you gotta respect this man for posting NF beats every day for the past 5 years or so I remember trying to freestyle on your NF beats years ago when I was like 13 or something 😂
This is insane!! Did you make this last night for the live steam, I thought you were doing a Spanish style song? Also, someone wanted a turn the music up beat, and you told them to remind you, I don’t know if they did, so I thought I should. Great beat again
verse 1: i remember seeing my mom break down on the bedroom floor i’ll never forget that day christmas 2016, i was nine i remember when i fell off the porch i didn’t fall, i jumped, tried to hurt myself that time you see i live life unforgiven i think i got that from daddy’s anger when he came back from the army something changed within em’ *yeah* trauma built up it might resurface so let me show you behind the curtain all the demons left unspoken might of lead to this moment hook: why why do i fake to to your face when i know i can’t shake off the all the pain i wish i could erase all of my shame i might never change i can’t shake the pain verse 2: since 12 i tried to shake it like it was some dirty clothing thinking if i wash up on it i can just change the color make it back to how it was but thats not how problems work i’ve always tried to talk about it but i thought it would make it worse i was 16 when i was driving to my house, my little called me saying mama and dad were loud and he wanted out things were thrown and he didn’t know how else he could help he was 10 i told him to settle down next weeks we’re living hell dad was out of the house the worst part about that time was the fact my moms soul had died i wasn’t gonna take a side but it felt like that’s what they wanted this time i was walked into the room, saw my moms balling eyes she had her purse with pills inside of it, and i knew a gun was to the side i didn’t cried i knew i had to hide it i had to think fast in that situation i was 16, imagine the pressure building! verse 3: thank god they got their issues solved but this trauma still on the wall i love them with all my heart but there will always be a part that might just hold resentment whenever i feel some tension i get nervous, body itching it’s the trauma kicking in my system
