VENT When I was 13 I found a popular FtM RU-vidr and I felt like I found myself. I got a haircut and felt great about my appearance. I even almost got my mom to buy me a binder. About a year later my dad made a big speech about how I should stop and how I'm a girl. So I just kinda tried to be a girl again. I even felt stupid for thinking I'm trans. Thinking back I felt like I wasn't really living I guess. But I still tried to shift realities where I'm male and tried to bind sometimes. Then a while ago I started questioning my gender again and now I just feel like I'm faking all of it for attention/ I convinced myself that I'm trans because I'm insecure about my body/ I fetishize mlm relationships and that's why I want to be in one. I just want to know for sure already. Thanks for listening to me ranting.
well uh, what do you want to do? not accounting what other people think or anything, if no one questioned it and you could do whatever you want, what would you want to do? and do you want to be a boy (discarding everyone’s expectations and shit, just what do you want to be)? i know it’s hard for us, but i’ll try to carry on, and i hope you do that too, if you can. i can’t decide what you’ll do, and there isn’t really a way to make sure you’re “actually trans”. paraphrasing what someone else has said, doubting that you’re trans is practically a symptom of being trans! so just what do you want to do? (my discord is twi#0176, if you want to dm me i’d be glad to hear you out)
@@twiwatchesvocaloidstuff7159 TW: mention of suicide Seems like I have no clue how to use Discord so I'll just write it here. (Thanks for offering to hear me out btw!! It means a lot!) I'd definitaly go on T if it was an option. I'd be so excited for all the changes. Having a deeper voice, facial hair, a more masculine face stucture and yeah I think I'd be quite okay with bottom growth. Having top surgery is a big dream of mine too. I always try to wear baggy clothes and I constanly slouch too so just being able to stand straight and see myself with a flat chest sounds incredible. I've already picked a preferred name and I'd be so happy if my friends and family referred to me by it and just percieved me as a boy. Sometimes strangers call me a boy by mistake and it's always the highlight of my day. I even considered learning sign language so my voice would't ruin it. So yeah, I do want to be a boy. (But my best friend suggested that I might be doing all this because I want to rebel and my parents don't give enough attention, and since she said that I feel very guilty about all of this. And I probably wouldn't kill myself if I had to stay a girl so maybe I should just learn to accept what I have. And I didn't always feel this strong about being trans. Thanks for listeining once again :])
i think my “brother” (idk what to call them so i’m saying brother so you know they are amab :D) is a trans woman. i’m a trans guy. i just want them to come out so i can donate them my ovaries or something when i’m older >=D
Im a Transguy and I have a genderfluid friend that was born a male and we talk alot about wanting eachothers bodies and voices. This comment made me feel like im not the only one
My brother and I are both Trans and my parents are very transphobic so we usual just go to his room and talk about it from time to time and this playlist just reminded me of that safe place in his room
I myself came out, a while ago. And when I brought it up again, I got kicked out three days ago. I bought myself clothes, and am living with someone. It hurts, but for my trans people out there, you are VALID. You are LOVED, if not by anyone you know? By ME. I LOVE YOU, and you are REAL IN MY EYES ALWAYS.
