ex-psychic exposes she was never really psychic.

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hello hello lil cherubs! in today's video i touch on a very important topic to me which is...OCD! surprise surprise. for many years, i was dealing with magical thinking and severe OCD without ever knowing. through the guidance of OCD support and therapy, i've been able to realize, i was never truly psychic, and instead had OCD that was controlling my life. i feel it's important to share since OCD is so stigmatized and misunderstood. love u lots xoxo nikki nasty
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@god_7594 11 месяцев назад

This reminds me of when I got into witchcraft/psychic/tarot cards because I felt like something was communicating with me, but it turns out my pattern recognition and "do this, not that, or something bad will happen" was just my autism 😭

@Tree-House69 11 месяцев назад

Mood

@anahand4137 11 месяцев назад

As an ocd and spectrum girlie, wow, does this speak to me.

@baconmeido7037 11 месяцев назад

😭😭

@brycebrown6601 11 месяцев назад

for real its always the autism/pattern recognition for me

@jupitersspell 11 месяцев назад

Those things are real, but you will never find truth in them if you don’t actually understand it. The synchronicities can be really marveling but true gnosis doesn’t come from superficial signs

@ohhmangos 11 месяцев назад

You helped me realize that I had OCD actually, just got diagnosed a few days ago. You made me realize my intrusive thoughts and immense self guilt were not a result of me being a "bad person" and that I should genuinely look into OCD symptoms. I'm so thankful you talked about what OCD has been like for you, because I would've never gotten the help I need!

@seabbird 11 месяцев назад

NAUR BC SAME

@rx500android 11 месяцев назад

As someone who struggled with OCD since an early age, I’m so proud of you that you finally recognized your behaviors, their root and got a diagnosis ❤️ it’s not easy, especially with all the stigma and misconceptions surrounding this disorder- But just remember that you’re not a bad person, just as you said. Your thoughts aren’t you. Let them pass and take care of yourself ❤️❤️ sending love

@nutsucker30001 11 месяцев назад

fr. although i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd, i find a lotta correlations with the personal suffering and guilt i go through on the daily with nicole’s experience with ocd. Ive only stumbled on her channel a couple of days ago, but this subtle relatability and this ability to figure myself out slowly thru this channel has made me a fan instantly.

@lalalallalalallalala 11 месяцев назад

SAME

@AdeliaCreates 11 месяцев назад

SAME but a few weeks ago.

@mother_of_wasps 11 месяцев назад

Funny story, watching this made me realize why I thought I was telekinetic when I was younger. I would focus on something and I'd see it vibrate/move in small ways. Probably a decade later, I've been diagnosed with bipolar 1 and one of my common hallucinations is seeing things, especially walls, move/vibrate in small ways.

@cur1ouscatf1sh 11 месяцев назад

I used to think I had x ray vision but it turns out that my eyes are messed up in a specific way that gives me really bad double vision, so I could “see through” the doubled object

@camilleons 11 месяцев назад

@@cur1ouscatf1shomg i have crazy double vision bc my eyes are messed up too

@brooket8068 11 месяцев назад

Uhh wait me too wtfff

@creditsong7369 9 месяцев назад

Omg I've never heard anyone else talk about little hallucinations like that. I also have bipolar 1 and I see things move and jiggle all the time. I also see faces out of the corner of my eyes, but my doctor keeps telling me that it's completely normal. Idk what's normal anymore.

@Bpd._.Tortie 7 месяцев назад

@@creditsong7369me too wtf 😭

@Boggythefroggy 11 месяцев назад

Also you saying your therapist said “religion and baseball are the worst for OCD” made me laugh SO HARD bc my dad (who will never get diagnosed but is very much OCD and has been all of my life) is both religious and has been doing baseball since he was a kid. Now I know why he’s so superstitious with it lmao.

@kenny995 6 месяцев назад

I was relgious and played softball as a kid, I was convinced that everything I did effected the outcome of my life and my games. It was so silly looking back 😂

@mh-tb9lu 6 месяцев назад

Lmao my ocd dad also loves sports mainly football and basketball, and is very religious (Christianity). I didn’t know this! Neither are really for me. Sometimes I steer away from spiritual things I feel may be unhealthy mentally for me with my conditions tbh.

@mh-tb9lu 6 месяцев назад

@@kenny995whoa I didn’t realize that was a symptom.. I still think this way. Omg lol. I definitely try to chill out more. Thought it was just anxiety and how I was raised, didn’t know some of it may be ocd

@willhockstein119 4 месяца назад

I was super religious as a kid, some of which included ideas about psychic powers, and it was definitely bad for my ocd, so real

@RoseMoon2 4 месяца назад

Hey im genuinly curious, why baseball? 😅

@fullmetalarmpit 11 месяцев назад

"I woke up so anxious which is very unlike me-" "No it's not, it's actually very like me." she's just like me fr

@anaibarra1487 11 месяцев назад

You are the reason I stopped thinking I was just a crazy/bad person because of my intrusive thoughts. Getting diagnosed with OCD was so reassuring and changed my life.

