Already seeing some comments of like "omg ANOTHER depressing video!? enough!" I see you, I hear you - but look... it IS LIFE. If someone else can even for a MOMENT feel like they are seen, I am glad to have uploaded it. I am SICKENINGLY grateful for my life, which is WHY i want to feel well. This is mental and physical illness. If i said nothing, they would say "She should have said something instead of suffering in silence" if I say something I am "depressing and ungrateful and negative" - There is NO winning. You can't have it both ways. But what I WILL do is continue to be authentic to what I am going through, good and bad. I thank the lord EVERY day for this blessed life, for this child I get to have, for our land, friends, family, what health I DO have. I have an updated video Wednesday that goes over what has happened since. I had my doctors appointment already and she is running SHIT TONS of bloodwork, I also have an EMDR appointment scheduled for Thursday on TOP of my twice weekly therapy. I am working hard and just sharing that. If it is distressing for you to hear, you are free to leave.
in czech Republic, you get the oral glucose test 6 months postpartum if you had gestational diabetes. I didn't go after first baby, i'll go this time (I have a newborn)
I’m chronically ill I got my diagnosis Jan of 2021 and was so excited thinking now I’ll get to feel better and the doctors will be able to help but nope it’s a very rare disease and no doctors close to me has any experience. This disease can kill me and not a thing I can do to stop it. I feel like I seem to complain and talk about my health a lot but you know what I don’t care I feel like crap 24 7 and can’t help it. I’m here if you need to talk and I’m listening to you it’s the least anyone can do if someone doesn’t like they don’t have to watch. Praying for you.
Always interested in hearing you b!tch. Yell it from the rooftops if you have to. You are heard and valid and I love the honesty. You help me feel stronger and I can't thank you enough.
This was the exact video we needed after Mother’s Day👏🏻👏🏻 everyone wants to talk about how important moms are but society doesn’t want to do shit to make sure we’re ok, ESPECIALLY after we give birth
“Food is morally neutral, but it is not physically neutral” this is such a perfect way to describe it! We don’t have to beat ourselves up because we have a doughnut but we can acknowledge it made us feel like shit after eating it and over indulging in that won’t make us feel better in the long run
Oh that is SO good and so true. Interestingly…there are a lot of well meaning people who are speaking about the harms of diet culture, who sometimes shame people for caring about what they eat because of how it makes them feel! It’s not helping to swing the pendulum. It’s hurtful and tone deaf to not acknowledge people with chronic illnesses who truly have to be very careful what they eat!
Raw Beauty Kristi is the name of this channel for a reason. We love you Kristie, for your raw, visceral honesty about life, health and mental issues. Everything you are going through is traumatic, and I am so grateful that you are sharing this with us. You are helping so many people while trying to help yourself and I hope you realize that.
Girl I’m only 12 minutes in and I resonate so hard with this …women’s health in this country is pathetic, even my gynecologist barely had a grasp on the large array of BCP….and I’m a Physician Assistant so I know first hand the pitfalls western med has…preach sister
Then why dont you go to college, med school, become a doctor and save the world since you have all the answers and are superhuman and couldn't possibly find a different doctor who can figure your insurmountable issues out.
You’re not crazy. You’re not alone. Something is off. A Functional Medicine doc saved me. She did deep deep bloodwork and found my autoimmune issues and a genetic disorder after regular docs wanted to medicate and told me I was just sad and needed to have more fun. We changed my diet and added mass doses of vitamin D and it changed everything for me. I want answers for you and the peace you deserve. Much love❣️
My sister looked for YEARS so figured out her chronic pain and watching RuPauls drag race introduced her to the condition she would later be diagnosed with (EDS). Chronic pain is so hard to deal with because it is ALL THE TIME and the people around you can't understand that sometimes. Yeah it's hard to hear about the suffering and issues over and over but how dp you think YOU feel? I hope you find answers.
@@Labyrinthine_Complexities for real. We are the experts of our own body. It was and still is, sucky that I am, and have to be my biggest advocate. Especially when doctors don't listen to what I say, no matter how I say it, how many times I say it. I hope I can find one that I can afford 🤞🏻🤞🏻
Ignore the negative comments and continue to share! I promise you are helping! It’s refreshing to hear something real, personal and transparent online❤ thank u so much for being so vulnerable and sharing what your going through
Yo, I appreciate your honest videos on mental health. Before I got mine addressed, it was videos like yours that convinced me to get the help I needed. I honestly watch these types of videos more than the pure make-up videos.
Same! It was kristi who finally made me realize I needed help. I hope she keeps talking about this stuff. People need to hear it and know they’re not alone
Our health care system in the us is abysmal. They don't care about finding the root cause so they can keep you paying for medication your whole life. I'm so sorry doctors have failed you for so long and I hope and pray you find a breakthrough soon. Don't stop talking about this! It needs to be heard
@@auggiedoggiesmommy1734 Uh our government is they! The way our entire country is run is a disgrace. Our government doesn't care about our well being, and that is heavily reflected in how our healthcare system is run
I couldn’t agree more. Finding a good doctor is so tough. I honestly don’t trust the healthcare system after suffering from weird joint numbness, pain and heart palpitations for which a cause has never been found. Doctors really do not give a damn to find the root cause. All you can do is eat healthy and exercise whenever possible.
as someone with a chronic illness, pmdd, and pcos this hit home brothers - and fuck I’m not even a mom! sending you all my love and support Kristi, thank you for sharing all this, it truly does make people feel seen
THANK YOU for talking about how no one cares about mothers!!! Everyone thinks I don’t want kids because I don’t like them, when in reality its because mothers have no support mentally, emotionally, or physically. Its insane. Sending love to you and your fam❤
That's very weird because I've always felt super supported as a mother. Not just by family and friends, but coworkers and neighbors and even strangers.
