Dave - Lesley [ft. Ruelle] [Instrumental] [PSYCHODRAMA] 

First! Perfect btw

Look They say the universe, it works in a strange way And it must be true because, we ain't from the same background or same place But me and Lesley ended up on that same train I'm talking everyday, I used to wake up around seven or eight To catch the 906 from Norbury Station Two different worlds in the same location and One day we ended up speaking And I would talk about college, she would talk about meetings And how she's planning on leaving How she hates what she does but she needs it I asked her what she was doing, it's the weekend And she said, she said I don't know myself I don't know myself no more She used to be the life of the party for true And now she going out hardly ever Her man got her in the yard forever And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive And she can't even see it, but for them it's clear as day, she's in a situation Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative So, she could see it from a mile off Turtleneck jumpers, makeup around the eye spots All the signs were there But Lesley made it seem a light affair Said it wasn't right to share Her boyfriend, he was a mystery man I didn't know much about him, but he's been in the can Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasoning To be honest, I don't know what Les' sees in him 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart But they've both got demons and a deep past You know opposites attract, apparently I never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh He was all that she had Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back And I don't know if there was more to the story than that 'Cause she plays things down but according to that He went missing one day in the morning he ran She's doing overtime, struggling affording the flat 'Til she, lost her job it fucked all of her plans Couldn't pay the rent, borrowing and calling for cash But Hannah she was there for her, cared for her When I saw Les' she told me I don't know myself I don't know myself no more Les' saying, "I got nothing to live for It's been raw, but David, I ain't never been this poor There's no income, my boyfriend left me So how the fuck am I going to survive when this kid's born?" I said, "It's a blessing as mad as it is And Les', I never even knew you were having a kid" Bro, she's four months pregnant, young and neglected Single but I don't think she wants to accept it So she's still texting ex's trying to get this Back on track but I don't think that she gets it It's emotional obsession, clinical depression Life is a lesson And you ain't got to sit and cry And Lesley, living in this gift called life There's no better gift than the gift of life So, can you handle it? I don't know myself I don't know myself no more But that changed her perspective Late in December, her baby's expected to drop She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped Only got to wait a few months Her and Hannah had lunch Told her she's pregnant And they're the closest of bredrins So she didn't stunt to tell her, I think that it's an error You ain't a mum for a day, you're a mum forever Whatever, and you and Jason break up whenever If I'm honest that's something you should have done together She doesn't know that her and Jason are going out again And Jason doesn't know that Lesley's carrying a child for them She had daydreams of settling down with Jason, better 'cause now they're together it's wild Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em 'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around She calls Hannah the next day Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her that she's getting back together with an ex-flame So she left her a voicemail Like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more It's 3:30 Lesley was meant to get a scan But today I think she's going home early Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid Addressing any reservations Have that conversation Middle of the summer and it's raining Waiting at the train station Hella cancellations So she gets a taxi, sitting in a backseat Blue jean jacket and a maxi Actually, tired and her legs are aching Touched the destination Way faster than the cab driver's estimation She put the key in the door She, couldn't believe what she see on the floor Some size five trainers, raging Tears in her eyes, but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors And Jason's in the bedroom fully naked Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise And she can hear Jason's voice Saying "Hide in the closet" But he's made his choice So, she bursts in saying "What kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?" Jason, saying "What the fuck, you're pregnant? What the fuck? You weren't even gonna tell me, I mean what the fuck? What do you want from us? Nah, you ain't in love, you just wanna love" Lesley telling Jason, "I don't wanna love I don't want a you and I, I don't want an us And also, I don't wanna talk loads One more line before I dash like Morse code" Open the wardrobe And Jason's on the edge "I just wanna see if she was prettier than me, slimmer than me Maybe your baby's similar to me Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me, fitter than me To satisfy you quicker than me I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me? I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me And give it to me, the wardrobe, give me the key" I was pulling up the door but Jason's bigger than me Literally, I remember viscerally Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me White flashes, eye gashes, when he's hitting me, see I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me Physically I shut the fucking doors quick as can be He's outside asking why I made him do what he did Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in I'm feeling afraid, barricaded, with a chair in the handle I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't Jason's gone by the time police are comin' They saw that ain't no one else in the house And feds are running through the door shouting "We have reports of an argument with a woman" There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds She's deep in the stress and his meter's above her head If anything, she couldn't even say anything But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is So, they call an ambulance, Lesley didn't plan for this Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle Until they stumble on something that's kind of random It's a phone in the wardrobe They had five missed phone calls from Jason and also a couple other numbers So they thinking that it's no help Until they play the voicemail like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more She felt sick to her stomach, she started panicking Mind rattling, tryna understand what Hannah did Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison Meanwhile, she's on the bed tryna manage this Piercing pain in the stomach, she couldn't handle it Now she's waiting for an ambulance Yeah And I know she's strong, but when I heard about what happened I was over-shocked Her nose was gone, her jaw line shattered and rocked They said her baby was the reason she was holding on She dozing off, doctors getting no response Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong Picked her up, got her out the home and onto the stretcher for good measure But she fading out, oh She took damage to the brain and now she's in a coma as we speak But I ain't sure if she can make it out You see this time that I'm taking out to tell you the story is more than a song or track It's a message to a woman with a toxic man I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped I understand that I can never understand And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right Some of your sisters, aunties, mums or wives Are fucked aside and they will never touch on why I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like- Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye This shit's awful, no matter what culture it ain't normal Men try and twist it, make it seem like it's your fault In that train full of people that you're taking How many Lesley's are running from their Jasons? Angel without wings Like the day without the night to bring her peace A song without a voice A spark without a flame A child without a name Oh, it's just wrong Like an ocean without a shore A soldier without a war How can we do this anymore? A song without a voice A spark without a flame A child without a name Oh, it's just wrong Well, we've made a massive amount of progress in this last year, haven't we? Feels like a long journey And I must say it's been a pleasure, to watch you mature and grow in thought And in your career and life You've opened up immensely I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself So you're always welcome I'm just happy you're at a place now where you feel you understand your emotions And are in control

