I've never felt so..upset, and sad...and..i don't know. Just sad. I want to cry my heart out and slowly die in my pillow under my blanket. Sad, when it's raining listening to this song. I just can't be beautiful enough for him...All my friends are rude and toxic, nothing to really life for except the fact that I love listening to music inside my room. Listening to my parents and brother laughing, crying while they enjoy the time of their lives. My friends make toxic jokes about in front of "him" embarrass me. I don't know, and i'm to much of a scaredy cat to die. I just don't know what to do anymore..🙁