I feel so nonexistent I hate that you don’t get the extent We Want something so fucking different And I don’t think i can change Argue with myself I probably am insane I don’t ever fix it Cause I love to complain Lover loser all I’ll ever be I know I’ll always be the same I hate the way My simple brain responds to this ducking pain All I feel is rage nowadays The skies still bleeding grey I stagnate cause I like it in the rain I’ve pushed away absolutely everyone and everything that made me happy And this is all that remains I’m perfectly unhappy With my misery Telling myself that a win Ain’t no victory All of my hope has been Slowly withering Love has just went Now My heart is blistering I know you were figuring I was gonna be here forever But Now I am the one glimmering Out shining everyone I can’t help that you’ve been slithering Yeah I see you grass I’ll leave you out shivering Cause I gotta be cold It was fuck me now it’s fuck you Cause You just another trick like fools gold I wouldn’t even be friends with me Look in the mirror And I just see a different me Lately I’ve been seeing shit differently Demons have been whispering I know I shouldnt be listening Death is something Ive been considering I’m never happy Nothing can pleasure me Wanting some help But I don’t wanna ask for it Pent up this anger I hate how I manage it Put down the bottle Then always go back to it My life is a story I’m not the protagonist They say pains the greatest teacher Well I must be a graduate They say everything happens for a reason But I am an accident Look at my mind And I know that I’ve damaged it Only imagine if I didn’t battle it Pick at my thoughts And then look where I scattered them I tried to be happy And I couldn’t handle it Wanna move forward I always go backwards and.. then I just wonder Where all my passion went Tell me why my father left Where the fuck has my mind went Battling this shit since before I was 10 I don’t care about fame I just need some bens So I can say I have a couple hundred friends That are willing to stay till my money done went
i feel that hatred i feel the pain running circles in my brain you were my main then you switched lanes everybody plays with you like a game then when there done chuck you away i never wanna feel love again popping popping popping down next day feeling down wake up with a brand new scar on my wrist cause i was thinking about this bitch that left me in the ditch hit and miss always remember our first kiss
Living in a fool's paradise Bitches play me and make me out to be the bad guy She said she love but ik that's a lie Remembering those long nights I cant seem to get off my mind Think it's kinda funny These bitches say they love me Ik they jus playin but I ain't holdin grudges Been a ruff 2 years That's why I been smokin Lookin through my texts so much shit I regret Trapped in my own my mind But it hurts in rotation Tryna carry on but idk if take it No matter how many times I get it off my chest I'm still left with all the pain and guilt from my past mistakes Put the blade to my wrist jus so I could I feel something ever since I was little I've been misspoken now I'm jus smokin my weed it's the only thing keepin me going Living in a fool's paradise Bitches play me and make me out to be the bad guy She said she love but ik that's a lie
Can't live my life with out substances, Staring at the shadow underneath all that dummy shit, Inner me and future me, help me write these sentences, Combine up the forces help achieve elegance, Words in sequence combine within essences, Spirits infused to double percentages, Gods aligned my spiritual energies, Karma destroys all of my enemies, Rest in peace, rest in peace, heavenly Help me become engulfed within light, Remember me, memory, energy, 36 chambers into the night, I wish that I may I wish that I might, Hold the light, hold the light, hold the light don't fight... Drip off the ice, shooting the dice, In the night, every night, Lit Godz give a fuck about life... Fill up my cup with that hennessy, pouring the drinks like rest up tonight, Shot after shot after sentences, I run with the men never the mice, Never say cheese, gravy or fries, Angels and demons up in the skies, Hoodies and boots, both black and the white Forever in BLEGH, am I living to die? BLEGH, Blegh, Blegh, Blegh, Blegh Poseidon, you diving, your timing is great, Silver lining and fate, mining the great, Oceans and seas describing the place, Face hate, close gates, rotate locate all the people who are blocking my way, No name, flow changed, Gold flame, Old lane, more pain, loathing i'm closing my eyes, Holding the lies, word in disguise, Transforming the droids auto demise, Darth Plagous the wise, a story exploring A story of sith, dismiss these hollow tip bullets for eyes
Ooooooh kay Let me end today Ooooh man Can I choke this gram? Slooooow down Hold that cloud You ain't smokin less you blowin pounds. Smokin louuuud in the pound Smokin till the house burns to the ground Tokin, sparkin, growin loud
