FTM Transitioning into a middle aged man - adjusting my internal self image

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I turn 40 next February and I really do not feel my age at all, however, a conversation with my Brother made me see the reality that my gender transition, as I progress through hormone treatment (testosterone), will lead me straight into to the body make up of a middle aged man. This has brought out another level of grieving for my lost boyhood and the beginning of my adjustment of my internal self image
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@jarron-colemynhardt1416 3 года назад

i am a 52 year old Transman, 6 months on T. I know its 7 years ago that this was posted, but i can so relate to this, and it makes me feel so relieved that i am not alone. I also regret that i didnt know about all this many years ago, and I feel robbed of my male youth, So i have to accept that and make the most of my journey now. i will be transitioning into to a middle aged man yes, so let me be the best one i can be and enjoy my journey forward.

@CGladly8 11 лет назад

I'm 37. I read Chaz's book prior to transition and in it he says "I grieve because I will never experience what it's like to grow up as a man, only what it's like to grow old as one". That realization hit me, and while I do wish I had a boyhood, I have to be thankful for the experiences I have been blessed with. I try to keep that perspective.

@deadite1777 11 лет назад

In a way I can relate. I haven't transitioned (and can't), but for all of my adult life, I have lived my life as the teenage boy I was read as. Now, at 36, I no longer look like a teenage boy - I'm starting to look like a middleaged woman instead. I am really struggling with my identity and can't relate to my new role at all. I know it's not completely the same thing, but when I watched your video I felt I could relate to it on some level.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

It seems that so many people relate to this, its so good to know Im not alone! As someone pointed out, we are the age we are, transition or not, however as pre T trans guys we get percieved as so young & our mental image gets frozen there & then suddenly on T we start looking our age & that can feel like a massive fast forward in time and a bit of a shock! Im realising that I need to see my transition itself as my boyhood, the trans rite of passage we all go through to become men.

@JackMatthewM 11 лет назад

I feel I can relate. I've looked like a 14-16 year old boy since I was 14! I'm 28 now, and yes, I pass but it was never ideal, especially only having female ID (means I can't go to bars). But I'm on T now and changing my name, and I've been kinda rethinking it as wishing I was in fact 14 and transitioning then. I feel like I've been frozen there and everyone's seen me as being that age. So T is going to make me twice that age, and that's actually quite daunting!

@Innerbalance66 11 лет назад

Hi Finn I totally relate. I was 42 when I started transitioning and I'm 47 now. I feel very much that the learning curve has been vertical . Video coming up later about this :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Ah Im so pleased Im not the only one struggling with reality! reality is good, but despite our age we can still change it right?! Youve made huge progress, everytime I see you you look fitter and healthier! Im on a mission too. Thanks my friend :) :)

@Daniel-uq1rr 8 лет назад

Oh my God!!! Have you been inside my head??? I'm watching this going...yes, yes, yes!! Thanks so much for this awesome video!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 8 лет назад

ha ha!! yes I do have a habit of getting into people's heads ;-) lovely to hear you relate to this. . .Means I'm not nuts. .

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Im glad to hear other people experience this too and I agree with your sentiments, It is such a relief and a blessing to know that I can continue the rest of my life as my true self. As for the voice, I joked about barry white but if it continues to drop I might just get there!!! Cheers Caleb my friend :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I was exactly the same! I only saw younger guys in the beginning, & somehow my head combined with my frozen image of myself & I forgot I wasnt that age....now reality has kicked in! We have missed those years, but we still have loads left to live as our true selves & with the right effort, we can still make the most of our new bodies, thats my mission! i too get mistaken for very young, but I realise that wont be for much longer & that is an odd feeling! Thanks so much for your awesome comments

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thank you! I really am....tho I dont feel like it...let alone look it!!! You have a good point my friend, whatever age we transition at, there is still loss to come to terms with. The present and feeling thankful is where its at. Wise words, thank you so much :)

