All the pain and failure im going trough to reach my goal is insane, the goal is not even my own choise but the choise of some voices in my head. They force me to workout and to go to failure every set. I’m having this voices for over a year now and i think they got in my mind because i was bullied and i couldn’t stand up for myself. They keep reminding me of how the bullies made me feel and i just want it to stop. I’ve tried medication and therapy but none of it worked. I guess the only way to escape from them is to do what they ask me to do and literally torture myself and fry my central nervous system.
