guy in vr talks about their worst day as a soldier 

Thanks for watching, I've enjoyed doing these talks with Syrmor. And, I appreciated all the thoughtful comments people gave me two years ago when that video initially came out, it helped me put into perspective some things that I might've struggled with longer without that kind of mass input. I'll be honest, that video was a spur of the moment thing that I reached out to Syrmor to do without really thinking to hard on, but I can't begin to tell you how much good it has done for me by getting something that was previously eating me up out into the world for better or worse. I feel bad, as not everyone gets the opportunity or platform to do the same, but it's important sometimes to get other people's perspective on things we often want to hide the most (whether that be in ways like I did through the internet or probably way more healthy with someone you trust), and that's one of my biggest take aways from this whole thing. I'll leave it there, and say that I hope you have a great day.

I’m glad the Army vet got to keep the woobie. That thing is the best.

Why am I the authority when you didn’t care for 20 years was such a great line.

It's so good to see veterans talking with other veterans, it's like watching a safe space where some guys who have probably never met genuinely having fun with each other with stories that nobody else could possibly share. I'm glad you guys are doing well, and it's great to hear your voices. Stay well chaps.

I'm an army vet who also plays VRchat sometimes and would love to hang out with these guys and swap stories. 6 years of active duty 31b work and a year of 31e work adds up to some stories.

I’m waiting for the day when we have a Vet in VRChat who’s Avatar is a Clone Trooper.

"If they're lighting from the bottom, time to go. If they're lighting from the top, sit back and chill." This is actually great advice. Any of you that don't know shit about drugs, remember this at parties and you'll be alright lmao

Nice to see Struggle is still kicking and glad to hear from another Army person. Me personally, I never really was interested in the military but I do like hearing the stories.

Can we just base all future depictions of Anakin off this guy? It fits so perfectly

2 years in the making for this, I hope at the end of this vid he's somewhat found peace since then

The last part of him chasing the clown cracked me up so much 🤣

lucid nightmares are terrifying. you'd think being lucid would give you control of the dream and make it less scary, but somehow it makes them worse

Had severe ptsd since I was a child and the thing you’re saying about never allowing yourself to fully relax and sleep is spot on. I’ve never heard it described like that I thought it was just me.

The gunship guy was born to be an influencer

Struggle is literally the reason I subbed to this channel, it was the first video I ever saw and coming from a military family I really related to what he said. I appreciate you bringing him back to talk again, I feel like he has a lot to offer people I'm terms of advice and life lessons.

The war vets avatar is the galaxies biggest war criminal

As a fellow air force vet 2012-2022 Ive LOVED these military talks. Its helped me become aware of issues I never knew I had. Thanks guys

This is one of the first time i see a veteran using a military-looking avatar.

Hearing struggle explain some his interactions with the VA it blows my... It's surprising how they're so vastly different from location to location.

“I think we should just GLASS all of Afghanistan” 😭

I clicked on it as soon as i saw the notification, this video got me into syrmor and i appreciate all you do for everyone.

Mental health for veterans should be top priority. This needs to change

The experience of having my sleep paralysis touch my shoulder scared me as a kid. And that falling feeling you talked about... oof yeah

Struggle is lit, my squad loves him. Well spoken and two years later he quantifies and details the Mil experience pretty well. Even for a Marine. GG struggle, someone link his socials pls

I was coming home to go to sleep after my 11th birthday. I sat on my couch thinking I was still awake. Immediately after sitting down I became immobilized and the whole room slowly tinted red. The angle at which I was sitting had a clear view of my kitchen. I saw a shadow man walk to me pull out a knife and PLUNGE it into my chest. I didn't even feel it but I felt the panic in my mind. After two minutes of thinking I'm dead. I wake up in a completely different room on a bunk bed. Worst sleep paralysis night of my life. So yes I agree that shit is terrifying.

Stay hydrated. Change your socks. Even in a 130. Change. Your. Socks.

Man, I really fucking love veterans. Especially whenever the Wubby is brought up.

Honestly these guys could start their own podcast and I’d def listen! So many deep subjects but dealt with so much humor!!

