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Enkay47- im not okay
From ages 8-12, I dealt with a lot of abuse. I never told anyone because I was afraid of being viewed as weak or as less of a man. So instead of telling anyone about it, I escaped with music and poetry. I’m 25 years old now and I finally told my parents about what happened to me. It took me over a DECADE to feel safe enough to talk to my family about what I went through… that’s not okay. I could have saved myself a lot of heartache and suffering if I found the courage to speak up and tell them what I was going through. I’m sharing this song with the world in the hopes to inspire people to tell their stories. If you’ve been through any sort of abuse, SPEAK UP. Tell someone before it’s too late. Growing up, I never heard ANYONE talk about this, especially in hip hop music. If I had heard someone, anyone, open up about their story, it might have inspired me to vocalize what I was going through as a kid. My goal is to help create a world where people feel safe sharing their stories. I’m being vulnerable in an effort to help others feel like they’re not alone. If you’re NOT OKAY, that’s OKAY. Just don’t bottle it up. You’re not alone. ❤️
Prod by Pendo 46, Balloon Beats, Dylan Kusch & Third Seven
Mixed & mastered by Jason Carter
Video by Indie Black Magic
Directed by Indie Black Magic & Enkay47
Starring
Logan Martin
Hunter Martin
Jordyn Martin
Eliza Martin
Justin Mobley
Dimitri Martin
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Lyrics
Growing up
I was m- by someone I trusted
Growing up
I never thought I was nothing
Always wishing I was someone wasn’t
Until the day that I woke up and discovered
That I am amazing
Yesterday I just had a conversation
With someone that inspired me to make this
I told myself I wasn’t gonna create this
I f- hated myself
Every time I looked inside of the mirror like
I was afraid of myself
Because I was different
I didn’t know what to do
Every time that I was talking with somebody new
I felt like they were judging me too
I never learned how to deal with the stress in my life
So I learned to step in the booth
I didn’t know how to deal with these insecurities
I’ve been dealing with this immaturity
Yeah I’ve been looking for the security
I never got as a kid
I was tryna protect my own little brother
From it dealing with all of the s- that I did
Cuz I went through a lot
Yeah, I went through a lot
So I never told anybody
I never showed anybody the scars
I didn’t know where to start
So I’m gonna start from the heart
F- I know this is hard
Right now I’m alone in the dark
Sitting alone in my car
But I wanna help everybody that’s dealing
With this
Like I’m dealing with this
So I made em this song
Feel like there’s no escape
No there’s no escape
Feel like I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
And there’s no escape
Feel like there’s no escape
Feel like I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
Growing up
I was m- by someone I trusted
Growing up
I never thought I was nothing
Always wishing I was someone I wasn’t
Until the day that I woke up and discovered
That I am amazing
Yesterday I just had a conversation
With someone that inspired me to make this
I told myself I wasn’t gonna create this
Then I thought
About everyone that was dealing with
All of the s- I was dealing with
I was afraid I was gonna be judged
So I never told anyone I was dealing with
Anything
Yeah I’m always energetic
Never been been pathetic
Plus I never put myself first yeah
I guess that I never learned my own self worth
Because I was r-
Yeah I was 8
What was his name
I don’t wanna say
But ever since then I’ve been running away
Or maybe I’m just f- running in place
Regardless
It feels like a weight has been lifted up
Off of my chest
To tell everyone the reason I’m depressed
The reason I’m stressed
I’m taking this off of my bucket list
I’m hoping this helps
Somebody that I’ve never met
Cuz music has got me through a lot
Yeah and I’m willing to make a bet
That it’s gonna help you to
I’m hoping it gets you through
Whatever you’re dealing with
I want you to know
There’s a light at the end of the tunnel
Whatever you’re dealing with it’ll be okay
Feel like there’s no escape
No there’s no escape
I was so afraid
I was so afraid
I was so afraid
Feel like there’s no escape
No there’s no escape
It’ll be okay
It’ll be okay
It’ll be okay
Feel like there’s no escape
No there’s no escape
Feel like I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
Feel like there’s no escape
No there’s no escape
Feel like I’m not okay
No I’m not okay
No I’m not okay

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@Enkay47 Год назад

Lyrics in description. From ages 8-12, I dealt with a lot of abuse. I never told anyone because I was afraid of being viewed as weak or as less of a man. So instead of telling anyone about it, I escaped with music and poetry. I’m 25 years old now and I finally told my parents about what happened to me. It took me over a DECADE to feel safe enough to talk to my family about what I went through… that’s not okay. I could have saved myself a lot of heartache and suffering if I found the courage to speak up and tell them what I was going through. I’m sharing this song with the world in the hopes to inspire people to tell their stories. If you’ve been through any sort of abuse, SPEAK UP. Tell someone before it’s too late. Growing up, I never heard ANYONE talk about this, especially in hip hop music. If I had heard someone, anyone, open up about their story, it might have inspired me to vocalize what I was going through as a kid. My goal is to help create a world where people feel safe sharing their stories. I’m being vulnerable in an effort to help others feel like they’re not alone. If you’re NOT OKAY, that’s OKAY. Just don’t bottle it up. You’re not alone. ❤️

@amandahallman3707 Год назад

Enkay47 thank you. It will be okay. You are okay. Song gave me chills. 💙💙💙

@EvilJesus33 Год назад

You're steady growing brother.

