To me depressive black metal doesnt make me feel more comfortable with the idea of suicide, it makes me more willing to accept that it was part of my life at one point and that it isnt anymore. Like yeah I might still be depressed and I might still cry every single night and yeah I do still have panic attacks but at least I'm not trying to kill myself like I was when I discovered this music, and that's what listening to this reminds me of. It reminds me that if I've put off going through with it for this long then killing myself would be giving up and betraying myself not the release I used to think it would be. Ironic that this pessimistic and intentionally depressing genre can actually sort of give me comfort and hope. I hope if you came here to cut yourself to this that you rethink and instead just listen and contemplate, cry your eyes out, scream along but please don't cut yourself. If you are cutting and/or contemplating suicide then please try and find someone to talk to about it. I love you all, be kind to yourself.
For me DSBM is not about getting better but lets you cope with that feelings, knowing and hearing they live with the same thing and express it via beautiful music which others wont understand.
Yes I'm still alive and am 57. I'll be 58 in August. I can't say life is a lot better but I've learned how to cope with it much better. Thank you for checking on me.
My life's been hell and I'm 52 I'm probably the oldest person that likes this. My divorce 12 years ago pushed me over the edge, still haven't recovered. Was locked up in the mental hospital for being suicidal. Just waiting to die.
Well Ron you are awesome for liking this music I'm sorry to hear about all the crap you're going through I want to die as well every day is just too much
no need to suicide... we all gonna die, death comes when its the time, but before dying we should suffer, you know we all deserve the worst for being humans..
I’m trying so hard to hide it. I’m trying so hard to be better. Not for me, cuz I stopped caring about myself for too long. I’m hiding it because I don’t wanna bother anyone. They will get angry, cuz they don’t understand. They think that I should be happy. It’s not an option to me. I’m so tired..
I get it my friend. This world is so dark, and only getting worse day by day. This music has a very special feel and mood to it, like someone gets it. There's just not much understanding for people like us anywhere, but I just go with it and this stuff is therapy in of itself. 😂😂 It's not entirely hopeless tho! Even if Depressive Black Metal is that hope.
ugh, the intro. Donnie Darko is one of my favorite movies of all time. when i first watched that scene, i had to pause the movie because i just had a breakdown.
I was crying and I found this. We are all in this... depression may took lives but we stand here with our bold soul. Sending hope to everyone maybe it's cliché.
am i the only one who is not totally depressed and still likes this music? like ive been through shit man, i am 18 now. my whole childhood my dad would beat my mom and talk about how he never wanted us and was addicted to hard drugs and started getting in fist fights with me when i was in 7th grade. when i was 16 during my jr. year of highschool i lost my mind and was sent to the mental hospital and diagnosed with schitzofrenia. the first time i went was for 2 months, then i had to go back one other time for 2 weeks. when i got out only one person hmu to see how i was and that was my "best friend" i would literally think that people were mking fun of me whenever they laughed, and at certain times would get the overwhelming feeling that people wanted to kill me. i got extremely depressed. and i would have delusions, one time i thought i was evil and that my dad was satan and i was the antichrist. at one point i thought satan wanted me to killmyself and would come home everyday after school and put a knife to my throat but the blade was too dull. i finally got better after 1 1/2- 2 years, but by that time my "best friend" was ignoring me and would only hmu when he needed weed. apparently i was too crazy and unstable for him. nobody ever hmu to hangout anymore, or even just to see how i was doing. but like ive gotten better now, i have a job, im going to a community college and i have an amazing girlfriend. so im not really depressed, im actually really happy! yet i still like this kind of music lol. just wanted to know if anyone feels the same way about not being totally depressed all the time and still liking this music, but felt i had to say all that other stuff lest i be called ignorant or a pussy
I feel you. My parents left me when i was a kid, i lived with my grandma, and i was bullied in School. Then, at 11 i came to live with my negligent mother who was married with a abusive dude who did terrible things to her and threat me like shit. I was sex. abused at 15, he never got caught, he was rich. Then i met my first boyfriend who beats and hurt me for one year until i left that psyco... At that time i was already thinking about killing myself. Until i met him two years ago. And he is the best thing that ever happened to me. He healed me and he heals me everyday. I dont know If all of my wounds will be healed Someday..... I dont know If my depression will dissappear one day... I have the same age as you and here in Brazil things work different about college... So i'm not in college yet, i will work hard that year and maybe next year... Idk. I hope you never feel that way again, Joe. May this depression never hunt you again. I listen to this sometimes, when i feel like shit.
