Getting my life together: How I got my spark back after I lost my passion | small business vlog 

Been there . I literally lost the motivation to do my work that I once loved so much. At points I felt like a failure and wondered why am I being like this. It took a long time for me to understand myself and find new ways to find my love for life and work back. We all are fighting our own wars and all we can do is be kind to others and ourselves as well ❤Lots of love

I’m starting my own channel and business brand for my art soon as well, but struggle with mental health issues that make me demotivated and continuously overthink. It discourages me because it makes me feel like my dreams will always be thoughts and preparation with no launch or results. Watching your successes and habitual motivations makes me feel seen and encourages me that I could succeed in these ways too. 😊❤ I wish you the best of luck throughout your process recalibrating yourself and your passions; stay kind and stay beautiful!

thank you thank you thank you.. for this video, I am stuck and I'm gonna be 19 this year, a lot of things happened, some good, some terribly bad that have got my self-esteem so down that I thought my life had ended up and felt like I've no time left. I can't thank you more for this realistic vlog which portrays that bad things happens but don't let it stop you. Take your time and make a comeback even harder. Everyone out there struggling i wish you all my love and support and girl I'm so proud of you for making this video and kicking back up!!!!!!!!!!

It's really beautiful to see you and your mom working together. What a blessing!

I've had to reinvent my embroidery/decorating business several times in past 30 years. It can be a struggle sometimes. Seeing your story, reminds me, and inspires me to keep growing. You are very talented! Keep moving through the ups and downs and make lots of time for Skippy. ♥

I felt so unmotivated to make videos and to work on my Etsy store all month and I saw that I have vitamin D deficiency, now that there is more sun, I am starting to feel better again. It's not just you

It's good to see you back. You're an inspiration.

I am so.... very proud of you to see were you started to where you are at now! You're very talented and you are such and inspiration! I thank you for sharing your journey and for being such an inspiration!

I got really emotional watching you and your mom run your brand and business 😢you guy's brought back memories of when my moms and I used to do everything together before she passed away in 2021 honestly having someone supporting you in any way shape or form is everything it brings so much peace and joy to your heart and mind I really miss that feeling, but anyway I really am an over thinker, I've been stuck in my own head which caused me a lot of sadness and in a way anxiety, I've just started my own resin and uvdtf business, it has not been easy I may not be where I want to be now, but I know in my heart that it's not going to stay that way I can do anything with God by my side 🙏💖

First I noticed you are showing you face more and that makes me so happy! I think you are so pretty and its nice to put a face to a wonderful company. I saw someone's dad wearing one of your shirts on my last trip to disneyland and it made me think of you and why I hadn't seen your videos in a while... I get the feeling. As someone who loves to create but too scared to start a business this was truly helpful, thank you for being vulnerable with us and being honest. It's hard to accept that you need to restart but i'm glad you did. Your shop and your vlogs always make me happy.. and I know skippy is happy for the cam to be back on him. I hope you get back into your new groove and you keep going! I know you probably wont see this but know people are here to support :)

Wow this is so relevant to me today. I've been working on being a self employed designer on and off for years. I've been through a lot of losses and bereavements and lately I've been very depressed, feeling a failure and wondering why I'm still here. I am going to try again whilst being kind and gentle to myself rather than shaming myself. Thank you for sharing.

2 minutes in and already in tears. Friend, you are one of my biggest inspirations, and seeing you struggle in the same ways I do made me feel so seen! That feeling of missing who you were before.. god, I could cry again thinking about it just now! I just wanted to pop in and say again that you are amazing, so inspiring, and that everything will be okay

The way you shoot your videos is absolutely brilliant You couldn't imagine how far I am from fashion related stuff, yet I keep watching your videos for that cozy, personal... I don't even know what to call it... feeling you're able to capture Well done my friend!

I wanted to take a moment to express my gratitude for the wonderful RU-vid videos you have created. Your content has been inspiring and has given me the confidence and knowledge to create my own swag for my business.