@beautifulblessing Год назад

Thank you

@AWRemixAI Год назад

What a LEGEND you are bro! You are not weak, in fact, this song proves just how strong you are. I felt that energy since I heard your music for the first time. 🅴🅽🅺🅰🆈47 🅻🅴🅶🅴🅽🅳

@Whitening98 Год назад

Bro this song, speechless. Your one of my favorite artist.

@Indieblackmagic Год назад

Even after the countless hours editing this, I still gets chills. Forever legendary 🔥

@Enkay47 Год назад

Love you homie. Thank you so much for creating this with me.

@jodesbromwell8886 Год назад

The number 47 guided this song into my life thank you ❤️

@lindathao6303 10 месяцев назад

@@Enkay47stay strong too god loves you

@roloayers4587 5 месяцев назад

@@lindathao6303 If there was a god then he wouldn't of been fu*king molested in the first place. Same as me, if there was a god then i wouldn't of got abused when i was a young child. Same as my mum, if there was a god then my mother wouldn't of got breast cancer and she's not even a bad person, she's been a nurse for years, dedicated to helping others and she finds out she's got breast cancer and not only that, she's also got inoperable cancer in her neck, so yeah no fu*king god.

@juggalo6291 Год назад

Damn, bro. I imagine it took a lot for you to not only write this song, but to share it for everyone to hear. That's what I, along with many others, greatly respect about you. It's ok to not be ok. Keep your head up, man ❤

@Enkay47 Год назад

This one was hard to release. I needed to though. I lived in fear of judgement for most of my life. I want others to know it’s okay to tell their story.

@nevaehharris9562 Месяц назад

I've been through this man

@Whos_Angel_bro Год назад

🔥🔥the song is fire and emotional I'm so so sorry you went through that Nathan, we all go through hell and your music has helped me and alot of others cope

@Enkay47 Год назад

Don’t be, I’m proud of who I am. Appreciate you 🙏🏻

@aliramono6768 Год назад

It takes a lot of courage to tell a story like this. Your music is inspiring. I hope it gives others a way to heal through their own traumas as well. Thank you for being so brave & hopefully the song encourages others to also heal. Your music is therapy. 💙

@Enkay47 Год назад

❤

@dLEARiousZ Год назад

I just want everyone to know that its ok to not be ok, just seek help, its out there. Also therapy through music is a good start, much love to Enkay for speaking out on such a hard subject, love ya bro!

@Enkay47 Год назад

Love you homie

@RollingThunder85 Год назад

To whom do you reach out to and what can or will they help me with

@dLEARiousZ Год назад

@@RollingThunder85 therapists are a good start, they can help you in dealing with issues you don’t like to talk about with friends and family.

@stonedgoddess420 Год назад

Brave man for talking about it and making a song about it, im sure everyone out there that can relate really appreciates this , keep the good work up dude!

@Evanz111 Год назад

Amazing channel name! I love it :’)

@OnlyMetal4Me Год назад

As a man who is the exact same age as you and dealt with the same s*xual abuse from ages 6-10 this song made me fully bawl my eyes out with tears. I finally had a breakdown last year and ended up in therapy, my family still don't know but from it I was able to confide in friends I trusted and it felt like a weight off my shoulders. This song gave me the courage to share this comment with you, it will be okay Thank you Enkay, I mean that most sincerely. Please keep doing what you're doing, much love brother 🖤

@Enkay47 Год назад

I’m genuinely sorry you had to go through that, but I’m glad this song is able to help you. Having friends like that is really a gift, I hope you can have that difficult conversation in your family soon.. it’s hard but it really helps. Leaving everything in the shadows allows shame and fear to fester, shedding light on it heals your wounds. Wishing you the best man, thank you so much for this comment ❤️

@vincentboisvert4673 Год назад

my friend opened up about his abuse years after it happened and once we talked about it openly he could finally move on and now he is a really happy person.

@canisXpolaris Год назад

Unfortunately, in my case, no one believed me, not even my mom. She called me multiple "lady of the night" names I gave up telling anyone. I got into more abusive situations. In and out of hard drug addictions Thank you, so much, for sharing your story. I'm not so alone

@Enkay47 Год назад

I’m so sorry you went through that.❤️

@Evanz111 Год назад

Came over after Gunnar’s video on the theft of your music. Disgusting to see that someone would plagiarise something so emotional and personal to the original creator..

