first week of art school at RISD! 

just want to say thanks again for all the support!! i know i'm pretty dramatic LOL but you guys watching along makes me feel less alone so thank you 🫶

I went on a tour to RISD this summer. Providence is gorgeous but the hills, good lord. My ankles were KILLING me. I feel for you girl 😭

Man this takes me back to my first week of film school, filled with existential dread, wondering what I was doing with my life, feeling like an imposter. I never ended up working in film, but I met the people who would shape the next 30 years of my life, some who are still great friends, and had some of the best times of my life. No regrets! Seeing your big portfolio made me laugh remembering what a pain it was to carry that thing across campus in upstate New York winter. Was like having a sail! Best of luck Camilla. You have way more discipline and talent than I had, You're going to do great. Savor every minute of it.

Don't worry. The first semester is always the hardest. Schools do that on purpose to sift the people out who aren't serious about it. You'll slay it, I'm sure!

I am at the end of my first semester as a law student. At first, I was a mess, feeling like everybody around me was so much smarter than me but with time and with the help from friends, I accepted that I was here to learn, and therefore it was okay to feel like I didn't know what I was doing. Always remember that everyone is special and has something unique to offer. There are other options besides quitting, but be respectful of your limits.

I visited a college a few days ago and thought it was nice. Seeing this video makes me feel that it’s all a trick. They present it nicely, then hit you with reality and stress

I’m a new sub and I’m 53. I went to college at 30 when both of my kids were in school full time and I felt the same exact way! I came home from school every day and told my husband I was going to quit because I’m too old and I wasn’t smart enough. Well, like you after the first week I only broke down in tears towards finals that first semester. Then in the 2nd semester I remember crying when my kids got chicken pox and I had to miss a week and was so stressed out about it and the last time was when my husband was injured at work in another state and I had to miss another week. It literally got better each semester and by the time I graduated I had a 3.8 GPA. So this long message is to say cry when you need to but don’t worry - you will do amazing!! ❤

awww girly you got this!! i just graduated from art school and lemme big-sister you through this. first off: no one knows what's going on in art history, don't worry. everyone's just nodding along and pretending like they've heard these words before, everyone just pulls BS out of their ass - especially in the first couple of weeks. you got this :)) and it'll get easier as you learn more - you're not gonna fail, promise. (also, cute that you're doing the readings - naive and new to art school LOL, (it's not going to last LOL, you'll give up on readings by midterms haha)) 2. i feel you on the drawing class! and if/when you do painting classes - OOF; you ruin sO many clothes. I ended up wearing the same outfit every week to that one class because i simply did not have enough clothes to change my outfit throughout the semester 3. don't stress girl about not having supplies - you probably know now but especially in the first day, most profs will (usually) be understanding if you don't have all your supplies- they know that a lot of students are trying to get the same stuff, so a lot of times art stores run out, so they usually have extra. if not, i'd always help out other classmates if they needed something, and most will feel the same, yall struggling together 4. we all procrastinated. we all said "im going to do this entire assignment today to get it out of the way" and we don't even start it. it's normal, LOL enjoy the luxury of the first week where the consequences aren't that bad yet and you aren't that busy yet 5. sorry to say, but the feeling of wanting to quit, isn't going to go away, i litearlly went through like 4 years of saying every day: "why am i here?" "why didn't i go into engineering?" "what am i going to do in the future" "this is so stupid." "I need to leave" -- but guarantee, a lot of the rest of the school is thinking the same thing; just gotta shift the perspective every once in a while and think about it like ... heY YOU ARE GOOD AT THIS, IT'S GOING TO BE STRESSFUL FOR A BIT, BUT YOU'LL GET THROUGH IT! Just remember that you like art, you enjoy drawing and making things and don't get all caught up about pleasing profs/instructors or being embarrassed in front of your classmates and let yourself just enjoy the process. 6. don't worry, you're not going to fail. only people i know that ever failed a class in art school are ones that didn't show up, didn't finish their work, or didn't hand anything in. as long as you submit somETHING - you're not going to fail. 7. be proud of your work more often! the assignments might be stupid sometimes, and they might be pretty meaningless, especially in your first year when they're teaching you a lot of basics, but make sure you are genuinely proud of at least one of your assignments at the end of each semester. i know a lot of people that went through a whole semester and couldn't find 1 piece that they liked. critiques can be gruelling and demotivating sometimes - you're not always in the mood to be roasted, and it sucks when you thought you'd done well and then get a lot of harsh critiques. so even if it's just a small part of it, maybe you just like the top left corner of this painting, or the colour palette of something, make sure you're proud of at least something. if it helps, make it a tradition to look through your art at the end of the semester (when you're probably going to be cleaning your room after making a mess of it throughout the last couple of weeks), to sit down with all the art and look through it, see how far you've come and find something you're proud of, and one common thing (keep it to 1) that you don't like and want to improve on (ie. anatomy, colour palettes, dynamic composition, etc.) and something that I wish i considered before going into art school: keep all your work. even if you hated it or you hate the outcome or did very bad on the grade, keep them, you'll be happy you did in the future when you look through it again and see 1. how much work you really did over such a short span of time, and 2. how far you've come. you got this girl!! good luck this semester :)

