I had a drugy mom who would feed me xanax and i have a beautiful daughter and baby mama problem's me md Eminem have a lot in common why i Relate to his music got addiction to drugs gor clean for my daughter and learning to forgive my mother also
My brother killed himself when I was little and my mom became an alcoholic. She couldn't cope. I used to get so mad at her and listened to Cleaning Out My Closet on repeat to piss her off. I grew up, I realized what she went through was one of the hardest things a mother could endure and I found myself appreciating her in a new way. She died from the alcoholism, I had to take her off of life support. I kissed her forehead as she died in my arms and all I could hear was this song in my head. I lost my dad last year, he got murdered. I found myself wanting my mama and looking for her strength. She wasn't here but I found that strength because of the love she gave me when she was here. I love you mama. Rest in peace💕
I love that you can print or write down his lyrics and read it out loud as if it were just a regular essay/ letter/ poem. Another good example is walk on water..
I remember listening to this song when I didn't understood half of the lyrics (I'm french) but it get me in tears every time, just because of the way he raps, the clip... ldk why...I guess I felt what he means in this song, and it shows his talent, especially for storytelling ! I was on the same situation for a lot of his songs, like When I'm gone
I’ve always loved how he criticizes his younger self on being blinded on how much he really does love his mom and how much she means to him.. it’s a blessing he snapped back to reality before she was gone and it was too late
My history with my own mom was not nearly as bad as his, but it was still really bad (I moved out on my own in my teens because I just couldn’t take it anymore, not understand how bad bi-polar disorder affects people). Years later I heard this song after she died and broke down crying because while we were able to heal most of the rift, it was never the same before she was gone. Now that I’m a dad myself, this song hits even harder than ever before.
I always loved this song when I bought the album in 2013. I was too young to understand the story. But now I can and Marshall was right, it was a tangled web they had. Just relieving he got to apologize to his Mom for everything.
My dads always been an abusive drug addict, but at the same time he was my best friend. Im 19 and i havent seen him in 5 years. Marshall this song is what i needed, maybe ill finally be able to forgive him :,) thank you so much
Your dad loves you more than anything . Drugs can take the best and dish them out back to the starting line I wish you and your family and dad a brilliant future bro
Here's to all the sons who stick by their mothers through the hard times. You are our saviours, our light and our true love. Thank you Noah, for never giving up on me. I love you. ❤️
@@lucas8561 it's not like an easy thing, the problem is he already had a fucked up life and his mother was making it worth on him like why didn't she just give him some support some love but she added to the cruelty that he was facing throughout his story growing up without a father figure.
You are a legend ❤ Your mom needs more love after all she is your mom. I'm sure she regretted this decision 1min after she left. Always show love to her.
I had a drugy mom who would feed me xanax and i have a beautiful daughter and baby mama problem's me md Eminem have a lot in common why i Relate to his music got addiction to drugs gor clean for my daughter and learning to forgive my mother also
Even I have a single working mum. This song just makes me cry and love her more. My dad always used to cheat on my ma and beat her at times, nor did he love me. Thus in 2017, after he abused her badly, we separated from him. But we tried to council and reconcile with him. Nothing worked. He was just the same, toxic words, behaviour. During the lockdown, he stopped paying my school fees. He also had illegally married another woman. My mum struggled a lot to pay and that's when she decided to divorce. So, after work she had to run to the court miles far. Just a year ago, she divorced him. Presently, there might be financial problems at home but atleast there's peace. I'm 15 now. I love you ma. I love you for everything you have done for me. Thankyou Eminem, sir your songs have helped me to cope through hard times.
I have a very similar life story to yours I’m 24 now keep looking after your mom and help with everything you can, you may of not had the childhood you wanted but you can give that to your kids, and live it through there eyes and emotions, sucks we had to grow up sooner then we wanted but you got this little man keep going🙏🏽
Being the kid of a mother with lifelong mental and physical illness and addiction issues I relate to a lot of what he talks about here. This is the one Em song I can't help but tear up to a little when I hear it.
