Dealing with Depression Through Art 

So many people say the word art and artist in their titles and descriptions. This guy is an actual artist . One can tell by his attention to the subtleties and the emotional connection he feels and conveys with his work. He truly expresses himself through his work.

I appreciate that you express what all artist feel: The disappointment in our work, the failure that come with art, the emotional connection to the art.

I gotta say that this sculpture is heart-wrenching for me, I was feeling the pain in that sculpture as mine and it was cathartic to realize that I've felt it too and still feel it sometimes... Going through depressive thoughts and not being able to express them is a totally different pain no-one should go though and seeing this has made me want to also try and express myself with art and try to heal a bit in the preocess. Better days will come, thank you for this.

Your story about getting injured an unable to do what, makes you happy, hit 100% home. I study and teach karate to youth. But after an accident that broke my shoulder and hip, has made that impossible to do anymore. Ever since the accident, i have been in a steep depression, and this sculpt totally shows how i feel inside.

I watch few different sculptors. There is something special about you. I feel like I am on a masterclass, you share so much in-sights. I'm so grateful for it. Your energy, watching you fix your mistakes makes me want to throw things away, and take out my sculpting gear. Thank you for that. Hope the knee gets better. Regards!

Love your art. I was feeling depressed and a few months ago after a rough few years, I looked at expressing through art. Then I got a cancer diagnosis and it whipped me out of depression. (If you think life can’t get worse _ it sure can. Lol) I’m grateful to be fighting cancer and hopefully getting a second chance at life. I’m now creating art for cancer awareness and find it motivating. I weirdly feel newly energized on the inside through my cancer journey. Art is a great way to express pain. Fighting! 💜

Art,haven’t seen one of your vids for a while…depression being the cause,through different things…said it before mate..you are a true artist…who is a master at his craft…just breathtaking…keep your chin up mate…peace and love to you 😬👍

The whole time I was getting Raziel vibes from Soul Reaver. Love what you do!!! We all go through this I think. And being an artist you can express it in so many mediums and ways.

My friend I adore your channel, you've got a perfect personality for this, the honesty, dedication and passion is obvious in every video you make. It makes me want to pick up my tools more than any other sculpting channel. Keep up the output please, there's a dearth of this on youtube.

There's one thing that really grabs me with your sculpting, and that is how expressive the muscles are. You really sculpt the tiniest little flexes and tensions that I think are often overlooked by most sculptors. Honestly you can see the amount of effort spent on the anatomy and it really just makes all the difference in my opinion. It makes the character feel ultimately real. Almost like you can sense personality or emotion in the body shape and muscle movements. It's not just a pose for the sake of a pose

Wow. Thank you. I had an almost identical injury. Shattered my right talus while climbing. The healing process is a very profound and challenging process. "The despair, the loss of flight". The feeling of loss of identity and not knowing what comes next. This is very beautifully done. Thank you again.

I completely agree that the human face gives the character a more relatable quality. It turned out incredible and very potent.

I hope you had people around to hug you, listen to you, and just be present. Thank you for demonstrating so graphically the cost of making Art. (The eyes on the monster head do it for me, sunken and full of pain.) My 10 cents worth despite it being so long ago.,,, Oh my, I took a break and came back and you did it!

I'm having an absolute hellish time trying to write anything after being sick for months. My brain just won't form the words the way I want. My thoughts are jumbled, my mind is scattered, and concepts don't flow into each other like they should. Watching your process is cathartic. I really felt that moment where you screamed about the eyebrows. Sometimes the answers are so simple but they just take forever to find, and its both elating and frustrating when you finally get there. As for the sculpture itself, wow. Its amazing to see that kind of anguish personified. There is something so raw about the character being practically naked, screaming at the sky, his wings tattered and worse than useless - something that's supposed to lift him up become dead weights, dragging him down. He's got the kind of face that angels in graveyards wish they could make, surrounded by so much pain in one place, if only they weren't carved to model the passive dignity expected of the grieving. But there is no dignity in loss. Be it loss of your bodily function, mental faculties, or companions. In my experience, the best art is both evocative and truthful. This helped. Thanks.

I can feel the joy on your face when you put the final sculpture on the base, and it did spread. Thank you for this

Thank you for this. For sharing and for the amazing sculpting!

I only stumbled across your channel yesterday and am absolutely mesmerized by your talent, dedication and understanding of the medium and anatomy. Thank you for sharing your craft and your emotions with the world and letting us take part in your creative process, it is most enjoyable to watch! Plus your voice is very calming.

