Exploring the correlation between substance use and cluster B personality disorders 

I'm really just trying to look into and understand my struggle with a life time of mental health problems that i am only at the beggining of getting any help for and a lot of self distructive and a life time of punishing oneself. i have always truggled with substance abuse as another way to cope and be distructive. i was sexually abused as a child that lead to my first relationship with a violent narcissistic sociopath followed by 2 more equally abusive relationships. if it is possible for some advice what help i should find to get a assessment on my full mental state i would appreciate it and thank you for taking the time to read this also xxxxxxxx

Sounds like the Grammy awards, just be more modest on the introduction.