@Enkay47 Год назад

just saw the video. appreciate you coming through ❤️

@janeehiett98 Год назад

Thank you for sharing this. What you are doing WILL help others to open up about their experiences. I too, was molested as a child. It’s f’d me up for decades with alcohol, drugs and other shit that I’d rather not talk about on this platform. I am sober now as well and admittedly, am able to experience actual joy in life. I still struggle, I still cry and break down more than I should at times, I’ve almost died from a suicide attempt then slit my wrist open after that first real attempt. Thankfully, I realized that I didn’t really want to die before I even finished dragging that carving knife across my wrist. I called 911 myself. Again, thank you for your music and your strength to open up about your own experiences. Your doing this will save lives. Love to you and your music. - J

@Enkay47 Год назад

I’m sorry you dealt with that janee… it sounds like we‘ve been dealt some pretty similar cards. Congratulations on being sober though, idk you but I’m proud of you. Keep going and never give up on life. People like us were given the opportunity to help others in similar situations, we can’t let that go to waste. Sending love and positivity. ❤️🙌

@Judy-ln5di Год назад

Journey to be great and beautiful when living ✨💕

@Judy-ln5di Год назад

God bless the truth 🙏and paint are faces as warriors 🙏of our

@MJ-nl9hs Год назад

It’s okay to not be okay we all have our secrets of what we went through much respect for this song and opening up about your situation when you were younger

@Massofman Год назад

Just got the notigraph and damn this is so powerful!

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thank you bro. That means a lot coming from you. ❤️

@Gage_Bertovich Год назад

This one hit home man, all I can say is I know what you're going for. Music is one of the best ways to cope. Love you man

@Enkay47 Год назад

❤️

@isaiahsetzer8161 Год назад

This song made me cry it hit my heart hard I’m sorry brotha but I’m always here if you need to talk or any no one is alone

@Enkay47 Год назад

This song makes me cry nearly every time I play it. I performed it for the first time in Seattle and started sobbing in front of the crowd. That’s GOOD though. Healing is painful.

@RapFanMan1 Год назад

Best Shortest 4 min in my life 😭❤️❤️❤️

@JacksonPierce Год назад

This is so powerful brother. Much love.

@evanb8553 Год назад

Almost thought that was NF

@Itzmonday1 Год назад

❤thank you man luv the music 🙏

@mr.snowmanofficial5915 Год назад

Idk if you remember me homie but shit we the same age 25 years old, im from winnipeg, we are so similar man it's crazy, all I known is anger and pain, and feeling like I have no control. I know how you feel 100%

@The-Last-Airbender-e2k Год назад

i shed tears listening to this, my guy you’re incredible in every way and you’re incredibly strong for sharing your story in these trying times, keep your head up and keep smiling because we all love you and wish you the best in this life.❤️

@Gothflowers88 Год назад

I understand your pain. Even though I'm a woman, I couldn't tell anyone my story either. My family was emotionally and sometimes physically abusive, so telling them what happened in 1st grade with the groundskeeper, especially the one that managed the lunch room, all hell would've broke loose. Then at 15 I was raped by a 24 year old monster ( he was my first "boyfriend" and my last) for a year, along with his friends. I never got justice and he's still a free man... It kills me and many days I wish I was dead. I don't sleep that much anymore, and when I do, I'm haunted by nightmares of time. I'm 26 now and don't know how long I'll manage to survive this pain of the past, but I'll give it my all. Thank you for sharing your story , man. For what's it worth, I'm so sorry that happened to you. You are not weak, in fact, you are stronger than the monster that harmed you.

@Enkay47 Год назад

im so sorry you’ve had to go through that. i know we don’t know each other, but I genuinely am happy that you’re still here. I just turned 26 a few days ago. We both still have our entire lives in front of us. Let’s take the pain we’ve suffered and help others. appreciate you dude. sorry for the novel.

@Gothflowers88 Год назад

@@Enkay47 No need to be sorry, man. Sometimes it takes a novel to get the point across. Thank you for the kind words and for taking the time to read my novel :) Take care of yourself.

@revablack968 Год назад

Im so glad i got lost in the deep world of youtube videos and stunbled upon you and your music. 🔥🥵🔥🥵🔥🥵

@russellrogers3314 Год назад

Honestly ima happy to see some talk bout this subject and your spot on open up is a nightmare everyday I struggle alot growing up ima 30 and I just now started talking bout with my wife and honestly I feel as tho alot of weight was lift off my shoulders

@cata2567 Год назад

Thx Can t say to be strong bcs u are already, peace🔥

@Enkay47 Год назад

❤️🙌

@StephanieHendricks333 Год назад

I’m not one to share. I’m not one to open up and be able to talk about feelings and things like that but this spoke to me in a way that I’ve never been able to speak out about or confess to until now. …. I felt this in every way possible. The things I went through and the people who tried to silence me………. At least I’m not alone.