I’ve never gotten chills from a piece of artwork before, I can’t believe I haven’t found you before. You are beyond talented! I appreciate the honesty, as a younger artist it’s really comforting to understand we all go through the same rollercoaster of emotions with our work. I look forward to your future works!

this is so down to earth art process. the frustration and problem solving is so real.

I am so impressed by your work man, so glad I found your channel

I stumbled across your videos by accident while watching Elden Ring clips, but I am glad I did. Truly amazed by the skill you've got. Keep up the good work and dont be so strict for yourself, those sculptures look amazing!

loved how you narrated the process in the video and it really helped me to undertand the creative process that you go through or, at least, a fraction of it. Really enjoy your content and I hope that you're feeling better. Lots of love from Barcelona

This is one of the best sculptures ive seen. I love your explanation and commentary. Amazing work

Yeah... I am SO stoked to have found this channel. I've always gotten very emotional watching dancers and choreographers (and all performers, really), but I never new I would get emotional watching non-performing artists do their thing. I just watched The Calligraphist video and this one and teared up both times during the hero shots just seeing the details. They both also pluck that dance heartstring for me with the anatomy and lines. Also, like other commenters have said, seeing the expression of joy when you put the piece on the pedestal was so great. GORGEOUS piece. Thank you for sharing.

I love how honest your process is. You're a master. I admire you a lot!

The frowning between the eyes is what makes it feel emotional. I usually just look for references online until one of them speaks to me. Nice work man and thanks for sharing!

Thank you for sharing this video, you inspired me to start painting out my frustrations/depression again and it’s been really cathartic; there was something so genuine in the way you articulated your feelings that I really resonated with so thank you again.

I originally watched the "no talking" version under the assumption that it was the only version you posted of this sculpture, but boy am I glad I checked and decided to watch this version too. I really enjoy hearing an artist's creative process and what is behind a piece or an idea, so seeing what went behind this one was very much a delight

I have a tough time expressing my mental health and physical health struggles through my artwork. I’m so glad you were able to express your pain and struggles. I hope you find lasting recovery.

I’m glad you were able to be vulnerable and share this. Art is the expression of self and of the environment. Amazing work, thanks for sharing!

Your command of anatomy and attention to detail is remarkable!

Thank you for your time and effort. You are an inspiration to this old retired artist.

The fallen angel esthetic is one that I particularly love. Full of emotion and meaning, story. Always heavy is the representation. Really like this piece. Brought me back to Raziel from Soul Reaver. Nice work once again

Wow this is an incredible sculpture. I love the raw emotion in it. I'm impressed by your anatomical skills and how natural you're able to make it look. I appreciate that you included the parts where you struggled as well, since it's so easy to forget that the process isn't perfect even at very advanced levels. Thank you for sharing this very personal piece! It is very inspiring and makes me want to learn a lot more about sculpting!

This is amazing… thank you for making this. This is also how my depression feels. Bless you

Your an amazing artist and I love it! I can’t believe anyone would critique you

Your reaction when sculpture is done is so nice! When it over I’m becomes happy with you

Usually, I don't comment on videos at all, let alone such personal things. I've been suffering from high-functioning anxiety since I was 15, after a failed suicide attempt. Before that, I used to write "dark" poetry, wear black all the time, and very rarely be a cheerful person. Over the years, I've managed to become what I always wanted, and although it's still hard sometimes, I'm much happier now. I'm also an artist, and often I create art just for myself. Maybe people outside might see my art as trivial or too girly, but that's what makes me happy. For a long time, I hid behind this sad and subdued persona, but now I feel capable of doing what I want without needing anyone's approval. And that's what I see in you as well: a person and an incredible artist capable of making things that fully express his feelings and his thoughts. I hope someday to reach that level of artistry. Thank you for this video.

Through this video, I found someone truly expressing art. I'm glad that i'm here. Really, you did such an amazing job!

I definitely feel like sculpting or painting or any other expressive form of art is a very good thing to have when dealing with big emotions like this. Being able to show how you really feel with no words is very helpful

I believe the monster version works for some and not others. The monster almost reflect as how we are feeling currently, such as your ankle injury made you possibly mad at yourself or hate the idea of not being able to walk without pain again. this a reflection as how we view our selves as a "what we are now" rather than "what we could or used to be". anyways love your channel and sculpts!

