He’s Gone. I Tried. I’m SORRY. 

Yesterday, after taking my husband’s service dog (and our fur baby) to the vet, what I thought was a sprained leg, the X-ray revealed the cruel truth. Aggressive bone cancer. Little did I know yesterday was my last day with him. Life throws us so many heart-breaking journeys. Having to say good bye is so difficult. I said good bye to my husband three years before when he passed away. Now his service dog. Coming back to my house yesterday, I sat here totally alone and in silence wondering why God would allow this. Truth is, I don’t know, but I do know I trust God. So I’ll wait until the day we are reunited again. Time is the most precious gem we are given. Don’t waste it. I also know as a Christian I am allowed to weep with sorrow. But I do not sorrow in hopelessness. I sorrow with hope that I know I will see my husband again someday!

My daughter just sold a beautiful horse because she just couldn't connect with her after 2 years. Don't beat yourself up. You did the right thing.

I’m so sorry Melissa💔😢 sending hugs to you all!

What a tough call to make, but you clearly made a thoughtful decision in spite of the emotional difficulty. Brought tears to my eyes seeing you struggle with the reality of saying goodbye to a loved member of your family's world. Then I smiled watching you help your daughter get ready for a big life event - the realization that it was your very strong maternal instinct that drove your decision and the same instict that brought you out of the sadness to share in this special moment with your daughter was not lost on me, even though I do not have children or a pet at this point.

Sadness is understandable, but ‘sorry’ as an apology is unnecessary, dearest Melissa. No one sane can doubt that you did all that could be done. Wisdom is evident in acknowledging the facts and doing the right thing. ❤

Your gift to Coda was enormous. Sometimes we have to let go of what we love, so they can become what they are destined to be.

Thank you for doing the right thing for Coda (the horse) and for your family. Such a hard balance and yet, so healthy.

I’m so sorry you had to rehome koda, I’m sure he went to a great person and He will be loved . I am glad the kids will feel safe now .

You did your best! Our children come first animals second! I am sure his home will suit him better. Be kind to yourself!🙏🙏🙏Blesssing’s

I haven't even finished watching this video but I want you to know you have no reason to apologize to anyone for living your life. Keep on driving on!

You did a very good living thing for Koda. She will be giving him what he was not able to get at your home place. These tough decisions are also the most worthwhile ones. You did it completely out of love for your little red horse. I am very proud of you. 🙏❤️🐎🇺🇸

I've had horses my whole life. And I've been around some that were really great and some that weren't. I'm so glad to see not only the love you have for your children and their safety, but you're practical approach to handling the situation. You're a really good mom and you take very good care of your kids in every way! The world needs more mom's like you!

Don't ever feel like you have to apologize to your viewers for a decision you thought through over a very long time. This is your life, your kids' lives that count not out. Always be safe 🙏 ❤️

You did everything you could and gave him a chance. You have to make sure your kids (and yourself) are safe.

I am so sorry about Koda. I know you loved him and only wanted the best for him. Knowing he went to a good home and will be loved is comforting. We love you guys and the kids saying goodbye was so touching. ❤❤❤

You brought together someone's happiness. Koda's new owner would not have the joy they have now if it hadn't been for you and the love your family gave Koda.

Thanks for the video. I had no intentions of crying today but I guess I needed it. Just remember, Mama Bear. You will spend your entire existence protecting your cubs. You did the right thing. You are a mighty protector and even mightier warrior. Chin up. You got this.

Everything happens for a reason - you all are fantastic ❤

Oh sweetie you owe no apologies! I'm so sorry the day arrived that you were hoping wouldn't need to be necessary! Big hugs to your family! Hopefully Koda does well at his new place.