Look, Mummy lost her life, not physically but mentally, This shits fucked inside, Laugher, good times, wish I could go back to them days, nowadays all people wanna do is fuck around and play games, Look, I've always found it hard to express how I feel, The only way I could let go was to put my earphones in and chill. As they would say, The nightime is when the pain would play Those nights won't always stay the same, Always remind yourself there's gonna be better days, Look People love to talk, on a situation they never would've thought, could be them, That's why its best to pre-tend you're fine even when your not cause, the moment you open up is when you give that person the opportunity to tell a friend. Then things get mixed up, Look, - What I'm starting to realise is its best to lay low, Keep your head under the halo, Always going out late at night causing trouble on the main roads with your 'friends' The ones who got your back? No, The ones who only hit you up when their off their heads off crack, That's not you, You're not that type of person, Always wanting to talk about your emotions but never knowing how to word them, Look.

I remember when I was growing up I grew up round a lotta love Never stopped n thought about it’s just what it was Happy kids grow into happy people A happy childhood will guide u to a happy sequel Good n evil Isn’t something I believe in Everybody’s blessed n that’s just something I’m at peace with But sometimes when I’m sleeping I would dream about the demons that I sleep with A creature in me eating Mum told me that my nightmares are deceiving, that depression isn’t something that you’ll ever have to deal with, you’re from a nice home The people round you love you Don’t you stress your little head with what those creatures getting up to They can’t hurt you They can’t stop you from blossoming and finding you a woman that deserves you A life that will serve you These thoughts are something we all gotta work through No-matter how bad it gets it can’t hurt you, that was her truth She wouldn’t lie to me I just wished she had the foresight to see the creature that was eating me, secretly was mutating inside of me And when the happy kid turned unhappy teen it was too late coz the creature started guiding me And mum was just numb to the irony She didn’t understand how the little boy she had raised had Fallen so mightily

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All we really own is our time and our moments, So right now it's my moment in time, I thank god for the growth in my life, But I still feel so alone in my mind One day man I hope I can shine, To show the world u can win if u open your eyes, But I'm still waiting on that token of life, Cuz I'm still feeling so broken inside

You're doing bits making these instrumentals

Gah damn this is perfection! You the real MVP!

I'm just happy that I still ain't dead, But I don't know how to feel about this life I live, See I was tryna bury all the fucking lies I live, I forgot how I could ever find a fuck that I could give.. Lying to myself so I could feel alright about these people in my life, they don't care they know that I'll forgive, I know that she done a whole fucking lot for me, I love you and I hate you, why can't we do this shit properly, Me and you not having complicated relationship is rarer then me scratching a card and winning the lottery, Got me feeling like Im trapped in a maze, when I ran in that rain, there was not another time where I felt free, Even though I looked upon that road, wondering how I got there, I lost all the balance in my knees, I just thought about my beautiful girl, and how to her I was the whole world, she would do the same, Its fucked, I thought about how I was just so lame, how can a man resort to taking his own life, at just a young so age, You're 16, you can't feel any pain, They try downplay what I been through out of touch so go fuck your age, I know you been through years, but that don't mean that the trauma I've sustained is nothing else than a spec of a grain, I know you had to come from poverty in the slums back at home, maybe elsewhere, to any of the parents today, I know you been through a hell and you came back, but your kids have been more than what you think is the surface level, And it aint up to certain levels, I can't battle certain demons, cause its worse than that, its certain devils Im tryna get my bro out the trap, When I'm doing good, Im taking all my family, my brothers at that, Anyone whos been there wid me thats my family, I'll take a fucking bullet, on my will they'll have my salary, You can't say that money aint gonna buy you happiness, But give my mum a million and she would be the happiest, Moving back to kenya, getting out of this dunya, My brothers would start making ps legit, There's more money there in contrary trapping is the shabbiest, Have you driving cars better than them pricks the flashiest, I'm tryna see my family my brothers all the happiest..

