I’m going to be 100% serious. When she said “he was my Mr. Bean” I started crying. That’s the most personal heartwarming thing I’ve heard in one of these videos
Mr Bean is easily one of my most memorable movie character. Especially the end soundtrack for bean: the movie, feel like I'm never going to see my favorite junior high school homeroom teacher who passed away after 8-9 years of friendship. Now you could understand too why this guy cries at this video's mr bean part
I know what it's like to attempt suicide, and hearing what her son went through really resonated with me. I didn't want to die either, but when you reach that point, you don't think that there's any other way to escape the torture that life feels like. Most depressed people sleep a lot, and there's often a misconception that they don't have the desire to do anything else, which can be true in some cases, but it's often because when you're asleep, you can finally feel free in a sense that you can escape the reality that makes you feel so horrible. Sleeping allows you to feel a sense of freedom after feeling trapped for so long, because you don't have to deal with all the things that make your reality so awful.
The pain will not end if you kill yourself. It gets worse in hell. God is the only one who can heal you. Look up John MacArthur or the audio bible on here.
@@puddleglummarshwiggle4236 Your words provide absolutely no comfort if that is your intention. Religion is definitely helpful for some to get through the pain, but you shouldn't be telling people they're going to hell for it. Please take a course in psychology to understand this is a chemical imbalance caused by either genetic, which is passed on from generation to generation, environmental, which can be trauma, genetic triggered by environment, it's not something spiritual.
@@begonestink2956 What's the point of comfort if you rot in hell for eternity? Reality is reality. You don't have to like it. Comforting lies are evil. Does it comfort a child when his mother spanks him when he did wrong? Does it feel comforting when a father makes his child do what was hard like learn to ride a bike, swim, or play an instrument or confess to lying or stealing? No - but those things bring goodness LATER. You all seem to want to comfort and ease someone into death. Coddle them at your own risk. God will judge.
Losing a child to suicide is heartbreaking, she's a strong mother, who really understands her child, I feel her pain, she felt her sons pain like a really good mother.
So at 19 ,this young man really couldn't handle his parents divorcing and his gf breaking up with him. This young man didnt even try to help himself. I somehow lived through 3 years of treatment for a disease that gave me full body nerve pain for the entire time. Then I got dependent on opioids which only made my physical pain so much worse. It was a kind of pain that left you screaming into pillows every day. I wanted to die because I was in profound physical pain. If anyone saw me thry wouldnt have blamed me if I died. Pain can be so unbearable. I have no life at all. She is correct. We dont want to end our life, we only want to end our pain. I lived. I somehow got through that and I didnt kill myself. If people really want to go, we have no choice but to let them. I only want to help people.now. And I do.
You are such a strong and brave lady. Your are making your life meaningful to help those at risks of suicide. I think Josh would be happy with what you are doing now. Keep going and saves lives!
Right, those comments about him being 'stupid' were from comments she saw online about news of his death. I don't know why they showed her face in the thumbnail by those words.
I wished my parents would think like this. Honestly I feel that Josh was so lucky to have a mom like you, understanding and willing to support. If only my parents weren’t so against me getting help, I would have gotten better and not have to struggle.
Depression and anxiety is really such an awful sickness..... no matter how much love or care you receive from others. It just cant take away the pain inside
Most people think that having depression and axienty is being dramatic.no one want to be like that.. that is so hard to fight and deal with ourself..the pain is just there..
@@erinphangmadusa6296 correct. And its so hard to tell each person’s level of depression or anxiety bcos it’s not visible 😞😞 i hope everyone can have a reason to keep going
Always keep check of your depression. What are the things that made you worried or can't stop thinking.. Maybe for a start, write down your resolutions for each matter and refer to your writings each time you start worrying. Chase away the Devil inside your mind that keep reminding of your issues.
@@erinphangmadusa6296 lol they don’t even know what the definition of dramatic so they just throw that words towards people who has depression when they don’t even know what’s going on with everyone’s life. They should just shut up before they get made fun of
“He never wanted to end his own life, he just wanted to end his pain.” I’ve never related to something more than that right there. I still struggle everyday. I just hope that one day I’ll look back and be happy that I fought through the darkness.
I love her for understanding as a mother. Most parents don't understand why their kids commit s****de and they blame the child but she's the type of person that can see 2 sides to a story. Rest easy, Josh
@@blallalaksksks6885 omg what your mom did to you is awful 😢 it sucks cause your childhood doesn't sound like childhood experience, i also used to think that acting like a kids is childish even when im also a kids at that time cause i have to be a perfect example of "good daughter" , do everything perfect in order to reach other ppl expectations cause i want ppl to be proud of me , yk when i was a kids i look ugly, im introvert, and I don't know how to interact with other kids and im not funny ,so being smart , obedience , and reliable is the only thing that i can do so ppl will notice my existence and start loving me , not knowing that my life will never get better cause now i will always try to live up to others expectations on me :') im so sorry that happen to you , i hope u be strong and not giving up , things may not be as good as you hope it will be rn but everythings will be alright for both of us , i hope you recovering from your depression and anxiety
@@blallalaksksks6885 your mom doesn’t understand what causes people to have depression or nobody has taught her about it. That’s offensive to people who has depression, you don’t become poor or be abandoned by your own family just be depressed. Many people have different situations in their life of what they struggles that made them become depression. Your mom need to learn that everyone has a disorder that involves with depression
@@BabyFungus whenever i tell her i have depression all she’s about is how we got money and could afford things ... would that make a person happy or anything?
i held on 22 years ago because of my mum. she made me promised not to ever think of suicide again. 6 months ago, she and my dad passed away due to covid, it was very heartbreaking. but my promise to my mum made me survived, stay strong ma'am..
