Growing Up Trans [Story Time] 

For anyone about to comment "so like, are you a boy or girl???" I've said MULTIPLE times i am **MALE** I'm not sure whats hard to understand. I am a transgender male. meaning I was not born male. I make that VERY clear in this video. Please stop asking. I've made it extremely clear. You can check ANY of my social medias and it says **MALE**

"but, that relationship ended up becoming very, _very_ toxic so.. *yeet* " that is a proper response

I’m not trans, but I am intersex-and it sucks. I identify as a male, I was assigned male at birth and was raised male. No one noticed anything wrong with me until I was about 5-6 when someway somehow my mom noticed something was a lil’ funky with me (having to do with the stuff you shouldn’t mention anything with a child). So apparently my mom went to the pediatrician panicked about what was wrong with her son. The pediatrician had an examination and found out that I had not only malformed female genitalia, but I had a fucked up uterus. Yay. So, I didn’t really care until I was 11, when I started complaining about when I would lay on my stomach to sleep (yes, I’m a stomach sleeper), my chest would hurt. I learned later that my mom freaked the fuck out, worrying that her son would be mistaken as a girl in the restroom or in public and shit would go down. And with my fucked genes, my chest surely grew. It was the awful experience. I had no idea what was going on-and I just wanted out. I stayed up with my mom and cried about how others would call me a girl and I didn’t like it. How kids in my class started acting weird around me and I didn’t understand. (Keep in mind, I’m autistic and social norms and stereotypes grazed past my mind as a kid). Without knowing what to do, my mom took ace bandages and binded me with those. For a year, I couldn’t breathe (also keep in mind that I’m asthmatic so that was really fun). Later we discovered that the constant pressure of the bandages began to squeeze my ribs so much that the right side of my rib started forming inward. Luckily, once my mom knew that we stopped doing that immediately. Our doctor got us hooked up with a therapist that helped with my emotions, while the doctor helped with my.. other stuff. I was able to get a binder (which didn’t really work but it compresses me enough so people wouldn’t look to my chest to see what gender I was). I’ve gone through very spaced out and lingering periods that are literally like someone twisting a knife inside of me (try having testosterone eating at your dying ovaries whilst a minuscule hole is covered mostly with skin is spewing out blood and see how you like it.) I hope one day I’ll be able to get top surgery and get my uterus removed. I don’t identify as trans, but I sure as hell feel like it from what I’ve been through. When you said “I’m proud of you for being alive”-that hit me like a truck. I sat there and felt my trachea run up my throat as the face burned with my capillaries raising to my skin around my eyes, cheeks, and nose. My eyes were hot and stinging with tears rolling down my face, and lungs quivering. Thank you, so much. I honestly can’t express the feeling of joy that gave me. I’ve struggled so much with depression and suicidal thoughts-an eating disorder from trying to stop my chest from growing-and a fuck ton of other shit. “I’m proud of you for being alive.” That’s a quote from God (whoever and wherever they are) edit: hi, i wrote that when i was 13 and i’m happy to tell the crazy amount of people who have replied to this that i got top surgery :] i also no longer bleed because i was on estrocide for about a year and it leveled out my hormones enough to prevent any bleeding 👍 it gets better guys

if it helps you any. when you started talking i thought you were just a feminine guy. i legit thought "he sounds so adorable"

PSA: TRANS GAY BOYS ARE NOT HETERO WOMEN!!! If you are gay and trans, that is just as valid as if you are any gender and any sexuality. Do not let someone make you think that you aren’t who you ARE.

I think you are a wonderful example of what men should embrace. Men shouldn't be afraid to like pink, or be interested in "stereotypical feminine" things. Your gender(s) do not define your style, interests, or sexual orientation. Keep on keepin' on, my dude.

**Casually disabled** "You are worthy of love" *Sheds a tear*

Pretty much me how I found out I was Bi: Puberty: “that man looks really cute.” Me: “sounds reasonable.” Puberty: “that girl to.” Me: “Impossible. Girls don’t like other girls.” Friend: “no it’s a thing.” Me: * surprised pikachu *

Cis girl: **has short hair** People: oke she is still a girl Trans male: **has long hair** People: *surprised pikachu face* iSn'T hE a bOy? Btw love your video❤

Is no one going to comment on the artwork? Its fricken' awesome!

GUYS CAN BE CUTE AND PINK GALS CAN BE ROUGH AND TOUGH!!!