I was supposed to join the Marines literally on 09/11/2001 but ended up getting to Paris Island on the 13th. Got tagged for the "Yankee White" program. Coming back from our Crucible, a POS trips and falls into my left knee, tearing my ACL. Had to get out, but two years later, I forced my way into the Army national guard for NY (yes, I am aware how garbage that is) and the closest thing I could get to combat was MP (31B). I volunteered to go over, but my unit was called up anyway. it was the most surreal life experience, going to JAG and making out my Will in case I died, then stepping off the plane and that damn desert sand immediately crawling up my ass. I saw the very worst of what the human race is capable of, because I participated in it, a LOT. I started to lose myself and became the monster I was there to stop. It's been over 10 years, and I can still clearly see all of their faces, even the one's I tried to save. But the worst ones, are the kids. They still haunt me pretty good.

There's something so wholesome about the opening few minutes of those two just chatting the shit and laughing together. It's like a couple friends coming together to hang out.

I live in Granby. Right down the street from where the Killdozer went nuts. That dude was on a mission from Jesus.

USMC vet here. It’s all true… but we only get 3% of the military spending budget because we’re a department and not a branch.

I honestly enjoy these videos, its nice hearing other vets talk. Just something about it, helps me not feel alone in this shit.

There was an advert for the british army on the radio the other day - likely based on the recent earthquake situation in turkey to be topical. It was all about how you could make really important decisions to rescue people if you joined the army. Only the best people could make those "hard decisions" and "save lives". Always the same from these adverts - helping negotiate to use some guy's water well peacefully by taking off your sunglasses and seeming approachable. Learning how to make complex machines work under pressure to "be the best" or going out and rescuing people. No mention of fighting, bad conditions, having to kill some other person in any way whatsoever. Apparently out military is some amazing, peaceful charity organization that occasionally does some extreme sports. I knew someone who served in the Yugoslavia conflict as a peacekeeper. He saw things so awful i wont discuss them here so i dont end up triggering anyone. They never mention any of that in the recruitment ads. I dont know of any other job where they recruit you without mentioning your primary duties. Its no wonder veterans come out and feel alienated - even the public face of their profession is shamefully hidden.

I don't remember many RU-vid videos, But this was a poignant one that I do remember. It was the real world version of Full Metal Jacket, Jarhead or Apocalypse Now! ... It isn't even hyperbolic at all, This is the untold truth of the reality the warrior archetype goes through Both of my Parents are Military and this hit home

what a crazy checkpoint. twas a dark time back in 2020, now im glad i could just look back on it

Genuinely the best series on youtube

It’s great how these videos have gone from “this is a fascinating story on what it’s like to be in the military” and “so this is the bullshit veterans have to deal with” to “this is the bullshit I should expect when I’m in the military and when I get out”. They’re helpful that way. Army reserves, Network Systems Operation Specialist (22H), before you ask.

You gotta smoke dirt weed for a while if you've been off it for years. Its all super stuff now, it can cause psychosis, anxiety or panic attacks if you're susceptible.

The talk about forfeiting rights to get help really struck a chord with me. I've had that exact conversation with several friends who have suggested I go talk to a professional. It's hard to explain to them the concerns I have about losing rights because they don't exercise those rights like I do.

I have never heard someone describe sleep paralysis and the whole “fighting against being so vulnerable” so accurately. I’ve had sleep paralysis issues for a couple years now. I’ve never served but there was a point in my childhood when I would force myself to not sleep too deep. It was cause my parents would get into arguments and one would leave and I wanted to make sure I was awake enough to hear them come back so I could know for sure that they were safe. Tbh I didn’t realize this correlation till right now. This video just really helped. New glad I subscribed

Them talking about sleep paralysis and ptsd was extremely relatable, it’s definitely something I wouldn’t wish on anyone, I constantly lucid dream so I constantly have nightmares and sleep paralysis, got really bad insomnia so I completely understand it’s so uncomfortable❤️ wish yous all the best stay safe and I hope you overcome it

I remember seeing the first video years ago and just recently out of the blue I went back and rewatched it, and then to see this pop up today, thank you struggle and everyone who serves, these are incredible insights and I'm glad to see your still kicking ass dude!