Intersting. I think it's all about one's perspective. As a woman without kids (by choice) I feel very unsupported because almost everything is geared towards moms and families. Listen to any political message (left or right) or public figure and they will always sight "families." So I guess if yur a single adult person, yur just on yur own and don't matter. Different lens based on personal situations.
@@luvzdogz I agree that perspective can change a lot of things, but our society completely devalues moms. Their literal value goes down in the workforce which a dads' will skyrocket and will be seen as more reliable in the workforce because now they have a 'family to feed.' Childcare prices are outrageous (I know because I used to work for a private one) and there is a lack of providers who want to put up with the parents. Parents also have a severe lack of resources compared to other countries, much less their own right to their bodily autonomy with the ways that legislation in the USA is heading.
There is a comment on here from a lady named Paula Marie about putting up photos that is great advice for any of us. I'd love her to pin it. It helped my family so much. It's not everything just one thing that really helps.
“Food is morally neutral… it’s not physically neutral”- THIS! That is a very simple and profound way to put it! 👏🏻 I’m wishing you all the absolute BEST and I’m super positive about the prospects of you seeing this functional medicine Dr. Please do keep us updated because listen, I am INVESTED!! 😂❤
I have PCOS and a migraine condition. I see you, and I FEEL YOU. I've been a follower for 9 years, and I'm so proud of how hard you've worked on yourself. Talking about health, both physical and mental, is SO important, and I appreciate you sharing your experiences
I echo this comment loudly and wholeheartedly! As a long time follower, seeing her evolution is and has been beautiful and an inspiration. It's hard and takes so much work to advocate for ourselves, but it's so so important.
I'm a therapist and I'm currently working in an intensive program for moms struggling with rough pregnancies and postpartum mental illness, and I cannot tell you how often I hear my clients say everything you're saying. It truly breaks my heart because you're right, no one cares about moms and instead everyone expects moms to hold up the world and just be okay and withstand everything. And then, of course, shame moms when they struggle to do that. It's really disheartening and honestly emotionally painful, and the best I can do is give my mommas a safe space to exist and feel heard. This is a big societal problem that's very deeply rooted into the health care system and it just frustrates me to no end. Hell, people don't even know that postpartum psychosis and OCD are a thing, despite how truly traumatic and dangerous those things can be. These things are so overlooked and dismissed, and it's horrifying, honestly. So I truly appreciate you speaking up and advocating for yourself and other women who have struggled with similar things. You don't need me or anyone else to tell you this, but you have every right to say what you feel and be honest about it, and it is far more appreciated than it is looked down on. Because a lot of people need to hear these things, and you are wonderful for sharing them.
@@SG-wi5wx Absolutely! Postpartum OCD is a very real and difficult thing to deal with, and you were definitely not losing your mind. You were dealing with something that is so misunderstood and, honestly, just never talked about. Which really needs to change!
Bringing a whole new meaning to RAW BEAUTY KRISTI. Your honesty is absolutely both refreshing and relatable. Keep telling your story. People are listening. People are rooting for you; I am one of them. xo
I suffered for years with undiagnosed fibromyalgia, because I had no idea how much of what I felt wasn't normal. I thought it was normal and we just don't talk about it.
OMG yesss women's health is left by the wayside about EVERYTHING. My ob/gyn kept just giving me different birth controls and it was my testosterone and I had to pay out of the pocket for it. ITS INSANE we create life and we don't get the proper health to get back to healthy.
Yup it took 5 years for me to finally be diagnosed with hashimoto's disease. You have to fight tooth and nail to get any real results. It's sad and so discouraging that most of us women are completely ignored when it comes to our health.
this is why I look up to you so much. you’re so honest and so fucking strong and whether it was intentional or not, you’re teaching us a whole lot about mental and physical health. I really admire your “idgaf I’m gonna do what I need to do to be happy” attitude when it comes to your health. I hope seeing the functional medicine doctor will help you immensely, you literally deserve the best.
I litteraly cried watching this! I have felt alone in this weird feeling of not being back to normal for so long and I finally feel like there’s others who share this feeling!! I’ve seeing my doctor so many times and he just don’t take me seriously but I’m so sick of not feeling like myself, of feeling horrible physically and mentally on the daily. Thank you so much for sharing. You have no idea how much it helped me!!
I just want to say, I can't imagine being like "stop complaining"...seriously? This is your channel, and you have EVERY single right to express what you're going through. I can imagine how many of your subscribers can relate. Please, share Kristi and do not ever feel bad about it.
