Me too I've never seen myself like this I have no idea what I'm capable of I'm scared of what I'm turning into because recently someone threw me away and everything I did for them and it's started to make me question "Why still be a good person if you only get pain no matter how much I hope, wish, pray I'll always be the one suffering and people see me as the bad person..if a bad person is what they see then a bad person they will get" ik it sounds stupid but I'm having thoughts wondering what if I just turn bad and not be the nice kind person everyone says i am idk