My Dad is a Vietnam vet and went in for some prostate work. The VA AND the air force base hospital fucking lost him. It took me hours and dozens of phone calls to find him.

People want to know what's going on from people actually on the ground, not the media. We want to hear what is happening overseas, straight from the soldiers. My ex was in Afghanistan and saw regular apparitions. He wasn't sleeping, although, he did have troubled sleep. He would always wake up and smoke cigarettes. He would always sleep better when I was next to him. I worry about him now. I noticed he had some sadistic tendencies at odd times. I know he saw some horrific stuff. He was so sweet and gentle, but suddenly, would be getting off to almost drowning me at the beach. He would go into the bathroom for long periods of time too. Never figured that out. It wasn't substance related. Yeah, I was so in love with that man. I try not to think about him, cuz it hurts too much.

In Korea now, spent MANY MANY MANY drunk episodes that ended with either my friends calling my mo knock or me calling my mom. I still drink even tho I throw up every other night but its the only escape I have. This place is a prison. Edit: best vet discount is on a hunting lisence. Without its like a 30-40 dollar lisence. Vet discount is like 20-25. And active duty is only 2 bucks (pun intended)

The sleep paralysis part got me good, Holy shit. Genuinely felt like he was reading my thoughts 😅😅

I'm glad to see the follow up for this. I love that so many different stories get shared here. I'd totally listen to more of this. It was so entertaining. It's pretty crazy how it's been 2 years already.

So, one of my coworkers was a vet. All of really knew was he was younger than 35 at most at this time and he was a vet. We were all eating, and the topic of military service came up and one of us non vets mentioned you see some fucked up things. We had another co worker who just did not get the hint and asked Vet what did he see. He went on to tell us a story of him being deployed to Japan, as some sort of Coast Guard where he'd be on a boat, and would routinely check boats for Contraband. Apparently, one of his comrades couldn't handle the stress, so he jumped out a window. I do not remember much about the rest of the conversation, as I was angry with the guy who caused the Vet to tell this story, because it was clear it still stung him emotionally. Now, 4 years or so later, I'd have pulled not-vet aside and calmly but firmly told him off, that asking questions like that is not something you should unless you're good friends with them. Unfortunately I did not. I might have in the moment said 'hey, not the time' or something, but I can't remember. Call me being offended on someone's behalf, but my uncle was a Vet in the early 90s, and he doesn't like to talk about it much. So I just assumed you don't ask Vets that.

That was nice to here I’m glad that you doing a little better Air Force dude. The previous video was kinda grim but this was very lighthearted in comparison. The addition of the clown was amusing.

Syrmor needs to do unedited recordings for some of these

Thanks for these videos it helps me a lot to hear these conversations.

Yup, as an 11B, I can confirm his adoption paperwork went through. This dudes a grunt. All pants will require additional third leg space but you also get years of trauma that's difficult to articulate and you always feel a dog hair away from being disowned by your fellow civilians.

i love struggle

Something about this conversation that just hit different. Good laugh and was nice to catch back up. Keep up the content!

so glad to see hes doing so well and love these videos!

Thanks for this, your content always provides insight into the lives of everyday people. Hearing these guys talk about their thoughts and troubles is reassuring to me that I can overcome my own issues from service.

Glad to see this finally got a followup

21:45 "metal health help" *pulls out gun*

Glad to see Struggle doing alr. When the og vid came out I was really down because of covid, I found comfort in not suffering alone, but now Im better, and Im glad hes better as well.

Honestly man these videos and hearing you talk about this stuff is incredibly helpful to me. Not military but Dad fought in Iraq, a lot of what you say resonates. Thank you for your service and thank you for your candor in talking about your experiences and struggles. I wish you all the best.

Can believe it's been a year. It's great hearing this man speak out again

OH SHIT, i remember this guy.

Hey man I'm glad you're doing better. Sempre Gumby brother.

The VA stuff sounds exactly like the help resources for my mental disorders at college. Technically incredibly helpful, and also thoroughly useless when you really needed it.