LYRICS: Mom, I know I let you down And though you say the days are happy Why is the power off and I'm fucked up? And, mom, I know he's not around But don't you place the blame on me As you pour yourself another drink, yeah I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who, what I said hurt In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far? "Cleanin' Out My Closet" and all them other songs But regardless, I don't hate you 'cause, Ma You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my Ma Though far be it from you to be calm Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm And both of us put together could form an atomic bomb Equivalent to chemical warfare And forever we could drag this on and on But agree to disagree, that gift for me Up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me You're kickin' me out? It's 15 degrees And it's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave" Ma, let me grab my fucking coat Anything to have each other's goats Why we always at each other's throats? Especially when Dad, he fucked us both We're in the same fuckin' boat You'd think that'd make us close (nope) Further away it drove us, but together, headlights shine And a car full of belongings, still got a ways to go Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road And I was the man of the house, the oldest So my shoulders carried the weight of the load Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old And that's when I realized you were sick And it wasn't fixable or changeable And to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though, but I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on Maybe we took this too far 'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though 'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow But I'm sorry, momma, for "Cleanin' Out My Closet" At the time I was angry, rightfully? Maybe so Never meant that far to take it though 'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not makin' jokes That song I no longer play at shows And I cringe every time it's on the radio And I think of Nathan being placed in a home And all the medicine you fed us and How I just wanted you to taste your own But now the medication's takin' over And your mental state's deterioratin' slow And I'm way too old to cry, the shit is painful though But, Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours But I love you, Debbie Mathers Oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause One thing I never asked was Where the fuck my deadbeat dad was Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus Owned a collection of maps And followed my kids to the edge of the atlas If someone ever moved 'em from me That you coulda bet your asses If I had to come down the chimney, dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em And although one has only met their grandma once You pulled up in our drive one night As we were leavin' to get some hamburgers Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths and I saw your headlights as I looked back And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to Thank you for being my mom and my dad So, mom, please accept this as a Tribute, I wrote this on the jet, I guess I had to Get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to Lay it 'fore I'm dead, the stewardess said to fasten My seatbelt, I guess we're crashin' So, if I'm not dreamin', I hope you get this message that I will always love you from afar, 'cause you're my mom I guess we are who we are Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on Maybe we took this too far I want a new life
I remember when this come out! Blew my mind,so introspective, he savaged his mum over the years and it's so beautiful to see him come to terms with and reconcile his relationship with his mum. No one is perfect
Detroitish Shannon here!!! Rest in peace my 13 yr. Old son Bret Christian 8/22/00-6/22/2014 He loved this song and Eminem was his favorite rapper. Great song!!!
“That’s when I realized you were sick and it wasn’t fixable”.... to anyone with parents who struggle with addiction or mental health; find the answer in compassion and understanding. I’m sorry for all you have or will face.
Tried to but it has gone nowhere....it's the same cycle that won't stop...unfortunately some people are just better off not being involved regardless of blood relation
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This song feels like he made it about my life. Mom was never around for me and my brother. She was always running around doing drugs and doing what she wanted. My brother and I had absent fathers growing up, so we got raised by family friends bouncing around from home to home. I listen to this because after 16ish years, our mother finally got clean and started to come around more often. She has a job and is back on her feet once again. There will always be that angry child in me, but a 24 year old me has finally given in and forgave her. Thank you, Marshall, for sharing this with us.
10 years of this video, one of Marshall's saddest songs, take care of your mothers and tell her you love her if you have the opportunity, happy mothers day
Yeah i was raised by a single mom to i know what you are going through listening to this song Every time i listen to this song it makes me cry because I treated my mom bad and i wish i would of treated her better i will have to talk to my mom and apologize for the way i treated her
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It’s almost as though em grew up with us, the young anger at a rough upbringing, maturing into an understanding of why things were the way they were when we were young, into being upset at ourselves for resenting it, and trying to make amends, I was real young listening to em and followed him all the way through, coming back to this song now feels like a full circle moment, I hope y’all call your families and tell em you love em, anger only allows us to feel justified for so long.
Ill forever be in the moment with my first born baby niece, she played this too me as we drove past the BP Servo Redland bay, Qld.......It broke my heart to hear her feelings thru his words.....Epecially Thank you for being my mum and my dad.......Miss you Ga xx
No you don’t. I was on OG fan and I even attain some of my upbringing towards him as I didn’t have a father in my life and I used people like Eminem to fill that gaping hole (pause). But I hate this gate keeping mentality of “you had to be there or you’re not a real fan”. I’m sure there are many fans who were born after the year 2000 who love his old work and can understand the importance of this track. If certain things speak to you on a deep level, we don’t have to discredit others’ understanding. Just my 2c. Peace bro ✌️
If someone told me 17 years ago that he's gonna make this song, I would told them no fcking way, never gonna happened! It's amazing to see how much this man has grown and matured, after everything he's been through... And I feel lucky and blessed for being able witnessing this whole journey... It was such a great experience! ❤️
Right in the feels. Every damn time I listen to this. And I love it. I may need to go back and listen to every other song he’s ever wrote but this just may be his best lyrics ever.