I just finished my first month of art school, and lemme tell you. I AM SUFFERING WITH YOU CAMILLA, MY WRISTS SOUND LIKE CEMENT MIXERS BECAUSE OF MY DRAWING CLASSES, AND MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME BECAUSE OF MY 6 HOUR MODEL DRAWING CLASSES AND I HAVE TO STAND DURING THE ENTIRE LESSON.

Honestly, the one major thing I've learned is even if everyone looks like they understand, they don't. I promise we're all struggling along with you, it got a bit easier for me once I met other people and was able to find common ground so I didn't feel alone. You're doing so well, keep going! c:

You are soooooo going to make it. Don’t quit. I felt just like you at Art School in London. You have a huge amount of supporters cheering you on. Enjoy the assignments even when you have materials and techniques that you’re not resonating with.

Im currently a junior in art school, honestly i wanted to drop out for the first year and a half lol. I think the first 2-3 semesters were pretty hard for me because I felt very confined by the topics and it got a lot better once I was able to do some topics I actually really enjoyed. Even though I did not enjoy the first 3 semesters I still learned a lot. If you are a perfectionist, I recommend trying to get out of that mindset because I drove myself crazy and had horrible art block because I was trying to make every drawing perfect. Also I found it very important to make time for personal artwork too. Art school can be extremely stressful and its really important to make sure you are able to do things you enjoy outside of school.

I just wanted to add this…I just looked at some of your work on your other videos and I’m blown away. The fact is, you are an artist ALREADY! Art school will teach you how to make it a potential future career, and you’ll have a blast along the way learning to live on your own, be self-driven and generally working out life. However, your skill set is outstanding, and I truly feel that your art is amazing, with or without art school. I wish you all the best.

Literally first few days of art school, they told us that we are definitely gonna cry a lot, and yes... yes we did. As much as it was painstaking, it is good to question your work, its not that its bad, its just where can we take it from here, that will be most of the journey but you improve so so much and you do stuff you wouldn't have done before, so stay strong!! you can do this!!

It could be very stressful and very depressing, but you can do it. Even if you don't believe it, you can do it. It's okay to rest and take time to breathe, and it's really okay to cry. I cry a lot when classes and homework overwhelm me hahaha. But you can do it, take some time to recharge and then do it. I send you a huge hug

im also just starting art school (in Mexico, around 5-6 weeks into the course) and i understand the feeling of just starting and having all of those doubts and insecurities, but once i kinda got the hang of it, and all the overwhelming emotions started to clear up i started having so much fun !! you're gonna be surrounded by so many people with the same tastes, similar goals and i think thats one of the best parts, im sure you'll have great friends to go into the path/hell hole that is university LMAO good luck and have fun at school

im a senior in undergrad rn and i promise you it does get better!! the first few weeks of school are always tough for everyone, even if they dont show it, so just keep pushing through and eventually you'll find your groove. part of going to school is learning new things and you wont be great at everything which is fine! you'll learn what you like and dont like which is a great thing to know earlier in life.