@GabriellaBianca8 11 месяцев назад

Meanwhile I’m working on a video explaining how spirituality helped me manage my BPD symptoms significantly. Love hearing this perspective, thank you so much for sharing your story and also holding space for those who are spiritual/religious

@rx500android 11 месяцев назад

I’m not super spiritual as in actually believe in spirituality, but I did notice that practicing spiritual things such as astrology, tarot, crystals and moon cleansing rituals actually really helped my BPD and OCD. It gave me a sense of control and like there’s a bigger image and bigger plan of the universe that I cannot see, and everything will be ok. It’s really interesting actually

@emilygoneferal 11 месяцев назад

@@rx500android love this, i don't have ocd but i'm a very anxious person and overthink and worry about everything and tarot is one of the few things that makes me feel genuinely calm

@jamsquan9415 11 месяцев назад

@@rx500androidthis is exactly how i feel. the world feels horrible and chaotic and spirituality helps soothe it and bring at least the illusion of a sense of order/karmic justice.

@bean2046 11 месяцев назад

@@rx500android same! Spirituality can be very beneficial or very harmful, depending on where you are in your journey, I think. What more or less saved me from the guilt spiral was actually (and ironically) "The Secret", when it had a chokehold on the girl boss scene. Wild times. That book just opens up with "if someone has cancer, they thought too many negative thoughts" and excuse me, that's fucked up. I have since learned that manifestation is just frequency illusion (i.e. once your brain is aware of something, it will notice more of it) and if you wouldn't want another person to feel bad about something, you shouldn't either. Same with crystals and stuff. Brain knows that amethyst is associated with calming, whether you believe if there's energy emerging from the stone or not. Tarot is actually super helpful with my adhd because I technically know what I have to do, but it's a lot of work to prioritze and organise my thoughts. Unless a little card makes my brain jump to a top priority in 0.1 seconds. You also put effort and intention into your life, which leads to more confidence and feeling of self worth. As long as you don't use it to shame humans, that includes yourself. I'd like to apologise for this little rant, it's very fascinitating, I'm passionate about it and I've stopped myself from typing a whole book here. I'd also like to thank everyone who ever tried to shame me for my spirituality with the "but you're intelligent and logical" because I am indeed both and also a petty smart-ass, who enjoys the confused look on these people's faces when they have to admit that there's nothing stupid, passive or delusional about spirituality.

@Shirumoon 11 месяцев назад

@@rx500android For me it made me worse. Your experience is super valid but I just want people to be cautious before getting into spirituality (or even religion for that matter) because it may not end up being a good time. Especially new age stuff like law of attraction is awful if you struggle with intrusive thoughts and I wish I never would have gotten into it.

@phoebe256 11 месяцев назад

The dialogue you are having about OCD could very well save lives. So many of us feel like there's something deeply wrong with us and just by talking about it so openly, you've made it less scary. People can say you're just being "quirky" all they want but there are so many people who are grateful for what you're doing. Happy OCD Awareness Week

@beanditch 11 месяцев назад

I used to struggle with a very similar manifestation of my ocd except instead of thinking I was psychic I was TERRIFIED life was a simulation and everything was tailor made for me and/or someone was trying to get my attention from the “other side” to “wake me up” or whatever. Thankfully it’s been mostly under control for a few years now but every once in a while I’ll start to notice a string of coincidences that make me actively have to fight it from starting up again

@amandah3619 11 месяцев назад

That’s not OCD. That’s mania or schizophrenia.

@yaqiza 11 месяцев назад

@@amandah3619 this is for you 23:05

@Backdirnkuchendraus 11 месяцев назад

@@nobodysgarden9375 not to be rude but you obviously don’t know that much about either disorder. If the commenter was schizotypal it wouldn’t have resolved itself. The main difference between OCD delusions and delusions in psychosis is being aware, that your fears are delusional but still not being able to control them

@Backdirnkuchendraus 11 месяцев назад

@@amandah3619it’s really dangerous to say something like this to a person with OCD

@vb8801 11 месяцев назад

I guess some people missed the part of the video where she asks viewers not to diagnose strangers on the internet as you're not qualified to do so and it's not appropriate.

@simply_ari_j 11 месяцев назад

Your first big video on your OCD actually sparked me to talking to my therapist about my symptoms and I am now working toward possibly getting a diagnosis for OCD

@izziejewel 11 месяцев назад

Same! It was what ultimately led me to being diagnosed. Endlessly grateful 4 u Nicole

@seagurll 3 месяца назад

@@izziejewel So proud of you both! I know I'm a stranger but going off firsthand experience and with loved ones who struggle in similar ways, it's a fucking FEAT to challenge those thoughts and I'm cheering you on all the way 💖

@kateheredia910 11 месяцев назад

I don’t have OCD but I have a mental illness called Schizoaffective disorder and I too have come to realize signs of when I wasn’t well…. It embarrasses me from time to time and I don’t like to talk about it. But I’m so glad you made this kind of video it makes me feel less lonely.

@kellyanneramirez 8 месяцев назад

Twins!! I’m Schizoaffective too. Never met another person with it. It started with a Schizophrenia diagnosis but then I changed psychiatrists and they narrowed it further.