Fatherless boys tend to blame their loneliness and depression on their mothers instead of blaming the real enemy, its sad man, I wish it wasn't like that.
This song is just so full of emotion. Makes me think of when em said " my songs can make you cry, take you by surprise at the same time, make you dry your eyes with the same rhyme." I was literally doing that this whole song.
Makes me think about my relationship with my parents. I'm happy that I'm doing good with them. And you should always try to be nice to your parents. Because one time they're gone and you regret that you didn't get along with them.
They should of done what they did on the monster when she had the tv on and it showed his videos mouthing her....he should of been rapping the lyrics to headlights on the tv
@@amandariley1160 Yes its normal that his music has changes - as he has changed himself. Yes stan is one of the best, those two others I didnt listen. I listened to rap before in the past so not familiar with anything from Eminem past Recovery (2010)....but when I stumble upon some song like this one, and when compared to those old songs - the difference is huge...so maybe not bad, I just dont like it.
Never heard this song before. Not a big fan of it sonically but I really like it because I know the history of their relationship and I think it so dope that em matured and essentially forgave his mom and now empathizes for her. The lyrics are touching in so many ways. Love seeing people grow. “Change is inevitable but growth is optional “
@@Wurmg. cleaning out my closet is a song from eminem in which he diss his mom that time he was angry thats why he wrote that every stan he wanna say he is using stan word as a big fan of eminem stan was a song released by eminem its about the ppl who become mad by following a superstar go nd listen these two songs you will understand all take care nd stay blessed❤
people need to stop refiring to themselves as stans. the original stan killed himself and his pregnant girlfriend and that's what you want to call yourself?
people need to stop refiring to themselves as stans. the original stan killed himself and his pregnant girlfriend and that's what you want to call yourself?
Made me cry... 😢 you have transformed your pain over and over ... nothing like the love a mom has for her babies... sucks when they can't show it properly because of their own trauma though 😢 children deserve the absolute best versions of ourselves as mothers. Not to go through generational trauma and pain. You are a healer .. with your forgiveness, your perseverance, your ability to overcome despite the obstacles stacked against you, and with the openness and honesty of the words that you share with the world❤ blessings xo
" But Ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan. All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both" "And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to Thank you for being my mom and my dad" That hits hard
I lost my mom two years ago its hard to think about how much more time I could have spent If I hadn't moved to Los Angeles. In her final years my younger brother took on here illness burden. He quit his job dumped his girlfriend gave up his entire lifestyle just to take care of my mother. I'm glad Eminem is trying to make things right with his mother although this was not his mother in this video its still is a good representation of his mom. I hope he actually is trying to make things right between them. Life Isn't about money....
I know how you feel. I have parents. But they kicked me out of our house when i was 7. I moved to grandmas place and now im 14 living alone, taking care of my grandpa.
8 years ago (im 14)me and my sister's lived in my grandparents home with our cousins and aunts in relative poverty in Cape town. We were treated cruelly to say the least...we didn't eat for days...we slept with an empty stomach everyday day..I lost so much weight around that time...My father and mother's were trying to make ends meet so usually they weren't around to witness the cruelty we faced everyday...eventually we lived in our car for a while...long story short we know live in a safe place....We came from nothing to something...Never give up..❤
I'm 15, my grandma died at the last summer, She never told me that my idea sucks, she saw the future for me, but only now I understand that she is right, we must act, no matter what it becomes.
“One thing i never asked was where the f*ck my deadbeat dad was, f*ck it i guess he had trouble keeping up with every address, but i wouldve flipped every mattress every rock and desert cactus, owned a collection of maps and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas.” As a person that grew up without a father and soon become a dad, this sh*t breaks me every time.
As a single mother with a child with a dead beat dad. It hits hard. It puts the prospective of the way. They think when they grow up about their dad. And you only want better for your kids. Im so proud of Eminem for putting out this song. It was a huge step.
Love you bro. Sorry I haven’t wrote you back but I will tmrw, I have court this week and this song came on I’m way to old to cry this shit is painful bro. You got life and I wish I could of been there more but now all I can do is try to is thank you for always being there when I didn’t understand. I hope you get this messege that I will always love you from a far. Love you John Zamudio. Big bro I know this is your favorite song….
I hope someone has told him that Cleaning out my Closet helped others through their own pain. And the statement I will always love you from afar really hits home for me. I would love to sit down with him, and talk about why we felt the way we did from our different childhoods and how we got to where we are now.