I hope you do more of these videos I surprisingly enjoyed it c: also hope you can show more of what assignments you get in class I’ve always been curious to know what kind of work they make you do ✨ good luck in school and don’t give up 😤

Honestly girl u are doing great! I'm in my second year of graphic design and i relate to wanting to drop out and constantly comparing myself to others. I think making good friends is key to surviving lol, bcz they can relate to your feelings and make u feel less alone. Seriously enjoy every moment bcz it does go by so fast💗💗

As someone who just started taking art classes in college I FEEL THIS SO HARD 💀

RISD is my top pick (probably can't afford to go though😭) I love seeing the process. Thank you for recording your suffering. I can't wait to see how things will pan out.

bro. real talk...you scared the absolute poop! out of me ever pondering..."should I go to art school??" honestly, more power to you for sticking it out, that shit looks crazy. I thought 3 months of interior design was tough...WRONG!!!

Just graduated from art school this May, started watching this thinking it would be nice to have on in the background while I do some work. Turns out it was TOO relatable and reminded me off all the trauma of year 1 😅😅 hang in there girlie. It gets better!!! Try not to compare yourself too much to your peers because I promise everyone is feeling exactly the same way. You are exactly where you need to be right now ❤️ trust the process

Hi!! I recently subscribed but I have randomly watched a few videos over the years that were suggested to me. I find you to be super entertaining to watch and your art skills are wonderful!! Further education is very hard, and can be very competitive but it DOES NOT HAVE TO BE! You do not have to compare yourself EVER to still be intrinsically good at your outlet. You will get through this and you will learn, no worries. I wish you the best!!

I went to RISD pre-college this summer and honestly I feel u omg. Though obviously actual RISD is probably wayyy harder,, pre-college was already bad but it looks like ur doing okay so far good luck!

don't worry about not understanding somethings thankfully art is very free, after the basic classes once you reach the major classes and you see your improvement in art it won't be that bad. Trust as a fellow art student I had the same feelings of dropping out, push through YOU GOT THIS.

My first time watching. You are hilarious by the way, so I’m subscribing for sure. The work you did in your first week was really good, so don’t put yourself down in any way! I’m sure once you settle in more you’ll start to feel a flow. Good luck with week two. 👍

GIRL! i’ve seen you so much on tik tok and i was so in love with your art. i had no idea we were the same age! i’m in the same boat i’ve just started at vcuarts. it’s hellish. we’re gonna GET. THROUGH. THIS! we’ve GOT THIS! we are academic WEAPONS!

honestly i relate to this feeling so much back when i started my first semester if art school i kept thinking like why am i doing this and how stressed i was honestly school in general is not my cup of tea i am very much a self learner type of person. But i hope everything goes well i am rooting for you

You got this! I started uni last year and I really struggled as well. I felt like everyone had so much background knowledge and I was so basic... but the whole point of school is to learn! Hold in there, you got this

Camilaaa pone subtitulos! No me quiero perder las cronicas de una estudiante de artes ❤

The first few weeks from home can be pretty lonely, especially if the food, sounds, weather, and people are REALLY different. But you'll adapt and figure it out. The town will start to become familiar, the people will not seem so different and your classes will keep you busy. You'll be fine. What you're going through is normal. You got this.

this is currently how I’m feeling as an art major, you got this !

i am so alone in the night. this has brought me company in the day

I usually don't leave comments (like ever), but I just wanna let you know I totally know where you're coming from! From the perspective of a senior majoring in fine art, I look back on it all and it wasn't that bad! I think we just have a tendency to spiral when we're navigating uncharted waters. You're gonna do great, and just remember to take some time for yourself and have fun! (After all, college is supposed to be a little fun, at least) 😅

bro college is a true discipline that I have to pat myself off for every day. I am a junior and I can say everything you're experiencing is normal. but ik that things that always seem to be a challenge bring the most change.

