Thanks for sharing. There's a bunch of people out there that goes through similar things, and hearing it spoken out loud by someone else actually helps many of them.
Man, I feel you. I've also struggled with depression myself, and hearing you speak about your experience made me tear up. Very glad to know that you're still grinding. Keep on keeping on, brother. I also really enjoy your content. Keep going, keep grinding.
I feel you man. I have a lifelong injury for my time playing hockey in college. Fell into depression, broke up w/ my gf of four years. The Souls series has always been a safe place for me. Glad you're still w/ us bro.
I don’t usually comment on videos but I just wanted to say that I recently found your videos on RU-vid and I’ve been binge watching them and the lore on Elden ring and I just got to this video and it just broke me down and made me cry at the fact that I felt very similar to you in a lot of ways and our lives had completely different courses but it really just hit me about your childhood and what video games were like back then and trying to be a content creator was treated like, especially the fact that I am just now in life feeling OK to start doing that for myself and I also just turn 27 so thank you for this video it was something that I didn’t know I needed to hear.
And you gotta keep pushing king, I literally felt the same exact way you expressed your comment, but take it day by day, keep moving forward, we all gotta get thru difficult times together, shit why don’t people get others social media on here like that, we can all connect even if we’re far, stay strong fellow tarnished 🤞🏼
AgtJake it was great to hear your story. I've struggled with depression and have visited the dark corners of my mind where life just doesn't seem worth it. I have also spent many long hikes here in Arizona, they are great for clearing your head when it's not a thousand degrees out. I am so glad you found something you love, video games have done that for me. Hang in there and keep making content. I am always excited to see your next lore video!
I've been suicidal and depressed myself. Knowing what it's like to be in that place, I have a huge amount of respect for you. Both for still being around and also talking about it. Hugs
As someone who just lost his dog of 18 years this video was extremely nice for my overall mental health, shits just always gunna be sad but people like you genuinely make me feel like everything's going to be ok 👍 thank you.
Sorry for your loss dude, that’s the equivalent of losing a close family member when they are that old. The only thing that helps me personally when people I love / pets I love pass from old age is just know they aren’t in pain anymore.
I become a Tarnished after this video because I really appreciated learning about the person behind my favourite Elden Ring Lore Videos. You're one of my new favourite content creators. Thanks for sharing your story, it's super relatable, I've just been diagnosed with ADHD, Aspergers and Complex PTSD 😀 (it's a relief tbh) Its pretty much been me, my dog, fish and a few stray cats along the way for the last 7 years. I make friends easily but don't get on with my family. I'm just really glad your parents have been there for you when you needed them the most, I wish I had a mum like yours ❤️ I wish you all the best on the future. I'm really good at Square Enix games but haven't had the guts to try the Dark Souls series but the lore of fromsoft games give me life. You have been keeping me company when I've felt alone so thank you. You content probably helps people more than you will ever really know. Take care Sorry for the essay 🖤
Good on you sir, I also have horrid bouts of depression so it's wonderful to know someone who's content I enjoy is being happy and enjoying life. I truly hope you keep thriving. Never give up.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can't tell you just how much I relate to the whole "packing my belongings and moving them neatly into a corner to make it easier after I'm gone" admission. Wanting to end your life is one of the scariest things anyone can go through. I still get those thoughts from time to time but I just want to see so much in life that there's always something to keep me going. Best of luck with the future of the channel, I just know you're going to make it big someday. Looking forward to the journey!
I feel you, man. I went through some things very similar to what you experienced and I would like to reinforce what you said: Guys, if you're going through some dark times now, please know that it really can get better. Please don't give up. Please try to do what's best for yourselves. You can do it!
We’re very glad you didn’t go through with it. It’s very helpful you shared this because I’ve been going through the same thing and you’ve helped with your videos.
Respect big man. Plus, your Radahn lore video got me into Elden Ring. I never played any Souls game and you helped me get into one through lore alone. So thank you
I'm 40 with BPD, manic depression and some really awful chronic anxiety. I was diagnosed at a fairly young age (early teens) and have struggled ever since. The constant combinations of meds long term, manic highs and lows, absolute shit show. I don't like comparing notes to those who share, but sharing is one of the best things you can do. Honestly, the past few years have been pretty brutal and Elden Ring was one of the things that kept me going. Sounds weird to a lot of people, but I really don't think it is. Finding things to keep you going, whatever they may be, that's so fucking important. Glad you are still around and making cool stuff. Cheers from Portland. 🖤🤘🏻
Going through depression my self, I can totally understand how the smallest words or reactions of others can effect you. I really enjoyed the vedio, it reached something in my heart. Glad you are in a better place now, I too liked elden ring very much, but I'm still struggling, I hope we all get better and more excited for life.
