[FREE] Mac Miller Type Beat | "I Wonder" 

I wonder if there's more than this...

stray hearted no one’s ever owned it now it’s changed guarded, dome over my soul I had to break garden grew upon the snow and i’m still so cold in the warm that you’re providing don’t you realise I got a lot of problems laying deep inside I don’t sleep at night I hold deep anxiety, I been overthinking, overdrinking, linking thoughts to signs connecting what my eyes meet hard to be deceived but in denials where I find me drifting time is shifting, i’m sifting between some memories I promised i’d forget them but I remember what I don’t want to remember I’m always dreading every month up to December Another year, another one and i’ll dismember another part of me, I’m losing every part of me it’s hard to be full of optimism when the pessimisms guarding me 12 deep demons locked me in, they try to father me where was all the guidance that I needed when my heart was full of innocence, my mind was full of dreaming now I hardly feel an urge of showing some attentiveness to things that used to garner my attention cause it’s hard to keep focus when my mind likes to depart from me I wander through the forest of my thoughts where I lost any feeling of remorse now I run from the shit that I've done I admit that I'm dumb, I commit to the numb filled void in my heart and it tore me apart when I saw what I started through the door in the dark I been living by the door in the dark from the outside looking in, it tore me apart but if I shut the door in the dark I'll forever lose everything and more to the dark

C'est toi, toi, dont je me souviendrais Toi qui pourras, à tout jamais, attendre mon cœur et le porter au delà des mots, au travers des vallées. It's you, you, that I'll remember. You who will, forever, wait for my heart and carry it beyond words, across valleys. N.B. "attendre" could be "atteindre" -> 'reach' my heart

Loved this

Banger

wow super cool jazzy piano

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i hope u get moticed this is beautiful .

I sit and wonder if there's more than this, Knowing I can't afford to live, I'm pondering to use my check for food or rent or burn the shit. What kinda life is this? I'm crying woe is me I'm dying for the chance to live, While guided by my broken dreams. I know what being hopeless means, And the feelings that follow, It's hard to cope with demons when they're squeezed into bottles.

Love the cover art as well as the beat! Did you make both?

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"Nostalgia" Remember back when we were little kids You ever dreamed that your life would be better than this? Drinking cool-aid while writing Christmas lists Now the alcohol is the only satisfaction that we sip Cartoon Network on the TV, Courage for the wisdom Kids shouldn't watch toons on Adult Swim But we still watched them Robot Chicken had me laughing in the kitchen Disney Channel with Raven is a time that I've been missin' As you grow older, you learn to learn a lesson Hide your feet kids, there's weirdos with obsessions I loved iCarly, but you know why that channel wasn't mentioned If my name was Nick, I'd probably be changing it Rolie Polie Olie, I'm autistic, can't control me Rug me up and roll me, I'll come out alive and holy I'll throw your head like it's a football They'll be calling you Arnold You don't want to catch these hands I got more hands than Oswald I'm a 90's baby, nostalgia is what they gave me Orange tape in the VC R...sorry my writing is lazy I've gone wild like I'm a baby Call me Chucky or call me crazy That's wordplay, child's play I'm a rugrat, you can't contain me Slugs took my brother's soul, drugs took another one That's a shot out to Cole and everyone hatin' on him Just because the people are out here discussing Doesn't mean there's a need for repercussions But I feel like my brain is creatively on I'm smarter than ever, call me Jimmy Neutron Surfing on a surface that most have never been on Surf's Up b**ch! Wait a minute...Rocket Power is what I meant My happiness is sort of empty Man, I used to have plenty Playing the 64 before watching Ren and Stimpy NFL Blitz was never part of my list But Eden Park roller rink had me playing that shit 50 cents in the tank, it was just another day Skating in the rink until we dive in the arcade I miss the days when everything was okay And when I had the fear to face My parents showed me there's no reason to be afraid But everything has changed It's not the same

and you manage to hit again

Lo voy a usar me permitis

whats the full french dialogue? i want to understand your idea from ittt

let me take a second to persecute myself tell you why I am not worthy of my friends all the blessings in my life yah so um i had a dream but not like martin luther king in this dream, i sleep with my mother and my brother misdeeds, i'm so fucked up cause my dad walked in and i told him i'm so sorry kill me now, there's the alter my misfortune fucked my friends girlfriend and as he cried i consoled him oh god, what's my motives im not noble i'm alone i am lonely cause i cannot show you my face already been disgraced, when i thought about murder for three days straight like its either me or them, many men ain't my friend they don't even know who i am son of sam

My mind is a blank slate a vacant and empty space show no emotion no expression on my face can't place this sensation its insatiable lights are on but nobodys home unavailable how did I even get here how is this attainable brain waves deactivated minds harddrive irradicated vaccume space ship floating through the galaxy my sense of self worth was all a phallacy how can he continue cut deep to bone and tissue sinue clings to what remains everything is good is what we say it'll be alright it'll be okay but in the day to day nothing changes everything stays the same underprepared and overwhelmed cant ponder on the fact that I'll soon be underground I guess its nothing new been living in the basement for more than a few but here's to many more feeling torn in my decision making lopsided picture framing

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