Top Surgery also known as TEET YEET

"-or are just generally confused" Or do you mean *Gender-ly* confused

Wanna hear a funny story? I came out by texting my whole family the meme of the guy jumping off the counter and saying “ I’m gay! “

🌹Roses are red🌹 💙Pepsi cans are blue💙 🏳️‍🌈You are trans🏳️‍🌈 🤗And we support you!🤗

I’m not gonna lie For a solid minute I was staring at the bear on the side

My wife is transgender and she’s gone through many of the same things you have. She’s even been disowned by her whole family. And I can’t imagine how strong she is. How strong you and everyone else who is transgender are. I know it may not mean much, but I support you and everyone else trans and pray that one day there will come a time when you and everyone are accepted for who they are. I just want to say never give up and never give in to those who judge you because you are so much more than the sum of your parts and even if it’s hard there are so many who love and respect you for who you are.

18:00 I legitimately started crying and hugging my laptop.

*My brain during puberty:* so you see that guy over there? He’s hot. *Me:* mhm *Brain:* **points at girl** and she’s beautiful, you have a crush on her. *Me:* wait wh- *Brain:* also you’re a guy.

Tired gay boi I completely and utterly agree with that statement

I'm not apart of the LGBTQ+ community but I completely support anyone who is apart of it. One of my friends is trans and a lot of my other friends are lesbian, so I try to support them and the whole LGBTQ+ community as much as I can.

Puberty: Hey hey friend that girl is reallllllllyyy cute (Ima girl) Me: *Chokes*

Teacher “Stop holding hands” Pax: “Why” Teacher “you flirting with da boy” Pax: “im f*cking four”

Liking feminine things doesnt invalidate gender identity at all, fem boys are the best honesty! Live happy 💕

You can be trans and like feminine things, your gender doesn't mean you have to have to have a certain style. Be proud. :)

I personally think guys who are feminine are really cute--

You sir are not filled with toxic masculinity, I respect you.

"Tired, feminine, gay, trans, boi, that used to hurt himself." that is mood. ✋😔👌

As a mom of a child who is questioning their gender. I want to say thank you for sharing your story. An wish you many blessing and happiness.

Puberty: Hey there, that guy is hot. Me: Mhm Puberty: But that girl is also hot. Me: *What?*

I'm a transwoman who's built like a football player, and the parallels in your story really tugs on my heart strings. I hope you find what you are looking for and know that you are who you say you are, and nobody can make you be someone your not.

My mom says I have butifull thick hair and I'm like BEGON HAIR

Pink and cute things are just that, cute, that doesnt mean feminine and trans guys and other non feminine peeps have ever right to like those things

Puberty- Hey you know, that guy’s cute. Me- No he’s really not. Puberty- What about that girl? Me- HOLY FU-

"You know, if that's your thing you can have a wife and 2.5 children" H O L D U P

as another trans guy, i love this video so much the end of the video made me tear up, especially bc i have a really unaccepting dad thank you so much you are such an amazing person and i love you

pax: "sasuke" auto-captions: "sauce is gay"

This is insane... I watched this December of last year, and at that time I thought I was a lesbian, and I was dating a wonderful girl and we loved each other. About 3 months ago I figured out I was a trans male. I told my at the time girlfriend and she started crying. Turns out HE is the same way. We've been dating almost a year. Thank you, when I figured stuff out I only figured it out completely because this video had given me a full understanding of what being a trans guy meant.

"I basically wanted to look really unappetizing to everybody" oH wOW that broke my heart but thank you for saying that because I finally found a sentence that fully explains my middle+high school experience (I'm also trans)

You: "Stay safe.. and drink some water." Me: Okay. *Gets up and gets myself some water* *DrInKs ThE wAtEr*

Cis male: *wears makeup* People: "yess, you're doing great I love it on you"👌 Trans male: *wears makeup* People: *"CIS-PICIOUS"* No, it shouldn't be that way. Trans guys are males, so there shouldn't be a difference :)

*stay safe and drink some water*

video about being a trans guy in the teens area: "I was like, essentially just tired gay boi" *damn same*

I am transgender mtf and I am glad you are alive to this day 😊 and this is my first time watching your videos have a good pride month 😊

I went through the lesbian phase before I realized I liked boys too. I'm trying to base my look off of what Jack Stauber sounds like. If that makes sense. I just think it's unique. And I too am smol.

My current Mate came out to me that they are trans. And My love for them didnt change. I love them for who they are not what they are. And I dont want to just push them away because of it, If that is who they believe they are who am I to judge? They are the exact same person I love. Hate solves nothing.

i feel you about the hair. Everyone constantly talks about how long and “pretty” it is and how “people would k*ll for your hair/body” and it makes you feel like it’s your only worth. I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come man. 💛

I hated it when people said "yOuR a wOmaN nOw". It annoys me alot

I tried listening to this while I worked on some projects, and I bawled my eyes out when you said you were proud of everybody. I don't know why, it just hit me right in the feels. I needed to be told that today a lot more than I thought I did. Thank you.