Let me take u to the start We came from the same paths Dads left us from young But the difference is she never let it stop her have fun U see she got her whole life planned out She gon make it no doubt But whilst I’m wiv her I feel like I just bring her down But enough about me we’lol have time for that later Rn want to talk about this girl She hasn’t had the best life But to be happy man she try’s N I hope that she gets everything she deserves Cause She a rlly caring girl Tryna be suttin in this world But life keeps making her draw the short straw It’s not fair got too much in her hair But still decided to try make suttin of herself She got pregnant so young But that’s is her dream All she hopes is to be the best she can for her son And the best she can for her baby daddy He ain’t physically abusive but mentally Maybe Always says he don’t give a fuck about his baby Even tho he knows it’s a lie He just wants to make her hurt from inside

all alone walking in this thing called life. I done hit rock bottom long nights might cry. Hearing voices in my head I’m losing my mind. If I ever did the crime then I’m doing the time.

i had a thought little while back my time is coming i was sitting on the grass but my mind was buzzing see i was tied to the cycles, my mind was running i tried fight it, got tired of the time spent, crying or bunning thoughts ain't got substance, but the substances the cause of them, the problem is i really started liking them grab a drink and sit and right myself i'd tell myself it's stages that you grow through the liquor helps to water them if i felt like i was slipping, sip another til i fall again fucked the way the things you think are helping you are harmful it was fucked the way i'd sit in my class gripping my arm, i'm feeling something quick in my heart rate it's quicker than it's been and i'm just wishing for calm but i ain't had that in a minute, ain't been chill in a while days gone, weeks fly by, i'm used to what i shouldnt be used to the adrenaline, that's still in my art so i went and grabbed a spliff, i gripped and lit in my yard we'll sit in the dark, my mind...me, ink and the past couple minutes, rhymes flowing, and the feelings ajar i guess i sat there for a minute, cos i felt like i'm alright again muscles barely, tightening, my fists weren't even clenching reality checking see i was back to the present that's when i realised my plan of actions handle the stress and i'd try to say it to myself i guess i couldn't handle the resonance it's a gift, that in those days i was embarassed to tell it guess it's a blessing but a curse, it's just the way it goes cos i can't talk to other people what i speak in my notes but i can say it on a mic, i like to speak it in prose anyway, i kinda learned, that all these feelings are ghosts and the thoughts of you and them, and all those memories go when all those skeletons in closets, get to air with the clothes these people told me, stop that thinking bout the past cos it ain't helping you grow i don't agree, cos when i did, i kinda knew why i'd been feeling it knew why i could never seem to reason with it OCD, it ain't for playing on the speakers with it ain't like what they think it is, ain't really bout no cleaning it's bout me and possibilities, i'd feel as if they're real and it ain't nothing that i'd joke about ain't something that i wrote about, or something i tried talking bout but lately i've been feeling like i really need to talk it out get it off my chest, because the weights been getting awkward how was i like seventeen, but had a feeling like i'm older now i'm sat here in a year, and i don't feel like i can sort it out ... i don't know if there's a way that i can force myself to smile it doesn't seem like there's another fucking way around this maze, that i ain't walked around and lately ... i swear i don't know myself i don't know myself no more Dissociation, don't feel right in myself it's kinda hard to try describe, but it's like losing my connection i wanna try explain it but i don't know how to tell it if i do i'd get it wrong, and then i know that i'll regret it so i learned that if i didn't then just learn how i can sell it all these things that i'm researching, wish i didn't know the spelling and i knew should let them go, but i just don't know how i could let them so it turned to getting women, as an easy misdirection i would reason with myself, it's cos i needed some affection but those needs needed attention the truth is i'd forget myself, with girls that i've been texting all these 9s 9's 9's like i'm phoning up a medic wasn't focused on their feelings, i'd just focus on aesthetics but i'd look inside that mirror, and i'd realise i'm changing the man i thought i was, he wasn't me, he's just pathetic wasn't calm to be emotionless, or fine when apathetic wasn't calm to be adulterous, my mind just didn't get it i'd devoted so much time to getting right, and i'd forget it i'd spent days up in my bedroom tryna write myself an ending i'd forgot the way it felt, when i first learned about the pen and since that day i started pushing forward just a little more, quick tick to put my win on the board exponential way i've grown, but i ain't finishing poor i'm tryna make it with my writing, like i'm printing them on blue paper more now, so the tunes turn to views later i'll go stu, now, tunes for you dudes later it's all facts, what i'm writing, like on newspapers music better open up doors like a new neighbour money longer at the top like a crew taper i wanna make it off of my blues like a new sega but ... i don't know myself i don't know myself no more