Nevaeh looked so pretty on her prom dress! And its great that Kaimani is spending more time helping dad.. those are the greatest lessons and the best memories

Hugs friends! Man, you again come through showing a great example for the way to care well for the animals we are responsible for. We had to make a tough decision concerning our two dogs a little while ago and it was rough. Still hurts honestly but they trust us to make sure they are safe and happy. Thank you for sharing your decision with us. Koda has been a lucky horse with you and looks like he’ll be well loved where he’s headed.

You did the right hard thing. He needed intense training and conditioning. Your children's safety must come first. Hugs. I'm crying with you.

Melissa - i was crying with you ,but you made the right decision for your families safety 💖 the build is coming along nicely 😉 Nevaeh looks so pretty & Prom such a fun time 🌷 the barbecue looked delicious 😋 have a nice weekend 🙏🇺🇲

I think my favorite part of your channel is watching the kids grow up with hard working parents and the kids participating in the build. Awesome 👏

I can't stop crying after seeing your story today. When I moved to San Francisco 20 years ago, I had my dog with me. She'd been with me for 9 years. I didn't have a place to live that allowed dogs, and arranged a share with a gal who had a yard for a dog. Eventually, I had a place to keep my dog with me, but at that same time, the gal I shared her with was diagnosed with cancer. I couldn't take my dog away from her in that difficult time and chose to let her keep my dog as her own. They'd already spent a year together, and it was was best for her and my dog. The right thing to do can so be the saddest, most difficult thing to do.

Beautiful photography! Opening night sky - clouds etc. Hard to let Koda go - but you did the right thing. Your sadness will fade as you enjoy watching the kids with Debbie - safely. Bless you guys.

I'm very sorry you had to make such a tough decision. That segment wasn't easy to watch but I'm sure it was even harder to go through for you and your family.

I cried with you and don’t ever be sorry for feeling sad. We all know you gave Coda the best that you could possibly could. You did the right thing for him and your family. I’m sure he will be well taken care of. ❤ On another note, Neveah looks absolutely gorgeous for her prom!! You guys have a fabulous week! ✨

You did the right thing. It's amazing you found someone who bonded with him so quickly. Coda deserves to be accepted for who he is and to have a person he feels safe with. The new owner knows the situation with Coda and still wants him. Sounds like it was meant to be.

Awe, Melissa, sending hugs for this very difficult decision! I’m sure with the love and training you provided, Koda has a good foundation to be an awesome horse for the right person! Nevaeh, such a beautiful young lady! I hope her prom night was positively memorable!

Seeing Coda leave in the trailer brought tears to my eyes, and I only watched him develop and bring happiness to so many. It's a sad day when we say goodbye to someone or something we've become attached to. I'm sure his new life will be just as wonderful as the life ya'll gave him. Love ya'll ❤️

Melissa, although this was a hard decision to make, it takes courage and selflessness to do what you did. You put Coda first and that speaks volumes. I hope others learn from this and do what is right by the horse no matter the circumstances. You have a beautiful heart.

Brought tears to my eyes saying goodbye to Koda was not easy but the correct decision for all involved. Melissa you have the good memories of Koda and you know that he will be well taken care of in his new home. Jeremy what a good father making sure that you involved your two young men in the job of building and the skills Khiamani will be able to use as he grows up into being a father and provider for his family. Nevaeh looks so beautiful for Prom Night and the looker she had taking her to the prom is so heartwarming they are growing up so fast but they so well brought up. I can't see because my eyes are raining tears of joy and sadness at the same time. Life is so short but the wonderful times make up for that. Thanks Jeremy and Melissa for sharing your ups and downs with us. Have a blessed week.

Oh, gosh, it’s so difficult to let go of our so beloved furry friends. God knows our sorrow and pain. I’m proud of you Melissa for facing what you had to do….

Take comfort in knowing that you made the right (although difficult) decision regarding Koda. Congratulations to Nevea on her prom!! As always, thanks for taking us along on your journey.