God Bless You! XOXO You make your parents proud. You are such a brave person. I know it much easier to give up, but you are trooper. You will find purpose and life will get easier eventually
She is right about putting ourselves in someone's shoes. Never judge a person who is going through depression. I hope that she felt peace after all that horrifying incident. You are a strong woman.
It’s so hard to put one self in another person’s situation especially when it has to do with mental illnesses people might have no experienced. It’s easier to give condolences and really just say nothing.
@@nbaybbreastsaccount878 abhorrent comment. I know of someone who have lovely siblings and parents. They were supportive in every way.. but her condition didn't improve in the slightest. Unless you've gone through depression yourself, it's better to shut up.
I'm upset RU-vid deemed this video innapropriate. As a psych post-grad, I firmly believe topics like this need to be shared. And talked about more. It will help others who are suffering from Major Depression or other forms of mental illness. My heart goes out to the mother, a strong person for sharing us her story and her sufferings.
“he would be laughing when his playing on his computer games. not knowing that, he was only coping.” check up on everyone uk❤️ u might never know what their going through even thru their smiles and laughter.
@@eleonorazheleznova6481 although it is very easy to say this. Doing it is one of the most hardest thing you can imagine. Because at that moment when you could break down and just tell them your little hell. You look at their face and the normalcy which you don't have at the moment scares you. You yourself know how scary it is. Having your own personal hell so you decide not to. You decide to not add to the hidden stress they have in their life as well. You keep the pain to yourself. You know fake it till you make it is the mantra. No one wants to be a robot but passing on your pain atm feels so cruel you just can't. This lovely boy just wanted to fit in. And make sure his mom doesn't have to go though what he's going as well. Hence in the process of protecting her, he gave himself up. I don't think this was the only choice he had. But he died that day because he couldn't take it anymore. Just like his mom said. I don't blame him. The world is a scary and cruel place. Take it from someone who is a robot every day. It's very hard being alone. But the thought that my loved ones are not miserable like me conforts us. I know sometimes people themselves want to share your pain, but until someone tells them themselves you will not tell them. You need confirmation that the person who you are hiding from really wants to take your pain as well. By coping with this method we become both selfish and selfless at the same time. Selfish because we hide from our loved ones. And selfless because we saved them from the start. Now there is also one more thing. This process of becoming a robot is with everyone. And when you overcome it. You become an adult. So I hope everyone like me that is a robot overcomes the situation and becomes an adult.
As someone who’s attempted many times, If you know someone who’s battling and struggling with suicidal ideations, then all of a sudden they seem to be getting better, worry. that’s a *BIG* red flag. That kind of pain doesn’t just start to clear up suddenly, it takes A LONG time and A LOT of work to see *any* kind of improvement. I’m talking months or years. The red flag is that the reason they’re seemingly outwardly improving is most likely because they’re planning on acting upon an attempt and are at peace at the knowledge that their suffering will stop soon.
@@pajeetsinghThat short statement came across as rude, a bit cold hearted and detached from reality. When another person shared their experience and the red flag to look for, all you could think of is asking them who rejected them?! It sounded so passive aggressive as if you said “who hurt you” to a rude karen. I don’t know if you didn’t intend to sound that way or if I am reading too much into it, but I just had a very ill vibe from your comment.
Crazy how instead of thinking about the person who rejected him/her and how it can be fixed you are diverting your anger issues to a third person who tried to ask about who rejected him/her. If someone's rejection hurt you then you only know that person and may be sharing that with someone like "me asking" help make him/her better.@@HanTran-yi4sb
Me : I have depression My mom : WHAT? What things you've been worried? Stop overreact cuz you've been living good. Just praying to God, that's the only way.. don't make the evil influence you
I hope you are well, I’m sure many people can relate, try reach out to other family members or Teachers, they might be able to help and guide you on the right path.
I hope you’re feeling better now, and I hope you can convince your mom to take depression more seriously But she’s partially right, believing in God really helps in my case Been having suicidal thoughts but I convinced myself that committing suicide would be disrespecting God’s decision to make me stay alive
I honestly gotta say, this is the true shit rn. "God will help you" "You're having these problems bc youre not praying..." "Listen to the Quran {holy words/chant}" blabla.
I am going through the same journey as you Jenny. I lost my daughter when she was 23.only child. She also suicide. I am a single mum. Already 8 years now. I missed her a lot. I couldn't take it the pain I am going thru. But anyhow I overcome it by spiritual journey. Be strong Jenny. Everyone have their own journey. We accept whatever comes in our lives.
@@ampa4989This is a key point I feel a lot of people miss, particularly because it's a really really bitter pill to swallow. We won't ever be able to make everyone not an asshole.
What if he was an ass to her during their relationship? I'd answer the same way to certain people from my past (not my ex, she's aight) who have hurt me. I can't stand how she makes it seem like it's the gf's fault he commited suicide, it's the persons who commits suicide fault and only theirs. It's absolutely not fair to blame it on someone else.
@@anaplayz9534bro nobody is blaming her can you not understand? If she would just worded her rejection a bit better, it wouldn’t have harm Josh that deeply. Yes, I do think she is not the cause of his suicide, but she damn is the catalyst to his commitment.
