I discovered this song for the first time today and have been weeping for a half hour. When she describes her mother looking at her on the milk carton it just hurt so much because it made me wonder how my own mother would have felt if I had gone through with my attempt as a teenager. This song is so personal to me and I’ve had it for less than an hour
I discovered it yesterday and just have been listening to it over and over again. The milk carton line also broke my heart. There’s something ineffable about the perspective in this song. The “with my memory restricted to a Polaroid in evidence” makes me ball as well. That all testament to her existence just boils down to two things: a face on a milk carton and a Polaroid in evidence. She doesn’t even get to keep her body because the guy took care of that. Her existence is just erased, and all because she wanted to be loved and wanted. It somewhat reminds me of Nick Cave’s song “the Kindness of Strangers,” where this woman named Mary Bellow meets this guy Richard, and all she wants is to see the sea. And they travel to a coastal hotel, and that night she just feels so lonely that she leaves the door unlocked between her and Richard’s room in the hopes that he will come in that night. And all along the way you know how it’s going to end, because the first verse describes how they found Mary’s body in the hotel room. Both songs make me ball my eyes out due to the absolute tragedy of someone just wanting to be loved for who they are and their life ending as a result. The line “if you think about it too much, you’ll never sleep a wink at night again /Don’t worry ‘bout me and these green eyes Mama” just makes me bawl. I’m actually crying typing this out but I guess that’s just the power of great writing.
@@alexescapita1455dude people can make their own interpretations of songs even if it isn’t actually abt that. just kinda an insensitive thing to say when someone comments something that vulnerable?
A bit on the nose, isn't it? I much prefer the "Mama, I love you, and I'll see you when you get here" Although a song about being cannibalized by your boyfriend should be uncomfortable, considering...
To me, that line actually feels kind of cathartic in its raw, uncompromising brutality... yet the "Mama I love you" line fits so much better as an ending to an album about generational trauma and womanhood.
it's "when you chewed me up and chewed me out" lol, which IS fitting considering the song is about cannibalism as a metaphor for abusive relationships (similar with ptolemea, and in that way paralleling Flowers of flesh and blood by nicole dollanganger) so where's the issue ??
Ethel Cain is a modern day hero wise beyond our time... She's the Elliott Smith of the late 90s I think they would have sounded beautiful together. Their songs stem from by pain and they both make the darkest times sound beautiful For anyone who dont know, look up Elliott
Typically it's very hard for a song to make me cry but this... This is the exception. Haunting, heart wrenching, beautiful both in terms of the music and the story being told
One of my favorites of hers so far. Gorgeous vocals.... And the guitar work at the end is haunting. Reminds me of the tone and vibe of Chris Isaak's Wicked Game.
i listened to this song for the first time about a year ago... It was dark in the parking lot and for whatever reason I just started sobbing, alone in my car. the demo and album is priceless... ❤️🩹
Really? Maybe i listen to too much of both and therefore lack the perspecrive, but what exactly are the similar qualities? And to be clear, i dont doubt you because i had an immediate connection to Ethel's music which happens really rarely to me