that kinda made me tear up at the end- you’re loved too, and very valid. Your family is horrible for kicking you out >:( non-supportive family members suck
bro same,, i remember trying my binder on for the first time and becoming so unimagineably excited and happy, i'm so happy your mother is supportive of you!! supportive parents rock :)
when i was 5, i would always wear hoodies and try to hide my long hair. i would say i looked like a boy to my little sister and i even have a recording of a video i took of me trying to look like a guy. i always knew that i was a guy but i never truly figured it out until i turned 12. i came out to my mom at 13 and i asked her not to tell my dad but she ended up telling my whole family and i ended up being invalidated. after our argument she made me promise that i’d give being feminine a chance and i did, but it just never sat right with me. i don’t like wearing dresses, leggings or anything. she wants me to be the daughter she gave birth too and it hurts. everyday i cry myself to sleep and write a message i want to send my mom, she said she doesn’t understand me being transgender and i really wanna explain it to her but i’m so afraid of us getting into another fight and her invalidating me even more. i hate the fact how i’m not a cismale and i hate how i get deadnamed at school by teachers when i tell them my preferred name. they announce it to the WHOLE class and it just makes me feel bad and one time in class i almost cried. then there were teachers who came to our class and to say our names and pronouns, i said my name was chris and i was he/him and then these two boys made a joke about it laughing saying, “hi my name is ***** and i go by she/her” as a joke and some of their friends started laughing about it. it made me so mad and i just wanna be seen as a guy. one time i was almost sent out for adoption. and some cis people hate crime us and say we deserve to die, but they’ll never understand how it’ll feel to be trans. sorry just a small rant/vent here..👍🏻
i just wanted to say that this playlist helped me with a panic attack when nothing could help at that moment, it just started playing and got calm slowly so, thank you!
My mom doesn't really care/ignores that I came out as trans (and the only other person I told is my childhood friend) and that I want them to use he/him for me. I only have my friend who is also trans (mtf) but she lives on the other side of the city. The sad thing is my mom is more accepting of my friend and respects my friends pronounce but not me and my pronounce and my mom literally told me that my grandma and everyone will never use these pronounce I want to use because they only knew me as their little girl. (Sorry for that long vent😅)
(Kinda vent) Ugh, I hate the world so much sometimes. Sometimes it feels like no one will ever actually see me as a guy, no one will genuinely love me as myself, because nobody actually thinks I'm a real boy. I'm so fucking weak and sometimes I fucking hate how not masculine I am. Honestly my biggest fear is just people misgendering me behind my back, when they all think I don't hear them call me "she" but I heard and I am fucking crying myself to sleep thinking that no one will ever actually accept me No one actually ever made any effort since my coming out to gender me correctly and use my new name. Sometimes it just feels like people just don't give a shit about my feelings, like they never even did or will ever do, and I'm not talking only about trans stuff l, it's just in general as well. No one just cares about me, they will see me cry, sob and still misgender and use my deadname... Sometimes I just fucking don't kno mannn... Just kinda hate everyone around me
I'm sorry you're going through that. It's really tough to not have people who accept you for you. I hope things get better for you, man. I'm also a trans boy who struggles with people using my deadname and old pronouns. You're a man, and you're not weak. You're not weak for being who you are or feeling angry when people don't accept who that is. Remember that there's no one way to be trans! I love you!
@@demian_demand who said ‘real men’ had to be strong? You, my brother are so damn strong. Stronger than most men, even if you don’t think you are. As a non binary masc representing person myself, I honest to god get this. While people get my name right, they always get my pronouns wrong. I always hear the wrong pronouns when someone’s talking about me and my parents deadname me all the time so I guess I’m kinda desensitised to that but I can’t deal with it much longer. But it’ll get better for you, I promise. Just try and hold out a bit longer
@@justsomeonewhopopsupeveryw1444 thank you, didn't really expect anyone to reply to such an old comment. But this still made me feel better! I'm doing better than I used to, I have more supportive friends now that respect and love me the way I am I wish all the best on your journey as well. It might seem like everything is awful at times but we just gotta push through the hard times :)
You and me both brother i too feel like I'm always second priority. And everyone misgenders me behind my back. Im just sick of not being taken seriously ever. I hope you're in a better place now
