Five Finger Death Punch's Ivan Moody on 'Dying' from Alcohol Withdrawal 

As a recovering addict myself, his story gives me hope. I love it. I have over 7 1/2 years clean and sober.

In my experience I went thru the Same feeling of peace and then heard my family screaming my name. I have a new found out look on life and not waste everyday I have left....we are all lucky to have life. Make the best of anything

Crazy that something flew into both of my eyes after hearing Ivan talk about his daughter's voice bringing him back. I'm not crying, your face is crying 😭.

I wish my father could of seen this, alcohol killed him six years ago and even while his skin was yellow due to kidney failure and he sat in a wheelchair due to begin unable to walk he still told us all that he didn't have a "drinking problem" it takes guts to beat any addiction so well done to Ivan x

I have been an opiate addict since 1995. Ivan, we all slip, and fall, we love you!!! You broke this old ladies heart, I see me. I can't believe I am here, at 58!! I was not supposed to live this long, seriously! You have our support always...happy b day!!!! Jeannie in Lakeport California

I've met Ivan at a bar in Colorado about ten years ago. My friend said he knew him when they were starting to get pretty famous and I didn't believe him. But sure enough he showed up with a group of people and his lady. Bought my friend and I a drink and we returned the favor. It was cool to meet him. Very down to earth person. I usually tell this story to my rocker friends when I get the chance.

"Don't tell the fans" a true musician who cares for his fans.

Congratulations to Ivan of FFDP, on his sobriety, and I found out I am an alcoholic since 2018, and it took me till 2019, to actually realize, Yes I am an alcoholic, and I had been to AA meetings, for ages, but then sometime near the end of 2020, I decided to stay sober by myself, and I have had a few relapses, and I got to 265 Days sober, and then broke it 58 Days ago, (because 58 Days on Saturday, NZ time), but I keep at it, and fight the good fight. Also, I hope and pray everyone, and Ivan and the rest of Five Finger Death Punch has a great day/night, great weekend, and stay safe. Five Finger Death Punch are awesome.

Congratulations Ivan. That is heavy. But incredible at the same time. Can’t wait for the new record.

I'm glad Ivan is still with us and sharing this story he's a great man

I was and still I'M so very happy he got clean. I cannot imagine him not in 5FDP! He is so talented and a really down to earth but no BS man! Your fans luv you Ivan!

I am almost at 3 years now. Ivan, you have been a great influence. I woke up in the hospital after some serious dts. It was an awake nightmare. I know exactly what you went through. Keep up the good work. I am about 99% sure I died too. The jail won't tell me what happened. I know that it's scares the crap outta me.

1st of all, 5FDP is my favorite band, above all other music, they have got me thru the worst days of my life! 2nd, I had no idea that anyone in the world had beliefs so close to mine, let alone Ivan! And last, thank you for those words of encouragement, I'm in recovery and have been fighting like hell to stop using 1 thing to get away from another! I love you and thank you so much for sharing your story!!!!

That's deep!! Glad you're here man!!

I have been sober for 9 years and it's because of the love of music appreciate everything because it could be gone in a blink of an eye love you Ivan and FFDP your the voice we need

Ivan, I love you so much and I'm sorry you had to go through that to wake up and realize the world needs you and you need the world. Now carry on and do what you came back to do! I understand what you went through, I too had many alcohol overdoses and it sucks coming back but you made it through it for a reason. Love you so much!

Bless Ivan's heart! So happy he came back to us!

MUSIC IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE..."THE GREAT COMMUNICATOR"

Wow! Thank you Ivan. Thank you so much for sharing such a personal experience, your disease, death, recovery... Can't WAIT to hear the album!!! And thank you for the encouragement and love🤘💜💯

Holy Shit!!! That’s an amazing story!!! Thanks for sharing.

I've known people so bad. That when they stopped cold turkey they literally died. It's no joke. Alcohol abuse is just as bad as them all. I never knew that people could die from getting sober.

Thanks Ivan. What a great community growing around this shared passion! 🤘🏼 priceless for those of us with shattered families & hearts heavy with grief. In the darkest times of my life, the only thing that ever made sense was music.