@@juhghg3732 It appears surface understanding of the matter. Who wants to to take his or her life? Just imagine what would be the mental state of a person before and during a suicide attempt. You can never imagine? We need to be wise when we make such comments.
If you break up with your boyfriend/gf and you KNOW he’s/Shes suffering from depression or a mental illness.. you do NOT respond with “I don’t give a flying fuck”... there are mannyyyy other words in the dictionary you can use. A simple “I’m ok, hope you’re well” would have been fine. Rip Josh. A life taken way too soon.
still, you don't know how bad relationship was between them. I know a person who had a depressed boyfired, she was also his pillar of support, but he also insulted her, stressed her out and treated her as his therapist, then when she wanted to leave he threatened he would kill himself and that his blood would be on her hands. I don't think we should judge the girl without knowing her story, the boy shouldve gotten professional help and thats all
ikr he killed himself over a worthless woman that didn't want him how the hell would that be worth it especially the pain of death wtf especially when he had a loving mum i would understand if it abuse and traumatic stuff but over a woman and not cherishing his mother that raise him it kinda makes him look pathetic especially when there are people goes through worse stuff every day and don't even have the fortune of living with a loving mum and a city life or even go to school, have a roof over their head, fresh food,a safe environment even at home, there are bastards that would take advantage and hurt others sometimes even for fun even their own family members he had a mom to protect and raise in a safe environment and had privileges others could only wish for and he threw it away and wasted it on a woman that rejected him it not worth it there are others that goes through even worse shit everyday and they don't kill themselves over being rejected it happens everyday all over the world and they remain single or find someone better for them
@@naariznica3133 i won't tolerate this kind of threats i would report whoever did that to me to the police for harassment if i have to if i was in a similar position as her i and i won't be responsible for whoever is that person death at all i did not force that person to commit suicide ,that person did it themself and they are the ones who shove their problems on me which i want no part of if they cant take care of themselves the least they can do is leave me alone and not ruin my life
@@ngshuenrong3070 reading your comment clearly tells me that you did not watch the video at all and you know absolutely nothing about mental illness & the people who go through them. like jenny said, try putting urself in his shoes. even if you cant, never use words like 'pathetic' to describe him or say things that belittles his situation and the reasons that caused his suicide. it might seem like small problems to you, but it all built up for him and it was unbearable for him to take, did you forget that he was diagnosed with anxiety too? try living with that on top of depression and having important people leave your life. you pretend like he doesn't know those things already before he attempted. his girlfriend leaving is not the sole reason for his attempt, it only acted as the trigger and worsened his already existing mental illness. try doing research on mental illness before coming online to say things like these that belittles someone's struggle with depression and death with words like "others have gone through way worse" when you do not fully understand him & his life. its not very nice.
@@chehan5648 BIG BIG VOUCH, its not about "oh having a mom to protect and raise in a safe environment and had privileges others could only wish for", he lived a very hard life and had mental illness, before typing any comment or reply to any other comment try to get an education about this first.
People don’t understand how broken a person is to take their own life. People call them cowards, but they just don’t get it. And she’s right. They want the pain to stop, but it’s hard when u feel that broken.
If you’re in school try to make it until 16 then ask your parents to let you drop out then get your GED online which the same as a diploma then chill and get a job walking
vile people in the fresh comment section. "he's so selfish, didn't think about his mom, future etc." did you not hear her? people on the verge of suicide don't think about these things. they're in so much psychological pain that they just want to end it, and nothing else. Saying that is the equivalent of "bro how are you sad, just be happy lol".
You would be surprised to know how many people genuinely think that people who suicide are selfish, not only with harsh words but people who really mean it
The online people who said Josh was selfish, istg what's wrong with them? They're basically saying, "If you're depressed, just don't be depressed." 🤦♀️ Sorry for making ya'll argue in the comments.
Most “normal” people don’t understand how bad it can get. The thoughts just multiply and echo the longer someone endures. It affects every day life, changes your personality, and makes emotions nonexistent
Idk who r these normal people...maybe somedays they r normal..somedays they r a mess...but on the days when they r normal, they want to appear strong and powerful so they agree with what the world says.
“It’s like a perfect storm for him, trying to quell a perfect storm, while wearing a broken life jacket all alone in the middle of the ocean and seeing a tsunami in the distance”
I understand her pain. I lost my brother to suicide. It truly is a traumatising thing for the entire family. He had a lot of friends. Was always smiling, happy, everyone loved him and nobody had the slightest inkling he was depressed. There was no way we could ever know, because he hid it from us all. He didn't want anyone to know. There needs to be a better understanding and acceptance towards depression, so those suffering are more willing to open up and seek help.
@Kama Kiriyama My goodness, what country do you live in? We don't treat our depressed as badly as this. There are no medical bills and nobody gets thrown into a psych ward; not unless they are incomprehensible and a massive danger to themselves and others. The society towards depression in my country is not good though. People don't know how to respond if you claim you're depressed and they treat you like a ticking time bomb, or they'll brush off your depression like it's nothing. It's not possible to expect someone suffering with depression to cure themselves, when someone of sound mind can't even handle speaking of or hearing about it.
That will literally NEVER happen. Everyone’s soo busy “chasing the same imaginary dream” no one realizes we’re all after the same thing. We ALL often share the same feelings yet we try to act “above & beyond” 🥱🥱
Ive been there. I thought of this story... I hope it helps in some way. You're not alone. ❤❤❤ [23] After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, [24] and the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it. [25] Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. [26] When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear. [27] But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” [28] “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” [29] “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. [30] But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” [31] Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” [32] And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. [33] Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” Matthew 14:23-33 ❤✝️
As a mother of a daughter with BPD, I totally understand this woman. I rescued my child twice after suicide attempts. Every day is a struggle... I wish I could take her pain away...