If you don't wanna read my "Oh no dysphoria" thing keep scrolling! I dont know what happened. I was doing so well, for this past year I did so well. I got my grades up. I've been happy (?). I didn't have dysphoria. But now it's back and I'm crying in my bathroom at like 2 am so this is a thing again... But also I got hit by the combo of dysphoria and people talking about me graduating. I still don't think I'm gonna graduate high school and I just know I'm gonna let everyone down and they all tried so hard to help me but I'm so far behind again and finals are almost here and I don't know what happened or what to do :/ also 10/10 playlist, especially with the fact that it doesn't have ads. Its really good! /genuine
idk if my trans but i'm definitely not a girl ! (I'm born female) there's so many hints that I'm not a girl yet my mom still thinks i am lmao, please she even knows i use two sports bra to make my chest flatter, i've indirectly said so many times i'm most likely not a girl, i show disinterest in "girl things" like bruh are you rlly trying that hard to disregard my actual gender :/
I'm gonna vent real quick So I like my birth name and all but every time I hear it feels wrong because it's a "girl" name. When I hear people call me her I feel terrible, Its been like this since I was 9 but I always thought I was faking it. I even have dreams where I'm amab or already transitioned and I spent almost every day thinking about how happy I would be if I was amab
If you change your name and like your middle name you can put your birth name as your middle name, you get to keep the name but don't get referred as it:)
I feel miserable. I seem to see myself less and less as a girl and more and more as a a guy. I've been questioning my gender for about 7 months and I'm getting more miserable about who I am each day and don't know what to do. Sometimes I wish I had my sister with me still, she was my best friend. The more I think about it the more I realize that she's the oneni felt the most comfortable around. O could tell her anything and we bearly fought and often hanged out together
@@me216-f2v thanks bud 😁👍 but I don't see myself as a woman and I don't need the opinion of sad little people like you, I'll continue to listen to the encouraging words of my family and friends. Honestly I dont see what you get out of this 🤷 you went on a ftm body dysphoria video just to shit on trans people? At least I can look at myself and know I dont spread hateful words to others that I dont know.
Vent I never really realized it but when I was growing up, I used to want to have my hair short, to play soccer, to play in the mud and do the stuff boys did. For some reason I always had the thoughts of being a guy, but I just told myself it was normal, that what I’m feeling is just curiosity, then I watched trans RU-vidrs, and I started thinking a bit more. I asked my mother if I could wear a tuxedo.. “You’re not a boy, stop acting like it.” And I did, I stopped, and each time I watched trans RU-vidrs I felt bad, maybe I internalized something in myself, I didn’t have a lot of problems with myself at this point but after awhile I started noticing things like how my boobs stuck out, how my mother and sister always pointed out “you have a beard!” Because of my pcos, and how I wanted to look masculine. 2021 was when I finally cut my hair, and tried on a mens suit for the first time, and I think that’s when I knew, the way I was confidence in myself, how I felt. It was great, I looked so masculine, I looked like how I wanted to look. I almost cried, and when I got a binder behind my mothers back with her money and I tried it on. I teared up, I wish I was born less feminine at least, o wish I knew soon, I wish i just listened to myself. Sometime ago, my mother find out, and for 40 minutes I was told how I was pretending and copying my friends, and I wasn’t a real boy, and I would always be a girl. That it was a phase when the signs were always there. They were always present, why would I feel comfortable being this way then how I was born to be? I never felt a connection to my biological gender, never once did I feel an emotion connection, but this, this is emotion connect, a connect that I feel comfort being. She said, “I know you how you are.” When she doesn’t even know the shit I’ve been through, she never considers that instead of giving me medications for pcos and depression, and birth control, that maybe I need more then a pill, that I need more to be happy, that it doesn’t matter If I get “everything” I want, what matters is who I can trust. Who I can go to and talk, where I don’t feel like I’m an odd one out or my problems aren’t big enough because I’m not starving in my home. I just want someone in my life to relate to that isn’t over the phone, I want someone to go to, I want someone who understands me. I want to be viewed more of a person then a baby who doesn’t know what they want. I’m human too, I need help too, I want help, but it’s so hard when you feel like your problems aren’t worth the time…. And I still struggle today, because after all the “your not a real boy talk” and kalvin garrah videos. I feel like I’m faking it or that maybe I’m crazy, and that everyone is right even though I cried over this, I’ve cried just wanting to be myself. I don’t know, i always have to recheck by taking online quizzes so I reassure myself that I’m not faking and that I’m trans and I feel like i have to prove it. When I shouldn’t have to, when I shouldn’t FEEL like I’m faking it. All because of the things I been told.
you're a handsome young man. Honestly, your 'mother' failed you and should not ever be a grandmother nor a parent for this matter (do you have any friends that you can trust or even live with in case shit gets worse with that pathetic excuse of a 'mother'?) Also, you know yourself better than your egg donor does.
