My maps of reality are always changing, some just take longer and more energy to change then others. One map that I’ve really felt in the very fiber of my being that I acknowledge on the surface level is that life if always always happening for you, even though it completely doesn’t make sense in the moment. It’s like Steve Jobs said in his Stanford speech: you can only connect the dots looking backwards. Just have faith that the dots will connect. All you have to do is just be present moment to moment to bend the thread of time and energy around you to create those dots knowing that will will connect in a beautiful way with the flow of time.
Look into the "letting go" technique. From watching a bit of the video, I understood that you are trying to use rational thinking to fix emotional problems, which clearly doesn't work.