@mattfromengland7945 11 лет назад

I know 100% exactly what you mean. I spent years trying to just accept what I am and it's only been the last 6 months that I started searching youtube and finding so many videos of young trans men going through their transition. I've been looking at them wishing so much I had the strength to become the men they were becoming. (I'd already managed to make the jump and accept whatever happens I've missed my teens etc) but then all of a sudden something hit me. (out of space-more to follow!)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Hi there, congrats on your recovery! I think its important to bring this stuff up, so that we can unstick ourselves and move forward. Since making this vlog, Ive had so many new insights and its really helping me to let go and move on. Always happy to chat if you ever need :)

@LudoTomboi 11 лет назад

Thanks for making this vid dude. I'm also 30 something and I feel that pain of not fully having had my boyhood. I so relate to all that you say, and the physical effects of alcohol abuse. But we have been learning, also trans guys also trans guys often look a good deal younger than their cis counter parts. We have have have had our own particular brand of ftm wisdom and there is no shame in that.

@mattfromengland7945 11 лет назад

I'd been watching 20 year olds and imagining me doing what they were and my body making those changes. Then all of a sudden it hit me. I'm not that age anymore (I'm 39 too), so I can't compare myself to them. It was kind of like, I missed those years, but my brain was still stuck with the thought that if I decided to do something about this I'd change and actually live those years. All of a sudden I was hit with the shock that I've missed them!!!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I agree, ageing is part of life, something we gradually come to terms with along the way. However, as older trans guys we dont really have time to come to terms with it, we go straight from puberty and looking 14 to suddenly looking our age and thats a shock! I think that allowing ourselves to feel the pain of the loss of boyhood, lets us then lets go and be able to fully see all we have gained through transition and move into a place of peace.....thats where Im aiming :)

@RockinUK 11 лет назад

I know I've not fully transitioned yet, but I'm already mentally transitioning into being fitter than I used to be. I'm out jogging regularly and losing some fat, rediscovering muscles on my legs and arms. It's really cool and I'm feeling a bit younger. You're still young... you don't have to become a middle aged man. A lot of that is a state of mind! !! :-)

@spenceoverthefence7119 11 лет назад

There is this very large part of me that is frozen at age 12 and to suddenly feel wide awake at 48 is a major shock. To come to terms with the fact that I will never have the rights of passage any other Cis male has had is extremely hard to wrap my head around. It will take years to fully deal with that I'm sure. I have missed so much and all I can do is try to make the most of my life now. I honestly cant see the 48 year old, maybe that's a good thing for now Thanks Finn it needed to be said

@EthanJay1261 11 лет назад

Yeah Finn, I've experienced the same emotions. I have always seen myself, when I'd look in the mirror, as a 'young' man with all the muscles and less body fat. Now, I understand that I'm a 50+ male, however I'm sure going to try and get my body to that image in my mind, lol. You are looking real good my friend.!!

@milesjustice8638 7 лет назад

I have only just now begun to admit that I am a trans man - I said it aloud to my therapist this very week. In my mind, I am always a 20ish guy despite the fact that I am 45 years old. While I look young for my age, even when/if I transition, I will certainly not be the young guy I see in my head. And like you, I grieve for that period of my life. Yet I keep reading blogs where folks say to accept where you are on your journey and be grateful that you are starting now rather than not at all. So, I am trying to mentally prepare myself for life as a 46 yo man rather than the 20 something I have always been in my head. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this!

@FinnTheInfinncible 7 лет назад

Bless you buddy, yes I completely relate. It may be a good time for me to do a catch up on this actually as I feel very differently now. I do at times still get hit with a wave of grief for the boyhood I never had but I have moved away from the image of a young guy to matching my internal image with my actual age and am actually really enjoying looking my actual age....wrinkles and all! I have found that a balance of not denying the grief, allowing myself to feel it, alongside focusing on the positive of what I have now and making the most of the time, has really helped me to come to terms with it. I wish you all the very best on your journey and I hope to see you around the finnfam! Always happy to help if I can

@Vandorianna 10 лет назад

I never had a girly puberty, it was all messed up; I had a natural understanding of myself as a boy. When I played, I was the male protagonist, and when I wrote my stories and novels, it was always me as a guy in there, so the others had the problem seeing me on the outside, no being able to match it up with the stuff I did.