@@me216-f2vI have recently discovered I'm woman yes but NEVER say that to trans people, thats extremely harmful to them and could make them feel horrible about themselves, instead support people and say supportive things to them
I came out to my mom, her response was, and I quote, “ Really? Is this some dumb uh tiktok trend?” It kinda hurt, and then queue the questioning if I’m faking it and hating myself more. She told my dad and my cousin (dad hated it, cousin is supportive I love her
It’s horrible to have an unsupported environment Fuck em They don’t know shit It’s horrible to be feeling this way, I wish it could end. But it does get better, maybe slowly, but it does, know that you’re not alone and that people care about you, even it’s someone on the internet. I care about you and hope everything will get better, even if it takes time! Please try to take care of yourself ❤️❤️
@@me216-f2v Well fuck, can't get rid of the dysphoria and the transphobes forever can I? Haha. Even though you chose to be a jerk, I hope you have a good day/evening/night ✨ Don't hate on anyone else ok ❤
Dont listen the garbage commet that person just writen;you are valid, and you deserve some more respect. Fuck your mother. And all who make you feel bad. I know my comment have no value , since it cant fix how is it going for you. I genually hope you will feel better . Good morning/afternoon/night you handsome human
VENT I came out as trans to my moms ex best friend, then I came out to my teachers in 7th grade, then I came out to my mom, she seemed okay with it but she sees the name I use and goes, "That's not your name, are you trying to confuse your teachers?" My dad isn't supportive at all, and recently I found out that I'm queer. I've been transgender for two to three years, I have teachers that use my name, but most don't use my pronouns. I had a substitute teacher this morning and my friend corrected her, she didn't just ignore him or stare, she actually used my pronouns after. I just want to be accepted by my parents, not just my teachers who use my name.
I cant with another month of summer break. i just wanna be Nicholas. I want to be called a brother, a son, a nephew, not what i used to pretend to be. I just want to scream
[Vent] I am ftm trans, i think. Idk its confusing, i feel like a boy but also agender sometimes. But i came out to my parents like half a year ago maybe longer ago, and my dad didn't say anything, my mom just started crying. They still don't even try to call me their son and it f*cking hurts! And my mom thinks she can choose a new name for me, and i told her that i want to choose my own and i won't go with something stupid or something, but still she wants to choose it but doesn't really focus on it so now im stuck with my stupid deadname. I also told her that like noone has their parents choose their new name and she just said "well than you are the first" and just smiled and walked away. My younger brothers don't wanna play or do anything with me cuz they see me as a girl. The only person who cares is my bestfreind, but that is mostly because they are nonbinary and know the struggle. Yeah that's about it... idk its just pretty g*ddamn sh*t and i don't want to be trans, i would rather just feel like a cis girl, but i don't. Thanks for reading this i geuss :] Edit: me and my mom have decided on a name together it took a while but its Charly :)
Im a demiboy that was born a girl and i came out to my parents as omnisexuel... they both exepted me and at the time i was nonbinary so i thought i could tell them that and i did my dad said he didnt care if i was a nonbinary omnisexuel becouse he loved me and so i came out to my mom and all she said is she loves me i also told them that i go by RayLynn but RL for short and they were exepting but now that im a demiboy i still havnt told my dad but my mom knows i use they/he pronouns and she tells me she wishes i didnt perfer to be seen as masc and is still buying me a lot of bright and girlish clothes and its been giving me a lot of dysporia so this playlist realy helps a lot
That's a shame really. Maybe if you explain to her that these things make you feel very bad, she'll change to make you happy. But it's not your responsibility to explain to everyone, you can decide what's best for you. It's just that she sounds pretty understanding.