Pausing at 13:00 in to just say: I see you. I have anxiety, hypothyroidism, IBS, gluten intolerance, and rattled my metformin bottle for PCOS when you mentioned it. Screw anyone here who tries to make you feel less than for sharing your story. I see you. I hear you. I understand your pain because I recognize it too. I am so sorry ❤ thank you for sharing the “raw” of you, always.
A functional doctor sounds like what every doctor should be, but we're so used to just being patched up that it needs a separate name. Wishing you get what you need 💜
Girl I have chronic pain and weird hormones - seeing a functional med doc on top of my western med doc literally helped so much - looking forward to an update!!
Speak!!!! Continue to Speak!!! I am hear for it. I love your straight forward honesty. Continue and don't let anyone hold you back...I feel like you won't and I am glad!
I'm dealing with PMDD and I cannot thank you enough for talking about it; having access to the videos where you discuss PMDD helps to ground me in reality when "Those Moments" hit, and it's easier to ride them out and access my coping skills. Thank you, thank you, thank you! 💯
Yes! Treating root causes and not just spot treating symptoms for women needs to be a standard practice!!! You are so right! I am in a similar place but with different issues. I’m 37 and i just get the “well you’re getting older” or “well you’re not old enough to need this or that”. It is so frustrating!
This!! I had so many labs and biopsies done, I got the "everything was normal" call but it's not normal. I am anemic on supplements for most of my life, it's not fixing it. So why am I always anemic? No one wants to do that part.
This was really cathartic to listen to. I struggled with PMDD and depression for years, and have never had anyone to compare notes to. Recently I've had a slew of health issues, and I just get sent Doctor to Doctor, hospitals; no one knows for sure what's wrong. They find nothing and tell me to wait a little longer. I recently started therapy again and am just trying to live my life, and I seem to be on the up and up now. Thanks for posting this, most relatable video I've watched in ages.
You are our hero!!! I too had gestational diabetes and was never checked afterwards, just like that 🤷🏻♀️ When I was struggling to breastfeed my baby, we had lactation appointments nearly every day but they were HER appointments, not mine. I filled out a questionnaire about my mental health every time, but it was very clear that the survey was for the child’s protection. It wasn’t about my ability to live well, it was about me potentially harming the baby. Obviously that is the most important…but the priority was her health, every time. As long as the baby is fine, everything is fine. I’m so proud of you for advocating for yourself! I’m sorry it’s come to this, but I’m excited for this journey for you. We love you, Kristi 💜
A quote that I carry with me I thought I’d share with you, “Body, I drag you like a shipwreck,” I hear you, I feel your pain. Something that I have found that has helped with the unease is EMDR. Trauma therapy is absolutely LIFE CHANGING. Also, on the physician issue.. try finding a NP(Nurse Practitioner) who practices under a family physician. NP’s have more time and compassion. Just a thought. Be safe.
I have a chronic illness and I 100% understand how you can’t explain it. If you haven’t already…get a FULL thyroid panel done. I have Hashimotos disease and some of these systems especially the inability to lose weight, depression, anxiety are completely in line with thyroid disease. Can’t hurt to get it checked out. Don’t just be satisfied with the TSH being checked. Get antibodies, free T3 and T4…you can look it up but the full panel is key. ❤
Thank you so incredibly much for this! As someone who has been ignored by our healthcare system for over 15 years, I needed to hear that I'm not the only one. Just existing should not be this difficult.
This is the most helpful video you've ever made, at least for me, and I've watched you for YEARS. I'm currently 32 weeks pregnant with my 2nd, about to be 40, have gestational diabetes now, and have a therapy appointment in 2 days to discuss my previous ppd issues. I feel SEEN in this video and I applaud you for sharing it. Thank you. ❤
Being pregnant would probably kill me right now, I'm 40 I look younger but FEEL so much older, like I cannot keep going like this, sorry lol. Congrats on your pregnancy and I really hope you get your gestational diabetes under control. Good luck girl 💕
@Lynx112 yeah I feel 28 in my mind and definitely don't look 40, but apparently my body disagrees. Gestational diabetes is so HARD! Like I knew going into this at 39 it was a possibility, but you hope for the best. Thanks for the wishes. We'll find out. Lol
@@michellekamb2583 Omg yup even my mum said "You could be going into early menopause, you need to get seen and gett this sorted" I haven't got a clue because like Kristy says nobody takes the time to check. I still have periods but they make me feel horrible for around 8-12 days beforehand. It's like since I was 30 I slowly started to get more symptoms both mentally and physiacally. I know there are people far worse off (I'm reminded if I dare to even bring this struggle up) but I've learned that this doesn't invalidate what me, you and many other go through. Yes, we'll find out, I'm such a wimp though I don't want the rest of my life to be a continual fight to even see a doctor then fight to see a specialist and so on! Haha my mind think I'm still 1 and I can jump out of bed, workout and decorate half my bedroom in 1 lunchtime, I feel ya hunni I really do. Really glad I can see so amny other women are feeling similiar💗
I never comment on videos…ever, but as someone who has struggled my whole life with chronic pain, who has had mental health issues, depression, anxiety, and who constantly has to advocate for myself alll the time, while being in pain, anxious and depressed, thank you for being a voice. For talking about what this feels like, for saying what it’s like to have to still function and be a mom while always falling apart. What it feels like to go to dr after dr after dr and have them say hmmm yeah I’m not sure but here is a shiny pill. Could be what you’re missing, while they refuse to test you or take time. This life is hard, awareness and community help. Stay strong.