I love this kind of music and im not depressed but i have been before. I feel people dont connect to this music as strong or as easily, if they havent been depressed in their lives before. But im really glad youre doing good man, its not easy to get out of messed up situation like you did. You sound like a pretty badass dude! Take care!
Familiar no I've had depression in highschool when I discovered this type off music 26 now hippy as can be with a family but still come back when I get alone time its awkwardly peaceful
Im having a Major Depressive Episode, this song comforts me, if i were to end my life, id have this song on repeat so itd be playing when they found me and id leave a note that said "please play this song at my funeral....thank you :)"
my dog died today... we got him as i was 6 years old and now i am 21. We played every day as kids with him. Later he was with us in the garden every time.. when we worked and done firewood, make food ouside.. he was every time with us. 15 years... Such a friendly dog guys... i cant believe it.. i hope you are doin good guys, i am not. Good that i know happy days. Finaly we euthanized him. It was the best.. he looked for help as the doctor came to him. he wanted to run away but he cant even walk... i hold his hand. I would never cry for human scum, but this dog guys... my whole live he was with me.. as child i ate icecream with him.. now we killed him! maybe he could live some more weeks. he dont wanted to die... i saw it in his eyes.. he wanted that i help him from the doctor :( What a fucking shit, why i talk this to you guys.. i hope someone can feel with me, because i have no one to talk.. my girlfriend left me too, my family left me since some years, i have no friends, i have nothing..may i should jump from the next bridge. The best is if i drive into the next tree and finish this shit.. nothing left in tthis shit life
Psalm 42:11 📖 Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God.🙇❤❤❤🙌🙌🙌 📖📖📖😇 Jesus is your savior hun. He has come today to bring you hope and salvation. He extends His arms to reach yours, reach yours out as well and hold on tight. He has come to tell you this, I love 💕 you my child and I will never leave you nor forsake you “ Believe in Me and trust in Me for I am faithful. You are beautiful and special to me for I created you with my own hands. I see your tears and I feel your pain , You are not alone I am so close to you as your shadow is and even if you feel lonely and unloved, you are not, My love embraces you And I have come to give you hope and a future Amen I hope this brings you some hope and strength. Listen to the voice of God There is hope Find a church that teaches the Holy Bible , sound doctrine and be part of that family. You can help many that are in despair and helplessness. You can be their angel - So Head up high for salvation has come to your home ! ❤Whoever is reading this receive this message for you as well. Never give up God hears n cares and helps you ❤ you are loved. You are special you are His. Read scriptures on your phone. Download the Bible app and begin your loving journey with your Heavenly Father. Many blessings to you 🙇♀️🙇❤❤❤📖📖🙌🙌♥️♥️🙌😇😇 Love you
I understand all that and it akes my Heart!i Hope you are better now;My Cat died in my Arms after 21 years! 😢I have two Cats and every day im scared when the day come to let them go! sorry for my english and hugs from Germany ❤
I don't listen to this genre because I actually like it, I often listen to it because for somehow it allows me to "think" or get reflexive points about some situations. I'm alone tho, I can empathize with the message of all these bands and songs wants to deliver. If someone is reading this, for real I hope you get better, soon or later, preferently soon. I would give some piece of advaice or stuff like that, but we are in the same position, all I can say is "Good luck, be strong as long as you can, try your options over and over again, at least you could say that you tried it". Anyway, see you in other moment, I hope so. Be strong
Back listening again. My mother committed suicide when i was a year old, my dad was shot to death by the police during a confrontation in 2006, i believe it be suicide by a cop. Some times i feel like because of how hard my life has been....i should utilize this teaching of my parents. Self harm....thoughts of my own suicide....songs about death and suicide make me feel closer to my parents. Love you Mom and Dad, hope to join you soon ❤
This is what I listen to at full volume and smile at people who pass my little desk in my little corner in a little office and just smile at those who pass by as I wonder what there skull would look in my little room in the little apartment in my little town in the middle of nowhere and that little smile
@@PiroKUSS okay so I'm guessing that you know the person or people producing this enjoyable arrangement but I was overly curious about the piece and find it very provoking in the sense of sounds to paint to a catalyst for creativity in another medium I hope I didn't offend you with my unoriginal sarcastic reply. now go take a nap wake up and restart your though process oh by the way kyuss is a worthy listen you seem young so many facets of self expression I appreciate them all.
@@PiroKUSS oh there you are miss or Mr of the macabre lift the veil over you expose yourself to reveal your cynical self anger is good righteous is a flaw were all the same things time changes if time was real you are the only one to determine your reality nothing real everything has been predetermined for you and you have to determine your truth everyone has their own be brave enough to see what reality is its nothing its like trying to catch air with a butterfly net .