@sleepygoblin87 4 месяца назад

Oh, that's a rough one! I used to work with people diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and their struggles were intense. I have really bad depression and anxiety, and probably a personality disorder. It's lonely. Sending love.

@bohemianscandal 11 месяцев назад

the comment you made about feeling that you would have felt guilt over 9/11 if you had been older is actually fucking insane because I was only 7 but I vividly remember and even my mom will still tell the story of how I “predicted” it with a dream I had… couldn’t predict my own OCD diagnosis over 20 years later though COULD I LMAO

@junoestro 6 месяцев назад

thank you for humanizing ocd. its genuinely so humiliating to live with it, but hearing others talk about it is really helpful

@baphometsolutely 5 месяцев назад

I hate the intrusive thoughts. They can be truly debilitating, and make myself sick. Finding out I wasn't super gross and psychotic helped IMMENSELY! My therapist told me that with OCD and intrusive thoughts, your first thought isn't yours, but the thought that immediately follows it are yours. Ex: we had a trash compactor at my old job. Every time I would throw cardboard in it, I'd think "I wanna throw a baby in there" then immediately be like "ew wtf no wtf is wrong with you???" Knowing that the first thought isn't mine helps me immensely with the guilt of my thoughts, or the perverse nature in my mind that I ABHORE.

@junoestro 5 месяцев назад

@@baphometsolutely Yeah exactly. in no world would you ever do something like that, but you'll still make yourself feel horrible being fed the thought. It's so hard to actually believe that the thoughts arent actually based in reality and stuff. You deserve the best though. I'm really sorry that you experience all that

@sarah30932 11 месяцев назад

I have OCD, and am a Social Worker who used to work as a therapist. I know this video is even more helpful to other people than you even realize. It is a beautiful reflection of how you’ve grown on your journey. Thank you so much for posting this ❤❤❤

@Lackaday. 11 месяцев назад

I don't know if I have OCD or not, but I have some OCD-like obsessive/intrusive thoughts, and you talking about your OCD makes me feel better about the stuff my brain does. And goddddd the guilt over feeling responsible for stuff you don have actual control over- my dad used to complain about gas prices while child-me was in the car with him, and one time he started complaining and I felt so guilty about it I criedddd

@alinka9884 11 месяцев назад

i just started the video and i already have to say that your LIPS look ABSOLUTELY IMMACULATE NICOOSHA

@NicoleRafiee 11 месяцев назад

thank you 🥹

@justaweelasss 11 месяцев назад

I do not have OCD, but I appreciate you talking about this so much. An ex partner of mine went through a really difficult time when figuring out they had it. I witnessed a lot of the breakdowns she had over intrusive thoughts and genuinely believing she would become the horrible person she feared. It was the most heartbreaking thing to witness. Later on she got diagnosed with OCD but before that we had no idea what it was. No one deserves to feel like something is wrong with them and that there is no way of getting better. You talking about it in such detail is the best thing that can happen to someone maybe struggling but not knowing what it is because media usually has such a poor portrayal of it.

@kjgklfjkjgklfj4543 11 месяцев назад

i always thought it was weird how only in the lowest points of my life i felt i was psychic or had some sort of psychic connection, i know for a fact i turned to tarot as a way to comfort myself, talking with my own subconscious through the cards. it was truly just a coping mechanism for me and having gotten through that has made me grow into someone who can be confident in the face of uncertainty

@mckennamorgan8025 11 месяцев назад

I got diagnosed 5 or 6 years ago at age 23/24. Probably one of the best things that happened to me (diagnosis, not OCD). Love that you're making content like this, because then others won't have to wait so long to get diagnosed. They'll understand what it actually is. I went misdiagnosed for nearly two decades because of the misinformation out there. You're doing good, kid. Thank you. ❤

@NovelsNotice 11 месяцев назад

As someone with OCD, who doesn't know a single other person with it in real life, your videos have been so comforting.

@chatnoir9038 11 месяцев назад

There are so many of us! There are probably so many people walking past you every day who struggle with the same thing. You are not alone with this! ❤️

@rachann8672 6 месяцев назад

I think there are more of us than you would expect! Most people just aren't as open about it :)

@briclare 5 месяцев назад

fr. she’s literally how i pretty much confirmed i had ocd and went to have a diagnosis. i was on the edge abt it bc of stereotypes. my mom told me i didn’t have it because i wasn’t clean or organized (🙄). but nicole’s ocd vid i was like “wait, me too?” the whole fkin time

@leileiluslay 4 месяца назад

Literally

@ambkay 11 месяцев назад

i’ve always appreciated your transparency and actively talking about how your mental illness changes your way of thinking takes a lot of self reflection so it’s impressive how you can acknowledge and actively change those ways. all your effort is really visible in the content you put out and i find that really inspiring to get better.