You too tho brother, you gotta stay up and strong just like our boy, life is hard af and I’m going thru it too, but man this video made my day and life teaches you so much, but it’s hard going thru depression, we gotta tell ourselves that we are not gonna be in this position forever, elden ring saved my life too, I didn’t know my direction, I’m sorry for anything your going thru, I hate being in dark places and so does everyone else, we gotta turn our mindsets around, even when it’s hard, Ik bro, but look I have love for all the people who came down to watch this video and express themselves, much love bro, please stay strong, keep playing games that make you feel the world, if you need to talk we definitely can bro, be safe and stay strong fellow tarnished
Thanks for sharing man. Video games can definitely have that effect on people. I have a similar story to yours, and without giving too much details, I too got to a point where I wanted to end it all. At the time, I was playing World of Warcraft and told myself I want to at least have the super rare dropped mount, Invincible, before I go, as that was the mount I really wanted the most. At this point, that raid tier was already soloable, and with my four max level and geared toons, I started farming the boss on a weekly basis. This took years and multiple expansions, and became something to look forward to every week, and without realizing it, I actually continued living and stopped thinking about that dark thought. And by the time I -finally- got the mount, I was beyond ecstatic that I didn't even remember why I started farming it, until I had to share this exact story to another friend who was also going through a dark place. Up to now, video games, along with therapy, have helped me keep my mental health positive. I am by no means a popular RU-vidr, not even close, but doing my video game recreations of my favorite video games have the same effect as farming that Invincible mount, and keeps me happy and going. 😁 Glad to know you're out of your dark place and now enjoy life! I've been seeing your content and enjoy watching it, but this story just made me a full fledged follower of yours. 🙏
People think I'm exaggerating when I tell them about DkS1's effect on how I view life, specifically it's challenges, and how it's responsible for my success today. I won't bore everyone with the details but I'm summation; I learned that you only go hollow when you stop trying. That everytime you bang your head against that wall that seems impossible to break through... each attempt makes the goal seem a little less impossible. Until you inevitably succeed. It might take 100 tries, but failure is baked into the experience.. not a set back.
Hey dude. From one 27 year old Jake to another, you’re not alone man. Our end goals may be different, our paths may not the same, but we ultimately want the same thing. Personal happiness and growth. I’m glad I came across your channel the past few weeks. I’m also working my way out of tough situations, but this will be the definition of our character. These terrible thoughts are not what defines us. They are the hurdles we must pass to continue to grow. How you’ve handled this situation so far has kept you alive. Kept your ambitions alive (foul tarnished). It’s all good to feel defeated and like a failure. Without that lesson of failure, you won’t ever reach your full potential. Keep it up dude. Loving the content.
The last 10+ years have been rough for me, constantly sick and frail. This year got even worse. January I started having a really bad time, couldn't go out hardly at all, couldn't drive, couldn't play games. It was miserable. I found out that I had been having very bad seizures and while having answers it was still very difficult to understand and accept it. Still couldn't play my favorite games because those were what were triggering a lot of the seizures. I know having elden ring has literally saved me too. It got so bad right before it came out that I just wanted to give up. I've absolutely hyper fixated on this game, watching multiple play throughs, every lore video I can get my hands on and of course finally playing it myself. It's been a big help. I hope things continue to get better for you dude ♥️ life is very hard but you've got this!
this game did the same for me. it came out just in time and i really needed it. i had a surgery in january and couldnt move for like 4 months and depression started sinking in hard until this game came out. it kept my mind busy until i recover enough to go back to work.
Good for you man !!! You've done well for yourself . I love your lore videos well thought out and well articulated . I can relate in a way oct. 2020 my wife whom I genuinely loved told me marriage over get out ... No joke , I was devastated and depressed but was able to get through it with the help of some good people . Who I have come to consider friends , I met them playing dark souls 3 !!! So thanks Charlie and Denise love you guys and thank you from soft and thank you Jake for sharing your story . Stay strong brother and keep the awesome vids coming !!!
Hey you, yeah you with the face.... I found you through watching Elden Ring lore and I love your content and your story is great man I'm sure you'll help a lot of people who are down and out on their luck so keep up the good work you beautiful bastard! 💪🏽😁👍🏽
While I can't say I've experienced the same hardships as you have, I can fully relate and empathize with your struggles. I vehemently applaud you speaking out about these issues. We need more RU-vidrs like you being forthcoming with their audience. We need more legitimate humans behind the "screen". Monetization and commercialization has had the effect on RU-vidrs of projecting a fake personality and life. Thanks for your time making great lore videos and happy to be a sub of your channel.