Wow!! I am new to your channel and I am so amazed and happy that you are so Frank with your process. That you show what doesn't work for you. You are an incredible sculptor and I am so grateful for your teaching and sharing your amazing work. Thank you 👍

I can simpatize with you. Dealing with depression is not as easy and someone who has never dealt with it may think. I'm glad to hear that your art helped you get through it. Congrats.

Damn mate, you tell so much thing i struggle myself each work i made in sculpture. It always a lot of struggling and disappointment that not seen in the final version. Thank you!

Art. Thank so much for your hard work. I suffer from severe depression and you truly captured the anguish and despair that I feel. It's very good to have a healthy outlet such as sculpting to vent that emotion. I really even liked the first sculpture while it wasn't refined it was a beautiful expression of yourself.

I can’t remember which video brought me to this channel but I don’t care cuz this is phenomenal and pretty inspiring for me. I’m not a sculptor but I do wanna dabble in more forms of art one day as well as get better at things like paintings (which Ive actually been doing as i watch.) and plenty of other things. So i gotta say thank you for sharing and giving this visual representation of your mind in that state. Means a lot to a guy like me honestly.

Appreciate your open and heartfelt narrative, and your descriptions of the creation process. Very informative and a wonderful experience (for me at least) Also one of the more interesting interpretations of a human figure with wings I have seen. Thank you for sharing.

Thank you sharing such a private piece of your world. I connected with it in a deep level and it encourages me to express myself in a similar way.

I honestly can relate, there are some times when you can understand or explain your feelings. It just suddenly happens, and it is very lonely and sad. portraying it through art is the most honest way of expressing it. I love your art and videos! Just subscribed :)

Stay as genuine and true to yourself as you are at this point. Your feelings really translate to me and also the concept of externalising your deeper feelings and big emotions to make it more tangible is so recognizable..

As a fellow artist and man, this one hit. To get out our inner thoughts and feelings and convey it through our cRaft heals the soul. You ROCKED this

I’ve recently got into sculpture and 3D to help me with my art and understanding form better for my work. To help me construct things better in my head and real life to get what I’m imagining. To “draw like a sculpture.” I absolutely loved this video. Your thoughts, the process, the entire thing was amazing. It inspires me to express my feelings through art. Thanks for making content and creating art!

Love the video. Great work , I really felt your story in the piece. very well reflected. Enjoyed it more by following through then just seeing the final result. I am really hooked...

I only recently found your channel. I have been blown away by your knowledge and understanding of anatomy and physiology. The things you point out as issues are often not at all apparent to me. I have learned a lot from watching you and the critiques you have of your own work. I honestly think you are way too hard on yourself. You are SO good.

This one is so well done. What an emotionally powerful sculpture. Congrats on another masterpiece! I'm also really glad to hear that your recovery is going well. Stay strong brother 💪

some subjects that we all share in life. you seem very honest and open, keep up the great work!

I know it's been a year since you released this one but I wanted to post a comment thanking you for sharing your struggles and to give this one some love. You're right, it's not an easy thing being so vulnerable and open about your struggles. I know. My daughter struggles with depression and has used art as part of her therapy for years. I was definitely moved by your final sculpture and seeing the process you went through to achieve it was, I think, important to include because art is a process. You don't always hit it on the nail every time. As they say, the struggle is real. Also, I found your choice of wings modeled after bats to be an interesting choice when you spoke about the subject being like a fallen angel. It wouldn't have been where my mind went first and I would love to know your thought process on it. Since bat anatomy, I believe (not an expert for sure!), incorporates their hands into their wings, I might have termed the wings a bit more dragon-esque. Anyway, thank you for sharing.

Wow this is amazing and I hope you can express yourself more through your art as an artist I get it trying to express your deepest emotions into a singular piece but it helps you learn more about yourself I hope I can get into sculpture

Good to see you Art it's been a minute. Once again another great piece, details within the sculpture are always on point, i was in awe of this piece, the emotion on the face made me feel sorry for him wondering what he went through to be in such despair. Keep it up mate love what you do and it's always a nice surprise when i get notified you have posted a vid. stay strong and take care. See ya on the next one.

Yo as soon as you started working on the face I was like "that looks like Eren Jaeger" and less than a minute later you mentioned that it had a little bit of an AoT vibe. Great job bro! Your work is truly amazing.

Thank you for sharing, both the sculpt and the video were beautifully done :)

you're a great youtuber you defiantly deserve more followers.

Lover ur job and the work u doing ! AMAZING results!