Pink Yellow Blue THATS ALL I DO I am pan That's the plan ❤️💛💙

Honestly I think your voice is actually pretty gender neutral

yes just because your transgender or gay or lesbien dosnt mean you have to suffer, im sooo proud that you didn't end it all, your also a strong person for going through all this, dealing with this your a hero. you deserve wayyyyy more followers.. for that, say helo to a new subscriber

You kind of sound like a more masculine version of Pidge from Voltron!

Me: I wish I could have been born a boy like I legit hate my body Friend: Transition is an option Me: W A I T ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵃⁿ ᵈᵒ ᵗʰᵃᵗˀ

“Tired gay boy” *THIS IS LITERALLY ME I SWEAR*

Awh, the drawing is so cute!

When someone calls me a boy I feel like I’ve been complemented or someone is like I got you bro it’s just really happy feeling and you don’t know why until you know why

Me: what’s the deal with liking people like wot? Puberty: hi Me: hmmmmmmmm DaMn My best friend: i’m a lesbian puberty: AHHHHHHHHHHH Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH the end i’m bi.

One of my best friends is lesbian and more than half of my friends are gay or bisexual and they are the best people I know and they mean the world to me they help me with my mental health issues and I help them with depression LGBTQ people reading this you are loved by someone so don't feel lonely

_Hi, pansexual goober here. I was listening to the video while drawing and I was just enjoying your story so much and happily listening and then... when you said how proud you are of everyone, I started crying?? I just felt this spike of warmth because I kind of realized that "Hey, I actually am doing a pretty good job of not jumping off the end or letting the things around me eat me whole." Like, my life isn't absolutely terrible, but there's always the things that happen the push a little too hard. Like when the people who promised me unconditional love when I was born slowly but surely get funny ways of showing it. It's been a while since someone's sounded so legitimately proud of me? Like I said, not absolutely terrible, but I more or less can't wait to get out of here._ _I just wanna say thanks, dude.

tbh i dont care about how your character is "pink" and "cutesy" because i have a female oc who looks masculine with very masculine features and likes. like... WHO TF CARES??

10:39 Me: *I SMELL A SUPERNATURAL REFERENCE THAT PROBABLY WASN’T INTENDED, but whatever.*

I'm a transgender male as well, I never came out to any of my friends but my online ones... I have a fear of losing everyone I love. I feel so horrible knowing that it will probably never will tell anyone irl. But my online friends are so supportive. I'm greatful to have them. I hope you are doing well!

"If you dont like lgbt people...just...just go...this isnt for u,go get some water" lmao same

_up to that point I was just a slug_ *I can relate* But I love this video and well done for doing this😃

5th grade me: I dont want to go through puberty. Puberty: Hi 5th grade Me: Fine, I guess I have to deal with y- Dysphoria: Hi 5th grade Me: Wait a minute, who are you-

This is a very comforting video. I admire you. I'm Bisexual and I haven't come out to my family it, but I'm hoping one day I can

Thank you so much... I’ve been struggling with my sexuality for so long... and you just gave me all the confidence I need to finally say... I’m a gay trans boy and DAMN proud of it. Thank you so much I will always think of you whenever the worlds getting me down. Stay proud, be loud and never let anyone tell you how you’re“ supposed to be”.🏳️‍🌈

18:07 - 19:06 okay, just the way you said this... it's just so amazing, I super glad youtube recommended your video to me since...I came out to my dad yesterday after years of trauma when my mother told me that being lgbt is a sickness and so may gross things... My dad still cannot accept that I prefer girls, but I know he's doing his best and he loves me. Also, I'm so happy that there are people like you. I love you too, just for being yourself and your kind words that made my day ♥ and if anyone's reading it, stay strong! I am with you!

My brain: hey that girl is cute Me: yeah I know My brain: so is that guy Me: ok yeah? My brain: holy crap every one is cute Me: oh shiz I’m Pansexual

Don’t be sorry for low self esteem. I have it too, from years and years of bullying. It’s not your fault, so it’s nothing to be sorry about! You’re amazing, you’re awesome, you’re valid

Thank you for telling us your gender, I was confused and didnt wanna get it wrong.

Dude, I'm being very honest. You have the PERFECT emo voice, hands down! Keep being who you are, and if they judge, screw 'em.

Puberty: "ok so you're going to like this guy." Me: What can go wrong? Puberty: "but you're also going to like your best friend." Me: **chokes on sweet tea** but she's a girl! Puberty: "ahhh yes but she's bi."