You’re the best, Kristi. I appreciate these “rants.” They’re honest. Being a Mom is the hardest job for probably most of us. And it’s hard to advocate for yourself/ourselves when your brain is twisted and you have to do your Mom-job. It’s constant. Wonderful, but effing tiring. You’re doing amazing. Give yourself grace. Keep talking. We need you. ❤
Metabolic Health is so important and if it’s not functioning well, it undermines your mental & physical health. Unfortunately, doctors rarely acknowledge the need to look beyond symptoms & prescribing.
Your mind, body and soul are screaming to just understand why. ❤️ I started seeing a functional medicine doctor after living with mental illness and PCOS and endometriosis as long as I could remember, and it changed my life. Sending you so much love through this journey!
Mine was local, and I live in the middle of nowhere. He focuses a lot on kinesiology and letting the body talk to him and tell him what it needs vs bloodwork/testing. That is an opinionated topic on its own without being tied to functional medicine, but I highly recommend finding one close to you!
Seeing a functional medicine Dr will literally change your life. They treat the “whole” body - not just the symptoms. I was at the same place you were….mentally - dealing with all my health issues…finally went to a Naturpath and it changed my life!! Sending hugs!
Not sure if you’ll ever see this comment but I have to say EMDR has saved my life. I joke with my therapist calling it “voo doo shit” bc it is INCREDIBLE how transformative it is. I hope you have the same experience I have had!
There are no words that could ever adequately convey how grateful I am that you are making these videos. I am going through a lot of the same things you are and I can’t even imagine how hard it is to be so vulnerable on such a big platform, as I can barely even talk to people I’m close to about what I’m going through. It’s so important on so many levels. You are giving me (and countless others) hope and courage to try and get help. Thank you! Wishing you love and healing and real answers that will help turn things around 🙏🏻✨💌
I’m only 14 minutes in and let me say, I love these videos. Fuck what other people think, you have feelings and you’re a human being and you don’t just exist to “entertain” your viewers. Hearing your raw honesty about your experiences is refreshing.
There are SO MANY women who suffer in this way. Thank you for sharing and helping to normalize this conversation ❤ Sending you love, strength, and hope!
Shift worker here 🙋🏽♀️ Saw a functional doctor after sick of GPS not caring, changed my life. Sat down for 1.5hrs and went over every aspect of my life. Went from chronic fatigue and sick/flu every other week to only having covid once in 3 years…no other colds. Hormonal health is EXTREMELY important! I wish you all the best for this journey!! 💜🇦🇺
Complex-PTSD. Trauma in your childhood. I have it and so much of what you're saying sounds like me. The "I'm always gonna feel like this"... that feeling that the walls are caving in and nothing will ever get better" sounds like an emotional flashback
@@sarahdavenport6039 I have tried every thing under the sun. Idk how old you are but there is a new medication that just came out in dec 2020 its called avuelity and its been a game changer. If you have a psychiatrist is would ask about it. It works on completely different receptor than other antidepressants
Thank you for your honesty. It's so refreshing. I'm new to your channel, and I appreciate how much you shared. I also live with chronic pain, depression and anxiety (just to mention a few). I've found thru my own health journey that I had to take control with my doctors and demand tests, etc. Not that it's been easy. And I still don't have all the answers. But I want you to know that I can relate to waking up and feeling sick every day. It's almost impossible to do that year after year without some hope. And only others who have the same experience can truly understand (and of course your supportive husband). I hope you have good success with this new practicioner!
I’m sad to see so many wonderful women who relate, but I’m grateful for the community you’ve created, Kristi 💗 Don’t let the bastards get you down lol 😈 And the trash can take itself out 👏😜
I’m pretty positive I’ve had PMDD most of my life without realizing it. The insane rage I feel right before my periods is unbelievable. I literally don’t want to be on earth anymore until my period actually starts. I’m currently pregnant and have mentally felt %100 better my whole pregnancy thus far, not having cycles is the best.
Kristi, I just can’t explain how much this resonates with me. EVERYTHING you are feelings is my exact same. Since having my kids, I had 2 back to back, I’ve been miserable, not good- able to do things but not feeling good and “here”. I also have ptsd and ppd-ppa m, pmdd and insulin resistance. I have these dizzy spells and palpitations and fogginess and the docs are just like “well idk your blood work is great”. Finally, I advocated to go to a cardiologist and that’s my current point. Hopefully we get the answers we deserve. Love you!
I don't know how you filmed this without bursting into tears.. because I cried for you. God, you speak so much to my heart. Please stay as honest and raw about this as possible because so many people can relate to this and feel less alone. I really hope you find some relief and please keep us posted ❤
I love you and your videos so much!!! Have been watching for years. You are so relatable and we are similar in many ways. Sending all my love and strength to find answers you deserve. I look forward to the video one day with an explanation for your health struggles and how life has changed for the better. ❤
Girl.. I feel like you’re describing my life for the past 2.5 yrs since I got pregnant. What was supposed to be such a happy time in my life felt so bad I couldn’t recognize myself. I recently found myself again and started feeling happiness after discovering dr Sara Gottfried’s hormonal balancing tips and recommendations. She constantly talks about getting tests done and medicine tailored exactly to each patient and not generalized umbrella solutions and she’s got great tips on balancing hormones
Leaving my second comment on this video to just thank you for sharing content like this. I feel so much less alone-it’s almost validating, in a way. Like, in a, “see? Im not crazy, Im not the only one who is going through this exact thing!”
