23 years old today, when I was 14 and started to suffered from Social Anxiety and that moment I realise and knew no doubt my life will gonna be fucked up.
I'm 14 years old, but so far I feel like I've been through shit. That nobody talks to you, that from childhood everyone sees you as an idiot, that your friendships do not last at all, feel bad about the past and remember it as if it were hell when in reality 2018 was almost 3 years ago and end all the years badly. This is why almost every night I cry and feel depressed. If I continue like this I think it will get worse, I am very young but having these behaviors and reading the comment box of these videos I think it will get worse.
It’s comforting to know that this Doomer movement exists. In some ways it has helped me a lot more than the disingenuous mental health groups that are plastered all across the media. However, I can’t help but feel that my days are numbered.
Live it up while you've got it. If you're already certain you want to leave this world check off some things on your bucket list. See the beauty of the our world before you decide to leave. It might sway you from actually ending yourself, you never know.
That´s actually great in a personal growth kind of perspective, but that only works if you`re being honest with yourself, and you are actually trying to get a better relationship with yourself, to get a better understanding of why you feel the way you do....if that´s not the case, don´t try to fool yourself, we all need other people to live, we even need other people to validate our existence, and I know it may feel like you got no one, but I promise you there must be someone out there who worries about you a lot, probbably reading this that person came to your mind, so call him/her/they and tell him/her/they you´re feeling shitty, I promise you he/she/they will care :)
Every day, when i look into the mirror, and face away, spooked by what i have become. How far i strayed away from what i wanted to be Update: After tackling on my alcohol addiction, stopped smoking like an actual train and starting to socialize more, It is still hard, and I wish that everyone who feels the same way I did changes for the better. Personally that change for me was done with stoicism and time. Merry Christmas everyone, I wish you all the very best
Depression, loneliness, Paranoia, walking straight to an uncertain future, constantly at war against everyone.. *Doomers are doomed..BUT NOT WITHOUT A LAST STAND*
I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me, and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one, and I walk alone I walk alone, I walk alone I walk alone, I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah I'm walking down the line That divides me somewhere in my mind On the borderline Of the edge, and where I walk alone Read between the lines What's fucked up, and everything's alright Check my vital signs To know I'm still alive, and I walk alone I walk alone, I walk alone I walk alone, I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah I walk alone, I walk a- I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one, and I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone
Check out Hey Ya by Outkast too if you haven't already. Its lyrics are in direct contrast to its immediate appearance, so most people who only heard it on the radio just think it's a happy song.
"Real loss only occurs when you've loved something more than you love yourself" - Good Will Hunting I lost my only friend, my cat 5 months ago. I miss her so much
Original song already had perfectly depressing lyrics, but... music was banging with drive and adrenaline, so you wanted to live with such soundtrack. *The doomer version has it all to become an anthem of suicide*
This pandemic has me trapped with people I either am afraid to open up to or people that want nothing to do with me, but have to put up with me. Every time I turn on the news, some group is fighting with another group over things that could easily be resolved. My romantic life has disappeared and probably won’t be coming back. I have almost committed suicide twice this year, but stop because it would be selfish. This year so far is no different than the last one. Hopefully it will get better. I know it won’t, but it’s ok to wonder.
@@aldebarantaurus1830 no not everything. Your brain doesn't let you think about things deeply enough, long enough cause you'll probably walk off a bridge if you realize just how trapped in hell the present reality is. Just enough to feel a pang of regret at existence, then back to wasting time and minimizing pain cause its what most of us are programmed to do, to preserve our existence. Written by someone who currently finds themselves in a dark, changing time
I started listening to green day when I was still attempting school. Listening to this, song after a year after I graduated it just hurts I miss the feeling it gave me I miss school i miss my classmates my friends i had my ambitions my dreams I miss the connectivity i had with people the simple yet so meaningful interactions with others I wish I could go back i hate my adult life I just want to sit with all my folks in the class for one last time
Lyrics :) :I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me, and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one, and I walk alone I walk alone, I walk alone I walk alone, I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah I'm walking down the line That divides me somewhere in my mind On the borderline Of the edge, and where I walk alone Read between the lines What's fucked up, and everything's alright Check my vital signs To know I'm still alive, and I walk alone I walk alone, I walk alone I walk alone, I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah Ah-ah, ah-ah I walk alone, I walk a- I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one, and I walk a- My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me Till then I walk alone ;
Reasons why you should stay alive. 1. We would miss you. 2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There's so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You're gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again... 19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you'll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don't even know you and I love you. 57. I don't even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is. 65. You've changed somebody's life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody's life. 70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down . 80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you're proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn't commit. 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate. 94. The new season of Sherlock. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. Being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years. 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen at any moment, make the most out of your life, life seems so long but short, enjoy it, do whatever you want, break a bunch of laws, travel the world, change your style, help others, do things that make you happy. Who gives. FUCK what people say or judge you about just bark at them. Have a good mindset and you'll be ok. I love you
I see people venting in the comments so pardon me, I'm gonna do the same. I never let it out tbh I still think abt someone I love and she ditched me 3 years ago, I was getting better. I faced sepuku twice since she left, I was getting better then Covid hit and now I'm back at square one and I worry if I'll make it this time. Strangely there's a quote from a Spider-Man movie that helped me "Sometimes you gotta keep steady and give up the thing you want the most" it's not really helping anymore tbh, eh well
This is less of a gloomy comment. But this brings back good memories. I got into Green day when I was 11 and I’m 17 now. I loved their stuff and although it wasnt the first band I’d got into, it was the first band where I actually listened to their discography and albums instead of just hits. At the same time, I was just starting high school here in England and was loving it. Whilst loving attending school, I would also go to my dads on a weekend. On the way to his ( a 30-40 min drive) we would play music through the speakers usually stuff like green day, MCR, the offspring etc...on the Friday night me and my dad would go to my uncles house where his two sons were, (one 14 at the time and one 6 days younger than me). The one just younger than me got on really well with me and we’d spend every Friday playing Xbox, watching sports with our dads and his brother, listening to music like green day and then on Saturdays we’d go to the swimming baths and occasionally the driving range. We even had a camping holiday at one point. That was amazing from being 12-14 and then stuff started in my life and it all went to shit. Nothing with my family but with me personally which i Won’t go into. But it’s not the same anymore, I felt like shit from 14-17 primarily but parts still linger and it’s gonna be a little longer before it goes but it’s not the same. I’m growing up now and I’m not a 12 year old, I see stuff differently now. Not to sound edgy but I’m not the carefree, worry less, naive 12-14 year old I was during that time. It was an amazing time tho and green day played a bit time in it
Doubt anyone will see this but this the op of this comment on a different account three years later. Figured whenever I come back to this vid I should comment on this as an update for myself. As I mentioned in a previous comment, my childhood and being 12 and 13 were amazing times in my life. Being 14,15 and 16 had some tough stuff such as my OCD to deal with although they weren’t terrible years. 17,18,19 were very good years for me. Had some fun times with friends, funny experiences, fun college, had my first gf, saw my favourite bands in gigs and went to another country with my gf. But this year (2024) at age 20 has sucked. OCD flaring a bit, endless job hunt, first gf dumped me, college exams, my driving exams (which I passed) etc…I know it’s a transition year into the next phase of my life and it’ll get better. That’s life, ups and downs from the greatness of my childhood and early teens to hardship of my mid teens-the greatness of my college years to the hardship of my young adulthood now it seems
This just whashed up in my recommendes, and I am honestly pretty greatful. I'm not really that old and I have given up a couple of times, but this gave me hope. This made me realize how often really self-pity is the biggest problem, and I will not progress any further into this dark hole y'all are deliberately climbing into. Wish the best for you all, but everything about this Video and comment-section is so fucking full of negativity, like of course your life is gonna feel meaningless and shitty if you're awake at 2am listening to this depressing shit. Man, Y'all don't even want to enjoy life and it makes me sad.
I want to vent out. What did I do to deserve life? The good and the bad. Post nut clarity. The older I get, the more fucked up i get. How longer will I go on like this? How long will I be able to hold up? How long will this light burn?
And then...I suddenly star to felling dawn... just right when before I was with my friends smiling and laughing... everything turn into dark and blue...I think I lose hope, those moments that I used to love are never coming back... :(
