I’m sorry that you’re going through depression, I know it’s a rough place to be in. I’ve felt kind of the same way after Snowball and Rali passed, the fact that their passing was so unexpected made it hurt much more. I want you to know that you were a really big inspiration to me to start making my own ASMR videos, and I was really excited to meet you in VRchat the other day (I was fire mage, the green wolf fursona.) Your videos have brought me comfort on days when I was feeling anxious, and I thank you for that. I hope you have a lot of fun at the furry con, you deserve it.
Question, have you hear about snowball’s skull fragments? The RU-vid channel, well, I am just asking around currently right now, and getting basically a army of people scouting the internet to get back on the as****** who made that account, so if you know anything about them, it could be big or small, anything helps, just tell me, ok?
Thank you for sharing this with us and for stepping away when you felt you needed to. Honestly Snowball and Rali's passing were a massive motivator for me getting into ASMR as strange as it sounds. I enjoyed furry ASMRtists for years and they were a constant source of comfort. With them gone I felt like.. maybe.. I could step up.. be a source of comfort too.
20:19 I heard about this before.. but no amount of words or derpy emoticons can convey the visceral feeling of dread and horror that washed over me listening to you say this. I feel so sorry for you. I never knew them and I can't claim to share your pain. But I absolutely would if anything ever happened to you. You are my one and only weird parasocial relationship and I would be reduced to an inconsolable blubbering heap if anything ever happened to you. You helped me though a horrible time of my life... More than you can ever know. I want to see you live a long life and accomplish your dreams. I believe in you. you're a beautiful person inside and out. And whenever I hear you laugh I can't describe how much it lifts my spirits. Your weird friend- Dare.
Honestly, I resonate with depression. I have been feeling emotionally burdened because of the fact that I am an empathetic person basically a free therapist for others. Everyone I surround myself with always dump their emotional troubles on me, and I have nobody to turn to when it comes to my own struggles. Years of bottling up the constant agony of lying to others about how I feel has drained me. I do not know who to turn to. I have severe trust issues for reasons I will not delve into, but, from the bottom of my heart, Deerie, I hope you, if nothing else, push through your depression and become a more vibrant person like you would be if you were very joyful.
hearing a first hand experience from someone that was close to Rali and Snowball makes it so much more harder to process. this is a video that is hard to watch. i don't know what to say.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful words and opening up about how much love and value you have for those in your life. The more love one has the more pain they will feel. To be true to the love you value is proof of your own core nature and courage. You have my hugs.
It's a wonderful video, the shotgun part though. I am oh so happy you did not do anything reckless, because I'm sure they would want you to live, show people happiness and spread love. You are a wonderful person and we love you back.
I knew her for 3 years, we weren’t ever super close, but… at the time she was my only friend. I still haven’t fully processed it… She deserved so much better, and having tried, and failed, to help… it broke me. I attempted too, same means as her, I’m thankful to be alive but I feel so empty. I have so many people who care about and support me, but none of them are her.
In a lot of ways, she was like the sister I never had. And she was the main reason I discovered I was trans. She did so much for me and I never got to reciprocate. I’m going to stay with her aunt next April and spend some time by her grave just to mourn. To say goodbye.
whatever happens, please keep trying, and please don’t give up on life. we all love you ❤ if you need to, get someone to talk to, someone who can counsel you, you deserve as much friend
I know how much the passings of Snowball and Rali have affected you, Deerie. It's alright to take breaks. It's so important to take care of ourselves. After hearing about Snowball's passing, I was crushed... of course, only to be crushed further in the process of my healing by Rali's passing. We all lost those two great people. In your comfort video, you said there will be light. Despite the passings, I've come a long, long way in the bettering of myself. I have lately been in the greatest peaks of my life lately and it's taken so much hard work to get here. There will be the light and I held onto that hope. We all are here for you, Deerie. Most importantly... please... take care of yourself.
@@deeriethedeer I don't know what you are going through and how you are dealing with it, but what I can say is that we have your back, man. You should find some time to do some of the things you enjoy. The best thing for you to do right now is what is the best thing for you. The tough part is trying to find within yourself what you are needing. Grief is never an easy thing to deal with, Deerie. I can remember the night before my best friend passed away. My best friend's passing was nearly four years ago. The passing was in a time in my life where I was severely unstable and I wished for death quite immensely. As someone who has wished for death as well... ...Please, Deerie. Take care of yourself. Time will not solve all of the problems, and nor can anything else, but what you need to do is what is best for you. We love you. Live, my friend. Live for you.