This resonates so hard with me. I've struggled with a history of epilepsy ADD, anxiety and weight gain and feel so crappy and not my best. The feeling of just "not feeling good" is so hard to explain. I hope you find some healing in your journey. Keep sharing ❤️
What breaks my heart is how much our medical system is meant to just suppress symptoms. It’s always take this and that but rarely figuring out how to actually heal it. I suffer from extreme migraines and joint pain as well as endometriosis. It took me 6 years to finally get diagnosed with endometriosis, and FINALLY found a doctor to help me with it instead of only taking birth control (which made me depressed). I finally feel like I can be okay during a period and not feel like I’m dying. As for my joint pain and severe migraines. I’m struggling to figure it out. I keep getting muscle relaxers and hydrocodones but I seriously just want to heal it. So I seriously appreciate you posting this. I feel heard and like I can relate. I appreciate you using your platform for this because I seriously feel like I’m crazy for wanting answers. I feel like having answers will help me find a solution. So thank you!
It’s eerie hearing what you’re going through. I feel like these exact thoughts or… the feelings behind your words resonate so deeply right now for what I’m facing mentally. Really needed to hear the way you articulated everything today. Please feel encouraged to keep being so honest from people like me who need the acknowledgement to mirror our own growth from. Wishing you and yours nothing but the best most happiest lives and well-being. You’ve inspired me to do my own digging to find my own new hope to chase. I’ve let the tiredness of trying consume me a little too much recently
I feel like flying from Malaysia to you right now and give you the biggest hug and tell you to your face that I AM SO PROUD AND GLAD that you opened up and be vulnerable bravely cuz some people just give up and gone all of sudden just because they were afraid of judgements. You are so amazingly brave and inspiring by sharing whats going on with you which MOST people wont. Cuz thats easier, safer. You are giving urself a chance, giving life a chance and everybody around u a chance. And for that we appreciate you so much honey. You gonna be alright honestly, we are always here and we aint going anywhere. You gonna feel amazing and well real soon!!!
It's never comfortable to hear people talking about the hard and brutal parts of life, but i am so thankful that you are. There are too many people who don't talk about this stuff and make irreversible decisions because they never get help. As a long time viewer and someone who (albeit para-socially) cares about you, i am so glad you made this video. I hope you find the right treatments for your conditions. I have pmdd and it's unreal how intensely bad it is.
I read a quote once that stuck with me. “So far you’ve survived all of your worst days.” I think of this often. Bug hugs to you and I appreciate you sharing so candidly.
I'm not tired of hearing you talk about your health struggles; I really feel very alone with my own. Your honesty is something that inspires me to be more open about my own struggle with my myriad illnesses and issues.
Honestly kristi PLEASE dont stop spreading awareness about mental illness I get it, most people are on the internet to escape their daily problems, but this helps so much When you’re in a bad place you’ll often feel so alone, it’s so gooooood to know and hear that so many people are struggling and it is okay and yes you are misunderstood most of the time and yes doctors don’t do as much as they should (probably bc of the health care system) Kristi i wish you all the best We are all in this together
Girl… basically everything you said could literally have come out of my mouth! 😭 the line of “working this hard just to get up to feel ok” is exactly what I’ve been feeling for the last couple of years and that is exactly what I’m going to tell my doc when I see him. I’m booking an appt right this moment so Thankyou for being able to put this feeling into words for me ❤ I hope so much that you’re able to get some answers for your health xx
Thank you for your openness and realness.. As someone struggling with insulin resistance, fibromyalgia, autonomic dysfunction, being fat and possible ass (going through the diagnostic process atm) I feel exactly the same way.. Doctors each look at their own little "box" of their specialty and work and I also don't feel seen for who I am as a whole.. I have never understood how it can be that someone with different health issues, that all those doctors never come together and see a bigger picture.. I absolutely hear you and send you lots of kindness, love and support! 💜
Omg this video was honestly needed! I am 44yrs old and have had depression most of my life , started living in chronic pain when I was 28 while having 3 young kids and I just kept getting diagnosis after diagnosis. The whole winter is shit because I was sick from Nov-Jan w/bronchitis, than right after an upper respiratory infection, than got sick 2 more times. April comes and I’m like finally going to a little less pain and less sickness. I had gotten sick the last time and a month long period , I hadn’t had one since November. I had a FN breakdown to the point my anxiety/depression meds wasn’t working, and left 2 friends balling my eye’s out ready to give tf up. I’m so sick of the doctor appointments,the medications and just feeling like I’m a burden and literally live in my bed and miss out on so much. People in the CP community are giving up and if their state doesn’t have euthanasia, they’ll travel bc they just can’t live like this. I have 2 grandchildren and my daughter is a single mom,so I need to be their for her plus I have a wonderful husband and 2 sons one who needs me because he’s autistic. I’m so thankful for this life I’m giving I’m lucky but boy was it so fn hard! What makes me the most upset is seeing this comment section saying shit about you talking about this!? That’s why we stay silent and just disappear. I’m so thankful we didn’t get a video or tweet Kristi wasn’t in this world anymore bc of people not wanting to listen or maybe not watch this video!? I don’t get why people even watch when they can just not watch!? You make zero sense! This channel is RawBeautyKristi not yours and personally I’m glad she’s speaking up ,bc I know I needed it. So thank you Kristi and I honestly hope you figure out what’s going on bc it breaks my heart hearing this. Sending you love ❤️
