Being cold towards some people at school doesn't mean I actually wanted to be rude, I just wanted to protect my reputations which is already destroyed.
That no matter how much I smile, it's not always out of happiness. I self-cut and cry pretty often but don't want to burden my friends and family but I also want help.
That I want others to approach me and talk instead of the other way around because then I feel that they don't actually enjoy my company. That leads to me feeling like a burden and not good enough. Then comes the breakdowns and stress. So that's really what I want them to know I guess...
Talking to some people was not a mistake because some of my good friends I meant were me going up to them, talking and getting to know them. You shouldn't let that shy away from people. ❤
I go exactly through the same thing. The importance of being the one to receive a message is often understated. It shows that you are remembered and they took the initiative to seek you out. To this day, I am waiting for more people I know outside the internet to be the ones to contact me instead of me initiating conversations multiple times, feeling they are not enjoying it, and any interaction dying out soon after.
That I care about others, I just don't know how to show it or can't show it at all because I'm so stressed/anxious all the time. I can't even show that I'm stressed or anxious (yes it's that bad), it's not that I don't care...
My answer would be that I really would love to have someone listen to me ramble about the things I’m interested in with no judgement. And also that I would be willing to also be the listener for other’s interests
oh Mik, whoever you are, hope your life will be good and always will be, the help i offer were taken advantage plenty of time already and i am starting to go dark and slowly changes without noticing it... gaming is the only way for me to keep me out of the rope on the ceiling. (i wont)
That I no longer want to be the center of being blamed for everything I do, I’ve done some things in the past that is questionable, but now I’ve grown to be a better person and learned from those mistakes. Despite the past me being dead, why must people still want the version of me that is wrong?
I bottled up my emotion after my best friend moved away after middle school. Soo whenever i feel a strong emotion,it comes with an uneasy feeling that make me feel i don't deserve the emotion
Irl, I am not a smiley person, and it's easy for people to strike me off as a rude person, when I haven't done anything bad to them. I wish some people got to know me to understand I am an empath and kind. I just can't smile. (Thankful for 3 understanding friends who were patient with me) Fun fact : I am a Diluc main of 3 years and counting
I wish others knew how I really feel, no matter how happy and carefree I act, I still suffer from depression due to educational difficulties, but most importantly, I just want people to know that I care about them a lot. I’m mostly a Gaming main too. (Maybe a bit irrelevant but ig it fits a bit)