@solarsatori 11 месяцев назад

I appreciate this so much! My OCD is mostly contamination based and weirdly the pandemic was the easiest and happiest time of my life because I finally had an "excuse" for all my sanitation rituals and to avoid going to other people's homes. Now that everyone has moved past all the precautions my OCD is popping off again. I literally forget that other people don't "see" germs on things the way I do until someone notices me avoiding touching surfaces in public.

@xorayne_ 11 месяцев назад

you literally made me get diagnosed. i was writing it off as anxiety but then realized the thoughts were so beyond and intense. i brought it up with my therapist and got the diagnosis after a long process

@savhardt 11 месяцев назад

unironically at the beginning of this year I thought I was never going to feel better and that my experiences with ocd were something totally unique and unbeatable. seeing your channel and videos that were so open about ocd and the ways your illness can trick you out of joy changed the course of my mental health journey for the better. thanks for being willing to share your experience as I know I'm not the only one who feels this way

@MarkClark-l4h 11 месяцев назад

This video was very helpful for me. I am an ex-Christian, but a horrific break up and heavy depression/chronic substance use brought me to a place where I decided to get into witchcraft. My religious background/anxiety/likely spectrum disorder/derealization actually created a perfect breeding ground for paranoia. Not long into sobriety I've come back to my own reality in acknowledging that I have no need for any religion in order to cope with every day life. I believe in the day to day existence and part I play in the world, not a story I tell myself that's moldable depending on my state of mind. I am thankful for peace and stability where I can find it.

@debypoole7079 9 месяцев назад

The “I'm not usually anxious” and you busting in like “YES YOU ARE” gave me life.

@jessicakeen2204 5 месяцев назад

I was diagnosed with OCD at age 11 but I thought I’ve “grown out of it” completely. I don’t struggle with intrusive thoughts and compulsions hardly ever anymore. But the guilt and shame and thinking in black and white has been my main struggle for the last few years and this video made me realize I very much still do have it lmao. I also have tics that have been flaring up lately and my boyfriend noticed them for the first time and I was like “oh lol that’s just something I do sometimes” as if that’s not a symptom of ocd

@alexisjost6113 11 месяцев назад

I have ocd and religious trauma, and I think it’s really interesting that a lot of my trauma around religion comes from just having OCD. I also struggled with feeling psychic or spirituality gifted and feeling guilty about not doing anything with my “abilities.” When I look back, it was all just anxieties I held, the church and confirmation bias.

@milkslice3730 6 месяцев назад

I used to think I had a really good immune system because I wouldn’t get sick as often as my family. turns out I actually have a bunch of vitamin deficiencies that makes my immune system a bit worse than most, I was just very good at washing my hands and keeping a distance from people

@rachamanda13 11 месяцев назад

honestly a little scared to watch this one bc i have been doing the whole "is it my intuition or am i just imagining every possible thing that could go wrong and if something does end up going wrong, I KNEW IT!!!!" dance for about a year now

@DaniiiiPhantom 11 месяцев назад

I genuinely thought I might have OCD or even ADHD because I related to certain parts. Well, when my therapist talked about having generalized anxiety disorder I learned the symptoms can overlap a lot! It's nice seeing people talk so openly about the weird shit their brain latches onto and not needing to feel shame!

@pharaohphoebe 7 месяцев назад

ahhhhh thank you for this i was diagnosed early! at 7! and then my parents got me treated for 6 months and NEVER AGAIN DID ANYTHING ABOUT IT and it went wildly unchecked! i got rediagnosed at 18 and took lexapro for a year and ~hated it~ and took myself off it also also doubling it by myself (🤪) i’m 27!!! thank you for this HUGE reminder that i’m -clinically delusional- like for real i needed this

@sydneyanastasia3053 3 месяца назад

the way u started talking about skin picking while i was picking my skin 😭😭😭 thanks ig it made me stop also i think you were part of the reason i pushed so hard to get diagnosed. bc i watched a video of yours a while ago where you talked about skin picking and intrusive thoughts and i remember commenting being like “i don’t have ocd but this was so relatable thanks” and then months later i get diagnosed with ocd and adhd 😭😭 girlie was so dumb back then fr i thought i was borderline for some reason. like i could just not get that out of my head. but i feel so so so much better actually knowing what’s wrong and i no longer feel like a crazy person. the bus is my biggest trigger so with it being summer my ocd has been so much better that sometimes i even forget about it. but i know it will all get worse once school starts again. and vacationing will be hard too with all those new variables. i feel so much better even just knowing what it is and that i can watch videos like these. i even have a friend with ocd and we talk about it all the time ! life has just been so much better with my diagnosis so thank you for being even just a small reason that i tried to get a diagnosis

@neengreen6122 11 месяцев назад

The part where you were talking about manifestation and negative thoughts really hit the nail on the head. Being told "don't think bad thoughts" is one of the worst things to hear. Your videos on OCD have helped me in so many ways and I appreciate you for being open about it. Signed, a girl who also believed she was psychic.

@loser2idol 11 месяцев назад

I had to cut out religion/spirituality for my ocd as well. And it got so much better when I did. It got to a point where I was so afraid of my own thoughts because I “”knew”” I was going to get into a car accident and I actually did. It fucked me up for awhile lol

@mollysutton1300 11 месяцев назад

Fellow OCD girly here, thank you for being so honest about your mental health and for just talking about it!