I, like so many here, can relate. I like hearing you say you refuse and send back the life you don't want. I say that all the time. I will say this; self care is NOT just baths and massages. It's doing things just for the joy of it. Picking flowers. Drawing badly because it's fun. Painting things purple because you like it. Not because you will reach a goal, but just because you want to. It's an extension of mindfulness and gratitude. You speak, and I hear myself. You explain, and I already know what you'll say. I have a very harsh inner critic as well, and I'm working on that. But I've realized that even mental health and healing aren't done because there's an end goal. It's lifelong and requires maintenance, reworking, redesign, and grace. Knowing I will always be a work in progress gave me a chance to pause and appreciate how far I've come. To embody the shifts I've managed to make and feel somatically, what is happening as I integrate the things I KNOW about myself. And accept that the work will never end, but can be a source of happiness as opposed to another way to beat myself down for all I haven't done, or figured out, or healed... Going to a functional medicine doctor sounds like a great idea. I'm rooting for you! You're a beautiful soul, and I'm so happy you're here.
I’m so grateful to you and your transparency, ESPECIALLY as a young adult woman. I recently went through 24 rounds of chemotherapy for cancer and I realized that there’s almost no recognition for young adults with health issues. EVERYTHING is for children or elderly people, we’re seen as a group who “has nothing to worry about”. Please continue to advocate for yourself and PUSH for answers, mentally and physically. Keep being you and working toward yourself 💙
Motherhood is so difficult. We are expected to do so much and it is overwhelming to say the least. And it is not about how much we love our babies because we love them more than life itself. Depression and anxiety are so hard so don’t beat yourself up and ignore the negative comments. I think you’re amazing for speaking out like so many of us want to do but don’t. I am praying for you and hope for the best for you Kristi ! ❤
As a chronic migraine sufferer and someone with an autoimmune disease, it sucks waiting so long to figure out what is going on in your body. I hope you find the answers and get the treatment to get on the right track ❤
Same here, chronic migraines since I was 4 years old and I'm now 39, and an auto immune disease, plus shitty mental health from undiagnosed PND from my second child 11 years ago, such a mess tbh
Aside from cluster headaches, you’ve just described the last 4 years of my life after having my daughter. I very literally went to 63 doctors appts last year trying to figure out what is going on inside my body and I feel no closer to an answer than when I started looking. It really sucks when you’ve struggled with infertility and FINALLY get to be a mom and you’re a shadow of the mother you know you could be. I’m hoping that you have some luck with functional medicine. Thank you for sharing, I’m feel seen. And you’re right about all of it: once the baby comes out, good luck to ya!
I have never felt so seen. Literally every point you made, post partum stuff (I have a 2yo), GD, chronic pain, fat/body pos commentary, healthcare providers - literally - every single thing you said I felt so incredibly seen. Thank you for posting this video. I hope you find peace and relief soon.
Hi Kristi! Long time listener, first time caller here. I just wanted to say thank you first and foremost for everything you are sharing about maternal mental health/maternal health in general. You are so right that the priority is always on the baby and that mothers/birthing people are neglected, and that’s absolutely not okay. I did want to share a word of caution regarding functional medicine doctors. Someone I love dearly has gone to one for years who doesn’t seem to be helping her. It seem like a lot of what they do (from my admittedly limited anecdotal experience) is charge you a ton of money and suggest expensive supplements that they get kickbacks on. I’m absolutely not trying to discourage you from seeking answers, but this video also reminded me of the state of mind I am in when my health anxiety is at its worst. I am not saying at all that there’s nothing wrong, but as a fellow sufferer, it was hard to watch for that reason because it reminded me of being in that painful, desperate place. Also, as someone who has a background in social work, if you go to therapy twice a week and it’s not helping, might I gently suggest trying a different therapist or modality? I know a lot of people find DBT helpful, as an alternative to CBT. I hope this comment doesn’t come across as condescending or critical, because that’s absolutely not my intent. I know you are an intelligent person who is quite capable of making informed decisions on the subject. I just wanted to present a point of view that I hadn’t seen shared in this comment section yet. Again, I really appreciate you and your content. Thank you so much for speaking about such difficult topics with honesty and grace.
"Birthing people?" 🙄 When the government who runs most hospitals and gives doctors (including those in the mental health field) directions, guidelines, etc cannot even define what a woman is and refers to us as nothing but "birthing people" don't get mad women's issues are not being tackled or taken seriously. You're part of the problem.
