Episode 016 - "My JW Childhood Was Awful" With Lois 

Fantastic interview, thank you both for your honesty and openess to share the depth of your stories. I was born in, left when I was in my early 20's. There are many aspects to our lives that only ex-jw's can really understand. Regards from Sydney, Australia.

Thank you both for this interview. Finally I have found in one video two ex-jws who, like me, were perfectly content to die at Armageddon rather than suffocate in that religion. I wish I could describe the looks on the faces of the elders when I explained this. That was back in the 80s and here i am today, breathing just fine!

Great visit and something so many of us can completely relate to!

48:18 "my body still reacts" even tho I don't believe in Armageddon 😢 i can totally relate. I lived as a pomi from 2009 to 2019.😮 its torture to go thru the process of telling Jehovah "just kill me already" Thankfully i did finally wake up😊

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Being raised in this cult is damaging especially to a child I have stories that could still land my mother in jail to this day my father has already passed but I can't have children because of the abuse that both of them put on me even though we were a family of 13 children all of us homeschooled at one time or another all of us on assembly programs in North Carolina they used to call us the kushites because there were so many of us my mother and father were functioning alcoholics with high positions in the congregation my father was an elder he presided over the Theocratic Ministry School my mother was a full-time pioneer so much gossiping we could not tell what was going on in our household the only time a sister which was my best friend even though she was older than me found out the abuse that we were going through was when I was on the phone with her and my father came home early and started beating us and I was so scared that I forgot to put the phone on the hook and she heard everything and everything made even more sense when we were forced to go to the Kingdom Hall that night with busted lips black eyes bloody noses no one said anything except for her not one of us 13 children are affiliated with this religion even though my mother is still hanging in there all of us are either disfellowship or inactive and then let's talk about The Homeschool my father named The Homeschool Bethel homeschool and use books from the Bible Watchtower and tract Society as part of our curriculum and when I had had enough of being abused at the age of 17 a regular Pioneer mind you I went to the elders and told them that I was leaving and of course they had several questions and because I had not finished my 12th grade year in our homeschool my parents withheld my diploma me and my older sister's diploma from us so anyway they were determined to break us but because karma works the way that it works when I left at 17 I didn't know that I would be coming back to take care of my very sick father who died in 2017 and help raise my three younger siblings because when I left at 17 the idea was never to come back and what you guys said in this video is absolutely correct it's all about your appearance what this organization thinks of you I remember being in the second grade and being punched in my face and dropped off at a abandoned graveyard because I took Halloween candy after being deprived of dinner the night before at 12:00 at night now imagine in the second grade and your father pushing you out the car and saying you like to worship the dead get out and be with them and driving off I still remember the house that I ran to across the street from the graveyard I find myself getting very angry when I think about how very narcissistic and entitled to feel that you still deserve your children's Allegiance and loyalty and this religion deserves their loyalty and Allegiance as well when so many heinous things were done to us as children I was beat in my genitals, food deprived, sleep deprived beat on the bottom of my feet and I'm just naming things that happen to me personally and when I finally broke down and told my husband what I had been through he couldn't believe it as someone that was worldly and never a religious type of person he was disgusted he didn't want to be in my parents company he didn't want to be around my family and he definitely didn't want to be around the religion and now that I'm in therapy I can't blame him the reverse psychology that goes on in this religion is just crazy and the fanaticism is even crazier and they still think that their name has no blood or no suffering on it I was 14 when I got baptized and we were threaten that we couldn't get our. Diver's permit unless we got baptized I was 16 when I became a Pioneer and during that 2 weeks of training I had to come home after the first week and remember getting beat down physically by my father at my mother's request because she wanted to make sure that I wasn't running my mouth about the abuse that was going on in our household! Thank you for doing this podcast it's good to know that I'm not alone!