@aurelia9909 11 месяцев назад

I was just diagnosed with OCD a few weeks ago - thank you Nicole for speaking out about this! I remember I was going through a really hard time when you were vlogging about your struggles, and it helped me a lot at the time. ❤

@CaleighGulsby 11 месяцев назад

that jacket is BEAUTIFUL!!!

@ohreally1997 7 месяцев назад

family family family (ifykyk)

@isabelleb-l2699 11 месяцев назад

You have grown so beautifully on RU-vid, I have been watching you for about 4 years now and I still love to watch you evolve in your opinion and world views. Thank you for your contribution to the internet♥️

@YourSilentPrincess 11 месяцев назад

3:30 you talking about your experience with OCD has really helped me personally seeing someone who struggles with something i do. especially with how bad the representation is around OCD. Love you ❤

@oliviadement6116 11 месяцев назад

I also for the longest time thought I had some sort of spiritual superpower about telling the future! Of course Ive been diagnosed since I was seventeen. But even now i still have trouble discerning what is deep rooted anxiety because if all those times before I have predicted the future, then of course this worry of mine will happen to. Most recently I have lost a whole month due to believing I have skin cancer. I also believe i will lose my job for some reason but the truth is if i worry about every little outcome-of course one will come true. Not psychic, just a worry wart with OCD! Really trying to focus on what is actually happening and not what will happen. Because I dont know what will happen!! Thanks for posting this!! I never hear people talk about their ocd so in depth and when people try relate its about how theyre “so tidy and a neat freak” Thank you!!!

@anthonydominguez2888 11 месяцев назад

I appreciate you speaking about all of this. I also had a period in 2020 where I clung onto manifestation as a way to cope with the pandemic and other variables happening in my life. I look back in retrospect with how damaging and obsessive I got with it that I really didn’t think others shared that same experience. Ive gotten a lot better with regulating myself but, I still get remnants with intrusive thoughts thinking that I will cause something by thinking of it in terms of “manifestation”. It took practice to handle it like as I do now. Thank you for sharing 💛💛

@icu3869 10 месяцев назад

Confirmation bias: once again my own mind patting itself on the back for being right. Again. When it’s not. Sheesh.

@peapeaprincess 3 месяца назад

Literally the most beautiful person I’ve seen without makeup

@reeseisinpain1218 11 месяцев назад

Also,, I just want to say that you were the first "regular" person online that was near my age I ever saw with IBS and Fibro,, later on OCD,, and it was so important to me as a 17 year old who had always seen my illnesses as a punishment out with older people. Also I totally relate to thinking I manifested something horrible happening and it was all my fault omg. You sharing your experiences is so helpful i swear. thanks

@emmabrainard7670 11 месяцев назад

I strongly relate as someone with OCD who has black and white thinking that can make religion difficult to grasp. Through lots of therapy and consideration I now believe that God forgives me every day and I don’t have to fixate on being “good” or “bad”. I just focus on living & knowing I am loved & forgiven just as I am.

@CloneCaptainRex7567 7 месяцев назад

I grew up Catholic in Mexico and we were always taught that God and Jesus are beings of love and understanding and while not all powerful they do the best to guide you and take care of you. I hate how people teach that God is an angry dude that will punish you for bs.

@childofgod759 6 месяцев назад

also mexican catholic and while i dont have ocd i suffer from black and white thinking from being very mentally ill and sometimes theres this looming feeling like i am being punished or will be but i know god prolly wouldnt do that idk being religious and mentally ill you really do have to get the best out of religon like the comfort and the hope and remove the shit the church teaches you lol

@Plutorevolveinpeace 11 месяцев назад

I’ve recently been diagnosed with OCD and it’s been so severe that I’m on a leave from work right now. Your videos have helped me not only feel heard but feel like I’m not alone and that there’s a community that does understand me. Thank you ❤

@Liv_shoe 10 месяцев назад

This video came up on my homepage and i read it as “ex-psychic exposes psychics” and this was NOT what i expected but I still found it enlightening. Brain things are so crazy, and you don’t know what is “normal” or not because you’ve only ever had yours! Thank-you for sharing.

@katemarshall2930 11 месяцев назад

Nicole, I can't thank you enough for the content you create. I grew up with extreme anxiety and was reliant on superstitions, and throughout taking a few psych classes in high school and watching your videos regarding OCD, I realized my anxiety was something bigger. Hearing you talk about the pandemic really resonated with me because, a few months before the pandemic, I remember telling people that "I just wish the world would slow down, things are moving way too fast" - and then boom - pandemic. I felt personally responsible for something that I now realize I had no control over. Obviously there were other factors, too, but that one really hit home for me. After your first video on OCD, I decided I probably needed to look into the possibility of me having it, since I recognized parts of me in what you were saying, and realized what I had was more than anxiety. I got diagnosed a few months ago and since then I've finally felt validated in the ways that I feel. Thank you for helping me make a difference in my life and (from the looks of the other comments here) other lives, too.

