I am sorry you have lost relationships with people you'd like to have relationships with an I truly hope they'll come around and support you on your transition your mindset has always been the man you are now your only fixing your body to match your mind nothing wrong with that at all an wish people could be more understanding & accepting of us trans people.
I'm trying to build new relationships and a diverse, yet nurturing environment based on truth. Not based on what is or isn't socially acceptable. Authenticity is a beautiful thing.