Definitely way to slow to be black metal releases the demons in all quickens the process thrashing about running screaming depressive metal keeps the veil over all of us who experience mental health issues as defined by society which us being who we are embrace your unique qualities don't except labels express yourselves in positive ways painting watching clouds listening to birds sing hearing wind blowing leaves in a natural cadence the song of life you only can hear
I left to hear this kind of music, because my mother had cancer, she was able to recover of it, and she is still living with me, so I spend more time with her, for some reason I'm back here listening this type o music again
I have failed in everything I've tried and I know I will fail even in the things I would really love to achieve. Up to this point, I have realised that my life is made up of nothing else than mistakes after mistakes, no matter how much I've try to do my best efforts. That's why I will never be happy, but I just have to resign myself to this reality, to never have more illusions, to never expect to nothing else but to failures, to be always a fucking loser in everything. So, to be honest, I thought this was just a exaggeration from the teenager me, but no, the suicidal thoughts have come back. However, I'm not an idiot adolescent who would undoubtfully kill himself without considering the consequences on the ones who still love you. And that's the reason why I haven't even tried it, since it would be the best for me, but not for my family nor my nearest friends, and especially for my little brother. I do not want to spread all this sorrow to them, I do not want them to suffer and even feel gulty for a death which wasn't caused for them, but no one else than me. So, I will keep just living and try to focus all my efforts on my little brother, and when he is an independent adult I will know that that will be my signal to finally rest in peace. If you have reached this sentence, thank you for reading me.
every time I listen to this song, I feel like my chest get heavy and I get overwhelmed with sadness. I don't know how to explain it, it's weird. Like the only way I can explain it, it feels like nothing but static in my chest and my head isn't clear, just full of dark clouds of thoughts of the past.
This is called melancholia i guess. It's hard to explain, maybe emptiness. I'm trying to avoid BDSM lately because It makes me want to kill myself haha i still listen to bands like Agalloch tho.
I thought it was pretty emo myself, but the music itself does grow on your because you bands like Happy Days, Trist, Lifelover, and Psychonaut 4, that don't do this shit for attention. You can hear the pain in the music and voice, that's what makes it good.
I'm happy with your improvement, brother! I wish all the great things to you. 💖 Depression is such a hard thing to live with, you are very strong to keep fighting, we are!
Знаете, жизнь ощущается совсем по другому с такими песнями. В плане, одновременно тебе приятно от такой музыки, и одновременно грустно, на душе печаль. Ты понимаешь, что жизнь не является простой вещью, она сложна и коварна. Тем, кто был ужасным человеком, в будущем достается всё самое лучшее, а добрым, с хорошим сердцем, не остается ничего. У них по факту ничего нет, они пусты внутри
So I was been years in deep Depressionen..but today I live with knowing of god is everything, god is in me ..god is the universe..life out there just reflects you what is in you ..mirroreffect...so today I can stand bad or dark time better n faster ..I am on spiritual way.. I Deal with things differently..so today I would say I am rather go with the flow n the light🤍🙏👁 But I still enjoy my dark feelings when they come up n Listen music like this🖤🙏👁🐺👽👈🏼💫💫💫🕳god bless you all
I've been wishing to die since 8 yo, now I'm 23 and I cannot wait more, the 90% of the day I'm thinking about kms but I think I would never be so brave to do it... Well, at least not sobber.
24/7 thinking bout kms im turning 18 in like 3weeks and I'm so done with everything. It wouldn't come this far if my family wouldn't be trash but it is what it is..dealing with bpd, depression, anxiety, (childhood)trauma..what is the sense of living? Anyways, I hope ur ok and keep going xx
i've wanted to be alone for a good portion of my life. but we humans as a species are social creatures. once you're finally alone like you've wanted, you'll start wanting people around again.
I am not here to make you consider life over suicide/death, i am here to tell you that life will always be hard and unjust. I discovered that only animals can truly love you, the real you, and people are not all bad. This may sound weird or unfit for this video/category, but the entity we all call God always has a weird plan. I help people and animals, i meet them along my way and they seem to need my help. DSBM helps me realizing that life, in its futility and and confusion, in darkness and despair, has a meaning. For each of us. The truth and meaning of life is different for each of us.
i love dsbm man i really do it just helps me kinda to understand myself better tbh.. i have a hard time identifying what i feel and listening to those lyrics just gets my head a lil clearer and sometimes it just sounds too fimilar- as said it helps me understand my feelings and intuitions
Adoro como a intro se entrelaça perfeitamente com a música, ganhando uma atmosfera ainda mais melancólica... O mais irônico, é que a música fala sobre solidão, e quando a ouço não me sinto tão sozinho.