*2.5 children*

Puberty hitting me in fifth grade: So that guy right theres really cute Me: Uh huh. Puberty: Nah JK I know you're staring at that girl Me, a female: *What?*

I am not Trans, but i have related problems. Earlier in the year, I cut my long hair to a "boyish" cut, which caused my peers to label me the trans or gay kid. That upset me because they should not determine that for me. I got tons of hate so I moved schools. I am doing much my better. It was amazing to hear your story Pax.

I am a Transgender Male. People often call me cute and just constantly telling me...female which made me uncomfortable and unwanted. So I was in the same spot, as you can see from my profile pic. I normally tell people I’m a He and they’re like “But you’re a girl!” I have to say I’m trans male over and over again which is tiring. Anyway yeah. Not alone ^^

Legit started crying near the end. This video is so fucking inspiring and I thank you for making it. As a fellow trans male, this video really spoke to me and it was so nice to hear the things that not even my best friends will say to me. "It is so worth it to keep going." Once again, thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

I'mma send this lovely video to my trans friend, and then spam him with love, because he's so amazing.

I cant be a tired gay boy just a regular one because of all the caffeine i consume Seriously call an ambulance I have a problem But dont actually Mabye do it

The good thing is that people have changed. Legit I had a trans boy in my class and no one disliked him.

omg dude you are beautiful just the way u r

Im screaming cause I though you were just a younge cis male What the heck

Something that bothers me is that the most stupid videos put together in 2 minutes used as click bait have more views than this well put together, inspiring video that probably took forever. You don't do click bait, and once I saw this video, I quickly subscribed.

I like rewatching this video sometimes because your voice is just so calming to me I just can't put my finger on it, but your voice is so reassuring.

as somebody just starting down this road (mtf), it's surreal having hings that i'm dealing with be put into words by somebody else. Genuinely: thank you, this helped. i hope you have a wonderful day/year/life, have some tea or something you wonderful person! you deserve it! :)

RedPax: goes on rant of being worthy of love Me, someone who needed that; *starts tearing up* PREACH!!

I am not trans, but I have a bad case of BPD, and I relate to a lot of this. This made me cry, but thats a good thing, like in a good way. Maybe I can be loved one day too.

**Me walks in hall of school** **cute short girl walks MINDING her own business** Me:aww she’s adorable!!^^*heart beats faster* Me:..... Me:wait I-

Hey, this- as someone from the south, who is also a trans boy, I very much understand the struggle and unfairness of being trans. I have a supportive family, and incredible friends, but the environment I'm being raised in is not even close to accepting, it's very difficult, but people like us, we are stronger than the naked eye can see. You're strong for getting through the turmoil, and of course, we will always have to deal with the burden of being trans, but it does get better. The way I see things is that, we can power through the hardship to live the life those who didnt make it, cant have. You're very strong and this video is so inspiring that you for making it for people like us to know we arent alone.

Me: *chilling in the hallway at school with one of my guy friends who I came out to already* Me thinking: *"Oh,that girl's kinda cute"* My friend:Hey,bro, that girl's kinda cute! Me: *spits out all my water*

When you said “I’m so glad that you’re alive”, I literally almost cried... T^T Edit: thnx so much for the like RadPax!!! ^ ^ Also thank you for this video, it really helped me a lot and made me feel so much better about myself

i have always felt uncomfortable with my body, no matter how many time i tell my mother she buys me a dress or gets me a nail appointment. i had never felt so sad with all my traumatic times, but one time when i went to tell my mother she had went through my phone and called me a lesbian. she said that since i was missing my trans sister so i was a lesbian. but even then she had said that it was all in my head and itll go away. As if it was a sickness...i have never talked about it since but your story is amazing and helps. i hope you and whoever is reading this is accepted and feels worthy of love, have a great 2024

You know you talking about this made me feel a bit better and I hope you know you are awesome

18:09 - 18:55 I need that so much. Thank you so much, this video helped me a lot. I love u 🏳️‍🌈😭

this was absolutely inspiring to watch, you've been through so much, ups and downs, lefts and rights. and i truly believe you'll become the happiest dude on earth, i hope nothing but the best for you, keep fighting 💕 xoxo

I just wanna say, i’m ftm and watching this made me feel better as a gnc trans guy because I wanna have long hair and stuff and a lot of people give me shit for that lol. Thanks.

RadPax: "That relationship got very very toxic so.. YEET" Literally ME.

I'm in a very dark place right now and trying to figure a bunch of stuff out and that helped lots. Thanks dude... That video is important