It will sound cliché, but diamonds are made under pressure. First semester is always the hardest. Don’t give up !

I JUST FINISHED MY FIRST SEMESTER IN ARCHITECTURE SCHOOL. Girly i didnt know how i survived it but here i am enrolling for 2nd semester🤪🤪 i guess after being so insecured about my skills, i learned that the best thing to do is to never look at others’ work then comparing it to yours bc girly peace of mind is like reaching for the stars😭 but comparing is totally different with learning from one another,,, tachniques u didnt know that u’ve learned from ur classmates and vice versa is what makes it exciting. Tbh idk how i’ll do this semester im just gonna gaslight myself thinking that it was a great idea to enroll in my current (hell) university☺️ BUT U’LL DO A FANTASTIC JOB THERE IM SURE!! GOODLUCK ALWAYS BOO

Do not let professors or other let you down. Your art is absolutely amazing and others WISH they had your talent. These pretentious professors worry about technique and all this other stuff and are probably miserable because they can’t do what you or others do and hence that’s why they’re teaching. I had an art teacher who was very discouraging and she doesn’t even draw or paint and everything I did sucked to her and I do realism and comic style art 😑. Whatever you do, do not let these professors dumb you down and make you forget how YOU know how to draw or paint. Everyone has their own technique and their way of doing things. That’s what makes and ARTIST! 👌🏼 The BEST artists surprisingly never been to art school, or some just obtain the degree to be able to apply for art jobs that require it. So, don’t quit. Persevere and keep your art spark no matter what! ✨Keep going!!! 👍🏼

Love the existential crisis. Been there, done that. You will get stronger, i promise 😅 love the trees

Just wanna say this is so relatable as an art student at a normal college. It's tough, but the first year seems to be for everyone + I dealt with the SAME EXACT THING WITH HULKIN AROUND THOSE CANVAS BAGS!!

I also started art school this month, I am an absolute wreck and I don't think I've ever felt this exhausted. As an introverted autistic person, I am absolutely drained, like it's fun, meeting people with the same interests and talents, but it's just so exhausting and so much change

I'm only like a minute in the video, but most of your classmates are most likely feeling exactly like you. They may seem like they understood everything in class but it could easily be them putting up a front and trying to save face. It's actually very common, so don't be discouraged when you don't know something. Better yet, ask questions! That's something rarely anyone does and is such a missed opportunity when no one says anything. That's what you're there for: to learn! It's ok if you don't know everything, but it is important to show that you are willing and enthusiastic to learn to your professors. If they're a good teacher, they will see that and be more than happy to help you. Keep it up, Camila!

Oh guys you will all be fine, okay? I just finished university with a psychology masters degree and will do another art degree and I am so relaxed you all. Just have a great time, dont worry about the assignments too much. You will be alright.

Good luck camila! Your a wonderful artist don’t let artists whose art is different make you think yours is bad there’s no such thing as bad art it’s art

YAYYY Dude the negative space drawing is awesome!!! keep up the amazing work :))))))))

i’m only ready to see you slayqueen RISD just like you have always slayqueened your paintings.

i'm dying laughing 3 minutes in. the art history vocab inaccessibility is so real and the efs "draw the sound,....!!!!" bs. you will make it girl I believe in you it gets easier after this

It's a big life change, it's normal to feel like this. It's overwhelming but You'll find your routine soon and adapt. Cause we're humans that what we do. Until then it's fine to let it out and vocalize it.

LMFAO the editor bit killed me. but fr i hope art school treats you well! the initial transition into college is SUPER tough. the biggest thing you can do is have good time management, esp in art school where you're pretty much thrown projects to work on until the very end. i say this while i skip my communications class to work on a piece for my 2d design class (art school is hell but it'll hopefully be worth it in the end!)

negative self talk will only make you feel worse!! hype yourself up!!!!