Im desperate for another reason to live longer than life, i’ve failed myself and everything i have been living up towards. Thus it is my fault isnt it??? I hate thats what i have to deal with now, i hate everybody for not being there for me when i needed them to. Desperate times come fpr desperate measures and like i said once before i truly am desperate. Ive been crying to you for too long it’s starting to eat me up from the inside. My heart doesnt even beat anymore like it did when i was with you. Every fucking day i am reminded of your face, and how do i get rid of it. The thoughts drive me crazy, like how we were crazy in love that one time hahahah remember tht???? Do you remember that? Please tell me your listening and my voice isnt just echoing across an empty corridor. I want you, i need you. You need me!!!!!!!!!!!! You really need me. Let the laugh track play and i step one foot onto a stool and slip my neck into the noose that will bring me back to life. I have always wondered what heaven looks like, as the lights come closer i will find out. The angels sings such beautiful songs while they ride their white horses across a blissful waterfall. The sounds of war is something i will always remember but i also cant wait to forget. I wont have to deal with all these negative parts of life anymore, im finally happy!!! But happiness dosent mean anything when youre not living it. So be it.
"It gets better from here, just breathe", Novembers Doom. I'm so sorry for what you've been trough, if you want to talk, i'm here to listen! When you open your heart things get better.
Things don't get better when you open your heart you only leave room for someone to shatter your heart strings holding things together. It's better to just hold. It all in and rot inside till you are a husk and feel nothing. I hope soon I feel nothing.
Is there no hope? I'm inside of a hole I can't leave, it's all dark here. What is the point of living, then? That's what I've been searching all of this pathetic life, I still don't find it, but even if I know I will probably not be happy in this complete isolation, I still try, sticking to my desire to finally get out of this hole. Perhaps this hole is just the reality, is just the world... If that's the case, my life is done and I will die alone, as I always used to be.
There is hope. I found my hope in the pain, the most painful thing i've ever felt. Life can be chaotic and beautiful, you just need to find your reason to exist, even if it's just pain, sometimes that's all we got.
donnie, o que a roberta disse pra você? ela disse que toda criatura viva da terra morre sozinha e como isso fez você se sentir? me lembrou minha cachorrinha kelly, ela morreu quando eu tinha 8 anos, ela se rastejou até a varanda pra morrer? pra ficar sozinha você se sente sozinho nesse momento? eu acho, eu gostaria de acreditar que não, mas eu não tenho a prova disso, então eu só não discuto mais, você entende? tipo, eu poderia passar toda minha vida discutindo sobre isso, de novo e de novo pesando os prós e os contras, e no final eu ainda não tenho prova nenhuma disso, então eu só não discuto sobre isso mais é absurdo a busca por deus é absurda? é se todo mundo morrer sozinho isso não te assusta? eu não quero ser sozinho
Can't believe i found this again this song has an impact on my life, my scars are healed now but will never be gone i found this song when i was 14 this song healed ny scars because instead of doing it again i listen to this until i fall asleep i still remember everything how my dad hated this song because i kept repeating it on the bathroom but yea im 19 now and this song always feel the same
Ive accepted my fate, Im destined to die alone. And with the way Ive been treated in my life Im ok with it. Not like it will matter anyways because I plan on ridding myself of this world. No more pain, no more anger, no more self hatred. Im currently 34 and I think 35 is long enough. Ive seen enough of this world
My depresion si hard.. the pain is no away i try my best to comfor but my family no see...! Im really try but everyone hate hate me hate ! only hate i always try to push and be myself through this day and see my personality change in the second of the tryingness.. Im try mental but i cant hold anymore... I dont even know anymore im so sad... Im so pain I want to die...
So sorry to hear about your dad. I'm doing much better about my divorce. It took me a long time to forgive my ex. But I finally saw that it was only hurting me. I was suffering and she didn't give a rats ass. It still hurts, especially since it seems like she has everything she ever wanted and I lost everything. But the hardest part is that she turned my only child against me. My daughter doesn't care about me at all. She got engaged and the only way I found out was by looking at her Facebook page. I'm really sorry about your Dad. I can't even imagine what you've been through. I attempted suicide a couple times but I'm kinda glad I failed at it. I know if I ever did it would kill my Mom. She's helped me get through a lot of BS in my life.
are you still here. if you see this message please answer. i hope u are feeling better now. and if not, just know that you will get out of all that shit at some point.
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