Bpd is caused when a child in their childhood is exposed to narcissistic abuse. Wake up! Be a real hero and identify that narcissist. And get you and your daughter away from the narcissist!
@@joanbaczek2575 that is 100% not the only cause. Don’t go around like you are a doctor, giving false info and advice to mothers who are trying their best. It’s the opposite of helpful.
I never understood the concept of suicide, until I was reading a forum of this dude. He wrote something along the lines of “sleep is an escape but the ultimate bliss would be the void of death.” It completely changed my perspective on everything.
@@bruhment82 shutup I don't need help just cause I can't wait for death, seems more like YOU need more help then me to get over that fear you have with DEATH
Imagine the girlfriend realize she’s one of the reasons he died. To all the men out there, focus on your self before jumping into the realm of relationships. Build and strengthen your mental health as well as creating self love and respect. Relationships may be fun in the beginning but if you not sane mentally nor are you able to care for your own, take a step back and do it slow because you got so much time on your hands while you’re young.
She is not the reason he said he died he took his life it is not fair to put that shit on somebody else. People are not your therapist go find a real therapist
@UCAVdRl-eTGQWwTfi4fPH8Mg yeah but she was the cause of it. People are not our therapist, yes, but that is definitely NOT how you handle someone that is going through a battle of mental illness. People who have went through something traumatic needs time to heal, because the traumatic events made them weak and vulnerable. His mother and his father had a divorce which is a traumatic event, as children usually would blame themselves if their parents had a divorce thinking it was their fault. He tried to cope, which is good! But it wasn't enough. Put yourself in his shoes, all of your life you have been under stress, found an amazing partner that you love dearly and were your support (not therapist). Only to know after they realize you had a mental illness they told you to fuck yourself and leave them. How would you feel?
@@imtiredofyall4843 support and therapist are different. Therapists helps you HEAL from something. Support (from what I think) helps you keep going. Not completely heal you from said something, but at least less the effects of said thing on someone. All of this is just my opinion, if I'm wrong, please correct me
@@Anonymous-jt6de yeah a good support system is necessary and all and you usually get that from friends and family. But if you're a guy who's obsessed with your lover and put whatever garbage she spews on a pedestal, then you're bound to be unhappy as fuck. Op was right to say that you should better yourself first and know that you're whole and good on your own.
Agreed.. During quarrel or end of relationship, words like go and die, u are the worst person I met, u don't deserve any love etc etc.... Words can save a life, vice versa, words can kill a person
I end up crying around the half of this video. She is so brave to be able to share this story and educate others on suicide over and over again. Thank you for sharing this story.
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
This woman has amazing ability to understand. I've suffered depression for years with suicidal thoughts daily. I always wondered if it were true when people say happiness is a choice, I wondered "Why can't I just choose to be happy? Is that what everyone else really does?" But to hear her say that people suffering like this can't just snap out of it and that it is not a choice really resonates with me. I wish the general population was as insightful as this woman.
@@the.seagull.35 Well I have suicidal thoughts for various reasons I won't get into because like many others, it's not just one single thing that caused them. It's a collection of pain that has accumulated that brought about them. Like the woman had said about her son, how he didn't want to end his life but wanted to end the pain, that's how it is more or less. It's exhausting living with constant pain, especially when you know there are no solutions, there's just coping.
Depression is as much a choice as any illness, which is to say it's not. Being unable to be happy and feeling suicidal due to depression is not a personal fault or a character flaw. I'm not going to say it will definitely get better or I believe in you even if I do, since those words are about as effective on depression as telling a deaf man to just listen. All I can say is that suicide takes a lot of work, and I always felt it was more sensible to at least throw that effort into therapy, medication, or reaching out to people, since suicide does close out every single option permanently (among other drawbacks). If nothing works, then I could always go there, but somehow I've put it off long enough that suicide is really far down the list.
@@senyuri7496 ❤ At least in my case, there were a couple of root causes for it. It went all the way back to my early childhood. In fact I'm about to turn 35, and only this year am I finally connecting the dots between who I am and where I came from. I have to say that for the first time, thanks to God's mercy I'm beginning to feel genuine compassion for myself. Or at least, compassion for the little boy I was back then. I can see how it wasn't his fault at all, the things that hurt him. He was just a little kid. It wasn't his fault. maybe there is something like that for you 🤝 I pray there is and that Jesus will help you see it. It's amazing to really start to heal, after all these years.
It takes guts to kill oneself..I tried it before and took me years of psychiatric help to over come it..One can never understand the pain Josh went through. I feel for his mom for losing her only child.
@Jim Smith clearly you haven’t been to the suicidal stage so maybe you should stop running your mouth. you think they don’t take into consideration about how it’ll affect everyone around them? it takes more balls to face depression than you to put such a stupid comment on such a sensitive topic.
Her insight is immeasurable. The way she explains what her son went through is so profound. I’m in public watching this video and trying to hold back tears.
@@bebe8842 some parents can't explain what their kids are feeling or going through for multiple reasons, and it is not always the parents' fault for that. The certainty she explained of son's pain, trauma, and emotion, and it expressed through a timeline of events is remarkable.
I hate when ppl say stupid or selfish to k*ll themselves. I had S. I. I didn't want to end it but I wanted to stop feeling anything. Sometimes a person can be totally inconsolable.