Im not masc but im nonbinary. i was born female and I still dress feminine and everyone misgenders me bc of it. I just want to be feminine in the way boys are, but no matter what I try I just don't look masculine
VENT!!!! I hate taking baths. Not because I hate taking care of myself, I just REALLY hate what I see and feel. It just doesn't feel right. I was doing really well while were in quarantine but now that everything is becoming stable again we need to go back to school and stuff. I hate it. We have to wear skirts and grow our hair out. My country just recently announced a non-uniform rule on all public schools, too bad I'm in a private school. This sucks I can't even right now. My crying was a once a month thing but now it's increasing to 2 cries per week. Honestly, who wants to switch bodies with me? I would be happy to switch right now.
If this doesn't make sense it's because Im typing this through tears and my mind is too foggy to form proper sentences. Plus I'm too much of an angry b right now, not my biggest bad bitch moment but oh well 😩😩😩
I hate talking about it, or even answering questions because I just don’t even want to have the conversation I am a boy. My family says that I could use my looks to get ahead in life and being a boy will only make it harder. I’m my mom son, I’m my brothers brother and sister brother. I don’t understand what’s so hard. I get talked about like it’s a thing. “Oh ya Gabriel is Tran she is really into it.” Was a sentence I herd my cousin say. I want to just disappear and change everything about me and move to a different country. New name new family new everything.
Idk why this hits as hard as it does. I’m so back and forth and it’s hard. My parents didn’t take my questioning my gender very well and I let myself believe them again that I couldn’t possibly be a boy if I liked girly things or called stuff cute. I’ve got nine weeks until I leave for college, where I plan to finally get out from under them and find out who I truly am
You are valid and stereotypes don't define you!! You can grow a moustache as a woman, wear make up as a man or do whatever you feel like as whatever you are. Gender isn't defined by any specific behavior, style, language or whatever. Take some love and strength to get through this!!
vent🏳️⚧️ i am still in the closet, i havent told a single family member or anyone in real life about me being ftm. i still have long hair, etc. im 12, and i just want to skip the years all the way to the age i could move out and change my life. i only trust my fellow trans humans on the internet, which is sad because i havent even shared the info with my own twin sister. this skin isnt mine, i dont like my body. i want to puke when i look at myself in the mirror, as this body isnt mine. i want to swap bodies. i hate this all.
I'm trigender and sometimes i don't feel like liking my girl body (not always) like now and i don't know how to tell people how i feel because i think they will judge me
Often I am upset, that I cannot fall in love but I guess, it's to avoid the stress of falling out of it.... Are you tired of me yet? I'm a little sick right now but I swear, when I'm ready I will fly us out of here. I'm cut my hair....to make you stare.....I'm hide my chest and I'll, figure out a way to get us out of here.
When your dysphoria starts to get bad again so you start putting towels over the bathroom mirror, and you're taking bubble baths to cover "your" parts . And when you go to the pool and realize there are people there and are scared they will see you as a girl, and when you look at the guys you can't but feel gender envy. It's even worse when you also like guys so every time you think you like someone you're torn between calling it a crush, or just more gender envy.
i just want to be as much of a good son as my brothers are but ill never been seen that way by my family but thats alright i have my friends that will see me as a boy so i will be fine
as a genderfluid they/he person i am now questioning my gender- (LIKE AM I A DUDE BC I HAVE THE ABILITY TO BE FEMININE AND I DONT WANNAA BE PERCIEVED AS A DUDE LIKE I WANT PPL TO LOOK AT ME AND QUESTIOJ THEMSELVES)
TW vent i came out to my mom as trans a while ago and bascily said “i support you but dont tell anyone because if you do youll be hated by the familt and all your friends will leave you” (she hates the fact i have friends) and then refused to call me by my prns or name. but when my family found out i go by another name they just made fun of it and laughed at me for using q different name then my aunt got mad and said “i hope yk we’re your family *deadname* and we will never call you anything but *deadname* “
having an existencial crisis rn. I so wanna be a guy, but sometimes I wanna be pretty. Idk what the fuck's wrong with me. Kinda wish I was just born normal, or doesn't exist at all. Anyway thanks for this playlist, got me crying buckets.