The result is amazing as always, and as always I loved to see the process, the backtracking, the decision making... But this one hit differently, hit home. My entire life (outside the workspace) revolves around movement, around climbing, skiing and generally being out in the mountain. Its the only thing that I've got to detach myself from everything else, since I'm socially awkward and have zero sentimental life. I often find myself thinking what I'd do if I were to have an accident that takes all of that away from me, and this sculpture you made fits painfully well: broken, lost, desperate, without something to grab onto. Thank you for sharing this artwork and your story with us.

22:23 Drybrushing at big surfaces is usually more effective if you stipple multiple times instead of continuous stokes, tried that on my latest sculpture and drybrushing through stipling felt like it gave more gentle effect (and done what it is supposed to do - enchanted texture) while stroking ended up making this part messy

I love art so much it brings out the pain and agony, this is extremely beautiful, the expression on the angel is dynamic….the colors go with the expression as well…well done

i love it and you did such a good job with the aesthetics and capturing the emotion! keep it up

Just found ur Channel, been watching some Videos. Love all of them. Keep going, great work!

you don't ever need to apologize for doing something to help you be well, so long as it's not hurting anyone. it's so important to find a way to cope with things like this and if this works for you, and you want to share that with people, power to you. do it. fisticuffs if you apologize for it. like i get i'm a year and a half late but it's still an important message to get whenever. this is a healthy coping mechanism and others getting to see that and the vulnerability of it is honestly amazing. pieces like this are important to other people too. it's something that some can relate to and lets them know they're not alone. this is sappy but i'm standing by it 😤😤😤

I like to use the word moment, I wasn't in the moment. I think it sounds better then depression. Your smile and voice are very pleasant to see and hear. You made me smile by saying here we go again, 3rd time is a charm. I think your sculptures are amazing.I pray your knee gets better soon. I'm happy that you have this to express your feelings and how honest you are opening up about it. Again Thank you so much for sharing.GOD BLESS.

While I enjoyed the whole sculpting and painting process. It definitely is as much as entrainment as a learning process of how much wisdom you're giving out. ✨ Kudos and more power to you.

THANK YOU SO MUCH❤... This video was beyond helpful to me. I have been an artist all my life but recently I started to lose my eyesight and my doctor told me that I was going blind. So my eyesight was slowly declining for the last few years but in the last few weeks my eyesight got way worse. But I promised my family that I keep doing art. I started sculpting because It's all about textures and how it feels. I learned a lot but I struggle with my characters eyes. I think I struggle with the eyes not because of my eyesight loss but because I myself can't imagine anything I create having beautiful eyes. This made me really sad until I saw your video. It was great seeing your process and how you struggle and how you overcame hardship . I love how your struggles was shown in your art. Now I am thinking about experimenting with creating characters with no eyes but with a lot of expression like Any Lee. Thank you for posting this. It was very helpful❤

i FEEL YOUR PAIN. I too, am an artist, and we are all too often susceptible to depression. I nearly died from a suicide attempt ones, during the depths of mine...here I am...i also had an NDE that took me on a journey that made me so much better, Art is so useful for us to heal from it, get through it and come out better in the end. Keep at it, because stopping, makes you more depressed, trust me. We were just talking about getting back to our art and music, as therapy and so we don't lose ourselves in this mess of a world. Thanks for sharing!

I am in LOVE with this sculpt!

You have bonded with your depression and laid an egg that has hatched . Many a time I have drawn pictures of darkness and found it a relief .

No thank you Once again I enjoyed your time with us. Be looking forward to your next sculptor. Thanx again

This is the first video I've watched of your work and I got trully mesmerized by how talented and cute you are. I deeply admire your bravery, your knowledge on anatomy and... there was something about your smile and bright eyes that reflected how you may feel and spoke directly to me somehow. I wish this message could bring you my warmth and best wishes. Sebastian.

hope ur doing good bro. i love ur videos. so inspiring. really encourages me to keep sculpting.

omg this hit HOME. For me, it was not necessarily depressio but more than it is a GRIEVING of the Dying pieces of YOURSELF that the injury/disability has or is "killing" off-it's deep grief most won't have to experience thankfuly. Mine was from a multitude of degenerative conditions but mostly my back and nerves wich effected my limbs. Has to give up my loves that made me-me-teaching yoga, publisjing articles, ect The loss of speech not nly due to pain but aphasia caused by the med side effects PLUS exactly what you described on top of it-not being able to axequetly describe it to others.Thank you for giving a vision and beautiful artistic exptession of that agony as we relearnn who we are with our broken wings

WOW. A TRUE MASTERPIECE. THANK YOU

You always comeback with more epic work, that's why your videos always worth to wait and watch till the end, ever since the first, wonderful 👍👍

True Artists put or portray their feelings through their work in such a unique manner so that the observer also experiences and go through that particular feelings. Whether that artist is a sculptor, a singer or a poet, they are true to their job only if they can wake some sort of sentiment or idea inside the individuals. To me that is Art & you Sir! have nailed this.

