i hate how i look when i cry. i hate how my lips pout, how my face scrunches, how my eyes squint. yet, i can't stop. i cant help but let the tears fall down to my chin and stain my cheeks. i cannot help desperately clutching to every good memory i have and replaying it repeatedly bittersweetly. i have to embrace the ugliness of each cry and sob until they fade.
Dear, don't hate all of those things about you. God has created you like he has created nature. Appreciate yourself and be happy. God will hate himself if you say you hate yourself. You're beautiful, just the way you are. Don't take those hateful words in you. Be positive, be happy. Be the reason to shine someone's life. Be someone who doesn't care what others opinions are. God knows best for you...
I just want to be myself. Guys, we don't know each other, but I wish you all were happy and loved, good luck in life, your dreams and plans will definitely come true, just believe in it.
I feel you man. Everyone says "be yourself" then you realize no one likes you for who you are but rather what can you provide them. Good luck to you too brother. May we all find peace.
@@Menevolence Yes, I understand, it just happens that for each person you have your own personality, and when you realize that you can't find yourself, you start to wonder if I really make sense? But when you realize that life is life, and it is not clear what can be expected from it, then you begin to understand that this is not the end, even if the situation is so bad that it seems to you that there is no way out, then it is not so.There is always a way out, it's just that not everyone can handle it.
I just want to be better than what i am, i just want to wake up and not hate myself, i just don’t want to make the people i love angry and nervous becouse of the problems i cause, i just want to be happy and make the people around me, even stranger, happy too. I hate myself.
@@Albert_Jaeger It’s a familiar feeling, two months ago I had a deep depression, but I did it, I’m sure that you will succeed too, don’t give up while you have time, there is a way out, even if you don’t see it yet.”
@@HelluvaheavenToday i turned 17, it’s been ten years now that i feel and am like that, i don’t think it will get better, but thanks for the kind words.
This hit hard in winter 2022 but it wasn’t till February 2023 is when the mystery illness we’ve all been experiencing for the last couple of months began haven’t felt myself all year numb
A liminal space. The transitional space between whatever you imagine, could be a hallway, or an empty school were students used to roam. Some may find it eerie, calm, or both.
This is the song i listened to while waiting for my plane to arrive before starting college in a different country. It did indeed feel like two realities.
All my life I've been searching for something, something I didn't know what it was, and to this day I'm searching for something I never had. But what do I miss?
Heavenly Father, giver of life and health: Comfort and relieve those challenged by serious and chronic mental and emotional illnesses. Give your power of healing to those who minister to their needs, that they may be strengthened in their weakness and have confidence in your loving care; through Jesus Christ our Lord.Amen
After my father died. I started listening to this song. I feel his loss so much I just want to be by his side. I want to hug him. I feel like I want to give up....
I remember back when I was in kindergarten, everytime my mom and my little brother would come pick me up, we'd always go to a dairy Queen, eat ocer there and take the free coupons to get free ice cream, and we leave, and sit outside under a large tree and eat it Im graduating this year, the dairy Queen closed down, and my elementary school got a whole new look now. Time really does fly by a lot faster than i thought. Though, i do miss when times were simpler
I think 2012-2019 were the best years of my life. I am 16 now but I wish those times would last. I have so many regrets. I wish me and this girl name Brianna would continue to love each other as we used to but since she is in Florida and I am in the Midwest of the united states this was never possible. I rarely see or talk to her anymore. I have so many feelings balled up inside me I just wanna release them here or anywhere but I must continue to be strong for me and my family and friends.
Brianna If you ever see this message just know I will always love you even if you move on and I won't stop you from living the best possible life you can.
When you want to cry but you just cant anymore. When youve been through so much and put yourself through so much you cant even sympathize with yourself or anyone.
GODDDDDDDDDDD i wish I appreciated the time I had with you I wish I held you more I wish I kissed you more I wish I smelled you more lol I wish I pulled you in more I love you so much at the beginning I wasn’t thinking of the limited time and it went past me so quick without me even realizing. You saved my life, you made me realize that even in this fucked up world I can have you to rest my head on when things got too hard, you were always there for me , you didn’t judge me or my feelings or when all I did was cry uncontrollably… I keep thinking about the little things we did together and it keeps making me cry knowing it’s being taken away from me, i was so stubborn and didn’t realize it till later, i played dumb , you stood by throughout all of my nonsense and made me believe I could be lovable. I love you because you make me feel things; my emotions are on fire when I’m with you, I get to forget about myself for a bit. You did that , I love you so much. And I never want to let go of a part in my life that had you in it because you’re all that could ever make me happy. Please don’t forget me, I will love you forever
whenever I listen to this song, it automatically brings me back to him. I remember when we listened to this song together while we were watching the stars together. Although it was dark and totally cold. He told me that the Poison tree reflected his feelings. Poison tree is not only the definition of depression but deeper love. We have known each other for many years now and have loved each other for so long, I have loved him. I am wearing now a necklace with a poison tree on it to remember him. To remind me of us. I love you
este tema me hace sentir lo perdido que estoy entre mis pensamientos, me dejan tan saturado de información y preguntas que no puedo responder mientras busco una respuesta, perdido entre mis pensamientos abrumadores….
i feel like when its winter time its like to look back what youve done and to look what will you do,it feels so surreal and its like when time stops just weird and i want that because im unhappy,this summer was so bad i worked a whole summer,no one ever checked on me,i was just alone going from job to my house alone,and i was hoping to be different than school but it wasnt,no friends no memories nothing to remember but still it was so bad that i will remember that period for the rest of the life Sorry for english
Many times we got up strange of our life's, no idea do with that things. Like we thinking something in our mind is something weird up or is wrong with it
I don't understand what I did wrong. Please just someone tell me I matter, I'm valid and I'm cared about. I can't remember the last time I've heard any of those from a real person.
When did he become so bent like this!! Why don't I break the words of my heart and forget! I feel like I'm in charge of magic because I almost die every time I remember him, I remember his treatment of me and his cruelty to me, but is it normal for him to support me and every time I say he loves me?But I remember that he loves me and wants to get rid of me!! And I feel like I'm sticking to it! But why are you so attached to me? My brother and I are anxious to know that I love him like this??? 💔
i wish we could speak again it’s been months since we last spoke the last time i heard you tell me about your day the last time i smiled because of your notification on my phone it’s been too long how long should i wait for? when all i wanted was for you to be there for me by my side like you said you said i’d always be in your heart you said i mean a lot to you you said whatever happens between us you’ll always be by my side but where are you? when i need you the most crying in my bed like a fucking baby where are you? you didn’t keep your promise did you?
Got with her exactly 8 months ago in 20 minutes, tried getting back with her but sadly she loves someone else. Oh well guess I won’t be sleeping properly tonight both my pillows are soaked in tears anyways.
It’s crazy how winter of 2021 was the best and worst time of my life I was so suicidal but at the same time now that I look back I miss it so much, not being suicidal but life was just so much easier and calmer than it is now
I've reached a point in my life where pain and emptiness are the only things I feel. I don't shed as many tears as before, just one that carries an unimaginable weight. please God, look at me... I don't want to sink into this abyss of loneliness, arrogance and guilt.
This music. Has everyone feeling different emotions. But my own is constant repitition. The same thing over and over again. it brings me. a strange feeling of calmness of knowing nothing will change
This version comforts me in the moments where I feel the worst. The guitar gives the song an under tone of sorrow and misery but, the sort of piano like melody tells me how everything will be better one day