@AndyMcKeever12 11 лет назад

Finn-boy, you don't have to "move your image." I'm sure most cis men don't. We all mourn our youth; hitting 40, 50, 60, etc. is hard to take & rather shocking at times. That's why we keep our "13-year-old," especially as an ftm. If you have to turn into something, though, glad you're turning into a middle-aged man instead of a middle-aged woman. That beginning belly would have been on your hips, bud! Mourn when you need to, but keep that boy close; he'll serve you well when needed. Love ya, man!

@pilze.7213 11 лет назад

I hear you dude, Im 37 and thinking the same thing! However, look at people like Brad Pitt and Johnny Depp! Both are 50. The moral of the story is, grey hair looks good on older men, men age better and if you take good care of yourself and stay healthy and fit then you have nothing to worry about! Its all about respecting your body! Most middle aged men drink too much, eat too much shit and don't get exercise! You are what you eat etc right? All good bro! It's exciting!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Oh it it indeed! Its great arriving places and feeling the achievemnet, but the journey is where its at! I love sharing all this and talking with others who feel the same way, I have made some amazing friends and learnt so much, Im blessed :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thats exactly it! I keep meaning to read his book. I have the same mind set, things happen when they happen and you cant change the past, only how you view it. The way things have happened has left me with a unique experience that I also feel very blessed to have had, its made me the person I am....and i like that person! I do think it helps to acknowledge these feelings though and then let them pass on. Glad to hear you feel the same way bud :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Hi Felix, it seems so many of us relate to this, I look forward to your vid, awesome!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I think we all do, but the only way to deal is to let go and see the positive side instead and I really do think that experiencing both the yin and the yang will make us better humans all round and enrich our experience of life :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Hey mate :) Thats totally true, men in general are taking far better care of themselves now and there really isnt any reason why I cant be a very young looking 40 year old :D

@Vandorianna 10 лет назад

Oh, and I forgot, we may have started at a later point in life, but we can look forward to it from a different perspective and therefore appreciate it even more; here come the golden years, guys, enjoy!!!!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I dont see you as 48 either mate! It is hard, when we spend our wholes live asleep and unhappy, then suddenly awaken and start living our true selves, its a wonderful feeling, but at the same time there is regret for all those years lost. Its important to acknowledge the pain, but not wallow in it. The future is in our hands :)

@lorkin86 7 лет назад

Finn, thank you. I am thinking so much about this topic. I am pre-T, 31 but I feel I stopped growing mentally at 21- 23, when my body started to develop more feminine side. So know I am thinking...the more I wait with transitioning the more I loose this time of "young boy" experience. In my case it is difficult and I don't know if I will be able to transition any time soon...it makes me sad. But thank you for your honest reflection.

@FinnTheInfinncible 7 лет назад

+Leo Just Leo it is so very hard when we are older. We can't ever truly have our boyhood but it is possible to experience the changes of testosterone as a boyhood of our own making. I hope you get to start the journey my friend. It's never too late

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

It is a gift, a unique experience. And boy is it weird going through puberty when your older! I too find myself parenting myself! Can you explain the spiritual communities rites of passage?

@ABC-mn1no 7 лет назад

I'm 23, female. I came out of the trans closet at 17 but immediately returned in after negative backlash. I'm attractive and feminine and ideal appearance wise for my age, but the person who i feel inside is not a girl. I've always felt this phantom effect of having a male body. I want to give it some time before a transition. It's going to sound crazy, but women are devalued in our society as they age and I'm already having a hard time being a young one. I want to transition when I'm 38-40, because I will still get to live out who I'm meant to be, and not have my value tied to my youth.

@FinnTheInfinncible 7 лет назад

Its not crazy at all, you transition at the time that is right for you my friend. There will always be people that are against us, but we have to do whats right for us, not whats right for them

@RaefonB 11 лет назад

It's the hardest part, I think: I too have massive regrets about missing out on my boyhood and early manhood. But, like you say, we have the duality of growing up female, which will hopefully make us into better men. Lol.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I am! I was already aging...I just hadnt noticed.....and then it hit me! No more 14yr old boy face!!! I did actually grow up fast, your right, so i think that likely makes my loss feel more profound. I guess we have to make peace with that in the best way we can. Im now on a serious exercise mission....no belly for me!