It’s understandable, but it’s still selfish. My biggest gripe is with parents committing suicide, it’s horribly wrong and irresponsible. And I stand by that.
@@godofchristmas9611 I agree with the parents part of your sentence, but not the first. If you people don't want your "love ones" or a friend to commit suicide, be nicer. If not, stop virtue signaling
We won't laugh or mock a person who has a simple flu. We obviously won't laugh at a person who has cancer. Then we should not be laughing at a person who has a serious mental health disorder. I hope that Jenny is feeling better and may Josh rest in peace 🙏.
To say that Josh, or anyone who’s committed suicide, is “weak,” “selfish,” or any other derogatory thing is pure ignorance. Ignorance of the all consuming desolation, complete darkness, loneliness, despair & total lack of hope that is suicidal depression. While their ignorance is a blessing, their judgment & lack of empathy is disgraceful. RIP Josh and all who have lost the fight against depression.
@@tamarahenderson3878 Suicidal depression is an issue with brain chemistry. More specifically, in most cases, an issue with serotonin production and/or neurotransmitters. Medically diagnosed suicidal depression is much more than “feeling down,” having a “bad day,” or dealing with a difficult situation. Yet again, an individual who is blessedly ignorant of suicidal depression and it’s true depths.
Working at a funeral home the first suicide I ever saw was a 13 yr old with a Y incision autopsy, it was heartbreaking and I’ll never forget him. He liked making crafts with duct tape and had made this canister type thing out of duct tape, that’s what his dad had us put his cremated remains in, he was proud of his crafts. It was meaningful. A morgue is not the place anyone wants to be. Rest In Peace Daniel 🙏🏽🧿
Thank you for keep remembering him in a good way, just like the way you do until now.. Because its always painful to know that some children have to through this.. Rest in peace, Daniel..
That’s why me and my 12 year old friend are not going to date with other people, I think she is smarter than the other girls because she never gets depressed because of that. As for me, I don’t even want to try to do relationships because the cards are stacked against me.
@@1mol831 You are 12 you don't need to date or even think about relationships. Enjoy being a kid. You don't need the extra stress and problems with relationships so young. You have your whole life to deal with relationships when you are older.
@@brokenman136she wasn’t his girlfriend at the time. She was an ex. They had already experienced problems in their relationship for a year before they broke up. She wasn’t responsible for him. We don’t know how bad their relationship was. Getting I miss you texts from your ex, could’ve just been her last straw. We don’t know her side.
Well, it's _people's_ fault and problem then, if they're still alive, for that pain... No one should suffer if they don't want it and don't have basic _resources_ for it. Wanting someone to suffer for "some people" is cruel and egotistic. Why don't those "people" suffer then for a change? Why are they more "important"? They're _not..._
yeah you believe what you want but don't tell that to a person who wants to end it, ever time I hear that it fr makes me so mad cause my family is the reason why ill do it soon (and for others!!), it wont help them only make them feel guilty for having those thoughts
What??? So they’ll cry for a day or 2 & go back to life how it was before. “Don’t give me love when I’m gone.. Give it to me while I’m alive” Something the average person knows NOTHING about ‼️
I am sorry for your loss. Yes you are right. He never wanted to suicide. All he wanted was to stop the pain. When I attempted suicide, all I wanted to do was stop the pain that my husband was causing me. We are divorced now and I am much happier. Being married to a narcissist is like living in hell. Stay strong ma’am
When he said “mom, I’m ok, go to sleep” I think he meant it. For people suffering with depression, at least I can attest, there’s a great deal of comfort in knowing the pain will end soon. With people who suffer THAT much, when death seems like the only way out, it’s hard to demand they endure it for you and not seem selfish yourself. You’re helping others through telling your story, so in a sense, your son has given you new purpose you otherwise would not have had.
@@shikazebinging566 I love you. God loves you. I'm so GRATEFUL YOU ARE HERE! Stay. You have a purpose. A meaning. Jesus is coming back. Have faith in Him alone to be saved. He is coming back soon and I hope to see you in Heaven. Please repent and trust in Him! I hope you are better mentally now! Hang in there. God bless you.
When a person suffering depression becomes "happy", it doesn't always mean they have recovered They might've just chosen what they are going to do with their life
Asia’s education system sucks. It puts everyone in stress, I experienced this and it’s just so hard to maintain yourself. I wish Asia fixes this in the near future
Calling a person that lost to depression "selfish" is like calling a person that lost to cancer or any other illness "selfish". Depression is real. It is an illness. You can't just "get over it" the same way you can't "get over" other serious medical illnesses without proper medications and treatment. And sometimes, even with medications and treatment, the illness is just stronger. They're not selfish. They don't want to die. No one wants. But they just can't see any other options to escape from pain.
Don't tell me commiting suicide is the only way it only brings pain unto others and that's a form of "selfish" the pain doesn't just disappear, but passed on to others
@@eliezer2294 I'm not saying suicide is the only way. It certainly isn't and what's more, it's the worst way. But due to depression, a suicidal person doesn't see other options. They feel hopeless. And it's not their fault, it's depression's fault. Depression literally changes biology of their brain - it doesn't work like a brain of a healthy person. And without medication/therapy they can't help it the same way a cancer patient can't change the biology of their body that produces cancerous cells without proper medical therapy.
This mother’s love for her son is so pure. Despite her own personal loss she was able to reach beyond her own suffering to empathize with Josh’s pain and the need to end it. What a strong and unselfish human being. I’m glad that she has found purpose.
