Usually it physically hurts more the next day, after the endorphin rush has worn off. I wake up the next morning and am like "ow" In the moment it feels great though. Sorry you're having a rough go of it right now man. You are appreciated. I hope you get some good moments soon
Like you said it depends on a couple of factors. For me, it mainly depends on what's going on mentally at the time. If I'm feeling like crap because I hurt somebody or did something out of character and have been told about it (I feel like I might be dissociating but I need to look into that), I can try to hold off but if I can't then the sh won't hurt as bad. If I feel really overwhelmed with emotions or have just had a really bad day I tend to internalize anger (my fault or not) and then I want to hurt myself after that turns to sadness. Those times hurt the most because I'm already loathing myself and reflecting negative thoughts against myself.
I agree, it's subjective. When I was much younger and first began self harm, it wasn't a physical pain. It was purely emotional, but as time went on I began to notice the physical pain and it shuts off my emotions. It certainly hurts more often than not.
So happy to see youbon my small little screen again, Scott. Ok, my take, when I'm manic or having a panic attack, i feel no pain, but when the urge is too much and im kind of calm about it, its extremely painful.
When I self harmed there were times that it would hurt other times not so much but after I'm done harming myself the emotional pain is gone for awhile and I just feel this calming effect
For me it definitely hurt every time, but that's what what I was trying for. That was what helped me with the anxious feelings and cleared my head or what I wanted when I felt that I required punishment. (as of this comment I just passed 101 days clean :) so please don't worry about me if anything is this comment seems concerning)
I always did mine really quickly, while trying to go as deep as I could in a short amount of time. And later, yeah, it always hurt after. But I didn’t really feel it. Like, yes, I felt the pain, but I didn’t really FEEL it, in a way? It was just there. Idk how to describe it. I hope everybody in this comment section is doing alright.
It definitely depends. Sometimes the endorphin rush is so overwhelming that I don't really feel the pain. But sometimes it does hurt. It also does depend where it's at. I hope you are feeling better!
When I self harm, it only hurts at the beginning and after a while, it just makes me feel relaxed and I forget everything else… if that makes sense in any ways…
I think it highly depends on the level of dissociation the person in is while self harming. For me it can be a very different experience in different states of mind
So glad to see you uploading again! Personally, it hurt to begin with but then after a while I just didn't really feel anything which kind of made it worse in a way. If I then did it elsewhere on my body then it might hurt a little bit. This is purely physically speaking.
I’m trying to my hardest to stay motivated 😅 And thank you for the insight; I’m noticing that this is somewhat common (hurting at first then not so much as time goes on)🔥
When I’m frustrated or angry, generally at myself, it stings physically but doesn’t hurt. I’ll be disconnected or in a trancelike headspace. I might feel pain emotionally but I don’t feel the sh pain internally, just on the surface as a sting. It has to be during that moment, because urges will subside even though still crave to sh... when that happens, it will hurt and I don’t want to sh as greatly or deeply.
It depends, sometimes it hurts and sometimes I'm so used to it that it doesn't hurt anymore. When I really crave the physical pain I'll burn instead of cut
It doesn't really hurt tbh, maybe for a second or two if ive done a lot, but nothing past that. Although in the days after yeah it does hurt a fair amount.
That is a question isn't it. Am not sure. From my experience, not really. It's in the moment and severity. If it does then it's usually because of how much I've done it in said area. It's more mental than physical
I always enjoyed self harm. It gave me feelings but now I can't stop, no matter what i do, i just go straight back to it just for the feeling I keep everything clean, eat healthy and I do work outs. Any tips on how to stop?
Tips on how to stop? I wish I knew. But honesty my whole philosophy around living with mental illness is not about focusing on recovery. (See Why I don’t aim for recovery video if you want more on that). Long story short is that focusing on recovering and “stopping” is what leads us to feeling out of control and keeps us going back time and time again to the SH. It’s hard for me to say much more without doing an essay style reply 😅