these are outrageous.. please if you get the time bless the enviroment beat mate

Ive been so lost in life for so long, Whens it gonna go right, how'd it go so wrong, How many mistakes can one man make until he falls off? Need to get back on track before its too long, Ive been trying to find myself for a minute now, I work so hard but Im never fucking winning how? And im sick and tired of this, Life I didnt choose to be in, this life I dont want to live, And Im sorry to upset the people around me, Am I just confused or do people never understand me, Im like lost post without a stamp, Ive been trying to make a mark but cant leave no footprints in the sand, And Im trying to carry on even though I want to stop, Imagine climbing a mountain knowing youll never reach the top,

Popping bottles Like am taking of their heads Haiting on a yung g who's just trynna get His bread See it realy dont make sence Aint trappy with z But am slanging all these words And they coming at ya head Boi My life is mad Fuck all the depresion shit I wanna get these bands Woi My bro got the strap Stay strappes up If u give me that chat then i blast off Bow Hold that corn its a 5.9 Aint glyding all the time like 5 to 9 But chop rate cerit its 5 on 5 If u wanna make p come n hit my line 01274 to 0115 Catch me in either side wiv Either ma bros or the guys Cancel out the hate thats a fact When u come from the gutter u want these racks 3 side dats Wat am slanging Yung boi stay fly no trapping But ik some dargy who be trapping Banging They ot got their graft line active Active on the block and they slashing Oof Word play stay to cold thats standerd Nutting like dave but we catch em the santan Badman get 22 for gang akh One in the head And the other for ur body Blast him one time and his body starts rocking Nutting like jay 1 but true i am moking Cause am cold with shit Yo am moving aggy wid it And ma bitch got back she jiggy wid it Silly with it Chatting about my fam I get busy wid it Money on ma mind i want lizzy lizzy Up stui i stay bizzy bizzy Fuck all the chatting I get grimmy grimmy They follow me like cats They Nittys nittys

Can you please please do Dave - My 19th Birthday but just the instrumentals like this one?

Pass the pen and pad ima have to go deep on this shit.

Can i use this instrumental for non profit use? is it free to use?

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Hi. It's me again. I really need you to do Black by Dave

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Anyone else just rapping to peoples comments 😂

Did you make this from scratch?

If there risking it they gotta go I know I ought to show My feelings coz I feel it Is it money or the love that’s grown Countless nights I’m home alone Round the time it’s getting dark I’ll send a text n watch it blow Grands in cash still ua coat two way trip I’m risking loads Mum she knows what’s going on so find the telling off is old Been thinking I should stop w both Don’t know what the path to take in a day I’ll find myself at Kevin’s place It’s getting sold Wreck the coast so scousers thinking check the doe Dead their post Problems coz the table ain’t got chairs for those Those men are foes One day show me love n next you’ll set my bro No rented toast look back on Dave he had it whole On the happy days I’ll @ my bros On the sadder days might strap it loads Paranoid I’m on the window Fuvk the sof I’m para loads I couldn’t Get to you n talk about the life I chose If I wouldn’t Get the food Then I don’t know where I would float Early morning n there’s noise outside the door my heart did froze I do know

Appreciate the instrumentals g could u put them on soundcloud?

can i buy this on lease to release a song

Zweback - Premature Packulation

Are u selling it?