Love you Ivan!!💞💞🎼🎼👍👍😉😉🎤🎤💕💕👊👊 welcome back!!

Stay safe! thank you for sharing 😢😭everyone affected by alcoholism needs to hear this!

GO IVAN!!!!!! 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍Thank you for posting bud!!!❤❤❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏🙏WE LOVE YOU IVAN ❤❤❤❤❤❤

I’m so proud of Ivan and I know exactly what he went through. Luckily I was able to quit cold turkey but now I suffer from seizures and panic attacks. I was raised up in a Christian family and dabbled in Wicca also. Even though I’m an only child, I was the black sheep of my family. I ended up in a coma in March of 2018 with brain swelling and it was the strangest experience I’ve ever been through. I wasn’t expected to survive yet here I am today. FFDP has written so many songs that have applied to what I was going through at certain times, and I felt every emotion that Ivan was going through. Keep up the good fight Ivan and God bless you and your family. 🙏

Dudes got a big voice but an even bigger heart!

Today I celebrate 8 years and 2 months of sobriety. Videos like this keep me grounded. Congrats Ivan!!

Love and light to Ivan Moody!

That's deep. Thanks for sharing brother.

I respect him even more than i already did now

Ivan is such an inspiration, he's one of the resons why i stopped drinking 3½ year ago. One of the reasons was his awesome lyrics that inspired me to stop. Thank you Ivan!

We love you and FFDP so much Ivan! Every time I hear an artist or band say they love their fans and wouldn’t be doing what they’re doing without them, I always wondered if they meant it. I always feel like an ass wondering that.. I watched this and started crying. I’m so happy and very thankful you’re sober! I wish I could tell you personally. 🤘🏻❤️

GOD BLESS HIM FOR TALKING ABOUT THIS , I LOVE THIS GUY JUST TODAY MADE ME REALIZE HOW DEEP HE IS AND TY KINDLY IVAN, A FRIEND JILL

Thanks for being an inspiration Ivan!

Very Powerful. Thank You.

Huge love and respect to Ivan!!

I've also been there like Ivan. I was on life support for a month and I did see some of the somethings. Sober now and loving it. Ivan is a big inspiration in my life. If he can be a rock star and stay sober why can't I. Much love Ivan

Glad to see he made it through. I am a huge Ivan fan. Had no idea he died. I too went through this and became sober. I am a new subscriber as of this very moment. Keep it up...

This brought me to tears, thinking of myself and my daughter. Thank you for sharing this! You're amazing as a father first of course and your music.. yea its always playing.. FFDP nothing more needed to say🤘🤟

Love the honesty that comes from this man ❤

This is absolutely the truest description of death I've heard! Thanks for sharing this , fun fact : our brains survive for 8 mins after death, but since time doesn't exist once we pass, that 8 mins seems like an eternity and I believe that is "life flashing before our eyes" but the overwhelming peace and LIGHT is what our true beings are, and that's how we have eternal life, because we never die, we simply "pass on" to the next plain, dimension, what have you , but we are all part of this universe (the hum) and we are eternal , in my opinion anyways , and I am Wiccan since early childhood but I do Believe in The Most high, which I think is the Universe we come to and from.....I'm glad you're still here ! Blessed Be my Awesome SOBER friend :)

Ivan told this story at a show I was at in MN, It was very shocking that his drinking came to be this bad!! But So glad he's in a better place now! Cant wait for the new record

We are all with you bro, keep doing what your doing it takes a lot of courage to let the world know things like this :)

You'd never let us down. I've struggled through opiate addiction and it's the hardest thing I've ever done. I just wish I could tell anyone who's just getting started or even thinking about it to stop right now. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Everyday is a battle, I take it day by day but it's a much better life without that shit. So just keep on making the amazing, kickass music you make and I know you'll never let me down.

