I love when I get to talk to you. I've got too much that I wanna share with you. I can't tell my wife all this, but she's okay with it. She lets me express myself more than I ever could. -- She keeps me from deleting every comment I ever made. She keeps me from regressing back on anything I did. She's the reason I always wanna progress. She's the reason I've been given this test. -- Can I build a relationship without having sex? That's the question I've been struggling with. The point isn't to have sex even if that's what happens. The point's whether or not I can build a romantic connection with the opposite sex. -- I never believed it was possible for me to share one of those friendships. But that's what I'm working against to prove that I can. It's not fucking easy battling these fucking demons in my head. I get confused on which emotional direction I'll take. -- I get so lost in my head writing these verses that I forget that I can't. I can't dream about sex with another woman because that's fucking weird. But the problem is I do no matter how hard I try to avoid the subject. It hurts me so much because it's not what I want. -- I know my dick thinks it knows best, but following through will destroy my relationships. I know I feel love for more than one person, but it's not so clear on what's meant. I got boundaries blocking me from crossing over the fence. I just hope they both still love me back. --