I just love this content. The VR thing somehow adds to it, even though we can't see the tells on a person's face.

Great video. I'm so glad he's doing better.

Thanks for coming back with the update Struggle, didn't know I needed to hear it as much as I did.

Lucid dreaming actually causes sleep paralysis.

I could listen to these guys for hours its so interesting and calming

Lmao at 21:46 says "Trying to get mental health help" and pulls out a gun

i fell you brother the sleep paralisis really sucks it just lets your mind run wild while not being able to move or breathe

Ya know that guy who was acting all excited while watching those videos of police killing people..... He's able to have that reaction because he is removed from the actual violence. If he was in that situation where the violence was occurring or heaven forbid he was the one inflicting the violence I can guarantee you he wouldn't be acting all happy and excited and if you was then he would definitely come under scrutiny for displaying such a worrying reaction to killing someone.

Fire fighter paramedic here, I too immediately get asked what’s the worst call or death I’ve scene in my ten years while we are at the dinner table for Christmas lol

I love these two😂👍🏻 good to see their doing great

Now i want to try zuchinni chocolate chip cookies

I love air force anakin

-is it an emergency? -can I just get an appointment? -is it an emergency? -I guess? -do you have any firearms? -oh! Oh, right, looks like it's not an emergency after all. Good bye.

what this guy said about having a panic attack while smoking weed and refusing to stay away from it is so fuckin accurate. i wasnt in the military but ive been thru some rough patches where i just couldnt express any emotion, but something about weed makes you "feel," its weird to explain. You just feel like a psychopath and you wanna be able to cry or feel mad instead of constant numb, so even if weed gives you a panic attack, at least you got to feel alive if that makes any sense. im just speaking bro science rn and my own experience but I really related to this shit a lot. i think it also has something to do with slowing ur thoughts down and letting your brain actually live in the moment, but i could be wrong. regardless, just know ur not alone man

Really relatable that weed bit 😂😂😂

PSA for Army guys. Well atleast for armor, you can keep your crewmen ACH with the comms iiiiiif... you steal one from a Bradley and replace the one in your vic lol. I got too attached to mine and I even did the custom paint on it so I couldn't let it go. Just wanted to let you know Airforce isn't the only one to have nice things lol.

6:22 I think army guy’s dad was trying to find a way to connect to his son. (This is assuming the best of the dad so it could be otherwise tbf)

This was awesome! May they be bestowed happiness for making us laugh 😆

Hope you guys r doing well RESPECT!!!!!!!!!

I also used to smoke w33d and now it gives me panic attacks. I smoked every day from age 15 to age 25 and then all of a sudden it started giving me panic attacks out of nowhere. And I’ve heard this from lots of other people too. They’re doing something to the stuff they make now.

Love hearing two vets just shoot the shit.

he seems like such a cool dude btw. the video weirdlt does not get recommended i stubmled here on accident searching for the old one

Wonderful to be able to laugh and relate while I go through an episode 🥴

Smth so funny about watching the army guy run after the clown cam

I've been fascinated by sleep paralysis ever since my brother experienced it decades ago, long before the internet made it well known. He started having awful night terrors and paralysis shortly after he began spending a lot of time at this girlfriend's super old house (it was literally one of the first houses to be built in our cities downtown). He claimed that an old lady would crawl on his chest, and stop him from breathing. She was often accompanied by a tall shadowy figure. A few years later I saw a documentary that described what my brother was experiencing, and it also described a phenomenon from the Canadian East Coast known as "The Hag". It's interesting that sleep paralysis is often associated with trauma, negative emotion, and the fact that these same hallucinations appear to so many people.

Good to see Struggle doing way better now.

:o yey. I love hearing from this dude again.

Incredible video

ANAKIN RETURNS

In France we even invented a name for concusion brain damage from explosives: "obusite", "obus" means shell.

5:23 the pan to the fucking clown made me cry

Great video! 👍

7:48 best interaction

Seeing Anakin talking about dealing with ptsd is kinda funny but honestly calming

Bring back the Penguin!