@therealpublicassassin726 Год назад

Ayo I too was molested by someone I trusted … it’s fucked up .. but there is a light at the end of the tunnel

@Enkay47 Год назад

I’m so sorry that happened to you… stay strong. ❤️

@lovelypaige5501 Год назад

Yessss I’ve been waiting!!!

@D34dm4nk1ll1ng Год назад

@Enkay47 when i was younger i was abused and to an extent no one talked about it no one every really did anything about it... ur song definitely hits different, and the shittiest part is, iv recently found out that iv compartmentalized what had happened and never worked through it, but as of recently i have been and then to find this song it means everything.... much love from one victor to another ..... "victor" (putting one foot infront of the other not loosing the battle) and anytime you or anyone for that fact doesn't feel like they can stand on their own well be one another's rock..

@HoskinHausLyrics Год назад

I'm so proud of you, Nathan. You are one of the strongest and most MANLY of men, in this sick and fucked up world of perverts and fake machismo amongst the mainstream, where they even glorify those sick fuckers that destroy children. I've always been waiting for this song. I felt it, from the first time I listened to your words, that you were holding onto something like this, only because so much of your work sounded like the sounds of my soul's screams, that are still trapped in me, manifesting as self loathing. That feeling is exactly what compelled me to continue listening to your music, amongst this metaverse of escapism artists, because I knew you had the strength in you to BREAK the walls of shame and fear, wall that the perpetrators DEPEND on, fuck they bank on that, to ensure that they can continue to destroy people's entire lives to satisfy their sick and deviant perversions. YOU have done one of the most amazing things that I've seen done in your industry, by opening this taboo door of communication for all of us, leaving yourself so vulnerable, for a cause that will truly SAVE LIVES... Hopefully some of these other sheep, in the music industry will have the balls, or even the intellect to follow suite... People always calling artists, "King", role models, or edgy for talking about some comparably weak-ass topics... but they don't deserve that, not compared to what you shared here. This is incomparably powerful, and a catalyst for us all to grow with. You are the epitome of a REAL MAN, a complete bad ass, and have made yourself, truly, a king, with your self sacrificial gift and talent. So, thank you. For the truth shall set us all free. Hopefully, with this, one day we can all figure out how to get those hellish memories, and necessary words, outside of our heads, and somehow begin to heal, and get that pain locked away somewhere outside our head, preferably doing some hard time in a cold dark cell, with the perps. Again, thank you, Nathaniel Lake Kawaguchi.. inspirational, for real.

@kingiez4209 Год назад

I found you back 4 years ago and I've listened to your music for 4 years keep it up dude you come a long way

@dianabaker4380 Год назад

One of the realest and hardest songs I listen to, most days i can't and some days it's a blessing tho it feels selfish to feel its a blessing cause it hurts to know that you know how it feels, ain't sth we wish on anyone not even our enemies

@Rednekplay Год назад

Dam man I feel like you know who I am I grew up my hole life believe the if I show any negative emotions the I was les a man until as u put it until the day I woke up and new I was grate

@Mandydavisinkedupblonde Год назад

❤️ very proud 👏 first step is speaking.. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@nataliek4333 Год назад

This is amazing but oh my god can I give you a hug you are amazing angel and so strong you deserve all the love and shouldn’t of had to go through that angel ! Much love keep being you ❤

@alib7775 Год назад

Wow

@Rv3TRIPS Год назад

Started from the bottom bro. Now look where you're at. You're my fucking hero bro. Every song you've ever posted has kept me sane and always pushing forward. Idk how you do this every day man, but holy fuck I respect and care for you so much. Keep fighting that fight bro. If God tries to lay another hand on you, I'll be more than happy to lay this heavy hammer of a fist on top of anyone that tries. Much love bro 🤘

@Ilovemems Год назад

I love your stuff

@AverageJoe2023 Год назад

I’m sorry you went thru all that. Man need to learn how to speak up and you are paving the way for them. Much love

@Enkay47 Год назад

Don’t be, it made me who I am. Appreciate you man. ❤️

@Itzmonday1 Год назад

Thanks! You are the goat

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thank you. ❤️

@Itzmonday1 Год назад

@@Enkay47 no thank you for all you do

@tylerb556 Год назад

This is going to be deep 🔥🔥🔥💯💯

@melvinazor7041 Год назад

Discovered this guy from Matthew tuck last year and listened to his popular songs last month, I'm glad RU-vid recommended him again because it's the perfect timing while I'm feeling completely alone, this is very helpful!

