There’s a zillion things to be negative about. You are blessed by the fact you are wonderfully articulate, smart, and not a negative person as you say. You have so much of a head start over and above me. I’m overwhelmed by the state of the world and my inability to overcome my own inner mind issues. You are able to so wonderfully and naturally present your inner and outer struggles without any air of pretentiousness. You are truly gifted Mei.
I just finished scrolling throught yet another psychology book that i really thought might have the answers just to find it like all the others, cold, boring, academic, "researched showed", tasless, random definitions, with the author filling it with their random life stories and let me try to be funny references and their X vs Y rants and obvious virtues of don't compare, be kind to yourself you're good enough believe me talk, without truly guiding one to truly change their mind, just the same surface talk about the subject without talking to the reader at all, no connection no humanity as if i was a robot who has to digest those walls of text to feel good for no real reason. I just finished and said to myself "that's it, no one has a clue what they're saying, there are no answer and i'm truly going to die like this, i really have to accept i'm doomed and i'll never have a life". Then i slept for a while and woke up and came to youtube and on my way to my laptop i said "Why can't these writers talk like Mei? Is Mei the only human around?" and i clicked on youtube and your video was the first thing recommended to me! then i clicked on your video and you said: "I lost that feeling of hope, i really questioned if i was ever going to get better, if things were ever gonna be different." The timing can not be anymore perfect and i really feel this is a sign for me to keep trying and not lose hope so thank you 🥺
Actually crying right now. 💛🌱🌱🌱🌻 Sending you the biggest of the hugs. 😭 Let yourself go through the motions at your own pace, and know that even if you don't consciously understand what's going on, your mind and body are performing the miracle of trying to heal and grow. Believe in that. And we'll be here for one another through thick and thin. We'll cry with each other when shit gets unbearable, and we'll celebrate each other when we've had a good day. And i'll be waiting for the day you share with me something you want to celebrate 💞 because you deserve to experience beautiful moments you're proud of!!! Your comment touched me and means SO much. 🍪☕️Thank you. Deeply.
It's 2:40am where I am now... I've been struggling to sleep for 3 days now only managing about 12 hours in the past 72 hours. My eyes are burning and I can't really rest no matter how much I try. Your uploads make the feeling less painful though. So thanks for that. I'd like to join in on the challenge even though I'm new here. Edit: Your reminds me of one that adopted me for a week while staying at an Airbnb. It's like she knew I was going through a lot and would often cuddle with me even though I was practically a stranger. The fact that she is so similar to yours is kinda freaking me out a little.
Hey Akiru! Thanks so much for sharing. It means a lot. I hope that you can really feel less alone in your journey, as so many feel similar emotions but we are all in this strange matrix (as you have referred to it) where no one feels safe or comfortable enough being truly vulnerable... So i appreciate the connection we get to share here. I think it's so important!! As for the insomnia, i definitely think you should try looking up things that could help. But i would recommend putting on a really long meditation where you can focus on the person's voice and try to not let your mind drift off into your own thoughts. Hopefully that can help give your brain a rest, you know? Personally, i enjoy listening to a lower and soft voice. I feel like it helps ground me. Let me know if you find anything that works for you! Sending you lots of strength and a big hug! Happy 2022.
Wish I could hug you... I am confused, scared but still hopeful as you are. I'll try to exercise, I'll try to live healthier. I wish you, myself and everyone soul healing... 😢😢🙏🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️
One big hug coming your way!!! 💞🌈 I know it's hard. The voices don't just "go away". But i think being AWARE of our own power to decide to take back control of our story, our reality, our path is a HUGE first step. There are times where you will choose to grieve the past, and that's totally fine! I also hope that you will allow yourself to choose to feel BRAVE and powerful in other times, and try something different, new, self-loving 💙💜🔥💪You got this!!
There's much ambiguity to this. External factors are real and it's okay to see oneself as a victim. It can be even good to do and to acceppt the past, that it is not your fault. This can help, however at the same time, everyone who suffers has to put in work to have a better life in the future - this is inevitable. Usually people put you down if you see yourself as a victim, but that's wrong and cynical. People who suffer are victims, and it's healthy to admit it. The past is the past and can't be changed and you still suffer. I have compassion for people and the mentality I described can make one feel better and accept one's momentary disposition. The work for a better life has still to be done. This is an ambiguity most people have problens to understand and that it's not a contradiction. Good luck to you! Oh, and since you like music and are a sensible person, I want you to recommend three songs by John Lennon that fit perfectly for a person like us: "How?", "Isolation" and "Gimme some Truth". It's incredible how John can make me feel with his voice and lyrics. It's beautiful.
Hey how are u… :) I just wanted to check in with you…how are u feeling? Also happy new year, u have done great things and you deserve happiness and success for the glorious things you do… I wanna thank you for getting me out of the deep wholes mentally and emotionally in 2021, and I truly enjoy your presence on this earth, continue to follow your heart and your emotions with these videos, much love queen❤️👸
Hiiii 💞Thank you for such a beautiful message! I'm sorry i don't remember our original conversations (did you change your name by any chance? or were we communicating over email?) But your kind words truly mean the world to me. 2021 has been a really hard one for so many of us, and i do believe that we are stronger together if we can lean into our emotions and open up to people who truly care 💜🌈I hope 2022 brings you lots of laughter and healing. We got this!! 💪🧁️Thank you again for all this love!!