@@NickyRikki My own temporary problem has been lasting for more than 10 years, just as an example, and is going nowhere. Life itself is temporary. And any notion of permanence is void and meaningless in this context of death of a subject. For those who do not believe in an afterlife, of course. I get it that this saying seems catchy and witty, but beyond this superficial facade it is nothing but nonsense.
lesson learned to josh’s ex: dont tell people with depression that you dont give a flying fuck, you might end up being a catalyst to a worst possible scenario.
She may have been overwhelmed and snapped. It's not fair to use a partner as a therapist, nor to treat them like they're responsible for you committing suicide or not. I don't think what she said was right, but I won't judge her harshly since I don't know her side of the story. And before anyone gets angry at me for saying this, I have major depressive disorder, so I relate to his feelings of hopelessness and pain. But I also know it's not for a partner to cure, a partner is not a therapist, and they shouldn't be held hostage in a relationship. I do feel sorry for him and his mom, sad situation overall that so much stressful things happened at the same time.
Being a 19 yo male and having major anxiety, depression, lonelines, and a strong urge to end it all, this story really resonated with me. To anyone struggling with depression or anxiety, please know that it doesn't have to be over. Remember the love and care that people have for you, and the love that God has for you. Even if you don't feel loved or aren't religious, just know that Jesus always loves you no matter what. He's a staple in my life who's helped me refrain from making the wrong choice, and I can't thank Him enough for that. I hope whoever reads this finds peace and an abundance of love for the days coming. ❤️
Hey brother 🤝 maybe my story can help you. I've spent a lot of time on this same road. Jesus rescued me when I couldn't rescue myself. Its on my profle if you've got time. BTW if you ever wanna talk to somebody just let me know. Like I said I've been here before. Actually I've found the Church to be much less understanding of mental health issues than the outside world. I think this breaks God's heart.
Sadly, when u reach to that dark and lonely place, rational thinking and reason goes out the window. Anxiety/depression >>> isolation and when u r lost with these thoughts of helplessness is feeds back to isolation. To compound the issue it’s almost as if u are not thinking rationally. I had a good support system and I must say I isolated myself, n there were cycles of this, before 2022 I stil had reasoning to lean on my support, but 2022 was so bad, what I went thru in 2022, I truly understood how someone could end up here. Anxiety/depression/Loneliness is a vicious horrible cycle 🫂.. it feels so hopelesss
im concerned how the son asked his mother to be happy and move on like BRUH u killed yourself tf u mean be happy , my uncle died 2 years ago and my grandma never moved on and started not eating well until her heart failed and she had a heart attack , suicide is no joke but cmon how u gonna tell your mother to be happy after u die , if u want her to be happy stay alive if not for yourslef live for your mother some people just dont see the way out and its sad cuz its right there
She’s correct, she said “he didn’t want to end his life, he wanted to end his pain.” That makes so much sense. I believe all “ therapists” should seek out the patient’s pain and offer coping skills, and how to utilize the coping skills.
She told me I have to put the work in and when she did I didn’t get offended I instead took it the right way I have to put in the work and do better and I can’t always be sad
Everyone has their own problems. Some people have simple problems but they didn't deal with them correctly which results in a bigger problem. You can never know how much a person is truly suffering to compare their pain with others.
I think having a mindset that the act of suicide is a selfish and bad thing to do can prevent yourself from doing it But calling them stupid is just so wrong
@Throwaway Account who im referring when i said "calling them stupid is just so wrong" is people that have depression, people that say depression stupid is so wrong
As a person who struggles with suicidal thoughts I’m really happy that she has opened up her experience, I have an abusive dad and I doubt he will care if I die, but I have some friends who are keeping me alive, and I feel like after watching this video I really can’t go through with it because of them, the amount of pain they will go through if I die is 100x greater then the pain I’m feeling now, even tho I still want to die I can’t let down my friends, Emily, Hades, and Bruna, if you are reading this, thank you
Thank you for choosing to exist here on this earth. You are worthy!!! Is there anyway you can make the decision to live in Christ Jesus? There's a greater love than this world knows or understand
@miniko artsy...I’m here to tell you the absolute devastation and destruction suicides leave in their wake is unquantifiable. It’s the friends and family who are the ones living in more torment than the suicide ever was and what’s more, these life sentences are just that, you carry the burden with you until you die! Don’t ever put people you supposedly love in this position.
“Nowadays, Jenny puts her time into suicide prevention and education” This made me smile so big. It’s so lovely how some human beings can turn their personal tragedy into teaching hope and kindness. What an incredible way to immortalize a mother’s love ❤️
@@buiuh1260 Welp, that's one way to look at it, but that doesn't change the fact she is doing good work and preventing lives from being lost and working to save people. At least she's helping saving lives and spreading positivity and not spreading negativity unlike someone here. @BUIUH
Thank you so much for sharing your sons life with us. As a suicide survivor this story bought me to tears. After 10 years of being alone and coming to terms with my feelings and depression I met and engaged to a wonderful man. I understand now that there is a reason I survived.
The fact that I can't share this video in infuriating. Especially in this times of Covid, where suicidal rates is high, such video is highly informative.
one thing to note about taking care of someone's suicidal is, stop focusing on someone to blame and start focusing on the real problem, the depression itself. especially in this one stop blaming the gf, yes she was rude but there is much more in a relationship than breakups, we don't know much about it, what we know is someone needs help. I am not saying his gf is not at all in the wrong tho, what i'm saying is focusing on her and forgetting the real problem is just a bad move. vengeance is not always the answer.
