Nord is the most beautiful male to ever exist, everything about him is perfect, and I fell in love the first time my eyes laid on him. My only wish would be to be able to look at him again and again, but now I'll never see my love anymore, now I can only see memories from the past.
When Narnia passed away, I've got so worried about Nord, I thought it would be too hard for him to continue. But time passed, and I kept seeing him performing, growing up more than ever, making faces and bubbles at the underwater viewing, I thought that maybe he was doing great after all.
This week my friend sent me several posts about Nord, and it made me so happy, I started to believe that everything was okay again, I was so relieved for the first time since January.
Oh...
How I was wrong. How I regret.
June, 23rd 2023, 08pm. When I saw the amount of notifications, I understood something was wrong, I was just hoping it wouldn't be that kind of news.
But I open your messages,
I stopped to breath,
I started to cry.
I was trying so hard to wait until I'm home alone, how can you explain that your world just collapsed ?
The pain I felt at this right moment, I'll never forget it, I've never suffered more than at the news my love was no longer on earth with me.
When I wake up, my first thought is "Nord is dead", all day long my mind tells me "Nord is dead", as if it was trying to make me understand what's happening. Nothing feels good anymore, nothing's funny, nothing's tasty, nothing's beautiful.
I'm empty.
Such a young, perfect, perfect, perfect, so perfect whale, how can he be gone ? Just like that ?
I wish we could've knew you better, I wish you were treated as more than just the star of a show, you deserved so fucking better, if you knew how much you mean to me, by only the few footage I used to have, you hold something so kind, so bright... oh my love
It wasn't long enough, and I can't believe we'll never get any single minute anymore. You will never ever grow up again...
But maybe was it enough for you? Maybe do you feel better now? Maybe you reunited with Narnia?
Oh I hope so, I can't do nothing but cry for me, but I at least can hope for you. Wherever you are, I wish you to feel better, I love you, I love you so much
17 сен 2024