I got this sense too. I think more focus on the mental side of things is needed. Maybe there isn't anything physically wrong. I think the trauma of child birth is something that can not be over looked. But yeah anything is worth looking into.
I’m a mental health nurse and this read a little more mental health based too. Though I did find it odd that she had PCOS and her Dr has never checked her hormones, and that she’s post partum and they’ve never checked her iron. I am Australian though and a nurse so often go in knowing the pathology I want and the rationale as to why. However I wouldn’t be shocked if the cluster headaches are a manifestation of stress etc. I’m not anti functional medicine Dr’s, I wholeheartedly do believe they have a place particularly when western medicine isn’t solving the issue AND the issue isn’t life threatening. A lot are quacks, some are helpful. I do hope this Dr helps Kristy.
Kristi, you keep saying people complain about health videos or don’t want to hear it. I want to say as someone who has health anxiety and chronic health problems, your videos are a lifeline. Watching them makes me feel so much less alone and makes me feel like there’s hope. I can’t even imagine all the struggles you’re going through with all those discouraging conditions, but watching you make plans and succeed in prioritizing your health is inspiring. I am sure for every comment like this that I’m writing, there are 10 lurkers who feel the same way and who just got up to do their physical therapy exercises or eat their healthy meal or go get some steps in because of your videos. Also, you are honestly really brave speaking up for mothers. I am absolutely sickened by how mothers seem to be some of the least valued people in society when they are literally providing more value than almost anyone else. And the shit you get for pointing this out! It is *literally* like you are seen as an incubator and not a human being with intrinsic value. Not to mention from a more utilitarian perspective, WHO is supposed to care for the baby if mom is withering away due to medical neglect? In most cases, it’s not gonna be dad! So even if they actually really don’t care about mom at all and just the baby, this is a stupid approach. Keep speaking out. Your voice is so important!
When you were talking about how much easier it is to care for your boy than for yourself, and the negative self- talk, it reminded me of something profound I heard the other day. It was a reel or tik tok, and this person said "imagine you are living inside the body of a friend for one year, and think about how you would care for them before you give their body back". That outside perspective really changed my mindset and though I don't often comment, I wanted to share that in case you see this and it's meaningful for you too! Thank you as always for your honestly - and I'm loving this go get it attitude. Go kick ass, girl! ❤
I can relate, my breakdown was in January, I was disgusted with myself, could not lose weight for the life of me. Bawled my eyes out at the doctors. Doctor started me on Wegovy, changed up my antidepressant, checked all my hormones, put me on estrogen (had a hysterectomy) I’m down 30lbs, feeling better, more motivated. You have to really advocate for yourself and do what’s best for you. Good luck and hang in there, your definitely not alone.
@@wildflower7321 not OP but I’ve been on Wegovy, Ozempic, and Mounjaro - main side effect for me is nausea. For me, the Ozempic was the worst and made me nauseous 24/7 while the other two only made me nauseous for the first day after I took it
I started Mounjaro in late January. I lost 30# in 3.5 months. I was in the pre-diabetic range and now A1C is normal. I’m out here doing CrossFit to maintain muscle mass and am able to run three miles without stopping. I’m getting faster all the time. I feel amazing.
as a mom of 2 teen girls and 1 preteen girl…i appreciate you discussing maternal mental health!!! i’m in a different season of motherhood, but i remember the early years very well!! you are NOT alone!! 💞💞💞
Your rants are so comforting 🫶🏻 I feel so guilty for my health being so horrible and always being in pain, but hearing another human feel as I do is so so comforting. Thank you for being always so honest Kristi ❤️
This video resonates with me on all the levels. Mothers, somehow, matter less than their infant children, yet we are the ones taking care of these beautiful, helpless creatures. We don't need our love tested for these babies, we need our blood sugar and iron tested. Help us help them. Thank you for this video. Your mental health matters. Your honesty and sincerity are why we love and stand with you.♥️
Fellow PMDD girly here and I felt every single symptom you listed, people who do t have it will never understand it and I pray they never do! I feel for you girl, combined with my bpd it feels like the absolute end of the world
I feel this so deeply. I just turned 50 and have struggled so much over the last 15 years with health issues. Nothing has worked and no specialist I’ve seen has the answers. I’ve gained 15 lbs since Covid and it’s only worsened my issues. I can’t seem to lose it no matter what I do. My son is at college now so I live alone. Doing every day tasks while having to work a full time job while enduring chronic pain, hot flashes, insomnia, etc has dulled my sparkle. Hope anyone who reads this and has the same struggles finds the answers and can enjoy life again. Unfortunately I feel hopeless at this point.