I love it!!! You are rocking it at RISD. Proud of you camilerrrrrr 💕

This video is so real and you are so real for art that this deserves a sub

things will get better! I felt the exact same way when I just started school. It's just the first week no worries love. Stay Strong!

i am a second-year music performance major and sometimes i wonder what would have been if i did a studio art major instead. thank you for showing me that it is just as shitty as a music major lol

8hrs omg my longest studio class is 3hrs god bless your energy 😔

Camilla: "I'm still sad but I'm not crying" Life: "Welcome to adulting, occasionally I will still make you cry but that's ok"

You got this! Your AMAZING, don’t worry your already doin great :)

Go with tha flowwww brahhh 🏄‍♀️🏄‍♀️🏄‍♀️🌊 yooouuuuu ghaaatttt thhisssssssssss

omg yay u posted praying on ur upfall bestie

Camileon, don’t quit and don’t be deceived by the others. I‘m most certain they’re all acting as if they understand to „not feel dumb“. You are all in the same boat. Talk to other students, you‘ll be fine!

como puede un vlog ser tan realista y gracioso y reconfortante al mismo tiempo?!?!?😢

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Haha just found your videos, I live in RI. Good luck, your art is amazing.

girl i totally get it i just had to walk through the city streets carrying a ginormous ass 4'x4' piece of foam core for my obs drawing class lmaoo

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Your art is fantastic so... if you feel like you don't need art school I wouldn't worry about it. You got this. Get what you need from it, but if you don't need it.........

“draw the sound” 😭 LMFAOOO

it looks fun but stressful

i did 5 years of art school. trust me, it'll go so fast you wont even notice. especially if you like art.

Ahah, I feel you about quitting! I decided to get my masters degree this year and, even though I went through hell to get to uni, I still have no idea what I'm doing and why x) But it indeed gets easier and better. Good luck to you in your college asventures!

i start uni (uk) in 2024. LUCKILY, all artwork stays onsite and im a commuter

Girl'girl you di not suckk your art looks like a mirror of what you painted 😢 you slayyyyyyyyyy❤❤❤❤

College is rough, you’re doing amazing! Remember to rest!

I attend one of most prestigious Art Skl of its kind in the Caribbean [EMCVPA] the first half of this video was me at first but then i saw your work load and its crazy😂 we don't get that serious until our 3rd or 4th yr and i don't even think it's that serious

AHHH I LOVE YOU IM SO PROUD OF YOU

Keep going! You can make it, you're just starting out!!

Girl you are so so talented!!!

please remember to take quality breakss u deserve them!!!

Omg your eyes are so pretty 🫶

Just started university off with a week of maths… I didn’t get shit while everyone around me had no problem solving the equations so… I feel you and your first art history class so hard😅

I'm so proud of you, I think ur drawings are beautiful ❤ God bless uu

Literally all of your feelings/thoughts are ones I've had before about college lol

You always look sad, i relate cuz i always look un friendly

The first thing I thought of was: I HEAR STARDEW VALLEY MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND-

Girl, we are a bit of a hot garbage fire but Ringling will happily take you! like i’m going to apply to risd as grad school . they really do load the work on you freshman year tho from my experience

You can do this sis❤️

Record the lectures and then you can Google the terms afterwards

You sound just like an art student 😂 good luck soldier 🫡

More more videos 🎉

she's just like me fr

Me in medicine Different school same experience but I REALLY hate it

Not the editor reveal! 😭

Your editor has an EXCELLENT mustache indeed...🧐

I hope that school is great 🤞

the chaotic energy is just radiating from this video

Camila, baby girl, it's gonna be ok, you are such a talented person. You'll have so many chips to eat later, it's gonna be great. I personally believe in you 💅💅💅

STARDEW MUSIC :0 4:03

“Everyone understands everything just fine…” no girl, EVERYONE feels exactly what you’re feeling. They’re just really good at hiding it. You are not alone. Go talk to some of your classmates. You’ll be fine. You can do it. And definitely talk to a therapist, a counselor, a friend!

This is probably the realest thing about college I have seen in a while. Thank you for normalizing and showing us good and the ugly it’s such a learning experience to be by yourself and do adult things. As a second year trust me it gets easier just trust in yourself and be patient :)) everything you are feeling rn is a universal experience