I find myself in the same position I just never really gave my business a true shot... Life just keeps throwing curve balls but we must press on. But never give up I love your channel. And I got my coaster which I love and so do my kids I have to hide it ALOT hahaha.... I will be posting a review soon I love the handwritten note that comes too it brightened up my day... Keep it up

Wow, another video showcasing how much of a rockstar you and your mom are! The phone grips are adorable, and the embroidery clothing is still so cute. I like how you give us a view into how much care is put into each piece - I'm excited to see where you take us next!

I love your videos, choice of music, Skippy. Hang in there. Loved the cell pops. I been looking for something similar.

ngl i watch ur videos in the background on repeat while i wokr on my own brand. glad your back i love the youtube content. always wondered what happen because you havent been active in a while. please keep going!

New subscriber here, I haven’t watched your channel before but I can definitely relate with you in this video as a small business owner. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m over here rooting for you too. I really love your merch and saw all the hard work and effort that goes into making quality products. You’re blessed to have such a wonderful Mom to share your journey with. Your consistency is paying off. Wishing you all the success ❤

Your gifts and talent are phenomenal and it’s amazing all of the creations you have come up with, stay strong and trust God sweetie because the world needs to see your work. I am a 75 year old senior and I love watching your videos.❤

You inspired so many people, crafters who really have the creativity, the magic of making things with their hands that well give the extra push to go for it and give it a try. Thanks for that

Awe babe yea everyone how’s through this phase in life. You are not alone. I’m somewhat going through this crisis as well, but this is about you. You got this. Take care of your mental health, once you have you’ll be back and inspired. I can’t waist for any new designs that you have in store for us.❤

Welcome back Kayla! You have a whole gang of people who are rooting for you! I’m also a small business owner and my dad helps me when I feel overwhelmed (also Asian! Family are the best helpers!). What helps me keep sane: I have my role as a business owner and a creative person. As a business owner, I have to make money to support myself and my family and to give my customers what they want (I.e. what sells). I am “customer focused” and customers love that! I go into THAT mindset now. I don’t have to LOVE everything that I make or do. But I know my customers and know what they like and give them what they want and show them what I do for them. That has really helped my mental health and I feel…less burdened, if that makes sense. Then I do the things that I enjoy to take care of myself. For you, it seems like that is tufting! 😊 So happy to see you back! Take good care of yourself. And def consider hiring a teenager or something every once in awhile to help ship orders! I’m sure it can be a huge help!

Have faith gal! You will find a way I know it :)

Its all happen when we're too tired with the same everyday routine. Glad you have come back. This video is really what most of us feel. Be stronger and you will grow more than you can imagine ❤. Big Hug & Cheers 🤗🥂.

your process for shaving and shaping the little rugs is so intensive. very cool product.

Just binge watched your whole channel, and I'm loving it! Keep it up : )

I'm so glad you came back hope to see more from you even when you are going through alot always trying your best to stay positive and strong never give up you are strong you can get through this

i think we all go through this and yes winter does cause mental problems/blocks and you are on the right track with exercising and keeping work space organized

Wonderful. You’re voice is so soothing and loved the way you spoke, delivered the message and everything perfect❤️💯

Thank you for sharing with honesty what you went through. I’m sending you tons of love and hugs❤❤❤❤❤

Oh, the timers. They really work. I've been self-employed for a long time and kind of just worked during the day until I was done -- sometimes it seemed I worked all the time and never was finished. And it felt like I never had weekends. But for two months I worked for a company as an employee so had to punch in and out online. After that was finished I was going to delete the reminders and alarms on my phone but then realized during those two months I got more done by working steadily and not being distracted. And I learned to love weekends again. So now back to my self-employed status, I keep the same hours I did briefly as an employee. I get more done and I have weekends again. Just a simple change can make a huge difference.