I've been questioning my gender for about as long as covid has been a thing so like 3 years now and I think I've finally settled on genderqueer/pangender but I have no idea where I lean, boy or girl or non binary, and the fact that there are no gender neutral words in Spanish makes it hard for me to communicate with my mom about it because even when I use ellos/ellas it's "properly" used as referring to a group of people, ellas being used for a group of all girls, but I still feel slightly feminine like i dress fem sometimes and i treat myself fem when I want to but I also refer to myself as he and as a guy and it really sorta hurts when people refer to me as she even though i use all pronouns and I'm okay with them all but I prefer he and it just it's confusing man :(
i'm not trans, more like tomboy i guess? i'm comfortable with my gender, but i look a bit masculine, use "he" pronouns and always wear binders. just.. i dunno, i just like it :") but anyways this playlist is so sweet and light ❤❤❤
I cannot come out to my parents, or my brother, for they are very transphobic and homophobic. so I come out to my friends and bf. I just came out to him through a lil note, not sure what he might say though... (we started dating when I used to identify as nonbinary) anyways now I'll resort to coming out to teachers and stuff
the sheer nostalgia surging in for about 10 minutes into this video is immaculate lol but rlly these are ftm dysphoria anthems. this is escapism, desperate seeking for self-acceptance & self validation.
When I went to my first middle school, I found the “lgbt group”. In that group they introduced me to transgender, gay, lesbian, bi, ect… When they did, I really thought I found myself and released that I had a choice. My dad’s homophobic so I don’t plan on coming out anytime soon. I never went through a pink phase or a dress phase and when my parents bought me a doll house to make me more quote on quote “girly” I put wood lice in it. I remember it and just think “suck on that”. It makes me laugh. It’s hard sometimes as a person who hasn’t even told their closest friends so I listen to playlists to help. I plan on coming out to best friend tmmrw after about a year and a half of major gender dysphoria. I want therapy and to go to a gender dysphoria clinic and I have looked into it and there is a therapist literally a mile away and I go on a walk once a week and just sit outside. Since it’s in a centre, there are benches and usually music. I guess I would consider it my happy place. God I need a therapist 😂
..i’m not trans but im heavy gendefluid. Thank you so much. I recently came out to my dad and im not sure how he’s taking it. “You’re not changing anything are you?” “I don’t care what I have to refer to you as so long as you’re happy” My mom has no clue Edit: yeah I’m a trans Demi boy
@@hoffikh my being a dream smp stan has no bearing on the fact that this is an ass playlist. if it did, I might like this playlist bc dream smp stans have the shittiest music taste known to man right beside 13 year olds
@@DuskFrost.Dawnfire. Thanks dude! I want to cut my hair a bit more short, stop wearing dresses ( Because ew ) and try presenting more masculine. I’m also going to talk to a psychologist with my dad so we can talk about my anxiety and gender so my dad can understand me a bit more! :) (Soz if that was long)
kinda a vent maybe? i see all these people on the internet who pass more than me or look more masculine and i want that but i look in the mirror and just look stupid like im not even a boy im just some dumb girl who thinks hes a boy and ive tried so hard but everyone always just sees me as a woman even mysel and i hate it i cant even look at my reflection without breaking down and crying
i wish i could just appreciate seeing myself go through transition, and enjoy being young. but my dysphoria seems to overwhelm all of it. it hurts so much.
I have a friend whose parents keep being really really mean to him and so will only buy him feminine things. so to get around this, he decided to ask his parents to buy him a lot of jewelry, and so he's just saving up all of that jewelry in a box so that he could sell it back to people on eBay and stuff so that eventually he can afford surgery and other trans things. TL DR m trans friend is scamming his parents as we speak and I'm proud of him for it
I’m a somewhat-closeted trans boy who’s still in school, specifically a Catholic school, and I can’t thank you nearly enough for the playlist!! I managed to get my hair cut short in a haircut I love in December of 2021. I feel so much better about myself now, but I know I still can’t come out at school or at home. I’m only out to my “friends” at school, “friends” because of the fact that they’re toxic and underestimate my transgender-related problems. Never mind the fact I’m a person of color, as well. They’re all white or white-passing and they often make racist jokes, I outwardly express my discomfort to it, but they don’t listen. A “friend” of mine, when I told them to not use my chosen name so outwardly, they did what I told them not to do. It forced me to come out to other people. They’re my only friends and I’ll be alone if drop them, what do I do? From one young transmasc to others out there, ranging from any age.
Don't worry, get out of this toxic friendship, for sure you will find better people who really like you and support you, even if you are friendless for a while, for sure you will find someone who is really your friend, I'm rooting for you you
hate it when parents are like “this is so hard for me, i raised a girl”. like, how do you think it is for me? i wish this was easy but it isn’t, start thinking about your child, not the daughter you never really had
Hey guys I need help desperately! I’m going to the pool in 2 days and I have no idea what to do. I have mens swim shorts that fit good and I got a sun shirt but I don’t know if I can wear a binder or what! I have to wear something under it but idk what to wear without feeling like shit. What do I do? Can you wear a binder while swimming?
Vent I'm a closeted trans guy and I always wanted to try a short haircut to help my dysphoria, when I talked to my mom she said that I should wait till Winter is ending. Now winter is ending and I talked to her again about it and told me that I needed a haircut that could do with my curly hair and when I showed to her, she was fine with it and said that the one I proposed was good. But she told me she had to ask dad for permission because he dislikes girls having short hair since he believes girls should have long hair of which my mom believes too. My dysphoria skyrocketed after hearing such, gender stereotypes makes me feel horrible... Now I even fear that I'll not be able to keep the haircut if I end up liking it and that I'm not going to have another chance because of ghis.
idk if you’ve gotten your hair cut already but- don’t worry! I’m sure you will look/you do look amazing with it! I was very anxious before I got my hair cut because I knew my siblings would make fun of me and so would my whole family, but luckily they dealt with it. I get teased by my brothers every now and then but, it’s not horrible. I feel much better with how my face looks and stuff now that I got my hair cut, believe me, it’s worth it!
@@me216-f2v I mean this in the most disrespectful way possible, shut the frick up. Just because you have no life and are miserable doesn’t mean you have to hate on him.
Hey since we’re all here I’m gonna tell about something me and my trans sister do (I’m enby btw for context) Her: sibling. Me: sister. Me: girl. Her: person. Both: alphabet diabetic hydrologic acid disorder.
The first song was different from the playlist I was listening to so I was like "wth why am I listening to christmas music it is october..." Ummm I think I am very long.
since 2020 i been questioning myself about who am i, I think I finally found myself as a demiboy (or maybe transboy idk). I think I'm not sure yet, but I'm scared about my mom, because she's more transphobic that I trough. I feel like I'm locked, i hate how my body looks, i hate when they call me by my deadname. I hate that "little girl" that I used to be, i dont want to see her anymore. im just tired, i want to be myself without thinking that people will judge me Luckily, on my new school i made a trans friend, he's always so supportive honestly I just go to school to see him and hug him. I stopped selfhurting and crying on my way home since i met him. He's my safe place, i love his hugs, his laugh and his hair. He always say that is proud of me and that he'll take care of me, it makes me feel so good
I came out to my mom about a year ago, she told me that she supports me hut refuses to address me properly cause "it'll mess up her english" I've been asking for haircuts but usually arguments and a great amount of dysphoria, she told me many times "youre always going to be a girl" and she argues "that people feel this way when they're younger, and that I've only started acting like this recently so it doesn't make you that" it hurts but my dad is on her side so i dont exactly have a safespot othwr than a sibling or with my bsf
idk, but my mom says the same thing. I only recently started feeling like I'm a guy(around 2 years ago) but she tells me that I'm faking because I didn't feel like this when I was young, and then she leaves me feeling bad and has me wonder if I am faking it for attention...idk sorry if this was too long
I only know one person in my life who'd accept me as trans non binary. My parents would probably kick me out. My sister wouldn't understand and my other family members would most likely disown me. My life's great! (Being in the closet because you live in a transphobic country + family really sucks.)