Ivan I appreciate you sharing You gave me hope

Thank you for sharing~ Congratulations~

Man this is so intense. I am so pleased your here and came back You still have more work to do don't forget that's ❤ivan❤ your worth it. .Im proud of you for your changes. Be well always . ❤

Thank you for sharing 🤘🏿😈🎸

Bless You Ivan 🙏♥️ Thank you for sharing. I understand what you mean finally getting a second hurt or energy and pure will. To keep fighting to survive this cruel world So Much Love to You Ivan! ♥️ Always 💞 stay safe

Thankyou sir.

im in rehab right now in ur story is helping so many of us we love u soooo much ur not alone ....i overdosed once ended up n the hospital myself....i love u man i love ur band n music is one of my copeing skills i use specially 5FDP ROCK ON !!!!!!

Thank you for sharing your story I lost my son 3 years ago and I just can't get past it but I am still trying!

This is crazy! Ian rocks!!!. So happy he’s still around, and sober . I’ll celebrate 12 years in 2 months. It’s one second at a time ( at times ) .

I'm fighting alcoholism now, not really sure how I'm doing,...thank you for giving me hope on my suc

Thank you for the video, its an eye opener, I've been fighting with the sauce for a few years now and the pandemic didn't help, because I started drinking more, but his experience gives me hope to turn it around. also being a music lover, I understand just how helpful music can be, in these situations.

Thanks Ivan !

I got sober April 18th 2014. I was lucky to only have one major withdrawal and i knew when I had it that I was finally clean. My prayers go to anyone ready to admit they have a problem and are ready to fight it, you can overcome.

Amen brother. Thank God we didn't loose you. Looking forward to hearing you express your experience in your music.

That IS freaking awesome and amazing MaN!! ShoutouT to IVAN!! Everyone else here struggling, listen to this, listen TO YOUR SOUL, you CAN overcome it all.... but not all on your own!! Seek help!! Share help!! The struggle IS REAL, and it is less complicated to handle the struggle while sober, than to "try" handling the struggle IN ACTIVE addiction, for we just muddy everything up!! Prayers and good vibes for all of my fellow humans inside or outside the struggle!!

I've met Ivan and he's a genuinely nice person. God Bless this man.

Thanks!

I understand brother. Thanks for sharing. 😎👍

About 7 yrs ago now, my bf was drinking a 30pk/day of beer. Life long alcoholic, starting before birth. I called 911 and ambulance came & took him away. He was drunk as a skunk, passing out, falling. 90 min after they left with him, I got a call from the hospital. They were transporting him to a hospital in the city. When me & my sis got there, the paramedics were still there & talked to us. They asked if he has ever had seizures. I said no & they said "well he does now & died when we left the other hospital with him and again right before we arived here". That killed me! He got out of there a wk later but spent the next wk in the county jail for kicking a nurse in the head, following another seizure and scared, not knowing where he was or what these ppl were doing with him (he was in fight or flight mode). He got set up with a new primary dr who worked with him closely to stop drinking. He was told to NEVER quit cold turkey, alcoholics can easily die going that route. He had my bf drink his normal amount & then take 1 beer away every wk. If he has a bad day, then start at that point and rework his way down, 1 less beer a wk. I became a BIOTCH!! After 2 yrs of fighting with him and his alcoholic buddies, I got him to be serious about what was actually going on. I made his closest drinking buddy go from adoring me to loathing me! I got involved in his relationship with his gf & told her all his dirty little secrets! All his lies to her and how he trashed her (all truth coming outta my mouth). The next day, they were done & a month later, he moved an hr away. THANK GOD!! Fast forward to Nov 14, '19. He is down to 3 beers a day. Has been hanging on between 3-5 for the last cpl months before hand. No seizures (I am anal on him taking his anti-seizure meds on point every 12 hrs) but keeps passing out. But this day, he only had 1 beer. I got home & see the other 2 still in fridge. I forced him to have the 2nd around 9pm. At 11:30pm, I am on the phone with 911. He was passing out & complaining he didn't feel good, all his insides hurt real bad. Ambulance leave here with him at 1am. They had a hard time waking him back up from passing out to get him downstairs & onto the gurnee. They ended up putting him in a wheelchair to get him down there. I get a call from hospital at about 5:30am. Told if I did NOT call when I did, he would have been dead by morning. His bp was so low & he had a million other things wrong with him. Pancreatitis was the cause of it all, which ya get from drinking. Every internal organ was trying to compensate for the next. Enzymes were all through the roof. In and out of ICU. 4 days on ventilator & borderline comatose. Developed pneumonia & couldn't get rid of it, leading to lumbar procedure. Feeding tube for over a month. Sedated over a month. Christmas Eve, I got a call saying I needed to be in there by that Friday to fill out financial papers for long term care (rest of his life in a home because his brain function was stuck at that of a 7 yr old). But he has nothing. No home, property, job, nothing that would be able to pay for a nursing home. Plus he has a record. No home would take him and I was not told why, they don't have to give a reason. The very end of January, his brain function started to return. Feb 4th, they told me to come pick him up, his daughter picked him up on the 5th because I had to get things ready for him here 1st. He had to now also see a cardiologist. Today, because of his alcoholism, he is on 6 meds because of his drinking damage. He takes them 4 times throughout the day, for the rest of his life. His last drink was Nov 14, 2019 & that last drink was forced onto him because I got scared. Today, he annoys me just as much as ever but he does it 110% sober! His 3 months in the hospital was his final wakeup call. Even our landlord quit drinking to be able to be a safe place for him to go to and hang with. My bf is doing pretty well considering. But me?? I am not ok. Alcoholism has taken its toll on me & I am not an alcoholic. But I love one. Alcoholism destroys the people who love the ones with the disease. If you are an alcoholic, seek professional help ASAP! DON'T put yourself in the same position! It is the 1 drug that can & will kill you trying cold turkey on your own. You CAN quit. Asking for help does NOT make you weak. My bf was told by his primary that, because of what his... (mother🤢🤢🤢🤮) has done to him before birth and his childhood, it is such a huge part of his genetic makeup that he may be one of them people who actually medically need 2 or 3 drinks every day the rest of his life. But he made it. His tremors are so small now, you only see it when he has to sign his name. He did it. He made it. So can you!🙏🙏🙏