0:16

whats the bpm

Yeah It's JD 2K23 Listen Yeah, my heart is cold but my thoughts breath colder Now it's 2023 man is another year older Thoughts piling up almost getting to be too much like law and order So much stress just saddling on to my chest Probably why I got a hunched back and a stressed out mind Take me out for 5 Leave me out in the open with no reason to keep me within All of this pain is what made it a fact Id rather be dead leave my pain outstanding Let the light shine through so you can see the remains stacked waiting patiently Almost as if the day turned to night but changed on right back cause your sick of the dark and the wait for light Don't give a fuck if you think I ain't right Lived my life waiting for the god damn moment that I can believe each word that I say, so impatient cause the impact didn't kick back the same that it used to now I'm unused to the feeling of pain and dread Just wait till the light leaves the room and you'll feel the sense I feel cause man I wish I didn't see anything whatsoever lost my mind cause I'm unmotivating myself cause maybe it's time that I sorted out my dread relegated the pain that has spent 20 years in my head how many days spent waiting impatiently sat on my bed with no reason to live but the season still gives me reason to spend time with my family cause if i ain't got them then what have I got left I'm so sorry, but I don't know what to say I'm so sorry, my head doesn't like to stay I'm so sorry, I can't keep my concentration cause of things I can't speak about they live in my head 24/7 but you just don't realise Cause if your eyes worked as well as mine then maybe you'd realise the pain that I see Not only the pain that I see, the pain and the shame is in the air that I breath, So as much as I try to give, I get double back in my receipts, I wish sometimes that this life I never received, shit I wish that I never seen, anguish and hate that just makes my heart bleed, all of this is just inside but I can't relinquish my dream cause the train of thought ends on the same note that I started on, saying I hope your fine I hope your well and ends on I hope your fine but this time life doesn't need me I've done nothing but rage and make you believe your insane and I'm so fucking sorry for the way that I've been the past 3 years must have felt like your reeling me out putting the feelers out cause your so fucking scared and heartbroken from the time when I made your life seem like it was over There ain't no stopping fate, people say through a twist of fate but I've been twisting and turning and all throughout the day I've still never been learning I'm in the same persona still ain't changed this way, got the same vibe and the same blurred sky that I see outside so why should I try to fixate on fixing something we created when it's not gonna be fixed and it won't ever be fine No fault of your own I know from what you've said and I can feel the disbelief in your head that as much as you hate me you don't want to live without it All the anger and shame that you feel I've brought and dropped onto your name I wish that I could change that but I can't I wish that I could leave but if I did I wouldn't be able to come back and that's mad I want to be there as I'm affectionate for my daughter She the only one who doesn't realise just what's been said and done She's the only one who's pure of heart and mind and can make their own mind up on if she wants me around Not the other way round Not no dicking about Saying I've done this I've done that and your still the driving force pushing me away giving me a place to stay then contradicting saying that it's all my fault like who the fucks to blame

Im sorry but were is the violins??

She called me 7 am like an alarm I know she should’ve slept in my arms But it’s a Saturday, she had a wedding on the island for her aunt So I asked her how it is? I hoped she’s enjoying it She said “that’s not the matter that’s not why I’m calling sweet” She said she woke up and she started vomitting And she took a test immediately and it was positive First it felt like a shock but I tried to feel positive She said she wants to know if I wanna let the baby live I said “ I love you and I love all that comes from you” It’s not the time I’m too young babe I’ll look like a fool When you’re not married 1 + 1 is 2 She said “ she doesn’t like my attitude” She’s made her decisions I should respect it And that is God’s diagnostics I said baby “ don’t you even get it?” We’re not ready, real world not Jurassic A family is fantastic But the chaos I can’t have it So I cut the call and took a drink I really just wanted to think It felt like the point my ship will sink Was at the brink of loosing it Music, business and school how am I doing it? Felt like a movie for the thrill of it But I loved Hannah more than anything and I understand her reason Love is sacrifice when you have the prey to kill I gotta work harder if I sign the deal I gotta be ready for a lifetime contract with my first child That day man I cried My emotions were so wild But there’s no way to run and no where to hide So I accepted it I was ready now to have a kid Ready for a family So I called Hannah, like “ hey baby, how you Dey?” Just want you to know you’ll have your way I’ve thought about it and I’ve prayed And I’m sure I want the baby to stay Hannah was excited, she said she told her mum she was delighted I assured her that I love her and she should never be frightened After that I put in work, invested in time Found new business to get back in line I grew up faster than my guys Strengthened my self and strengthened my mind Hannah came home on a Tuesday I heard a “salamalekun” like she would say Rushed to the door like a child chasing candy Sun was bright but wasn’t brighter than my baby I love her, she really drives me crazy I said Hannah, “it felt like years without you” I could have gone mad if I tried to She laughed and said “you really make me shy boo” Hope you’re preparing for your father title. Since that day me and Hannah we’ve been best of friends And we were ready to take it to the end Love is beautiful and I can’t be bought no matter how much you spend That’s why I cherish it, just like a diamond I protect it Like a diamond love Is hard to find Love is hard to break Love is beautiful and not a fake Love is earned, love is magical, we all relate Love is a fuel that drives me to be great Love is like light to see when blinded by the hate Love is the key to open your heart’s gate Love is water to quench your lonely thirst Love is God, God is love it’s above us all