Gotta say, the expression on your face when you showed the sketch just really struck a cord with me (i hope thats not weird) It kind of, to me, reflected the feeling of working through all the dark shit one might have in their life. People always say that talking helps, and it does, in the long run, but in that moment its excruciating; often when we share deeply personal, especially negative feelings, it just feels absolutely agonising, and soo exhausting. The process of therapy, of working through trauma or even just intense negative emotions is incredibly hard because it feels so frustrating and honestly, stupid, at times. It feels like putting a deeply personal thing on display and then waiting there, tense, feeling awkward, but also afraid of what the response of other people will be; might even feel embarrassed over sharing something so vulnerable that you're not sure will make sense in anyone else's mind.

I think you did an excellent job. I love it. Well done 🙏❤️🤗

You are making a great work! I love the way you take a emotion and transform it in art.

You are a true inspiration to others. !!!

Incredible work, and wonderfully presented with storytelling - thank you!

That's very incredible your wor man!!!

Your videos are super inspiring, thanks for sharing! When the music dropped on the big reveal I got mega goosebumps :)

Great to see you--hope you are feeling great in mind, body, and spirit! When I am down there, I remind myself: no matter how bad I am, someone, somewhere is always worst than me; no matter how good, someone is better than me--I shouldn't be down on myself/yourself because I/you am/are never in the worst of the worst of state. As you stated, what happened to you led to your sublime talent now. I like the look of the one you opened this video with--it was more human; it felt more real to me.

After fighting cancer for nearly two decades I had a breakdown and couldn't cope anymore with the relentless suffering I have to go through. So I did the same and painted a sort of self portrait to represent how I was feeling and it was very cathartic and so helpful.

Thank you for your honesty!

Hi. For 20 years I used valeting and detailing friends cars as an escape for my depresion and anxiety, actually got pretty good with the buffer, all self taught, anyway, throughout this last 5 years, after numerous avenues, I got free from the mental prison. I've recently been back at it after a break and I would say I do a better job, quicker, more organised, better results, less work, my point is, never ever stop doing what you love, especially if it's your escape from the mind, and never ever give up and let this depression get the better of you. If I can get rid of it after 30 ish years then you can.!! Great video by the way, Ive recently stepped into a creative side of me that's not been out since childhood, I'm currently working with epoxy resins, drawing, and now I want to get into clay. Thankyou for a great video, ❤ love to all. 🙏💜✌️✌️

Wow how can you be so good? Incredible.

20:17 I die for that expression. It's always so refreshing to witness your process and all the emotion connected to your pieces. Keep loving what you do, it's amazing!

Excellent as always and a wonderful sculpture. When we are learning a process such as you creating the wings as a opposed to just using a learned technique doesn't it make it so much more exciting. To have no idea how to achieve something but going ahead anyway ... and succeeding is a great feeling. As the old saying goes ...'if you don't have doubts you should give up being an artist'. Keep up the brilliant work. .

I totally get it…I think my art and sculpting is my escape…I lost my dad when I was 16 and then my mom a couple years later…I went through a horrid depression for about two years. Probably situational and not clinical, but depression non the less…anxiety and depression as bad as it gets. It did finally lift when I was around 19 and I got back to my normal feeling, but the pain of that kind of loss was always present but I learned to manage it. At least the depression was gone, but never have I forgotten. Now that I am grown with adult children, art is my escape…like I have never wanted down time…art keeps my demons away successfully, and I am so thankful for it. I feel fortunate that I never started drugs or drinking to relieve the pain and I learned to cope…having kids helped too. So, just want to say I get it. Love your work and glad I found your channel ☺️. Sculpting is my passion.

thanks for sharing as some who suffers with chronic depression i really appreciate you and this video and since the pandemic lost my job an i have found everything else a lot more difficult, but found sculpting in the last few months, i have started buying everything i need an been experimenting so far an feel confident i will be doing the kind of work i imagine, iam following you know an looking forward for your future videos

Thank you. Love this.

I love what your doing bro, im a sculptor too. I saw your work on one facebook group and digged in to this channel of yours. Thank you for sharing. Keep it up.✊