Did you see the tree? I died when I was 16 while I was dead I saw a tree in the middle of a river but the tree didn't have leaves and branches it looked more like a Galaxy or maybe a nebula cluster glowing brilliantly and the river that came flowing from the tree was knowledge. Something told me I could stay in the river as long as I wanted and learn whatever I wanted to know but as soon as I crossed to the other side of that River there would not be any coming back so I played in the water like a child on the beach and as I went to cross I saw behind was my family. They were waving at me telling me it was time to get out of the water and I ignored them and began to cross and as I approached the River Bank on the opposite side there was something that would not let me cross all the way they told me to turn around and go home but I was not ready and when I returned to the other River Bank I woke up I died twice the first time for 4 minutes and a second time for two and a half minutes and then I was in a coma for 32 days I remember seeing every bit of this I even saw me being loaded into an ambulance and driven to the hospital. I saw my sister she found me dead on the floor in my room. I believe in death time does not move like we think it does all time happens at the exact same time and you can see all of them at once it's like having multiple eyes focused on a billion things and there is no fear no hurt there's nothing but peace it's almost like this unifying force consciousness.

Have Always Loved you Ivan Moody.. I lost my Son Michael 9yrs ago to a Heroin Od... it has Been a Long Road for Me... your songs Resonate.. would Love to Meet you.. 💪❣

I love u moody u r an inspiration to all going through an addiction and I'm so glad that ur doing great and I hope u go to Greensboro NC on ur tour cause I would love to see you there

Thanks for such a powerful Human message. Truly eye opening and inspiring. Best of luck to you and anyone going through it. Life’s pressures make it almost impossible to not take in destructive habits. The ones that went through it and can shine a new light for how we should be, those are the true role models. Love and light

Keep fighting we are glad you are still here.

I’ve died 3 times. And one experience was when I first found out I had cancer I been home for about a day I pass out in the bathroom and hit my head on the tub. My dad grabbed me and put my head in his lap and what brought me back was hearing my dad screaming. That’s a sound I’ll never forget. He passed not long ago I miss him.

LOVE YOU AND BAND IVAN. KEEP FIGHTING.

As a soul who has experienced this..... All i can say is..... Bless your heart... Live for today! And love hard!....

