Yeah, mind opener. Only thing stopping me from visiting a religious order is the finance to get there. The other obstacle is i have a desire to act in some of my scripts i wrote, comedy mostly. The rest, i wish buyers would come along & release me from those scripts. Then I'll have the money to visit the order i have in mind.
If it’s money or time or finding your peace, what have you done in prayer time? Maybe you need to read over the comedy you wrote and speak with God on what makes you so dissatisfied or it could be a cry to experience the truth, the best comedy always has truth attached to it with no bits or gimmicks.