@Shark_Studios2 22 дня назад

So real I can feel it in every word.

@mbj399 Год назад

Lot of us out there I guess… you gave me another day brother…

@Im_StillAsleep Год назад

Yuhh first

@OutcastWrestling620 Год назад

What an amazing song with an even better message.

@bildo73 Год назад

I was molested growing up by my father and grandfather. It sucks they way it has caused me to be so unattractive to myself to the point that I figured everyone else would see me the same way. It has destroyed my sex drive.

@Enkay47 Год назад

I’m so sorry that happened to you. Hang in there. ❤️

@EvilJesus33 Год назад

🔥🔥🔥🤠🔥🔥🔥

@OnlyDreamers Год назад

AMAZING SONG! We Love You Brotha and feel your pain. This song will be important to so many people.

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thank you guys. You were one of the very first people I showed this song to, I remember all of us crying in the studio listening to it haha. Love you fr bro, thank you. ❤️

@OnlyDreamers Год назад

@@Enkay47 Love you too brotha

@shockzbaby7975 Год назад

Nathan… I’ve been waiting for this song to drop since you showed us part of it. I want you to know I’m BEYOND PROUD OF YOU! You are NOT alone. This song makes me want to give a big ass hug bro. We had a lot of deep conversations but this hit hard. I related so much (being a female at that) I’ve held so much in. Still do. It’s okay to be open. You know how many people you just saved with this song? You’re a inspiration. Your strength just helped hundreds of other people be strong. You’re amazing Nate. Love you bro… - Hayley…

@Itskingbbq Год назад

Hey Nathan, I’ve been a fan of yours for a while. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that. I’ve never been through that. I’ve only ever been through emotional trauma. I wish your fans now could’ve been there to help you. But like we’re all saying in here, keep your head up man. You’ve made it this far; and you haven’t given up. That means something. So keep up the great work Nathan. You’re an amazing artist and I love your music. I know how hard it was to release this but you, did it. All your fans, we’re here for you. No matter what Nate. I’ll say it again, you’re an amazing artist and an amazing person. So keep up the great work and keep working. You’ve helped more people than you’ll ever know. ❤

@Itzmonday1 Год назад

Thanks!

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thank you so much

@BlightMind Год назад

The one reason why I listen cause you’re raw and authentic. Beautiful track man🔥🔥 speaks volumes. Definitely wanna collab with you soon. Much love Blight Mind 🙏🏼

@jameshardy3051 Год назад

this song is so powerful there no words to describe how this song made me feel bc ive gone through this to and i told my mom and dad when i was 18 and it was years before that when everything happened i just wanna say thank you for opening up and writing this song and ik its not easy at all to do that let alone make a song about it so thank you

@wrigleyy69 Год назад

I'm 40 now, but still live in the years of ages 5-8. My friend I trusted molested me and if I told anyone I would be in trouble. I can't escape that pain no matter what! Your song gives me amazing chills, vibes, and I don't feel alone with your words! I've listened to you since your first freestyle in your car 6 years ago!! Thank you for being you man!

@MIVidaLoca666 8 месяцев назад

I was molest by my oldest brother and my older cousin I got silenced all my life took me until I'm 35yrs old to finally speak up and not care about making the family mad

@GeorgiasPhotography Год назад

Man I know you don't know me. But I'm so fucking proud of you.

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thank you. ❤️🙌

@victorparedes6044 Год назад

I been pushing the algorithm, listening to new music all day, and this song is undeniably the hit of the day, the hidden gem. Thank you Enkay, keep doing what you're doing, we need more music like this.

@Crux-Beats Год назад

Stil have a lot of respect for u bro, I love the song even tho it should have been fucking hard to write it...We Deal With So Much Shit Growing up & it doesn't get any better. I still deal with trauma since 5 years old and the hardest part is you remember everything like it was yesterday. I stand with u bro

@Enkay47 Год назад

Appreciate you, thank you. ❤️

@uffuoinn4682 Месяц назад

Man, this song... I was 10 when it happened to me two different people. Different times.. but the difference is. I did tell my family about the first time right after it happened... sadly, they didn't believe me. And continued to bring him around. To make jokes about him coming to cuddle with me It took them 13 years. Drugs and alcohol abuse. And an attempt. For them to finally see that I'm not okay.. I'm 25 now, trying to do the best that I can to find peace with my. I recently found my faith again. And because of that, I've been able to find 1 year of Sobriety, and i have my own home that i feel safer in..

@kristencrane2872 Год назад

@enkay47 this page @makebestmusic us using your song and crediting it to post malone... I have reported that page so many times. Maybe you can get them taken down?