@maxontrax3713 11 лет назад

Dude have done a video response part 1 and 2 ( glad one of us has learnt how to edit)

@moreartthantime 5 лет назад

On the plus side, being ftm frequently means being taken for younger than you are? I think this is partly a generational thing too, where people in our generation and younger have lost a lot of the traditional markers that make us feel like adults. But I’m with you on the being sad to miss a masculine teenage experience. I just turned 40 a few months ago, which was also my two years on T-versary. I seriously don’t think of myself as 40! I have grey hair and t also gave me a gut, but I don’t have kids or own a home and I still read comics. It’s weird to think I am technically a middle aged man.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Very true my friend, I feel for you. Must be very hard but as you say, we have to make the most of what we have.

@soberdoggy 11 лет назад

Well I'm 49 and only 8 months on T. I feel middle aged now, you're still a young'n! LOL Middle age doesn't mean anything in particular, necessarily. I mean there are certain physical things, sure, but many of them don't have to happen for YOU the way they do with others. I know many older men, older than me, who look way better than many 40 or 30 year olds. It is unique for folks like US though, to be doing puberty at our ages. We did miss out on our younger male years and I feel the pain too.

@MisterJaycobsJourney 11 лет назад

Age is only a number Finn lad! No way do u look ur age either. Rock that 1 direction for as long as you can!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

eating disorders are very very common with trans peeps, being skinny keeps you androgynous...being overweight also hides things...al alo of guys have had issues with one or the other. Sadly addiction issues are also common, which is really understandable response to the internal pain we feel. Congrats on your recovery my friend!

@deadite1777 11 лет назад

Sure you can ask :-) I can't go on T for medical reasons, unfortunately. It sucks, but... I'm trying to make the best out of the life I have, after all you only get one.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Bless you Andy. Its very true what you say, I guess its just that as cis men you have your age gradually creeping up on you but as trans the change can feel quite quick. Thank god Im not a middle aged woman! I am so young at heart and I do indeed think that will serve me very well, what is it they say, growing old is mandatory growing up is an option?! Love ya too fella :D

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thats what Im trying to do, just be as fit and healthy as i can. Its in our hands, we dont have to be a complete slave to the ageing process :) Thanks fella!

@Vandorianna 10 лет назад

I"m not stalking you;)) but just came down to the living room to see the Chiefs were on ITV, with THAT song! Check out the lyrics, says it all, don't you think? And now I'm off, it"s almost x-factor time;)))

@FinnTheInfinncible 10 лет назад

Lol! thanks for your comments!! I am an aquarius...does it show? ;) :D And yes, I love this song, always have but it came on the radio when I was early into transition and it resonated so strongly with me. Love it does indeed say it all!!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Trans guys get male pattern baldness just like cis males do...one of the side effects of testosterone! Though if and when you get baldness all depends on your genetics. The men in my family recceed but dont go bald till much later in life....so I feel hopefull Ill keep it for a fair bit longer!!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

brilliant! Im off to have a look, thanks my friend!

@JackMatthewM 11 лет назад

Yup. It's going to be fun being the guy going through puberty at work, I'm sure! I can imagine being the talk round the cooler. "Bloody hell! We're hiring VFX artists young these days, I swear that kid is going through puberty right now!" HAHA! Anyways, it's always good to be young at heart so at least we have that going for us :).

@mattfromengland7945 11 лет назад

I think these thoughts are also encouraged by the fact that I still look very young (I'm sure you probably get this too) but being mistaken for a guy all the time without T must mean they think I am pre-puberty. Well, not quite now but I still get ID'd and I imagine that's why, because they think I'm a guy. So that doesn't help, as I really don't feel 40. Yet if I were to start T I would probably catch up really quick and start to look my age. That's a very odd feeling!!!!!