Better stay sober because I love his voice you don't hear voices like Ivan in the metal music .congrats Ivan.

I got to meet Ivan multiple times aboard the ShipRocked Cruise 2012 & 2014 and did shots with him there, he was extremely down to earth and humble. I’m sorry Ivan went through this and am so glad that he’s better. We got your six brother!! Hello to Mama & Papa G too!! 5FDP 🤘🏼😆🤘🏼 🔥👊🏼 Happy Birthday Ivan!! ✌🏻

Powerful experience! Also powerful guitar riffs too! match perfectly

I was pronounced three times- I cannot explain what I saw! However I can say I found my PEACE! Been sober ever since! From 2005 one day at a time!

I’m glad Ivan is still here with us 🙏

I wish very much that you have the strength to continue your path without alcohol. You are a great artist and I wish for many more concerts with you as front man

Thank you ivan you've motivated me so much to find the will power to stay sober I identify so damn much with ffdp music ive found creativity through you guys sobriety tattoo coming soon recovery is possible sometimes it takes isolation and discomfort to do it but no matter what you are not alone keep the faith and your head above water ❤

I love ivan so much ...im 7 months sober and clean

Your awesome Ivan!!!! We love you 🤘🤘

Love it, Brother 3/30/2007 is when I retired from alcohol.

Dude - mad props to Ivan. Every day is a gift.

Your amazing great motivation

Thank you for sharing your experience. You are a awesome person your music is what gets me through each day. 5FDP for life.

As someone 15 months clean, the struggle is serious and worth every single part!! Congrats to Ivan and everyone fighting this fight. Keep on keeping on!

thank you because if you didn’t make it back we would have missed out on so much. love you be safe

Any withdrawals can be scary!

Alcohol was worse than any drug for me to come clean from. I'm glad he made it.

This is extremely powerful

I’ve had detox/withdrawal seizures and I was just OUT. Dizzy one minute and “coming to” the next. Nothing in between. 6+ years sober now

After 17 Years Of Drinkin, (Over Half My Life). I Lost So Many Good Loves, And I Caused So Much Emotional And Psychological Damage. My Daughter’s Custody Was Ripped From Me While I Was Doing Great Progress On Sobriety And Self Healing. But Because It Wasn’t Believed To Be True, I’m Now Facing Legal Help. So Much Stress And Fear I’ve Ever Felt. But Ive Never Been More Sure That My Baby Girl Will Be Happy And Love Me In Return.

Ivan, you had a deep experience, much respect. As above, so below. Take from this as you will like a grain of salt. I have the deep scar tissues from almost, literally, 100% dying. If it's not your time, it's not your time. Doesn't matter what you do. Heaven, Hell, you know what's up.

We love you Ivan. Keep it up.

Good for you Ivan, it takes great strength. Glad your back ❤

I couldn't take it anymore and overdosed on pills. I thought I'd just go to sleep but I was conscience the whole time I was dying. Life is hard but death is worse. I spent a couple days on a ventilator but thankfully my sister had found me in time for the EMS to save my life. I woke up and it's been a struggle but day by day I get better. It's not easy but we can do it!

Awesome great music song. Rock.

I’m a huge FFDP fan and the thought of a break up due to Moody losing control would have been an even bigger loss to heavy metal in general! Rock on FFDP!!!

I watched my boyfriend pass at home from Liver Failure from alcoholism. He passed February 9th, 2021 with Hospice at home he was 45. Many nights rushing him to ER for the pain. Addiction is around all of us. Just never give up on anyone. I miss him tons. Liver Failure is a horrible painful disease. He looked like Moody a beautiful man ❤️💗

Being an alcoholic for over 38 years myself, this was so INSPIRATIONAL. Music has a way of saving you; you just have to listen. Not everyone believes in a God but believe in the POWER OF MUSIC. It's real! Thank you IVAN for believing in music and in your fans. We love you. You're worth it! Looking forward to new music. To everyone: BE WELL. ( Hey IVAN, just a suggestion but how about TRAGIC TRUTH for an album title?) FIVE FINGER DEATH PUNCH KICKS ASS!!!