@zombiemvp4lifettv Год назад

I've never been molested but I have been abused and I've been trying to keep my little brother away from my ex step dad cause I don't want the something happening to him that happened to me and it kills me cause he could have his dad in his life like I never did. And my dad is in prison and getting out on parole in the next 5 to 6 years and my mom want me to ask him the question of why he's in there and I can decide if I want to try and build a relationship with him because he went to prison just after I was born but I stand were im back and forth with what's the point he's done missed over half of my life and what if once I find out why he's ther I hate him for it! so I never really got to know him I remember vaguely going to see him in prison but one day I just decided I didn't want to go and see him anymore and my mom never talked bad about him or has made me do anything that I didn't want to do so she never forced me to see him if I did want to

@CarriesAdventures Год назад

No one should ever have to go through this but I definitely do understand. I am so sorry that ever happened and we shouldn't have to carry that hurt and burden all our lives. Much love to you ❤❤

@HoskinHausLyrics Год назад

Thank you, you're truly a hero, and I wish I could do something to help you get all the recognition that you deserve and get your words elevated on more platforms. Any suggestions?

@Enkay47 Год назад

You commenting, sharing and watching my content is all I can ask for. Thank you 🙌❤️

@jenniferc.2514 Год назад

If everyone truly comprehended the magnitude & detriment!! I'm so sorry!!! It's not okay!! None of it!! And nam bit is your fault or the fault of any child!!!✔💯 Right Now, & steadily Inclining over the past 40 yrs, Family Courts around the world are severing children from protective parents only to award custody to domestic terrorists. While there has been a significance in the bias more often towards mothers; this too is changing. Any time domestic violence abuse or sexual abuse is divulged in family courts, the chances of losing custody to the abuser sky rockets to like the 70th percentile! The fundamental rights of parents to be their Childrens protector is at risk. Children MUST BE PROTECTED at ALL COSTS!! Public schools have been infiltrated and are working over time to normalize sexual abuse! I was molested 3 individually separate times by the time I was 7. My mom did nothing for me! Today at 46 its been almost 2 yrs since I've interacted with MY Lil girl!!! I cannot afford an Atty!! Family Courts are a RICO Syndicate exploiting and deteriorating a collective humanity!! Attys & Judges have a Monopoly on lock!!! It's the most disgusting, heinous, deplorable, & powerless evil!!

@carolebrooks6264 Год назад

OMG! That is soooo f*#%ing powerful!!!!! You had me almost fall to the floor. Tears in my eyes. Lumps in my through. I applaud you. I hear you. I believe you. It was NEVER your fault. You are not alone! Thank you soooooo much for making this and for sharing it here. You are a hero!!! 💪👏👏👏👏👏👏

@KatherineKieras 3 месяца назад

You're both courageous brave men. Thank you for this. Thank you for being vulnerable in order to help others dealing with this. ❤❤

@JeRzVibeInstrumental Год назад

😪🥺😢😢😢🙏🙏🙏I'm sorry!!! Its really hard, to escape from the pain. It never goes away especially when it happens at a young age. It messes your whole life up in the future if you don't know how to deal with it. Mentally it sucks. I'm 37 and still fight the mind.

@ShadezGhost Год назад

What a masterpiece 🖤

@michellemims4269 Год назад

I'm so proud of you for finally telling your parents about it. It took alot of courage to make this song. I know it will help alot of people that listen to your music. You have always helped me thru your music and here is another song that is helping me. Keep making music cause I dont know where I would be in my life if it wasnt for your song Set Me Free.

@Enkay47 Год назад

Thanks Michelle

@michellemims4269 Год назад

@@Enkay47 your welcome thank you for being you and making your music

@StephanieHendricks333 Год назад

The way this was felt was as if I was in this video and it was my life…………. Because it truly was …….. ……… ……. Thank you for reminding me that I was NEVER alone. …. That other people feel our pain. I was also 8.

@Frosty0762 Год назад

I finally got time to listen to this and I'm blown away. It took SO much courage for you to share this. I'm a female, I never spoke about my own demons. Not until it was far too late and 20 years later from the last time. I hope your story helps MEN speak UP!! Women too. Don't let these sick fucks run your lives anymore. This scars you for life. Makes you feel disgusting. I cant imagine how men feel...little boys.. nobody considers that it DOES happen to them. That they deal with this too! It's hard to talk about it when you think no one will believe you. Someone always will. Even just one person. They will. It's a fear of mine that my own son or daughter will go through it and not speak up. You're so strong for sharing this. So brilliant. And not alone. ❤️❤️ This will help so many, I know it. Also, it's okay to not be okay. That's the scars of life. Some we wear on our skin, some inside our hearts. It's what we do about them. This was beautiful, I cried for you. I felt your lyrics. You're so brave.