My mom is supportive but won’t let me do anything to help my transition that I want. I want to do medication for this but she’s against the idea of that. And then there’s surgery. She keeps telling me that I should accept the body that God gave me and of course her input highly effects my decisions. I don’t know what to do?
im confused and scared, but mostly tired of feeling disgust at my body. I feel at my limit, and I'm scared of not being strong enough to keep going. I just want to be happy
My family is religious and claim to support everyone but they make remarks here and there about strangers. I also have difficulty talking about my feelings so I’m left to internalize it all. I usually ball up on my bed, play music, and slip away to a far away place where I’m in the correct body. I was SAd for a majority of my childhood, which also plays a large part in me wanting to escape this body.
I have no idea if im trans or not like ftm. I first start questioning when i was 13 but since i didnt have any girly appearence only long hair i didnt rlly care. When i was 16 i still thought i was a tomboy girl cuz i normally would wear my brothers/ fathers clothes, and my mom didn't care since my hair was super long and still looked like a girl. This long hair was cut and instant happiness came to me. Even thought i just cut it to shoulder lenght (it was long till my butt). Then i started dressing more masculine and cutting my hair even shorter. Now im 18, still questioning and have huge hip dysphoria (or however u call it), not chest cuz im literally flat. I wanna talk bout this to smo but im so scared. My family just makes too many comments and my mother gones mad when smo mistakes me for a boy (which i love). sOoo yeah
I went to the salon today and I was finally able to get a short haircut but the lady looked at me and said the look I’m going for won’t suit my face and I didn’t say anything I thought she would give me something else similar to the one i showed but she gave me a bob cut. I’m a coward for not telling I fking hate it so much. And all the people were talking about how I wanted my hair to look, and she made the cut so girly.. so here I am :) listening to this playlist and crying because my dysphoria is kicking in quicker than I thought :(
(Vent)I am trans and I hate it when every year on my birthday ever since I’ve came out(i was 12 when i came out) my mom would print out old photos of me when I’m younger and hand it to me on my birthday “as a gift” and though she doesn’t directly say it,it’s pretty obvious she’s asking me :”where did my little happy-go-lucky girl go to? What happened to her?” I’m just so fucking frustrated and it worsens my dysphoria as I want to get top-surgery but she and my father is unwilling and neither are they willing to get me a binder either ,the least I can do is cut my hair which doesn’t really help lift my dysphoria . Like at least if you are going to make my life a shitty one every year at least let me bind to not make me feel so bad about myself and I can’t kms either because according to law I’m mentally stable and will get pressed with charges for trying to kms if im still alive like seriously they don’t give a shit on our mental health and to make things worse,I go to an all girls school when I don’t identify as one.
*Vent warning* In march i came out to my parents and they said that they would support me no matter what. It is now 5 months later and their still dead naming me and yelling at me for asking for things like male clothing, binders and such. I cant even be myself around them. The fact that i had to ask the school myself to change my name on the register even though my parents said they would months ago. Also the fact my siblings and people i dont even know from my school can use my preferred name but they cant. My mum even said that its just a phase and says its cuz im trying to 'copy people at my school and on tiktok' even after she said that she supported me. Im starting to believe ill never be able to be myself :(