Enchufas las noticias y todo dolor Solo hay odio y muerte sin control Me pregunto si tienes corazón Porq a nada de esto le das valor Muertos por aquí muertos por allá Tu solo ves números sin muchos más Pero hay miles y miles de historias detrás Pero q miles y miles de historias detrás Hay personas q viven un infierno Todo de puertas para adentro A veces por fuera todo está correcto Pero nadie pregunta si hay daño interno El amor es gratis en cambio el odio es caro Cuánto vale una vida no lo tengo claro Pero es más barato un beso y un abrazo Antes q un puto disparo Un acto cambia la vida de una persona Y esa persona quizás cambia la de miles de personas El amor es gratis así q nunca cortes el efecto mariposa Se muy bien que careces de empatía Y q tu ignorancia te llena de alegría Se q tu por nadie nunca nada harías Lo tuyo no es egoísmo es psicopatía Solo piensas en tu propia vida Porq piensas q la vida de los demás Es una vida secundaria dentro de tu vida Pero esq todavía aún hay más Piensas q solo tu sufrimiento es real Tanto cuesta ser amable? Tanto cuesta amar y amarte? O Cuánto cuesta ir a Marte? Eso no es importante Mientras la gente pasa hambre y hasta q no dejes de odiarte Cada una carga con su propia cruz Hay gente q está igual o peor q tú En serio cambia tu actitud O acaso te gustaría q todos fueran como tú Tu no quieres dar solo quieres recibir Y si quieres dar es siempre sin dejar ir Solo das lo q no quieres en vez de lo q no tienes Pero hermano las cosas no van así Unas palabras cambian la vida de una persona Y esa persona quizás cambia la de miles de personas El amor es gratis así q nunca cortes el efecto mariposa

Ive been so lost in life for so long, Whens it gonna go right, how'd it go so wrong, How many mistakes can one man make until he falls off? Need to get back on track before its too long, Ive been trying to find myself for a minute now, I work so hard but Im never fucking winning how? And im sick and tired of this, Life I didnt choose to be in, this life I dont want to live, And Im sorry to upset the people around me, Am I just confused or do people never understand me, Im like lost post without a stamp, Ive been trying to make a mark but cant leave no footprints in the sand, Ive been trying to find my way, but i turned down the wrong road, always walking on my own, yano the long way home,