@seiymier Год назад

My best friend showed me this song because I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and abuse in general. It’s hard to admit it sometimes, took me til I was 23 to come out to my parents that my twin brother was the one doing these things to me. Im 28 now but still going through the cycle of sexual assault that happened this summer. I have ptsd because off all this, but I’m slowly healing every time I talk about it. This song the first time I heard it I cried, I cried so much that day. Knowing I wasn’t alone in this cold world with people who do things to us without consent. Im so sorry you had to go through that, that wasn’t fair to you at all. Im happy music and writing has helped you like it’s helped me. I promise you that I’ll do what I can’t to move on from this hill of hurt. If you can make something beautiful out of the pain you were given I’ll do the same thing too. Please continue to make more music and never stop writing since it helps. You’re an amazing person inside and out. Thank you so much for telling your story, we are not alone ❤ we got each other.

@We_Are_Legion999 Год назад

Who ever did that to you shouldn’t even have a name only a maggot of a man could do such a thing, to anybody regardless, you’re more a man than he will ever be, I pray he burns in Hell for his heinous sins and we love you Nathan this is the first song I’ve heard from you, my name is also Nathan and my siblings have went thru similar BS he is A NOTHING to you man stay blessed up you are a real definition of what it means to be G ❤❤❤❤😢💔😇😇🥹🥹

@braylathomas3811 Год назад

This song cuts deep thank you so much for sharing I appreciate you keeping you in my prayers 🙏

@Enkay47 Год назад

Appreciate you, thank you. 🙌❤️

@daltonkirby688 Год назад

This dude is my Favorite artist lately!!!! I even have a signed copy of his newest album!!!! Keep it up bro, your music speaks volumes to some of us!!!!!!!!!! Mush love 🍄

@nathanmerchant9041 Год назад

Everyone needs to speak out and make this abuse known without being scared, BUT definitely fully protected and saved 🙏🏻🙏🏻👍🏻

@anzilluuri Год назад

I'm not judging but if u were raped? 1. You need to get tested for diseases. 2. Whoever allowed it regardless if they know or understand what happened you need to have a long conversation with them. 3. If you have a disease from that technical encounter there needs to be follow up. And compensation. This is just the nice way of going about. But I'm an abomination I would take a pound of flesh metaphorically. Good luck going forward.

@gonebananas777 Год назад

Thanks for sharing your heart with us. I loved this when it was first released, and I love it even more today! I'm sure you'd rather not talk about how your child-like innocence was stolen by a selfish, uncontrollable, soulless, deviant, who thought they had the power to control someone else's body!! Maybe they need a name drop, unless they've changed, meaning they've already apologized, asked for forgiveness and dealt or currently dealing with the consequences of their actions. The darkness that most likely consumed you after such a violation, is enough to keep anyone down, especially a man. Here you are though, telling your story, and in the most beautiful way possible! You were forced into accepting something that you never agreed to, which is NEVER ok. Such a violation can turn into a lifetime of feeling physical and emotional pain, fear, loneliness, anger, etc. It can be difficult to change the negative feelings the longer you go without dealing with it or acknowledging it. Most sa victims feel too ashamed or embarrassed to say anything, allowing the assaulter to get away with their sins. I'm proud of you Enkay for sharing your childhood with us, I'm sure it was difficult to write and sing this song, but you're taking the steps to heal. The song is beautiful and proves you are very talented! I hope healing came from this, at least you're taking your power back! ❤️

@gonegod6220 Год назад

Even though I don't relate to this song, I admire the emotions and vulnerability you showed. We can see it coming straight from the heart. Amazing work, and I wish you all the best.

@katiemitchell26 7 месяцев назад

You're not alone. Same thing happened to me. It was my oldest brother. It breaks constantly because when I finally spoke out they all believed him. And sadly he knew they would. Sometimes I feel like it's my fault.

@joricchadd5467 Год назад

Holy shit bro goose bumps for real I just got around to listening to this definitely extremely powerful and impactful just like you said. Damn.🔥🔥🔥🔥

@michelleelle97 Месяц назад

I don’t usually listen to this type of music anymore but this one got me especially going through something similar I feel like I’m healing enough to listen to this type of music again

@daltonkirby688 Год назад

I swear brother, it's like you are telling my story!!! Your music is amazing and it's helped me through alot because knowing I'm not the only one brings me some comfort and the courage to carry on! Thank you so much for all your amazing music! Mush love 🍄 🙌

@jorgeechevarria215 Год назад

Prayers to the victims. Great track.😎😎😎👍👍👍🔥🔥🔥🙏🙏

@ryangautreau6731 Год назад

Your art is amazing ❤️‍🔥 and I want to give you recognition for such a beautiful goal you have and how many people you have touched and the courage you have keep on going! Thank you so much! This hit really hard. It is hard to talk when it's the people that have full control over your life, people you trained with so you can put your life on the line, betray you. There is no justice when you do speak because then you loose it all, they will do everything and anything to make you look like your crazy and blame PTSD and say your delusional, they have the power to do so when your a number. In this environment, you are caged and forced to bottle it, or they destroy your life when you speak up, but it puts food on the table for the family if you don't.