@astrog8tr 11 лет назад

Well you don't actually CHANGE your age. So that since you are 39, hard to believe, you do stay 39, until you become 40 (or ...). You still have the life experiences and so on of the person you were (and still are).

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thats so kind of you!! Thank you!

@charliedoodles9516 6 лет назад

Same. I’ll be 36 in November and this is exactly how I feel, like an old man. I have the silver hair and everything. Doesn’t help that I’ve just done my back in and have to use a walking stick for a bit....Proper look the part now lol

@Aquabluestreak 11 лет назад

I eat fruit and veggies very little meat and try to exercise everyday. I have a PROPECIA prescription because well my brother has a terrifying hairline. I also have a phlebotomy prescription so I can give blood every two weeks. The one great thing I had to get used to is the all the questions I now get about anything and everything. Also I get yes sir everyday. I don't know if it is because I live in the south or if it is because I am older. you can be a fit 40 year old take care of yourself

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Very true and Im certainly goona try! Cheers dude!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Yeah Im possibly starting some volunteer work soon doing activity stuff....so hopefully that will help! id love to go to goape!!

@drummerstarboy 11 лет назад

You're 40 next year?! Wow, you must've drunk from the fountain of youth :P looking great!

@marmaladeatkins 11 лет назад

I think I'm Jedward or Chris Issak from the video to Wicked Game. The reality is a shock when I see pictures of myself.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I completely agree! I already run and do some body weight stuff, Ive just upped tha anti and bought myself some weights...so no pot bellied coach potato for me!! My state of mind is still at about 12.....but I am begining to relaise that although I am as young as I choose to feel...i also have to be realistic about my mental image of myself! Good on ya mate!!

@mattfromengland7945 11 лет назад

Then it occurred to me that if I had surgery the healing wouldn't be the same as a young man either. Although I'm sure that doesn't actually make that much difference in reality, it's not as if a 40 year old going in for surgery would be like, oh I'm old, I won't heal. It just won;t be quite as quick as someone younger maybe.

@xXRedEyedJediXx 2 года назад

I'm in this same boat now. 😔

@FinnTheInfinncible 2 года назад

It is a tough one for sure! I have had to work through this many many times in my transition and have now just come to terms with it as best I can. Id rather be a middle aged man than have continued trying to live as female! I really should update on this video!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thats a very very good point. Aiming for christmas.....!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I can understand that, I guess for you the feeling of loss is the opposite to mine, I have lost my boyhood and you are having your boyhood taken from you as your body changes and you feel powerless as you are unable to medically transition. Do you mind me asking why you cant? It must be hard to deal with that.

@SuperRay1982 3 года назад

Yep totally agree. I don’t act or think my actual age.

@FinnTheInfinncible 3 года назад

me either! Im almost 47 now!

@SuperRay1982 3 года назад

@@FinnTheInfinncible well I’m just starting out and I’m 38 so can relate so much

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

very wise words my friend! I dont drink, dont smoke, am pretty good about what I eat....unless I see a tub of ben and jerrys...and Ive now stepped up my exercise plan...which is always off and on....so Brad Pitt here I come! It is exciting! Cheers bud!!!

@RockinUK 11 лет назад

Do volunteer youth work with young men. They'll keep you young! Mine had my playing Tarzan at GoApe!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Thats really interesting, thank you!

@UXblunder 10 лет назад

Hey, Finn. Do you find that transition for middle-aged FTM is a different experience than that of a 20 year old? I am almost 40 and about to start T; I'm learning from others who are in support groups that the mentality seems so much different for young transmen. For me, I firmly believe everyone has their own unique journey, however I think the issues may be different. I hope that makes sense. Thanks for your videos!!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 10 лет назад

Hi my friend. I do think its very different, in all manner of ways. At our age, we have a huge life of being read as female and we cant erase that, unlike a trans person of 17 or so who would find it much easier to start afreash and go stealth, we cant easily do that! We often have larger families to consider, children, grandhildren, nieces and nephews, coming out is far more complicated for us. I also think that our lived experience is different, there is usually (though not always!) a wisesness with age that a younger person may not have. Though I have learned so very much from transpeople of all ages, its my own age group who I turn to when it comes to relating to similar life experiences, apart from transition and the feelings that go with it, I dont have as much in common with a very young guy. Well.....apart from the fact that puberty made me feel and act about 14!!! You are right, each journey is beautifully unique and that adds to the wonderful trans tapestry of life :)

@UXblunder 10 лет назад

I am so grateful to have found your channel.

