill said he didn’t have any but he had something that would heal me and was cheaper…. Well just like you said petrified of being sick….19 years later finally recovered
Well, better me than drugs.. please stay safe and try to stay off of those because it’s just getting crazy out there and you really don’t know what you’re ingesting anymore. 🙏🏼❤️✊🏼✊🏼✊🏼 you can do it!
@@jenjengomez thank you! I believe I can do it as well. But you ain't kidding. I've used for awhile now and I've watched it change over the years and the stuff now is literally crazy. Scary stuff to be putting in your body. I go to rehab here in a couple days i definitely plan on it being my last time. I know you are but be happy you're clean cause it's harder than ever to get off this stuff nowadays. P.s I watch all your videos lol
Your way of telling stories is seriously entertaining. I'm sorry you had to go through all that though. 😔 You remind me of the brazilian singer Anitta. 😁 God bless you!
Very true. Recovery is possible 🙏. Ex firefighter for 4 plus years who needed 8 surgeries because of bad genetics and got dependent on oxycontin over course of a year while having surgeries done turned into 20 year heroin addiction. Been on methadone for a year and down to 8mgs from 60. Have been fortunate to have 4 years of therapy and a VERY supportive family. Addiction knows no bounds socio or economic. As hard as recovery is you and I are some of the lucky ones who are still alive recovering and fighting to make our lives meaningful and good again. May God bless you and have peace in your life ❤️.
@@bradpnw1897Very proud of you and please try Noni juice powder to help you with the cravings you can look it up but I would also tell you to look at this video but it seems it gets censored when I mention it but I'll try in another comment . It's also called Indian Mulberry .
Yeah my Dad struggled with alcoholism and I've known many others including my Ex . I'm glad you were able to fight the good fight . A lot of people don't even know that you can actually die from cold turkey alcohol withdrawals .
You can't get a true addiction to heroin the first time you do it it takes many times to get a true addiction and it's going to be the hardest thing in the world to break.
Getting pills and lean was ridiculously easy around 2005. I had broken a bone around 2002 which started my pill use that was like walking on sunshine. Nowadays they give you like 15 pills max and track it on a computer when I broke my clavicle a few years back I was barely allowed to take like 15 hydrocodones which is a lot weaker than other pills.
I think that was Meth girlfriend! I’ve never done that but I heard that’s how it is. I have done the thing u thought it was never made me feel like that. It’s been over 20 years since I’ve done that but I did it quite a few times 🤫
In my opinion he was trying to corrupt you.😢 I’ve never done H. Thank god!!! I’ve dated a guy who sold it and watched people shoot up all kinds of craziness I should’ve never ever been around as a sober person. It’s the most terrifying thing to watch especially when you are a sober attractive girl around it. I was always on guard and I’ve been robbed by drug addicts. Anyone that associated with that bf seen me as a target. I’m so happy that life is over. I can’t believe I never even did those hard drugs but was around it. Woah🤯
Most people progress to heroin, u went right for the hard stuff, i started with weed, shrooms, acid, tons of x turn into vicodin, then after not touching hard drugs for afew years. I started with the heroin 25 years later and tons of rehabs and jails and prisons. Im off everything. Its a hard life yo live. You got lucky to be arrested actually, heroin and pills are not easy to quit. Jail and prison will do that for you.
Why is it so hard to just not do drugs? Even when the doctor tries to push painkillers and addictive drugs say NO. Day 1 is a choice, you do it to yourself. It's so obvious what the consequences are? It baffles me...
Why even comment this shit I didn’t see a post where she asked you to put your negative comment if you don’t like her content just don’t watch it sheesh
Well no one wakes up one morning & says to themselves "i think im gonna become an addict today" lol. Severe dependence always sneaks up on you outta nowhere. We get the whole "not me" mentality when it comes to becoming an addict or dependant, we can stop at anytime blah blah. I've had to do to the 3 day rule, do it for 3 days then leave it alone for a week. That kept me straight for yrs till i decided i could go longer than 3 days lol nope.
Wait you didn’t touch on the fact that you parents are doctors!!! Are they both actually MDs? What did they think throughout this? Were you guys close?
LoL yea Def wasn't coke sounds like meth if you were seeing stuff etc .... maybe some anxiety and paranoid behavior if it's super strong etc but doesn't make you hallucinating. The opiates Def by far make you feel the best out of any drug, benzos also make you feel pretty good lol ... ahhh yeah the good old days of partying having fun zero worries etc 😂
I disagree personally, but I agree it is the most common cause… I did not have any childhood drama in any kind of way. I had a very happy, fulfilled and enjoyable childhood. I think I had a chemical imbalance or maybe some aspect of borderline personality… Something wasn’t firing off right in my brain and I was attracted and stimulated by things that were toxic and chaotic and incredibly and unhealthy. I do believe that a lot of addiction does results from unresolved childhood trauma, but I do not think all of it stems from this is because of this personally was not in any way, shape, or form.
Try using respect & proper English to ask your question, bc currently your comment makes no sense, and reflects poorly on the elementary school you went to & the parents who raised you!
@@BritneyJSpears The paranoia of Federal Agents everywhere sounds like meth. I've seen friends think people are in trees and they're being followed by agents/government. Not sure why meth does that to people. who knows what it was but Sounds like she did meth to me although I'm surprised she got that effect from one line.
@@BritneyJSpears The paranoia of Federal Agents everywhere sounds like meth. I've seen friends think people are in trees and they're being followed by agents/government. Not sure why meth does that to people. who knows what it was but Sounds like she did meth to me although I'm surprised she got that effect from one line.
I watched your video interview with Ian. You went to jail for crimes ABC yet you admit publicly you did more than that aren't you afraid of getting arrested on those crimes that you weren't jailed for? Or does all of that fall into double jeopardy