Look They say the universe, it works in a strange way And it must be true because, we ain't from the same background or same place But me and Lesley ended up on that same train I'm talking everyday, I used to wake up around seven or eight To catch the 906 from Norbury Station Two different worlds in the same location and One day we ended up speaking And I would talk about college, she would talk about meetings And how she's planning on leaving How she hates what she does but she needs it I asked her what she was doing, it's the weekend And she said, she said I don't know myself I don't know myself no more She used to be the life of the party for true And now she going out hardly ever Her man got her in the yard forever And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive And she can't even see it, but for them it's clear as day, she's in a situation Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative So, she could see it from a mile off Turtleneck jumpers, makeup around the eye spots All the signs were there But Lesley made it seem a light affair Said it wasn't right to share Her boyfriend, he was a mystery man I didn't know much about him, but he's been in the can Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasoning To be honest, I don't know what Les' sees in him 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart But they've both got demons and a deep past You know opposites attract, apparently I never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh He was all that she had Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back And I don't know if there was more to the story than that 'Cause she plays things down but according to that He went missing one day in the morning he ran She's doing overtime, struggling affording the flat 'Til she, lost her job it fucked all of her plans Couldn't pay the rent, borrowing and calling for cash But Hannah she was there for her, cared for her When I saw Les' she told me I don't know myself I don't know myself no more Les' saying, "I got nothing to live for It's been raw, but David, I ain't never been this poor There's no income, my boyfriend left me So how the fuck am I going to survive when this kid's born?" I said, "It's a blessing as mad as it is And Les', I never even knew you were having a kid" Bro, she's four months pregnant, young and neglected Single but I don't think she wants to accept it So she's still texting ex's trying to get this Back on track but I don't think that she gets it It's emotional obsession, clinical depression Life is a lesson And you ain't got to sit and cry And Lesley, living in this gift called life There's no better gift than the gift of life So, can you handle it? I don't know myself I don't know myself no more But that changed her perspective Late in December, her baby's expected to drop She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped Only got to wait a few months Her and Hannah had lunch Told her she's pregnant And they're the closest of bredrins So she didn't stunt to tell her, I think that it's an error You ain't a mum for a day, you're a mum forever Whatever, and you and Jason break up whenever If I'm honest that's something you should have done together She doesn't know that her and Jason are going out again And Jason doesn't know that Lesley's carrying a child for them She had daydreams of settling down with Jason, better 'cause now they're together it's wild Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em 'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around She calls Hannah the next day Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her that she's getting back together with an ex-flame So she left her a voicemail Like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more It's 3:30 Lesley was meant to get a scan But today I think she's going home early Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid Addressing any reservations Have that conversation Middle of the summer and it's raining Waiting at the train station Hella cancellations So she gets a taxi, sitting in a backseat Blue jean jacket and a maxi Actually, tired and her legs are aching Touched the destination Way faster than the cab driver's estimation She put the key in the door She, couldn't believe what she see on the floor Some size five trainers, raging Tears in her eyes, but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors And Jason's in the bedroom fully naked Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise And she can hear Jason's voice Saying "Hide in the closet" But he's made his choice So, she bursts in saying "What kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?" Jason, saying "What the fuck, you're pregnant? What the fuck? You weren't even gonna tell me, I mean what the fuck? What do you want from us? Nah, you ain't in love, you just wanna love" Lesley telling Jason, "I don't wanna love I don't want a you and I, I don't want an us And also, I don't wanna talk loads One more line before I dash like Morse code" Open the wardrobe And Jason's on the edge "I just wanna see if she was prettier than me, slimmer than me Maybe your baby's similar to me Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me, fitter than me To satisfy you quicker than me I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me? I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me And give it to me, the wardrobe, give me the key" I was pulling up the door but Jason's bigger than me Literally, I remember viscerally Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me White flashes, eye gashes, when he's hitting me, see I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me Physically I shut the fucking doors quick as can be He's outside asking why I made him do what he did Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in I'm feeling afraid, barricaded, with a chair in the handle I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't Jason's gone by the time police are comin' They saw that ain't no one else in the house And feds are running through the door shouting "We have reports of an argument with a woman" There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds She's deep in the stress and his meter's above her head If anything, she couldn't even say anything But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is So, they call an ambulance, Lesley didn't plan for this Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle Until they stumble on something that's kind of random It's a phone in the wardrobe They had five missed phone calls from Jason and also a couple other numbers So they thinking that it's no help Until they play the voicemail like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more She felt sick to her stomach, she started panicking Mind rattling, tryna understand what Hannah did Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison Meanwhile, she's on the bed tryna manage this Piercing pain in the stomach, she couldn't handle it Now she's waiting for an ambulance Yeah And I know she's strong, but when I heard about what happened I was over-shocked Her nose was gone, her jaw line shattered and rocked They said her baby was the reason she was holding on She dozing off, doctors getting no response Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong Picked her up, got her out the home and onto the stretcher for good measure But she fading out, oh She took damage to the brain and now she's in a coma as we speak But I ain't sure if she can make it out You see this time that I'm taking out to tell you the story is more than a song or track It's a message to a woman with a toxic man I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped I understand that I can never understand And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right Some of your sisters, aunties, mums or wives Are fucked aside and they will never touch on why I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like- Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye This shit's awful, no matter what culture it ain't normal Men try and twist it, make it seem like it's your fault In that train full of people that you're taking How many Lesley's are running from their Jasons? Angel without wings Like the day without the night to bring her peace A song without a voice A spark without a flame A child without a name Oh, it's just wrong Like an ocean without a shore A soldier without a war How can we do this anymore? A song without a voice A spark without a flame A child without a name Oh, it's just wrong Well, we've made a massive amount of progress in this last year, haven't we? Feels like a long journey And I must say it's been a pleasure, to watch you mature and grow in thought And in your career and life You've opened up immensely I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions But you know, you can never stop learning about yourself So you're always welcome I'm just happy you're at a place now where you feel you understand your emotions And are in control

Did you make this from scratch?