@IsabelleSayed 11 месяцев назад

I feel like I’ve commented this before lol but I have autism which shares a ton of similar traits with OCD and your videos have been so helpful when it comes to understanding my thoughts. I’m really thankful you’re talking about this kind of stuff

@justkidsmusic 3 месяца назад

this is such an amazing and insightful video. couldn't relate more and thanks for sharing your narrative on it because people often don't realise what OCD actually is/how it appears in your daily life

@abbi7072 11 месяцев назад

I had almost the EXACT same experience. The psychic thinking, manifesting, religion, etc. It all came to a head earlier this year and I had a complete 2 month long break down and the world no longer made sense. It was terrifying. I made myself go actually insane with intrusive thoughts. I am diagnosed OCD, PTSD, bipolar, anxiety, and depression. I’m in a much better place now, medicated, and have a much healthier outlook on reality. Thank you for this video, I feel a lot less alone 🧡

@chloet2445 11 месяцев назад

I really appreciate this video

@renbae436 4 месяца назад

thank you for that video nicole, it really put me into a different perspective about my own ''manifesting" and OCD experience

@propz_xx 11 месяцев назад

At first, I gas light into myself into thinking that I didn't have OCD. when you came out about it, it made me research a bit more. Long story short my mom told me that I was diagnosed with it years ago, and I just completely forgot. But I'm so happy that you're talking about it. Makes me feel less crazy

@sarahghorbani 11 месяцев назад

you are actually the person that inspired me to go to a therapist and get a diagnosis and i have been diagnosed since last year. it has made me feel way less bad about all my thoughts and compulsive actions. you're my savior for this. hope you're healthy and happy xx

@333ma3 11 месяцев назад

thank you so much for making this video. It’s so beautiful to hear you critique your younger self, but do so with so much love. it’s so appreciated that you’re open about your mental illness, you’re helping so many people. ❤️❤️❤️

@stinkusbinkus8758 9 месяцев назад

It sounds like you've come really far in your journey with OCD! The path to overcoming mental illnesses is often a long one. I think it's really awesome that you're so open about your own struggles - I've dealt with depression and anxiety, but your candid accounts of what you've been through really opened my eyes to just how awful OCD really is to deal with. Thank you!

@n.a.7040 11 месяцев назад

I don't have OCD (or i don't think so) but I do have a lot of anciety and obsessive thoughts and this video helped me put into words what I've been feeling for years. The guilt of not being able to foresee or control traumatic events in my life or family has always felt so irrational to me but this makes me feel less alone. Thanks Nicole :)

@leicean 2 месяца назад

I’ve watched your videos for about a year now, and only this week got diagnosed with OCD last week. It’s a relief that we finally know what the root of my issues are, and that OCD is treatable despite it being hard. Thank you for all you do ❤❤

@squeakingof298 11 месяцев назад

I’m diagnosed with OCD and it’s really reassuring and relieving to see someone I really enjoy watching talking about it. Thank you for the content you make and sharing your experience, I’m really grateful

@snailflowers 11 месяцев назад

My partner, younger sibling, and mom all have OCD. I personally don't have it but I have seen the parts of it that can be seen from the outside. Knowing so many people with OCD has taught me a LOT about the illness and in my opinion, it's one of the most misunderstood mental illnesses out there. A lot of people think they know what it's like because they think it's as simple as a fear of germs or a compulsion to be clean or something else like that. When I first started dating my partner, I had no idea about the different ways OCD can make being in a relationship really difficult. Not to mention, neurotypical people also need reassurance sometimes, or want someone else's opinion about whether or not they're doing the right thing, or feel guilty about things that aren't their fault. It can be a balance two people need to discover together in a relationship, not to assume that every little thing is a product of OCD, and sometimes someone with OCD just needs the neurotypical amount of reassurance. Nicole, I think you speaking so openly about OCD is an amazing thing. From what I know, it can be an extremely isolating disorder, but also one where sometimes literally just saying your thought processes out loud or hearing someone else say them out loud and realizing it is not reality once you say it can help break some of the power they have over you. I think content like this is super beneficial to people with OCD and those of us who don't have it but have people very close to us that do.

@snailflowers 11 месяцев назад

also, the things you were saying about needing to steer clear of religion and spirituality ring super true to many of the people I know who have either OCD or past experiences with psychosis/delusions. You're super not alone in that!