I’m 40 and started perimenopause I thought I was going insane or dying. Conventional medicine failed me, functional doctors like the one she’s going to see has changed my life along with so many women. They check everything! My hormones where so out of wack, hormone replacement therapy changed my life 😭 if you haven’t looked into it, please consider it. You deserve to feel better ❤
Thank you for being so open. I'm also chronically ill. 5 years of doctors basically giving me band aid solutions and gaslighting, I've finally been diagnosed with Systemic Lupus. Keep advocating for yourself and demand answers and treatments. Sending love to all that are suffering without answers
I have a rare disorder and a ton of deformities and chronic illnesses that come with it, so please take it to heart when I say: we know you aren't asking for pity, or for people to feel sorry for you, or for attention, but we DO pity you, and we DO feel sorry for you, and you DESERVE attention. You are going *through it* and any decent human SHOULD sympathize/empathize with that. You can own that this situation sucks and that you could use some encouragement (if that would be helpful). You deserve tenderness and understanding and to be coddled at these times. It sounds like you have a good support system, and I hope you are able to get those things. ❤️
I cannot tell you how much I relate to this. It took me over 10 years to find doctors who cared enough to find answers for me and finally get me the help I desperately needed. That “something is off” feeling you described, the anxiety, being a mom while suffering, just everything, 100% understood. You are not alone and I really appreciate your vulnerability and honesty about issues that no one wants to hear about. That takes so much strength. I hope you finally get the care you deserve and need. When it gets really tough, just remember that you have a community here that cares and roots for you. ❤
@@lisalarsen2384 Fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. None of my male doctors took my pain seriously. I now have all female doctors and I’m finally experiencing relief.
Kristi, if you see this, thank you. ❤ I have PMDD as well, and I completely understand what you mean by extreme. I’m so grateful that you pushed through Saturday and were able to share this with us all today. You are so deserving of happiness and wellness, and I hope this new functional medicine doctor can help you get some answers. You can do this, and we love you. 🧡
You’re incredibly strong and resilient I’ve watched and followed you for years. I can relate so much. Im 3 months PP and had a FIVE MINUTE PP appointment, 4 weeks from giving birth. It’s absolutely insane. I never comment on much but the community you have created makes people feel less alone. You’re crushing it. 💪🌱💫
Let me just say this… when you speak about your life I see the joy that radiates, the gratitude, and the way that you see the beauty in it. But I also 100% understand the way you can recognize the great things, but still feel this sense of doom, dread, uneasiness, unrest, literally LOOMING over you. Your feelings are valid and I feel really positive about functional medicine for you. It’s just another layer of addressing your health from another angle. You’ve got this.
Hey, ladies! I just wanted to remind you all to please have your ferritin levels checked. Ferritin is the iron level in your body (not your blood), and it is critically important in keeping your mind and body healthy. Iron deficiency is one of the most under-diagnosed disorders in women and also one of the most easily treatable. Some of the effects of an iron deficiency are low mood, depressive thoughts, brain fog, memory problems, fatigue (you are tired even after sleeping enough), heart palpitations, headaches, migraines, compromised immune system (constantly being sick), inability to stay warm (cold hands and feet), hair loss, breathlessness (short of breath), dizziness, acne, just to name a few. Weirdly, when I had my iron deficiency my scalp would also hurt. I am not saying Kristi has an iron deficiency, I just wanted to highlight the importance of getting your levels checked if you have any of these symptoms because they are so generalized they are often attributed to something else. Have a good day, everyone! (Edited to include a few more iron deficiency symptoms I thought of later)
ive been taking iron for the last year the drs keep telling me my levels are "normal" because its in the low green zone 11.9 is low n im a 12 but thats ok its normal but im pale weak brain fog its awful drs need to start listening to just because its in the "normal" dosent mean you cant have low level symptoms
I second this! The regular blood test will tell you if you're anemic, but not HOW anemic. I had a follow up ferritin level test and I was beyond anemic. Since starting iron supplements (I use Thorne Iron Bisglysinate and tolerating well) I am a new person and have actually come off my low level buproprion. This comment is the REAL DEAL! PAY ATTENTION!
There is also a blood disease called hemochromatosis, which causes pretty much the exact same symptoms but it is when you have way too much iron in your blood. So either way make sure your iron levels are healthy💜
Blackstrap molasses - a spoonful in milk, absorbable iron so no constipation. I was diagnosed anemic while pregnant, was prescribed iron, tossed the script and got blackstrap, anemic no more!
Finding a good functional doctor can change your life! The holistic approach they take has change so many women’s lives I know. Most of them found out that their hormones are so out of wack and hormone replacement therapy has changed their lives. I hope you keep us updated because your so loved and we want you to feel better. ❤
I'm so glad that you keep making these videos promoting mental health, and taking care of yourself. When you're a mom, and feeling depressed, it's SO HARD to be "happy" and "upbeat" all day around our children, it takes everything from us to be present for our children, that we have nothing left for ourselves. I've felt that way many times in the 3 years that I've been a mom. I just haven't taken the leap and gotten help. Please continue to do whatever videos you want to. Screw the haters, they can leave
This right here is why I watch you. You don't give a shit what people think about you. I love to hear about others lives and how they are doing, what are they going through. I feel a lot of this!!
Wow. This is the exact video I needed this week. I feel heard. Like you get so tired of just having symptoms treated but not addressing the actual cause. Thank you.
I can't even begin to explain how much i relate. Some people may not understand and may not "want to hear it" but they can click off. Coming from someone that has benefitted so much from hearing your experiences, please don't stop on the account of the ones that don't benefit. Again, thank you so much for sharing everything you have. It means the world to those of us that do understand.
This video is an example of why I love your channels. Not only are you talented with makeup and developing content but when you share more personal issues I feel less alone. Thank you.