@katiemitchell26 7 месяцев назад

My oldest brother did the same thing to me. I just want to die most of the time. Once someone takes that piece of you away, idk if you can get it back. At least I can't. I literally told myself I deserved everything that happened. Sometimes I just want to cut out my heart.

@keilimccormack3013 Год назад

I just need to thank you for making this.. this has always been my greatest fear for my children. I have two little boys ages 9 and 7 and the kids you chose in this video happened to look a lot like my kids..... My children have not had an easy life and because of circumstances I cannot change at all for the next two years I cannot have them in my custody. My older son recently came to me and told me things that scare me so much because I'm pretty sure he's telling me this is happening to him or his brother. Yet, when I filed a report and tried to have somebody go out there to take care of it or at least to check on them; they were stonewalled and never even talked to my youngest son (the one that I'm most concerned about) and closed the case, immediately, without even investigating. So your song literally had me sobbing out loud all of the pain and fear inside of myself. I know its time for me to make my next move on this because I will never give up and just allow anything like this to happen... And if I'm wrong: then I'll owe someone an apology but if I am right... How can I call myself Mother I believe my children are being caused this pain? So although it hurts me so much and it scares me to think of what I need to do; thank you for making this song to remind me what I need to focus on. I am so sorry that there was nobody to fight for you, to protect you. I'm trying to protect mine while staying within the limits of the law and it is not easy. and I'm about to give up on the legal side because even if I go to prison: how how can I not justify that, if they get out safe?

@RapShadez Год назад

❤‍🔥 Respect to @Everone for speaking up about domestic Abuse ❤‍🔥

@brooklynhernandez6674 Год назад

I was molested from someone I trusted too. He was my older sisters boyfriend. I used to call him brother. I was 14 and he was 30. He was already scary because he would abuse my sister (it was bad). But I didn’t let that stop me from telling the cops. I had my Nice and little sister to protect. He’s been in prison for 8yrs now.

@grandmaemilyscatsandmore2255 4 месяца назад

This year,,the person who abused me when I was 4 years old died this year. I took this time to come clean with my family about my cousin. Many of my family members did not attend his funeral after I came clean. In that instant I did not feel alone.

@joshg469 6 месяцев назад

Remember ya'll: Physical abuse is the exact same to a child as sexual abuse or emotional abuse; Ends trust and begins betrayal, teaches people to not think or protect themselves with words

@dianabaker4380 Год назад

I don't understand why normal people who didn't face anything like this get annoyed when they hear me playing this song like it's personally offending them somehow but idgaf what they think or feel, I'm always gonna play real music i relate to. Thank you for making music nate. You're amazing

@xxShadowTheScythexx Год назад

... i feel this... That intro, man i was molested to, by friends of my parents, ppl i was supposed to trust... And my little brother suffered the same, after 20+yrs he finally stopped blaming me for not being able to protect him and now we talk once a year on his birthday. Ty for this song. You are not alone in this

@trent3504 Год назад

Wow thankyou for this song... I was molested as a kid by my mother's so called friends and this song made me realise I'm not weak to speak. Everyone needs to speak up men or women. I know I'm not weak now I'm a fighter and survivor thanks to your music. You saved me from a dark path. I now know I'm here for a reason and it's time to take the steps to change. You are underrated and people need to know your name and music . 2023 is enkay47s year.

@saltgaming9682 Год назад

I've been trying to find a way to express what I went through and I can never find the words and somehow you found the words I could not, thankyou ❤️ godbless your soul 🙏🙏🙏

@JustafiedMusic 5 месяцев назад

Bro I literally wrote a rap called I'm Not Okay but then I saw you have a song called that now, it's ok

@Magnesium790 Год назад

You are very brave bro, thankyou for sharing this. I understand you on a soul level.., stay strong keep pushing. God bless, Much love.

@lionheart7426 Год назад

I never heard a song that hit so close to home …💔 I’m 33 an still can’t talk to anyone about it not even my foster mom who I’m closest too. Iv struggled with my sexuality , self worth for so long .. guy in school would call me Gay because I didn’t like to be overly sexual about girls and even though I liked girl or talk about it ..

@infectedvoid Год назад

oh my god, that's a pure masterpiece. i almost crying right now... so many feels.

@paulhale8205 Год назад

It's happened to me when I was younger and everyday I honestly wished I could of disappeared from this earth till I heard this song it is hard to speak about having your inacenses just torn away but no matter what we have to keep on moving....🙏🙏🙏