Don't you worry bro, Jesus chose you and loves you so much ❤ (John 3:16): "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
Through it all once again Came to know my only friend Lost control Can't begin, I seek within To feel the warmth brought within your skin Did you know For how it seemed I should've stayed and let you be Run into my heart so carelessly That's the reason I'm afraid You're the thought that can't be tamed And I'm trying to be sane And I'm trying to be sane And I'm trying to be sane ❤❤
The dream 30 seconds before waking up: (She was the most beautiful person ever graced to man and she will never appear in my memories ever again as I wake up once more to live life)
read this comment at 1:40 Even if we don’t know each other I hope you know I love you and I’m proud on how far you came just know night or day even if I’m dead I’ll always love you and be proud of you and support you each step of the way.
the alarm, it shakes smth in me. it’s engraved in my head , when this song plays i can’t stop hearing it. it’s so traumatizing, it brings me back to school, that was my alarm for when i would wake up, and i hate how much a normal alarm ringtone can bring back all this love i had for this boy, he makes me feel so happy all the time, but then he js becomes nonchalant whenever he wants, and then he’s not nonchalant. it makes me sad tho, not sad enough to cry but sad enough to sulk in my feelings thinking abt how badly i’m falling for someone who’s not interested anymore. he love bombed me, i love bombed myself. no matter how much i hear this song that alarm will always bring me back to reality knowing that nothing will change.
2:23. AS soon as this happens I can imagine a vivid flashback of every memory a person could ever make, before they move onto something else. And for me, that's becoming an adult and leaving this old life behind.
Man, I can never find love anymore or anywhere, in matter of fact I forgot what love feels like I'm so use to being called a piece of shit or something fucked up, I have more feelings for hurt then I do for LOVE
I would sit for long periods just thinking about how we would get married, have kids, and spend our whole time together knowing that I would most likely never even confess. I would LITERALLY get up for school when I was sick just so that I could have a small chance of seeing him walk by. I have never fallen in love so hard in my life and I am sad that next year is the last year of high school because I'm going to miss him so much.
Hey I hope you're doing okay. Maybe you should give it a try and talk to that guy? I don't know your situation and all but you live only once you know. If it won't work out it just won't and you'll move on, but maybe it's worth a try? Sending love, I hope the best for you, stay strong 🫶🏻
@@Sowaspi I second this, it'll be worth a try! As someone who is also afraid to talk to that one boy i liked for so long, when you see an opportunity, take it. Wishing you so well right now! ❤
the dreams i have 10 seconds before i wake up: a dream that one of my friends who i barely talk to now but used to talk to a lot found out i was s3lf h@rm1ng and tried to help me. a dream that a girl i want to be friends with in my school texted me asking me if i was okay. a dream that someone im friends with who i used to be REALLY close c0m1tted su1c1d3 in the dream..
hace dos años me enamoré de un chico que me entendía. Que me amaba. Nunca podré explicar con exactitud pero me encontraba en el mejor momento de mi vida, digo no era lo mejor pero estaba satisfecha… Supongo. Pero aún así sentía. No estaba tan hecha mierda, él conoció lo más puro que jamás le pude dar a un chico. Ese chico era muy artístico, poético, amoroso, era todo para mí. Así que me abrí emocionalmente. De la forma más poética y romántica que jamás pude haber sentido con un hombre. Él fue mi chico soñado. Nunca fue grosero. Era demasiado lindo. Tenía tanta paciencia y eso que era de los niños que se les acababa muy rápido esa paciencia. He sabido muy poco de él últimamente… y creo que está en malos pasos. Es decir se drxga, se alcxhxliza y bueno, se denigra a él mismo. Jamás creí que se volviese así. Su pérdida me ha dolido mucho no llegué al punto como él. Pero yo me siento perdida y triste todo el tiempo. No es nada fácil. Ni para él ni para mí. A veces pienso en hablarle. Lo intento y quiero. Pero sólo me toca verle desde lejos. Apreciando cómo está creciendo. Solito. Y yo desde lejos, patéticamente queriendo que vuelva a mí. Yo estaría dispuesta a hacer una vida con él nuevamente. Pero esta vez más grandes. Teníamos 16 cuando nos conocimos por primera vez. Hoy que tengo 18 lo amo y le seguiré amando porque esa es mi promesa. No importa cuánto tiempo se tarde en volver por mí, yo estaré esperándolo día con día. No importa si nunca llega. No pienso enamorarme jamás de nadie. El vio en mí todo. Y yo en él. Fui su primera novia… Su primer amor y él para mí. Lo extraño, quisiera despedirme bien de él. Sigo con el arrepentimiento día tras día. Porfirio si lees esto. Por favor, perdóname, por lo que hice o por lo que no hice. Te amo y siempre te amaré aunque sea de lejos. Abrazare los recuerdos de nosotros dos toda una eternidad… Y jamás te olvidaré. te amo por siempre
moving on from him after loving him for 1 year and we did not even probably talk or date it hurts so bad , i am forcing myself to move on because me and him are not meant to be i guess. he does not even care about me and it is honestly killing me inside ( i wrote this comment 2 months ago and i moved on and i am really happy with life rightt now )
Damn, I'm just doing my homework and my negative thoughts randomly came up and I started crying Now my book is wet. But honestly, things have been so hard to the point I just want to disappear. I've given up on most stuff already. I accept that my friends stopped being friends with me because I'm boring I accept that my parents don't talk to me because I'm weird and don't know how to socialise I accept that my siblings ignore me because I'm not interesting to talk to I accept that I'm ignored at school because I'm a nobody I accept my decent exam results because I'm never enough I accept everything because I deserve it I don't deserve anything so I should just shut up
At the beginning of everything she had said she was afraid I would get sick of her, and at the end she said she was confused and showed up with another 2 weeks later I've never been so sad 🗣️💯🔥