Tnx for giving me a motivation dear..I'm 21 yrs now.I want to start my own business soon while studying..keep it up ur good work & best of luck more & more 💜️💜️💜️

hi, just wanted to chime in that if the winter season affects your mental health a lot, it's high likely cause you're not getting sufficient sunlight. So I recommend finding a supplement for Vitamin D that you're lacking due to the lack of sunlight in the winter season :)

I would really like if you would make a video saying where you got your supplies to make it, and how you started off at first and steps to start off as a small business

I love your cow slides, where are they from? Even though you were going through a burn out and dealing with your mental health; I want to point out that you did good by reminding yourself how well you've done and how far you've come, to help your ground you. As someone who has done DBT skills you actually put one of them to use. And that's a big deal cause it's not easy when you're int the midst of it. Love your vlogs. Personaly they're my favourite to watch.

Hey! I think it‘s wonderful that you see a struggle as a necessity for growth, that is very important as a business owner! I would love to support your business, so I will write you in the following hours. Most of the things I wear out in the street are sold out very soon and I just love your designs, they really make me smile! And before I forget, a tip from a doctor‘s daughter: if you feel gloomy during winter, try D3 capsules and lots of fish! It helps you focus on the finer things in life. ☺️

we almost had the same experience, i was crying while watching this, but still im struggling, im happy you have already overcomed, ur strong woman.

Hey girl. I rewatch your videos every time I feel like giving up. Every time I get in a depression slump. I just want you to know, I have genuine love for your brand and social media ❤. Thank you for coming back each time you go through a struggle. It shows us all, we can get through it together ❤

You know what your doing great, we all get down sometimes, keep it up one day at a time.

Hey Kayla, today for the 1st time I saw 2 of your vlogs. Trust me, you have inspired me a lot. For last few years I had been thinking to start my own business. But I was always indecisive on how to start. I knew what type of business I wanted. Though I am working as a Data Analyst from 9-5 but never felt satisfied as I want to be my own boss rather than working under some. Thanks so much for inspiring me and giving me an idea on how to start! In a way you have become my digital mentor.

I lose my mojo at least once every 3 years. It's like the thing that tethers me to this planet just evaporates. Really there are no words to describe the feeling and do it justice. I've recently just completed extensive therapy. I'm waiting to see how I weather that feeling when it comes in the future. I think I have better tools now but we shall see.

Hope you won’t take this the wrong way as I am a supporter and empathize, I think it would be helpful to broaden the sweatshirt designs that is a little less childlike. I genuinely think it’s cute and I would love to make a purchase and support your business if there was a broader or diverse designs as I’m a woman in late 30s. I realize that your brand and style may intended to be very cute but I think many of your clothing designs are more attracted to younger audience or kids who may not be able to afford clothing items as they are relatively more expensive than an accessory. It might be helpful for your business trying to target audience that are older so that you may have better chances of getting more sales. Wishing a huge success and thank you for sharing the transparency ❤

seeing you take the time to clear your space just made me go to my office and clear it up of all the mess that’s been making it feel cluttered and demotivating. thank you so much!!! also I have to write down the thread colours I’ve used for each design straightaway or I will forget and have a mild panic about which slightly diff shade of red I’ve used😰❤️

always remember to take it easy, and take vitamins and exercise

Mama and daughter team. You two are awesome! :)

Everything in your vlog it’s wonderful ❤

Have you thought about opening order to europe and other countries? It should push your business further and allowing people like me to purchase your creations❤❤❤❤

Hey! Glad your back ! ❤❤ Was wondering what habit tracker you were using it looks amazing ! 13:54 thank you !

I am starting this journey - I live in an apartment and I raise my 2 boys alone... This is something I want them to try as they grow for me its something I think I will love... Thank you for the content

Thank you so much for this. I love it that is so realistic. I've just started a hair brand and even before i start selling, my head is so full with everything! Don't give up, we can do it !

Since summer is coming up you should definitely make more tees! I looked at your web considering to purchase one but a lot of the graphics were rlly big and im hoping you’d consider making some tees with smaller graphics/ embroidery!