@Kinda_gayngl 11 месяцев назад

When I was Christian, I was convinced I could hear ghosts & thot that spirits communicated with me. Granted I was in middle school but it’s still embarrassing & a bit concerning😅

@green_bobcat 11 месяцев назад

The hairstyle the makeup the colours omg Nikki you're GLOWING ✨

@graveyardg0th 11 месяцев назад

It's always a good day when Nikki Nasty posts 💅🏻

@haleyguida5224 11 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for posting this. I just saw the thumbnail and title of the video and thought, “haha! My mental illness makes me think I’m psychic sometimes.” Then cracked up as soon as you said OCD bc that’s the one I have! Well, I have more than one, but anyways, that’s the one I was thinking of lol. I do not recall hearing anyone talk about this aspect of OCD outside of convos with therapists. It helps to hear you talk about it-you are not alone! Thank you for going into how other things like religion, manifesting lifestyles, and bad/sad things that happen in life and in the world can have really negative, unique impacts for those with an OCD brain. It helps to know we’re all working through it together. One of my therapists said that I don’t have superpowers, I just think a LOT of thoughts every day and, like you said in the video, sometimes one of the thoughts happens. Thank you again for sharing some of your story. ❤️

@Dev-xe7fz 11 месяцев назад

This video definitely helped me realize that like me thinking i was psychic and could read the future was just my OCD and I'm not crazy. Also I love your videos they're so awesome and your sense of humor and your hair looks amazing. Thank you for being an awesome, inspirational person and thank you for sharing your story and helping others! You really inspire me to just be honest with my friends, family and therapist about what I'm going through.

@KeevanNorton 11 месяцев назад

i myself am diagnosed with ocd and what you said about manifestation really resonated with me. i’ve been dealing with a lot of health issues (and mental health issues) for a long time and i often turn to prayer or manifestation HOPING the gods / universe / guardian angels… whatever you want to call them, would listen and take away the suffering i’ve experienced and when it doesn’t work it hurts so badly. there have been countless times where i’ve questioned whether they’re not healing me because i’m “not deserving”, because i did something wrong or because i’m gay (which kind of covers the two previous statements). not turning to manifestation is something i REALLY need to work on. in the moment i know it’s not good for me but it often feels like there’s no other way out. i really appreciate you making these videos nicole. so so much, they’re super enlightening.

@GuardianSpirits13 11 месяцев назад

I don't know you but I am SO proud of you and it was very refreshing to see such a healthy and self-aware perspective on this. I've always believed in having grace with my younger self and knowing that even if I wouldn't believe something now that I did then, that the comfort that my beliefs may have given me was still real and shouldn't be dismissed

@WillNeverBeAGI 6 месяцев назад

I'm so grateful for this video, to see someone else reflect on an experience so similar to my own. About 5 years ago, I caught myself doing a lot of the same spirals. My OCD diagnosis, while relieving, felt a bit like my own brain had been betraying me. Now I know my brain was just trying to help out my anxiety, in the best way it could. Manifestation is also an off-limit topic for me too. Wishing anybody reading this the best.

@merrilyandjeanette 11 месяцев назад

You helped me get my OCD diagnosis. It had never crossed my mind before, I’m so thankful you have spoken about OCD in a light that popular media doesn’t.

@welikepotato 11 месяцев назад

I was diagnosed about a month ago and have really enjoyed seeing you mention your OCD now and in the past. I am so proud of you for the way you have progressed and how you talk about yourself with compassion. I think you help to de-stigmatize it and you’re also funny.

@JebCow 3 месяца назад

This is like 7 months old but I love that you shared this part of you. I’m personally very open about mental health because it helps me be more of a social person. But this video helps me understand what others go through, what their journey is. I personally didn’t know that having OCD was that difficult/demanding so thank you again for your video!! Much love xx

@itiana9908 11 месяцев назад

as someone with autism and adhd i always have anxiety and have always thought that my negative thoughts would lead to another bad thing to happen. and it is such a big thing to deal with even now

@unclewalnut8213 11 месяцев назад

I'm wanting to cry out of pure enlightenment and joy of your beautiful way of speaking lightly on the tremendous effects ocd has on us folks. you are wonderful Nicole thank you 5ever

@jorjarayne6514 11 месяцев назад

Holy crap ive recently come to realise the same thing about intrusive thoughts/manifestation, because i used to be the same, very into new age spirituality and the whole wave of manifestation, so the ‘your thoughts create your reality’ line has been so engrained in my way of thinking for years now, but at the same time i have horrible intrusive thoughts as part of my ocd, and its something im working on in therapy, but severing that link between thoughts/reality is sooo hard

@storeboughtramonaflowers 5 месяцев назад

ur so real for this

@iranmedellin 11 месяцев назад

Not now sweetie, mommy is watching Nicole Raffiee’s new video

@joy-lustig 11 месяцев назад

I was diagnosed with OCD earlier this year and now everything in my life makes sense. Thank you for making this video!

@lanedebbie 11 месяцев назад

Great and fascinating video. I’m a longtime sub, and I have to say I remember the “manifesting” period. You almost lost me with those, but the other content was entertaining enough that I kept sticking around. So happy that you finally found out what was going on and are able to get the help that works for you. I know you prefer doing the “essay“ type videos now, but for those of us that have been around a while, it’s great to get a peek into your real world again every now and then.

@LG777.mother 11 месяцев назад

The SPEED to how I clicked on THIS! Geez!

@trufflemumkins188 7 месяцев назад

Your cat looks just like my cat that passed last November. Give your kitty lots of love for me.

@Zectifin 11 месяцев назад

Marcus Pork is hilarious. Love his shirts.