Really appreciate this video. Mental health is a huge deal and nobody likes to talk about it. The honesty in this is amazing. I literally stumbled on your channel by accident and having loved elden ring just subscribed because I know it helps ppl and it costs me nothing. Also your dog is the shit and I also have a dog so I’m partial to dog people lol but I actually do watch your videos and I can’t say that for every channel I’ve subscribed to so keep your head up my man!!
I'm so glad you pushed through all the hard times! I know how it is, and fromsoft games are actually some of the best when it comes to helping ppl with depression! They give you challenge after challenge that you will always have everything you need to overcome them, and that's a powerful thing for those who feel hopeless and stuck. And the addictive lore is a great distraction, too! Keep up the excellent videos! I look forward to each one!
Thank you man! I had a similar experience and i can say that this game along with ds3 helped me a lot! I consider art that thing that gives meaning to life and explain some things that we couldn’t express and these games make just that. The beauty, tue horror, the hardness, the endless deaths and the joy of succeeding…all tools to help us understand what makes us tik.
Hearing your story made me emotional and for that you get a sub lol. Very too real and relatable. And it takes a lot to be able to talk about all of this stuff online. And you have the same tastes as me with Skyrim and souls game lmfao
I found out your channel today. I fall in love with your lore videos immediately. You seem like a good dude, I'm really glad you are feeling better. Good for you, mate.
I could empathize with point after point of your experience, the specific ups and downs sounding so familiar. I love intimate storytelling, always having played games for immersion. At my lowest point I researched all dark souls lore I could find, despite never having played, only to find Elden Ring about to release. I'm someone who also found greater purpose/meaning through Fromsoft's worlds, so thank you for telling your story!
Hey Jake I’m glad that you are doing better. You’ve earned it my friend. Personally myself I’ve never been in such a dark place in my life but I truly believe on that saying of you fall, fall on your back, if you can look up, you can get up. Best wishes for you. Ps. Man I wish I would have ran into you in Phoenix you would have kicked it off with me and my friends.
I'm glad I know this. I shed a tear when you said that your mom took a plane just so she could drive home with you. that's incredible. I do have to say though that exercise and eating better will not cure all depression especially clinical. medication will always be the surest bet. exercise and diet help substantially in improving one's mood absolutely yes but a lot of us are still broken beyond that. I'm glad you were able to get out of your own head but again that's not the norm for most diagnosed cases. regardless, I'm always happy when people with audiences speak about their own mental health struggles. eventually it won't be stigmatized. I'm very happy that you're doing better now.
Yeah, I found you because of Godwyn's Lore Hunting video and I found your way of discussing the game's lore quite interesting. This idea of gradually discovering more and more about the game was quite different from most videos on RU-vid, which present everything at once to the viewer. I know this kind of video gets worn out quickly because so much of the game has already been discovered, but it would still be nice to have you back with the Lore Hunting series. I don't agree 100% with your theories, but overall I think your videos are pretty cool. Congratulations on the content and thanks for sharing your story.
(sry for my bad englisch in first place!) i break out in tears cuz i feel kinda the same what you have done in life, it feels like im the only one who have did this what you said. you show some ppl there not alone with depressions or addictions.. thanks for sharing! dont look to the Grond and keep it up! i fell in love with your elden ring content! you did everything right with your channel! Thanks!
Thank you for being this honest about it. I've put off, and put off, even though I desperately want to be a content creator, but I'm always afraid I'm going to make the video, edit it, title it, upload it...and of course, nothing is going to happen, and nothing will continue to happen. I actually have gone through the process, downloaded everything, learned to edit, and got...nothing. 20 views? If that. So of course it can be soul crushing, and life is just depressing in general, take it from someone on 4 meds and in therapy now. This was super brave.
FromSoftware’s games pulled me out of a hole I never thought I’d find my way out of. I’m glad there are people like you where they saved others as well. Thank you for sharing your story. Be safe friend. Don’t you dare go hollow. ❤️
Glad you shared this man it’s an important topic and takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there. Love your content, especially the lore videos. Thanks for what you do man!
Bravo! I clicked on this video based on the title and am so pleasantly surprised by what you had to say and the way you said it. Just another Elden Ring enthusiast hungry for good content; looking forward to checking out your backlog of videos and whatever is still to come! Courage.
