Amen please Lord please help me move forward and help me get to where you want me to be oh Lord. Please help me live in alignment with your Will help me continue to improve.
Pray for me. I ruined the relationship God gave me. My anxiety took over., my doubts and insecurities. I set a boundary and it got ignored. How else was I supposed to act? Forgive me lord for hurting your daughter. Give her peace lord. I let her go. I feel she checked out, I lost her. I accept my doings and wrongs. May she find someone who loves her correctly. I failed my lord. I'm sorry. I don't want anyone anymore. I'm done, I wish to be myself for the rest of my life. I want to raise my children that is all.
No he's not. 17 years of purposeless isolation forced on me by God and in that time I've prayed relentlessly for a purpose. He never answered me. Everything I have set out to do fails. But I'm supposed to believe after all that wasted fkn time he's about to make it happen? I asked God if he was in my position with all my limitations, would he be angry too? He won't even answer that. I don't have a wife, no kids , no career. He's literally kept me in subsistence, no matter how hard I work or what job I take, EVERYTHING FAILS! You go thru that and tell me how you feel and what your opinion of God is. I would rather be dead. The hurricane victims who were killed are lucky.
Hey man I hear your pain, I’m truly sorry for the struggles you faced and the way you currently feel. You’re going to have to read it yourself to really grasp it but even if you are stripped of everything it doesn’t mean god has left you. Read the story of Job. Everyone he loved was killed, lost his livestock, blistering sores all over his body. Despite all that it didn’t mean God was against Job. It was merely the devil testing his faith. This life doesn’t matter. The pain, hardship, everything; it’s temporary. The life after this one is the one we have to worry about. I get how you feel, I’ll be pulling for you.
Let go of these desires, or just trust if u really want them and thought about everything, but remember God sees beyond what u can see and remember the people in bible who got answered their prayers so later in life, not in the time they desired... and Maybe God just want u single for the best... ❤ Trust... also all these things in life could be meant to shape you... this jist reminds me of my life but in quicker motion, except i’m not broke because i’m still a teenager in my family’s house.. Also ask God what job he wants u to take, for me i asked him and I think he said teacher of gospel or smth like that...