@@tobubiify Yeah....he already had that anxiety attack and that should've been a great hint on his mental health and she should've been very wary on that part.Sadly his cause of death was a bit undetected since it was on his phone and quite a pity thing to be the cause of his death.
I’ve been suicidal for a long time. Listening to her testimony made me understand the unbearable pain my mother would have to deal with if I finally decide to set myself free from this body. I felt the intensity of her sorrow from a screen. May she find peace someday.
Sometimes loneliness is what worsens my depression, but if I decided to do such a thing, I guess I’d wait for my mother to pass away so that she doesn’t go through such suffering. Feels as though I’m trapped inside a body sometimes, but that’s how things had to be. There’s a huge chemical imbalance in my brain, and although I try and try different methods, nothing seems to be working. But here I am, trusting things might get better someday.
Hearing her understand his reasons, his pains, made me sob so much. I still deal with understanding my autism, my anxiety and depression, and having a family that never tries to understand, watching this made me feel heard and understood. Rest In Peace Josh Edit: thank you all for your kind words 💖 I can actually announce I’ve been free from depression some months now 🥺 it’s a new feeling and love every day, and also finally understand my autism. Whoever see this, know you always have support, you mean a lot for some, and they only want the best for you
Wow, I love how most of the people thinking he was stupid are usually immature kids or old boomers who've never been through depression, or have never lost a loved one through suicide. They probably never had to worry about being a burden to anyone in their lives and have no idea what it feels like to be completely cornered with hopelessness.
@Kama Kiriyama Trust me when I say a lot of old boomers refuse to acknowledge depression and mental illnesses and have never been through it themselves.
@Kama Kiriyama My point is what I said from the start, a lot of boomers dismiss mental health and mental illnesses and some of them have never even been through it and dont know how it feels. You really can't make sense out of such a small sentence?
I almost committed suicide back in 2009 but Jesus Christ saved me from depression and suicide. There is a spiritual battle we can't not see. Depression is from Satan.
Other than her tears and sadness, look at her laugh and smile when she's talking about her miracle kid. No one can understand her pain, struggle and sadness at that very moment…
What this mother said is 100% correct. When a depressed person is becoming happy, that does not necessarily means that they are recovering. Mostly they don't. They're just coping. I had to smile a lot even when I feel like I'm broken inside just to not make my parents worry. I look so happy the past months that my mom commented on it. She said she is happy that I'm cheerful now, not knowing that I had 2 failed suicide attempts and was planning my suicide every alternate night back then.
Stay strong! Do not give up on life, there are many positive things out there that are beautiful and meaningful. I fully understand that you are in pain, but hopefully you find a day that can give you happiness.
@@TOBY-jy7bzCause many Parents dismiss or blame kids for their mental illness. Hell many adults think kids can't get depression 😂. They make you feel like a freak sometimes even, mocking you. Not all, but enough.
So sad. There is nothing like the loss of a child. I’ve not lost a child but my parents have. It totally destroyed them. My mother passed a year and a half later at 58. She truly died of a broken heart. My father is just a shell of himself, sleeping with my brothers shirt under his pillow.
10:30 there was a guy who aimed a BB pistol so the cop would shoot him dead, and the comments angered me because they called him stupid and selfish. But people who comment that don’t understand depression in the slightest.
They don't understand depression because their brain is in their arse. These people need to back off from us and leave us alone or they will get stab in every direction. Unless, they are willing to help us. I see no problem why not?
The pain of a mother to lose her child is unbearable, the grief so absolute, it's eternal. For the one's left behind, suicide leaves a grief so unique, it's unlike any other.
telling a severely depressed person to "snap out of it and just be happy" is like telling a homeless person to buy a house and problem solved. Depression is an mental illness and just like any physical illness, it takes time and understanding to cure it.
@@redeye780everyone have their own limit and we dont really know the full story from the boy's perspective,just take it with a grain of salt even if his pain is not that much for others it surely reached the limit of him
Living takes a lot of strength. Life is pain and suffering for all of us. Not everyone can take it. It's sad when people feel that they cannot go on but I totally understand. The best thing someone told me was, "You spend more time dead than alive and life is so short anyway it'll be over before you know it. You might as well live." It made sense to me and kept me going.
The most important thing is that you still have the chance to change what happens to you when you're alive, there's always a hope that everything is gonna be okay. But once you dead, its all over. No more chance, and no more hope, only leave painful memories to your loved ones... But.. Its easier for us to judge people, right..? Maybe if i put my self on his shoes, I would do the same, who knows..
@@evangelinegilbero8211 i know how you feel. When i was 16. I attempted suicide, i overdosed on pills. I was alone in my room. I just wanted to escape this disgusting world. Name the abuse, i went through it. Needed to escape. Now, i'm 37 and so happy to be alive. I'm so grateful Allah gave me another chance. I have to say, going through what i went through has made me a different, a wiser person. I'm a mother now. I'm so aware of depression, and any mental health issues, that i'm 10 steps ahead of any potential problems for my son. And to be honest, i'm actually grateful for the things i went through. I realised now, life is worth living, it has so much to give. It's just a matter of lifting that dark cloud that blocks our vision to see the light, that is what weakens and slowly eats us. I never attempted suicide again, i became closer to my Lord, and realised, it's forbidden to end my life. And the increasing faith i had in Islam saved me. Now! I'm so glad i'm alive. I just wish i had a chance to speak to Josh. May the mothers heart heal, and make it happy and fulfilled again.