Welcome back you have been missed, I love watching your vlogs, great new idea on the phone holder and good to see Skippy is doing well and your mum. SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is what you could have been suffering from to have affected your mental health it is very common throughout the winter period when there is less sunlight and its cold, gloomy outside. Im glad you have got your mojo back and back creating, always do what makes you happy as youre the Captain of your own ship in life, take care and sending lots of love from the UK xx

Inspired. Thank you for being honest about your struggles.

You are my heroine thank you for the inspiration I wish you luck and good health

I am so proud of you for getting back to work. Your mom is so supportive. I love it. I wish you all of the success. You are incredibly talented. I love watching you work.❤

I enjoy your channel so much! I just found you and you scream BOSS!! Keep your head up and keep being creative you got this. I do budgeting on my channel ❤

Nice girl… you are a star! Welcome back! We miss u!❤

All the love and patience that you put into your work is amazing, keep it up. Enjoyed watching this, no I'm not into doing this for myself but it's so interesting to see how it's done, the work that is put into it, I love your designs by the way, and the colours - brilliant 🙂 keep up the great work.

Skippy is a very hard worker. Give him a raise.

You always make such relaxing and beautiful videos. I wish you the best of luck in not just your business, but in life emotionally. I hope you find your fulfillment in whatever you choose to do.

i think if you switch out the new overhead light for a warmer tone, it'll be more cozy vibes aka more motivation to be in the room :-)

Im so sorry you went through a tough time but it is a moment to be still and dive into things. Im in the opposite (never had one sale on my business) but im burntout already! It’s seriously a thing! Im hlad your re-focused and still going! Praying for you ❤

This was literally SO REAL

You're doing a great job. We all have down days. But you got back up. 👏👏

Change is as good as a holiday! I often rearrange and refresh my entire workspace before making any big decisions about the direction of my life! Hope you get that spark back :)

Never give up💪🏻💛Love your attitude✨I also have some case as yours. After a year, I find my passion again and decide to be more disciplined too. Thank you for showing us your persistence and your optimistic attitude!

Watching your videos are like amazing! It's good to see you back. You're an inspiration.

Im happy to see u energetic again! And Im happier because u have a sponsor, yazz! Definitely winter affects, Im caribbean in Canada, I can tell! Great music btw! Lovely mom, hugs!!! 🤗🤗🤗❤❤❤

At 13:31 😍😍 Mother and daughter happy to work together. Thanks for sharing.

hi..lots of love ..keep creating your shop is so beautiful all products are amazing, you are doing really good. Take care

I really enjoyed this video. You have great Products and you are very talented. Thank god for moms, she's awesome!!

it was truly inspiring as a small business owner and a beginner in printing i also lost my motivation in printing but i really believe that this is one of my passion and i do want to pursue this passion in me hope i could also do the same way you do to bring back the spark again

This was such an amazing transition, glad your back on track Awaiting your next video 🐦

you're so pretty i wanna cry 😢

Believe in your designs, it is beautiful like your heart. ❤️

this is exthe video i needed to help me feel a little less anxious about my first ever shop update 😭 thank you for this!

When I saw the fluffy pop sockets my jaw dropped to the floor!

I’m watching from India. I have always wanted to start my own apparel line. U are such an inspiration, love your creativity and hard work. Stay strong and keep growing. Sending u much love 💛💛💛💛

I love this vlog so much! I'm a newbie to your channel recently and was waiting for a new video to drop after seeing a few older ones. You are so inspiring and I'm so glad you found what helps you get your mental health front and centre. I can identify with a lot of what you mentioned and I think it's so cool to see how habits and routine can help productivity soar, as well as making sure to have downtime to keep things flowing. So excited for your next video. All the best! ❤

You are simply a genius!!!! Your craft is phenomenal ! I speak prosperity for your business!!! Think outside the box a little more and do events, fairs ect.

Greek yogurt!!!!, Hope you like it ! Thanks for sharing your Life and work with us!!.. greetings from Greece!

I stumbled across this and watched your video about starting your business because I've always been an entrepreneur and have survived without a 9 to 5 job for the past 18 years since I was 18 years old. One thing I notice is that you're always alone which might be depressing and only working with your mother. At a certain point if your business is successful you should try hiring friends to help, or actually put out an ad to ask for help. If you don't have friends you should try opening up more and taking the chance to make some! Also an easy boost to your business is to find a significant other who will bring creativity and joy into your life. Not sure if you have a significant other but a good one can reinvigorate you and build your confidence. If they're REAL good they will have good ideas of their own and might just be the missing puzzle piece to your business and life in general. At a certain point, you will plateau as a business if you're too successful but can't handle all the work yourself and also the honeymoon phase dies and it becomes work instead of a passion. With hiring people you will have a refreshing aspect and could build this into you being the CEO. You still having the clothes crafted the same way, but you just oversee it rather than having to do it all yourself and you can process orders quicker and in larger quantities. You may even be able to work directly with factories in China and other places to source your own custom cut-n-sew blanks so the clothes look different and be a competitive clothing brand or apparel brand. It's really sad because when we're broke all we can think about is money and that drives us and is a problem to focus on. But once you solve your main money issues you start to have time to focus on your actual mental health and that's where the underlying issues spring up. Broke people don't have time to think about being depressed they just complain and go back to work day after day. But once you get the money you finally have time to fix your ultimate problem which is your mind and learning to love yourself. Your brand is very unique, and cool, and I can see why it appeals to people. But I think branding tends to reflect the person behind the brand. Whether you realize it or not it's a reflection of YOU. So if you're happy the brand will start to spread happiness and give off a vibe of happiness and joy. The world works with ENERGY. If you are depressed making the products the products will have a depressive energy no matter what the design or message is. Hope that makes sense. You put out positive energy and you get it back and the brand will reflect that. Lastly, I imagine a lot of your sales and views were during the pandemic where people were sitting at home. A lot of home businesses and social media accounts boomed during this time. Now people are going out more but also financially hurt by the pandemic and are spending less money on stuff they don't need. But we're starting to put the pieces back together and see people spending again in 2023. 2024 will hopefully be even better. This is just my opinion though! GOOD LUCK! Don't give up. Think about hiring people and bringing some friends a long for the journey! Never know...

It was lovely seeing you build up courage and be back again 😁 you have a lovely business! I am in this rut right now but taking this as a blessing in disguise ❤

Thank you for this video this inspires me to follow my passion of crafting and earn money too

So proud of you!! Have been waiting for this blog for a while.. Keep your head and your spirits high, it's going to be okay. Just keep swimming ❤

This is very reassuring that life can get in the way and it’s owky to take a break. Thank you for this❤

Same, I can understand the feeling that if we give input and don't receive appreciation, we never give up at any cost. I also doing my online store MAAN ABRAJ FASHION HOUSE but I couldn't receive a good amount of orders but just I keep trying and paitently doing my job

This video was just what i was looking for. I want to start a business of my own either this year or next. The business i want is going to be a house of brands business. I want to sell jewely, t-shirts, designed glasses (cups, mugs) and key chains and probably more.

Hello I am a kid and I'm trying to build a clothing brand and you inspire me so much thank you

Def make some vids about your time management approach. Curious about the app and what made you choose it:

Can totally relate. So glad you got your motivation back. I'm still working on mine.......

Yes mam , ur content is so much inspiring and u have super strong . 😊❤

I’ve been watching you before I started my own RU-vid channel ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ you were an inspiration to me to start my small business those days. Wish you Good Luck my friend ❤

Thank you for sharing your journey, they are so relatable. ❤

You are amazing! Love your "never give up" attitude :-) You got this ♥

Thank you for sharing your bad days as entrepreneurs. I feel you ❤

What machine do you use for embroidery? I’ve been looking for one recently but haven’t had luck. If your is very expensive do you have an recommendations for more affordable ones? Thank you and I love what your doing

You've got this!! I've also been seeing the faux moss rugs are popular, so if you put your own spin and made mini faux moss rugs I believe they would sell well! Good luck!

ive been there.. lost interest on my passion for two years already. accepted a new project just today, but i really dont know.. i hope ill be back on track