Farewell 

One day you manage to become happy and then you encounter the wrong person at the wrong moment. Takes you down and creates and bring back some of the worst in you. You try to get back on your feet but the person comes back. Life manages to hurt your health and things get worse. You dont know what to do. You have a "blurry idea" but you end up in sleep deprivation because that idea isnt likeble and you dont want to live that moment when you get to sleep but you're still conscious and able to think, automatically making you think about your life and "blurry idea". End up as midnight meditation and sometimes just not sleeping for days so you dont get alone in your head.
You finally accept your blurry idea and you're sorry about this. You take train 0, it's departure time and it feels cold, only warm things are your good memories. People havent seen you in a while and wonder where you have gone.
My first EP :
0:00 Sérénité
1:10 Blurry Idea
4:00 Midnight Meditation
5:22 I'm Sorry
8:05 Train 0
11:25 Farewell
2022 and 2023 have been incredibly rough years where both life and death stared at me constantly gambling where I'd go. My mental health never ceased to go down for so many many reasons that all started in early 2022, which none are originally connected in between but somehow still managed to be. If I shared a good part of these, there's another part I have never ever shared that was probably the most important which led to where I am now.
I faced new mental experiences which some were the most hardcore I have lived. Like totally forgetting a face, voice, forgetting a whole person and all the memories which all very slowly started to come back. Still can't identify this person even on pictures. This was the result after this person used my state for her benefit, harassed me and threatened me. But that was nothing compared to other experiences.
On january 11th it will be five years a friend chose to leave this world, taking 'train 0' and never coming back. It doesnt feel five years, it feels two years ago at most. It feels unreal.
Mental health is a topic that isn't widely discussed even among people who are concerned. The way people treat this is purely a joke but it is what it is and it's the reason why hundreds of thousands of people die each year because of the state of their mental health.