@FinnTheInfinncible 10 лет назад

Parker Jones Bless you, Im grateful to have you here :D

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

I have grey in my new chin hairs too!!!! Ill just keep using just for men and work on the gut.....and stay in denial!!!!

@Mrlittlewolfuk 11 лет назад

also skin changes so surgery should be done as soon as posss.

@Mrlittlewolfuk 11 лет назад

yep i have grey in my beard, and a paunch..a real bloke LOL

@astrog8tr 11 лет назад

My video response is up now. It won't let me put the address in.

@Vandorianna 10 лет назад

are you an aquarius or pisces? Just asking.....I 'm on the "wrong" side of 40 too;)) man, we're going to be awesome, look at all the older guys, cis or not, Hugh Grant, Jude Law, Brad Pitt....they are interesting and have lived to tell a story. Who wants these flubby faced boys anyway?;)) Btw, as a boy, I'd probably have been the odd one out, just the way I was as a girl, mobbed, no friends etc. Being male from the start would have saved some of our problems, but not all of them;)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

Hunger indeed....I just cant stop! Currently stuffing myself with salad....its just not as nice as a choclate biscuit! ha! Thank you so much Riley :)

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

hey jedward!!! i get ya! I feel your pain haha!!

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

haha! I certainly drank something! Think i pickled myself :P cheers bud!

@warlockig 10 лет назад

You mean *transforming into a middle aged man... I'm the same as you, I am on the wrong side of 40, but I could pass for 20 something. If you think you can't look good after 40, look at Hugh Jackman. He's over 50.

@FinnTheInfinncible 10 лет назад

hey man, I know you are completely right, there are plenty of good looking 40 somethings, and now that my head has caught up with reality, I actually prefer the look of a 40 something to a 20 something, which is good really....considering Im 40 something lol! Its not that I didnt think 40 plus meant you cant look good. Its just because Ive had an image of myself as a man for so long, that has been hidden from the light of my concious due to to gender denial, it had kinda got "stuck" on the younger image and hadnt aged with me. It suddenly hit me one day that was the case and I realised that as transitioning into a man, I wasnt transitioning into the image of the man I had held in my head for so long, but into the "middle aged" man that I am...if that makes sense! I think the moment I had this realisation was the moment it all became real, that I really was a man, that it wasnt a fantasy.

@Vandorianna 10 лет назад

shit, that's spooky, I only read your comment after writing l$mine, and you mention that stupid "wrong' side of 40 as well....and Hugh Jackman was the other guy I was thinking of but couldn't remember the name....

@CGladly8 11 лет назад

If you want me to send the book to you, message me your address.

@FinnTheInfinncible 11 лет назад

LMAO!!! Indeed!

@cowboy5709 3 года назад

Why tf did u comment on this video 60 times

@FinnTheInfinncible 3 года назад

Because l like to reply and chat with people!

@cowboy5709 3 года назад

@@FinnTheInfinncible No i mean u acted like u were a different person

@FinnTheInfinncible 3 года назад

@@cowboy5709 I'm not sure what you mean?! All the comments on my channel are genuine comments from people.

@cowboy5709 3 года назад

@@FinnTheInfinncible ''I was exactly the same! I only saw younger guys in the beginning, & somehow my head combined with my frozen image of myself & I forgot I wasnt that age....now reality has kicked in! We have missed those years, but we still have loads left to live as our true selves & with the right effort, we can still make the most of our new bodies, thats my mission! i too get mistaken for very young, but I realise that wont be for much longer & that is an odd feeling! Thanks so much for your awesome comments'' That's on of the comments u made yourself

@FinnTheInfinncible 3 года назад

@@cowboy5709 that's a reply I made to someone's comment about the video.