I first got here bc i too wanted to get to know more about the lore of the game, and suddenly i found myself watching every single one of your videos man i found them really cool and very well explained which made me want to watch them all and it became my background sometimes as i played elden ring until the end of the game and for that i thank you , keep it up knowing you made it here
Thanks man i love hearing your story it hits so close to home for me I even tried playing it for my girlfriend to help her, I'm here no matter what content you bring man
I just feel you. I'm not me anymore since years and it's even hard to remeber who I was. Gulty, sadness, bad thoughts in general are devastating me costantly but I'm not giving up on them. I suggest to you to seek psycholgic help from a professional because you don't know if you will fall again in that black hole called depression, and seeing someone might help you even if you are at the highest point in your life. Also: that Majula host hits hard ♥
Keep it up man, depression is a bitch and it hits all of us in different ways, elden ring has also helped me in the same aspect....it gives a sense of belonging and a sense of confidence when you succeed at something so challenging. Just keep that grind goin brotha, live your videos man.. souls games are a brotherhood and we're all here for ya, praise the erdtree!
This is a serious concern. Thank god that a game helped you through your problem and depression. The community here and everyone is here for you and your content! Keep it up!
Definitely struck a cord with me. Meeting my fiance and working hard to build a good life for us really helped me. Ironically eldenring arrived when I felt downtrodden and while I don't get to play often because other things take the fore it really helped me not only love video games again. But helped me get back that spark for building a better future I had.
Won’t lie been watching yah vids on my Xbox for a min I’m not signed in so couldn’t sub finally did😎. Thanks for sharing this tho as a fan it’s nice to feel close to the creator(s) of what you love. That really deep piece of emotional information really makes you feel like a friend a companion rather than just someone making videos. Thank you❤️
I’m really happy that you’re in such a better place now and never forget that you are not alone. Keep going Jake and I can’t wait to see more content from my favorite elden ring RU-vidr 😎
I’m in the same place and to be honest this is the best game out there and it helps out people keep up the grind and you will make it this game open up a lot of opportunity’s and you will make it🙌🏼
Glad you made it through all those hardships. Your success now is well earned. Should you come across any more difficulties (I hope not), I hope your current experience can serve as motivation to overcome it, just as it is motivating for us as well. Hope you'll be doing well. 🙂👍
i pity subscribed to you ._. 20% of the reason i subbed was also because i really like you from the content i've seen, i guess i think you're a good person too and that if you keep this up you WILL become very popular on youtube. keep it up crystal bud. when you were in your early twenties did you have absolutely no friends for several years?
I think especially if people are sensitive towards these kind of subjects they should watch this video. Confront these issues by listening to a person sharing thoughts about it. I think this is one of the best things RU-vid has the ability of doing. What is so sensitive about having the opportunity to connect with peoples thoughts by just accessing a platform at the tip of your fingers, in the comfort of your intimacy? If you are uncomfortable with discussions about depresion, suicidal thoughts, addiction please watch this video. Thank you for this video and opening up a part of your life to us.
If not for the stress management that SoulsBorn games teach players, I wouldn't be able to handle the stress of my job. If I can tackle the same boss, or dungeon, over and over again, until I succeed, I can handle anything. They really are something more than simple games, they are truly works of art capable of changing you for the better.
Amazing video man thanks for sharing ur experiences life is hard but it's also what yu make it.. keep pushin n keep striving ur doing a great job 👏 ur content is really good love the elden ring lore.. I learned alot from you 💯
You know sometimes I feel like Miyazaki want to sent a message in his game maybe the value of life of the unfair things that life gives ( got that feeling from the lore of souls game ) but anyway stay strong and thanks for sharing it definitely help a lot of people.
Good dogs and good games, will help everyone. I believe your exercise and body/mind aspect. I like your pacing and that you know more than me...still I’m a new subscriber, I haven’t even finished a play through of Elden yet, so I’m definitely on board for new content.
This may be a bit unrelated but community college is often really underlooked. If your unsure about what you want to do after HS I suggest trying out community college along with a part time job if your family lets you stay with them after your 18.
Thanks for sharing. It's people with platforms like yourself that help the most because you're saying: 1. I have a dream job, but life is not perfect nor easy. 2. It's ok to admit that you need help. The stigma needs to end. As a father of 2, the last thing you want is for it to be too late to help your kids, or yourself.
You know hard time create a strong man. But still thanks for sharing and I will keep watching you video and I hope that you Chanel continue to grow bigger
I've always wanted to be a educator on RU-vid. I'm very good at coding and have a lot of knowledge to impart, but who wants to learn from a nobody? I have no job in tech, and I can't even get time off work long enough to produce a video, and yet I always have no money despite working all the time. Idk how y'all do it man. Props though, glad you got your shit together man. Maybe one day I can get like you...we're the same age.