You did the best you could. It's sad and heartbreaking, but it's going to be better for everyone. Hopefully the trainer can work with him and get him where he beeds to be. ❤❤❤❤

I feel your sadness, I said goodbye to my horses 40 years ago and it was heartbreaking. I know they were going to a good home. Thank you for sharing Codas new adventure. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Oh Melissa my heart hurts for you. I understand how hard it was to let Koda go ( I could see the pain in your face and was tearing up watching you) but I believe you made the right decision. You have absolutely nothing to apologize for! Putting your family first is always the right decision. Koda will get a new start which will be good for him and especially the kids will be able to be completely at peace with the horses that you have. Neveah looks absolutely beautiful!!! I have to say that the look on Eli's face when Jeremy said they would be sifting poop was priceless! Y'all have a great week and may the Lord bless you abundantly above all that you could ask or think!

It’s amazing how bonded you can get to an animal. But hopefully he will be in a good situation for him. Hugs sent for your grieving.

I'm sitting here holding back the tears. Mama, you made the right decision out of love for all but especially Koda. It sounds like he will be in good hands and get the extra attention he really needs. He is a beauty and I, too, was hoping you could make this work for you and kiddos. You really did try your hardest,, you gave it 200%. What you did for Koda, your family, and for yourself is a true sign of how deep and strong a mama's love can flow. Your tears and sadness are proof of your love for all. Sending you hugs from Az admirer.❤

Melissa, you did the right thing for your horse but especially for your family. Horses as you know are wonderful but so many people forget what a 1,000-pound horse can do to a person, and quickly. Keep up the good work raising your family and building a better future. Thanks for sharing! J.R.

There is no need to apologize Melissa-We watched you with Coda since the day he arrived at your homestead-you did your best with him as with all your animals, sometimes things just do not work out, no matter how hard you try. He's going to a good home-you made sure of that. Coda will always be in your memories-hold on to that. Love you guys and have a great week 🐎🐎

As someone who has dealt with over 380 horses in my life, I can assure you that you did the right thing for your safety and especially for your children. Horses, dogs are like people: not all are safe. A 1200 lb horse certainly isn't safe when it has issues.

I know that was so hard to give up your little red horse, but you did the right thing for you and your family. Love your channel, I love watching your family and how you guys work together.

In my heart I know you didn’t make this decision lightly. You did what you felt was the right thing for Koda and your family. No apology needed.❤

Great progress on the garage/apt! Life is a journey. More good times than bad, more happy days than sad. Keep the faith. Carry on.

And I forgot to add as always what an amazing mom you are!!! Bravo🎉 Navaeh was so beautiful ♥️ I hope she had a wonderful time.😊

You are doing right by him, and that’s the most important part of this whole thing. You absolutely made the right decision, and by you letting go of him you are allowing him to have an amazing life ❤️

Another wonderful episode Melissa. Watching your oldest daughter grow up becoming a beautiful young woman is a joy. Coda is gone enriching some family. Think positive.

Sitting here crying...Hugs and prayers to your family. My favorite show on You Tube!

You absolutely did the right thing. It was your thigh but it could have been a child’s head! You are all very brave and good hearted making sure your lovely horse went to a good home. X

I’m so sorry that Coda couldn’t adjust to life with your family. It’s really hard sometimes to do what’s right. You’re a great mom.

So sorry about Koda. Safety is first. Nevaha looked beautiful for her prom. Yes, this video made me cry. Keep doing what you're doing!

Sad to see Coda go but you did what was best for everyone. May he have a long happy life with his new family. Neveah looks beautiful. Thanks for sharing.

Wowzers. It will be ok. Sorry to see Koda leave. Ya'll have the pony. Always excited for more activities & videos. Take care stay safe. Till next time. 🫠😋🤓👋

I'm sorry for Coda's moving on, but you know the situation best. Love and hugs! Prayers for health, comforting hands to envelope you, and safety for you and the family!!!🙏❤🙏

What an amazing heart you have, Melissa. Big hugs to you and your family.