Josh, I wish this world was kinder towards you. Jenny, I’m sorry for your loss, thank you for your hard work in suicide prevention and mental illness research
He lived in a first world country, had a mother who cared, was able to sit and play video games in a free country with a roof over his head and food on his table. There are kids in third world countries who have it a million times worse than this guy ever did. It's hard to feel sympathy for people like this knowing how good he had it compared to millions of others who would kill to live a life he did. The mother didn't deserve this, bring all the hate you want
@@dontat-lj6dx Change your perspective and put yourself in the shoes of those who suffer from depression. They are fortunate compared to those living in third world countries, but they live a stressful life where they are not happy.
i think guys nowadays kinda realize that relying on relationships for support is... not a good idea for a guy better off sorting yourself out without people
The mom said he had the first attempt a year ago, then she should know and still said what she said, or at least knows he has depression she's just a biatch
Definitely horrible..but not the reason for him committing suicide. He already appears to have had mental illness prior to the girlfriend. Words can most definitely hurt but not taking care of the wounds that are deeper will only make us more vulnerable to hurting ourselves.
@@looots1320 then again she’s not his therapist, and she may have felt pressured too because he relied on her too much, became uncomfortable and snapped. i know how pressuring it feels to try and comfort someone, though i’ve never snapped at anyone confiding in me. we never heard her side of the story
These title cards in here like “but NOTHING could prepare her for the next MORNING” leaves a bad taste in my mouth…like this is a suicide story bro you don’t have to sensationalize it
I just wished all the adults all over North America, Europe and Asia to see this and realize the harm their behavior, their selfishness and their ego has caused which led to their kids committing suicide over studies. To all adults pressuring your kids over studies and their future, remember: life is NEVER a rat race for grades, success and money. If you do it, you'll burnout into scrap metal until everyone forgets you and your kids with each passing second.
u have to remember that some people are weak so they need more support which is fine but people need to understand that its fine to have more people around .
That’s nice, but it assumes that these parents genuinely care for their kids. This is harsh, but the reality is that having children is an inherently selfish act. A lot of parents have children out of their own selfish desires, either to have someone to rely on when they get old, to gain prestige, gain citizenship in another country, pressure from friends and family, etc. Not all, but many people would rather their kids die than to embarrass them and/or the family.
I grew up the same way. 28 years old, and some days it's still difficult... but now I have a daughter of my own, and she definitely helps me push forward. One way or another, you're not alone.
It does, you’re not alone. I’ve struggled with it for years, too. It’s hard to express these feelings especially when they refuse to acknowledge them. But… you have worth, and there are people who will care about you and DOES care about you. I wish you luck with your life too, we can do this.
Such a strong woman, she’s a hero tackling one of the real problems in this world. She’s right, even if her video or this video saved just one life it was worth it. Don’t judge people with depression cause you truly can not understand it unless you’ve had it. RIP Josh, bless this strong woman.
Here comes the femcel not even feelings for the son and appreciating the woman. There are a lot of Men out there with similar story. Some how women gets the credit huh.
Another dolan? Awesome 👍 Its rare actually lol. By the way i agree with you. Putting insulting labels on people does nothing to help anyone. Its just contempt for the sake of contempt
Hearing my mom say "your the one who's useless" really made me cry because ive been having a hard time thinking whyd i have to live at all now i just cry when my parents are gone in the room crying in the corner scratching my face body til it turns red just makes me so confusing am i really that as a mistake? Mom wanting another child and making me middle hits hard because i love them but i cant show them and really wanting to end my pain,ive been having alot of dead dreams being numb empty or just brain dead.
Hang in there hon♡ rest a while, everything may not makes sense right now, but i believe everythings gonna work out someday. Please never blame yourself
You’re not useless. I truly believe that. Don’t worry dear, we’re here for you. It might seem hard to move on everyday, but opening up and talking to people you trust would help.
Ive been also rejected by my mom but I learned to stop caring bc it doesn't do good for me. Its not your responsibility for her happiness or anyone's. She may not realized this but she is a mean person. For now on look out for yourself, your still a person and individual. If God doesnf force you to do anything for him then what makes you think anyone should. Be kind to your heart and soul. Always be there for you. Trust me you can find your happiness.
Seems like your mother is so selfish thinking like that, normal mums would think 10 times over before she said that kind of words to her child, well my advice is if she only states it once please forgives her sometimes people say really mean things they don't really mean it if they know it was causing so much hurt, but if she's been abusing you if you are on legal age find a job and get out of the house cut contact. If you're underage please collect evidence of your mom abuse, it can be an audio recording, or photos of your body injuries, or video of mom being mad, and secretly contact child protection service on your country. Lastly, please don't kill yourself, you worth more than you think. Some young people kill themselves before they reach their potential because they can't see behind all the mist surrounding them, the mist is all but a mist, a little walk and the sky is clear again. Doesn't matter what mom say, what abusive and horrible people in your life say they just cannot see the beauty you hold inside. Don't give up, if the hero want to save the world he needs to face the enemy. We are all heroes for ourselves, if we want to get to our happiness and greatness we must strive for it, and a hero does not simply give up. Wherever you are i hope that you don't loose believe in yourself, because we really do believe in you Virtual hug
You're all good mate. Look for a trustworthy pal, a mental support. Do you know that a lot of mother is jealous of their children's friends? You know why? Because sometimes friends have more things you can relate to compared to your mum although sometimes it's hard to find but there are billions of people in this world, so I guess that makes it billion times easier. You just need to be patient. