A very interesting conversation. I can sympathize, given that I'm even more of a failed academic - completing my masters's but failing my Ph.D. thesis - and then losing my mind to drugs and to pornography - ended up in prison (for nearly 5 years) - and then deported to France, whence from I'm watching this. Things ended rather more badly for me - I needed therapy, but I got prison and deportation instead. It's complicated because of the kind of pornography I stumbled on and downloaded for which I went to prison and labeled a sex offender. Things have never been the same since.