You gave Koda a wonderful home and family to grow with. Now is the next stage of his growing and learning. You and your family did right by him. You shouldn't feel sorry, you are allowing Koda to bless another person and family with his love as well!! I sat here and cried even though I knew it was for the best. He is special for sure!

You chose what was best for the horse and your family, although decisions like that are hard they are necessary. Hopefully your children’s experiences around the other two horses will all be positive and you will all feel more safe.

now that your sheeting is mostly done there is a trick to putting it up which might be helpful. take a 2x4 and a door hinge. screw the hinge to the top of the 2x4, and the other end to the top-center sheet. This way, when you set the sheet in place, the 2x4 works as a kick stand against the ground, and the sheet can't fall backwards while you reposition to nail it. It's not ideal, but when you're working by yourself, it'll drastically help.

You did all you possibly could for him, but the startle kick out is so dangerous to any of you x Much love !! xx

Just know you did the right thing for that little red horse. It hurts, but you did all you could for him. I had tears with you knowing the hurt you are going thru. I love my animals as family also. Love to you all.

Aww my heart broke for you saying goodbye to Koda. Exactly what you said “it what’s best but doesn’t make it easy”. You made the best decision and there is nothing to apologize for. Also as mother myself your role in your children’s lives is showing them the good and the bad. Nevaeh looked absolutely beautiful and your touches to hair we’re stunning! All your children are growing up and learning what is means to be productive and responsible. I can’t tell you how much that means in this world. ❤

I’m so sorry for your pain. It’s obvious how much you all love your animals.

You two are amazing parents. 🥰

Love your video's, I look forward to the weekend just to see how well Gabby is going. you have a lovely family. I am crying with you for Coda.

You made the right decision for the whole family saying your goodbyes to Koda was so touching you now have memories to make with your pony you make family friendly great content. P.S Neava looked beautiful

Melissa you done the right thing! No one needs an unstable horse around their children. So he’ll get more training with more experienced riders. So feel like you made the right decision for not only your family but for him also. 😊👍🏼

You made the best decision for Coda, as hard as it was, and for your family. You are a very strong woman and never forget that, please. God Bless you. Gabby is coming along great too.

I was crying seeing Koda go. 😢 I Hope we can still see some updates how Koda is doing in his new home! ❤

Navia and her date made such a handsome, happy couple. You did a great job helping her. So beautiful. I'm sure they had a great time. That was some healing happiness.

After going through something similar last year, I learned that you have to think of the animal first, which sometimes involves doing what you don't want to do and instead doing what is best for the animal. You did the right thing. Sometimes things just don't work out. You did what was best for Koda, and it was the responsible thing to do, which makes you a great horse owner in my eyes. It's gut-wrenching, I know--I still sometimes cry over my girl--but I know she's happy in her new home, and her new people are giving her what I couldn't.

As long as your horse has a good home that all matters. I hope you are able to keep in touch with the new owners and exchange the videos or meet in person in future. Hope he is happy there.

We've had about 15 horses over time. As a little girl, all I wanted was a horse - never thought I would have one, let alone 15. Everyone of them is unique. I totally understand how you're feeling, but you should be easier on yourself. You've made the right decision. Sending hugs.

I'm so sorry. I can feel and see the love there. You did what you felt was best. God bless you. Koda will be ok. Maybe you can stay in touch too. Hugs and blessings.

I'm so sorry it didn't work out for Koda, but for the safety of you and your family it was the right decision. Thankful an answer to your prayers was a kind new owner. God bless!

So heart wrenching. I'm sure the lady will love him and he'll be in a safe place.

Good spirits don't want to hurt others. You saved Coda from his own pain of striking out in fear--not to mention the paramount task we all have, protecting the family. I'm so glad you didn't set an example of resignation or stuckness. On a lighter note, what a lovely moment for you, Mama, sending your girl off to prom. How well I remember. Carpe diem all you can!