@lubbydove 3 месяца назад

I really resonated with this video mainly because me and my sisters are the result of mental health issues on both sides of our family. for quite a long time after we went into foster care we would say things like oh but we're like low-key psychic and connected with the universe, but after watching this I really do feel as though that was our group mentality and also us all having anxiety 😰. I think me and my sisters may be more on the spectrum of autism rather than ocd, but its very cool to see other people struggle with the same thing, no matter what their non existent or existent diagnoses are. watching your videos has made me realize the stigma that I have put on different illnesses despite having mental issues myself, thank you so much!

@rachelbryant8329 11 месяцев назад

I remember asking my parents if they thought I had OCD a lot as a kid based if simple symptoms. They always said "ah a mild form I'm sure" I'm 21. I've been diagnosed for a while now. I graduated talk therapy and my psychiatrist is bumping me to an OCD based place. It was cool watching this before going into OCD based therapy. I've always known they have OCD, but I'm always bumping into more things that are explained by it all the time

@sage5530 4 месяца назад

"im a really big fan... of the mental illness itself" is so real as a psychology person even though u have it 😂 ive randomly gotten super invested in random mental health issues before

@Genny-Zee 11 месяцев назад

I am psychic tho I predicted a Nikki nasty video

@miaferraro3214 8 месяцев назад

I have OCD and i resonate with so much of what you are saying. I wish I had someone like you when I was younger because it would've saved me so much distress to hear you talk about your experiences. I did the exact same thing with COVID and 2020 was one of the worst years of my life because of my contamination OCD. Anyways thanks bae

@ma_kenz 11 месяцев назад

Like two days before Dylan O’Brien got injured on the set of his Maze Runner movie, I had a vivid dream of him having a near-death experience. Still don’t know why that happened, but I’m sure there’s some parasocial explanation lmao

@megandohm6843 11 месяцев назад

Just got diagnosed over the summer, and hearing you joke about it has actually helped a lot! Therapy has really been a game-changer...I've made more progress in the last couple of months than the last decade of trying to figure it out by myself. It's a long haul of un-learning an entire belief system, and so much of that work is internal (turns out not all OCD manifests like in the TV show Monk?), but I'm so thankful that I can start moving forward now I've got a name for it. Glad you're talking about OCD so openly, it was so so helpful in my early diagnosis days!

@moshroomba 11 месяцев назад

hey nicoleeeee, I absolutely love your videos and appreciate how much effort and care you put into your topics. you are so funny and so gorgeous ❤

@emilybaio4118 9 месяцев назад

This video is such a comfort for me. OCD is so hard to understand and verbalize do thank you ❤

@chequeplease 11 месяцев назад

Younger you has the same energy as selena gomez as a 16 year old who has new hair at the teen choice awards

@laurenwilliams7344 8 месяцев назад

As someone with BPD and a very spiritual person, you have just completely changed my view on manifesting

@serenaushy 4 месяца назад

Thank you for posting this. Really. As a person with OCD with huge ties to religion and spirituality, I think I needed to hear this. I've been stuck in a cycle of "am I a good girl/person/etc." for so long. Every day I ask my wife that. Every day I say "if I'm such a good person, why did [bad thing happen]?" And I didn't realize that this ingrained thought process was from religion. Hearing these words genuinely, truly helped me a lot. Thank you. I mean it.

@sopita2236 11 месяцев назад

Y’all if you’re a Christian and you think you’ll get whatever you want if you’re a good person or you pray pls read the story of Job. The Bible never said that. We act out of love bc it’ll ultimately lead to finally feeling whole and content. And prayer is meant to be used as a way to be in communication with God. God is not a genie omfg 😭 stop guilt tripping people and be kind especially to those with debilitating disorders like OCD ❤

@nerdynugget4921 11 месяцев назад

Thank you for posting this video! I had a similar experience: growing up, I thought I could see ghosts. This was not helped by the fact that the first adult I opened up to about what I was seeing told me it was ghosts. It wasn’t until I was a senior in high school (and had started seeing the school counselor regularly) that I started to question my “ability”, but when I asked my mom to take me to a therapist, she took me to a psychic instead. Once I finally got to college I was able to see a psychiatrist who diagnosed me with PTSD and Anxiety, which made everything make sense. My life has been so much better now and I don’t “see” anything anymore because I’m able to manage my anxiety and triggers. I’m super embarrassed when I look back on it, but this video made me feel less alone, so thank you!

@mcplestreet 11 месяцев назад

video so new James Charles boutta slide into the dms and ask for armpit pics

@hannahborel6135 10 месяцев назад

This video could be so helpful for people!!! I dont personally have ocd but several of my friemds do and these thought patterns are so often not realized and using your platform to possibly inform people that they arent alone is so valuable so thank you 💕

@patpants1997 11 месяцев назад

You described the guilt I felt when my mom got diagnosed with breast cancer in 2017 and my dad with ALS in 2018 SO precisely (anxious former child psychic as well). I was wracked with guilt over my dad passing away and it wasn’t until years later that I realized the only reason I didn’t feel that way with my mom was because she beat her diagnosis, but I had just as zero control in both situations. Thank you for making this video and explaining your feelings and reflections so eloquently ❤