Look They say the universe, it works in a strange way And it must be true because, we ain't from the same background or same place But me and Lesley ended up on that same train I'm talking everyday, I used to wake up around seven or eight To catch the 906 from Norbury Station Two different worlds in the same location and One day we ended up speaking And I would talk about college, she would talk about meetings And how she's planning on leaving How she hates what she does but she needs it I asked her what she was doing, it's the weekend And she said, she said I don't know myself I don't know myself no more She used to be the life of the party for true And now she going out hardly ever Her man got her in the yard forever And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive And she can't even see it, but for them it's clear as day, she's in a situation Her friend Hannah had a man that was manipulative So, she could see it from a mile off Turtleneck jumpers, makeup around the eye spots All the signs were there But Lesley made it seem a light affair Said it wasn't right to share Her boyfriend, he was a mystery man I didn't know much about him, but he's been in the can Name's Jason, he's a bad boy with no reasoning To be honest, I don't know what Les' sees in him 'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart But they've both got demons and a deep past You know opposites attract, apparently I never heard her talk about her family ever, uh-uh He was all that she had Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back And I don't know if there was more to the story than that 'Cause she plays things down but according to that He went missing one day in the morning he ran She's doing overtime, struggling affording the flat 'Til she, lost her job it fucked all of her plans Couldn't pay the rent, borrowing and calling for cash But Hannah she was there for her, cared for her When I saw Les' she told me I don't know myself I don't know myself no more Les' saying, "I got nothing to live for It's been raw, but David, I ain't never been this poor There's no income, my boyfriend left me So how the fuck am I going to survive when this kid's born?" I said, "It's a blessing as mad as it is And Les', I never even knew you were having a kid" Bro, she's four months pregnant, young and neglected Single but I don't think she wants to accept it So she's still texting ex's trying to get this Back on track but I don't think that she gets it It's emotional obsession, clinical depression Life is a lesson And you ain't got to sit and cry And Lesley, living in this gift called life There's no better gift than the gift of life So, can you handle it? I don't know myself I don't know myself no more But that changed her perspective Late in December, her baby's expected to drop She's accepted, excited, electric, pumped Only got to wait a few months Her and Hannah had lunch Told her she's pregnant And they're the closest of bredrins So she didn't stunt to tell her, I think that it's an error You ain't a mum for a day, you're a mum forever Whatever, and you and Jason break up whenever If I'm honest that's something you should have done together She doesn't know that her and Jason are going out again And Jason doesn't know that Lesley's carrying a child for them She had daydreams of settling down with Jason, better 'cause now they're together it's wild Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em 'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around She calls Hannah the next day Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her that she's getting back together with an ex-flame So she left her a voicemail Like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more It's 3:30 Lesley was meant to get a scan But today I think she's going home early Tryna talk to Jason, tell him 'bout the kid Addressing any reservations Have that conversation Middle of the summer and it's raining Waiting at the train station Hella cancellations So she gets a taxi, sitting in a backseat Blue jean jacket and a maxi Actually, tired and her legs are aching Touched the destination Way faster than the cab driver's estimation She put the key in the door She, couldn't believe what she see on the floor Some size five trainers, raging Tears in her eyes, but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors And Jason's in the bedroom fully naked Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise And she can hear Jason's voice Saying "Hide in the closet" But he's made his choice So, she bursts in saying "What kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend?" Jason, saying "What the fuck, you're pregnant? What the fuck? You weren't even gonna tell me, I mean what the fuck? What do you want from us? Nah, you ain't in love, you just wanna love" Lesley telling Jason, "I don't wanna love I don't want a you and I, I don't want an us And also, I don't wanna talk loads One more line before I dash like Morse code" Open the wardrobe And Jason's on the edge "I just wanna see if she was prettier than me, slimmer than me Maybe your baby's similar to me Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me, fitter than me To satisfy you quicker than me I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me? I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me And give it to me, the wardrobe, give me the key" I was pulling up the door but Jason's bigger than me Literally, I remember viscerally Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me White flashes, eye gashes, when he's hitting me, see I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me Physically I shut the fucking doors quick as can be He's outside asking why I made him do what he did Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in I'm feeling afraid, barricaded, with a chair in the handle I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't Jason's gone by the time police are comin' They saw that ain't no one else in the house And feds are running through the door shouting "We have reports of an argument with a woman" There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall Lesley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds She's deep in the stress and his meter's above her head If anything, she couldn't even say anything But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is So, they call an ambulance, Lesley didn't plan for this Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle Until they stumble on something that's kind of random It's a phone in the wardrobe They had five missed phone calls from Jason and also a couple other numbers So they thinking that it's no help Until they play the voicemail like "Yo Hannah, it's Les' can you call me back? I wanna talk about the baby, you, me, Jason, all of that I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back I used to be so fucking confident But these days, I swear that-" I don't know my self I don't know myself no more She felt sick to her stomach, she started panicking Mind rattling, tryna understand what Hannah did Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison Meanwhile, she's on the bed tryna manage this Piercing pain in the stomach, she couldn't handle it Now she's waiting for an ambulance Yeah And I know she's strong, but when I heard about what happened I was over-shocked Her nose was gone, her jaw line shattered and rocked They said her baby was the reason she was holding on She dozing off, doctors getting no response Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong Picked her up, got her out the home and onto the stretcher for good measure But she fading out, oh She took damage to the brain and now she's in a coma as we speak But I ain't sure if she can make it out You see this time that I'm taking out to tell you the story is more than a song or track It's a message to a woman with a toxic man I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped I understand that I can never understand And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right Some of your sisters, aunties, mums or wives Are fucked aside and they will never touch on why I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like- Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye This shit's awful, no matter what culture it ain't normal Men try and twist it, make it seem like it's your fault In that train full of people that you're taking How many Lesley's are running from their Jasons?