Sometimes the hardest decisions are the best decisions for our family. No apologies, thank you for loving him and giving him a wonderful home and trying all you could. Then as hard as it was, making the best decision for him and your family. We send well wishes to him and his new owner. Great progress on Gabby.

😊Love that you found him a new home. You truly are a great family, and it didn’t work out. Wish you luck 🍀 in getting a replacement horse. They really are the best animals. Some times it works, sometimes it doesn’t. 😊

Sounds like God was at work. And your acceptance of it and the care your show for both your family and Koda is remarkable. It is great to watch a Christian family handling situations with grace.

Big, big hugs. It's a good change for both, but like you recognize it is not an easy change and there is still loss and grief. I hope Koda has a wonderful new family and life. I will pray that your loss and grief is gentle. ❤ To you all.

what i love about you guys is that youinclude all your familys activitys, kids included. it is nice to see kids actually playing or trying out fisical activtys instead of 24/7 on the games and phones. so nice to see. thats why i love your channel and content. keep it up guys, fantastic.

Sending so much love your way. Making those hard decisions for your family, that's what moms and dads do. It's a tough job and it isn't for everyone. You handled it with grace and undeniable respect for Koda. May he find safety and happiness in his new home. Prayers and love for you all

I really enjoy watching your shows. They're very artfully produced.

Sad that Coda needs to go, but with the young kids you cannot have a horse that is unpredictable on the property. Tough decision but the right one.

As someone who has owned horse’s most of my life I applaud you doing the right thing. It still is sad though to have to rehome an animal you are attached to

You took the right decision, these are not easy, but you were the one who knew what was the best for your animal and family regarding Koda. When we are close to our animals we feel and know what are the best decision even if is hard one. Sending you good vibes and support.

It was a hard decision but the right thing for him. Big hugs to you all xx

I'm so sad for Coda and I knew it was coming the day you mentioned Kiara fell down a couple of times. I know we can take every hardship on ourselves but when it comes to our loved ones, nothing matters except their safety.

you have made the toughest but best decision any animal owner makes - for the good of the horse. I hope you get regular updates and pics from the new owners xxx

Oh darn it! You made me cry! I don’t cry watching videos, ugh, usually. We had to do this with my daughter’s horse and it brought all of that sadness back. Nevaeh looked beautiful.

Incredible amount of work done each week. Hard decisions, tearful choices and memories abound lead us to what is right for our family. From tears of sorrow to tears of joy with Neveah each moment finds its place in our heart where it’s kept safe and sound. You’re family is what most families strive for.

Awww was sad also to see Koda rehomed. 😢 No one could or should second guess your decision. We subs know how much you loved him and no doubt was gut wrenching decision. He will be missed in vlogs ❤ Knowing how much you loved him, every confidence you know he will be going to a good new home. 🤗🤗 hugs Melissa ❤ Ms.Nevaeh looked absolutely stunning for her prom. Beautiful Hawaiian princess ! Making more beautiful family memories. Blessings to your entire family. Stay safe, be well :)

You are his tribe and his energy will always be bonded with yours. You did the best for him ❤.

I send you a hug. I wish all the best for Koda. Your daughter was beautiful on Prom night. You did what you felt was needed. ❤

Capturing the kids with water balloons and Bubbles was so sweet. I remember a time when I had to give up a dog for the safety of the grand kids. Heart breaking but nessasary. You did well momma!

Well that was a tear jerker! When I saw the headline I thought you had lost Kenji :( . I was DREADING watching that! So moving on Koda to pastures green was a relief..! And as for Nevaeh! Wow.. she looked amazing! Gonna break some hearts that Girl!❤

God bless y’all for giving the little red horse a try. Not all of our ideas pan out. It does make us better for the experience though.

Awe I'm so sorry you had to let Coda go. 😔 he will be OK and I'm sure he will always remember all of you ❤️. Hope you feel better soon 💜 ❤️ 💕. Naveah looks beautiful 😍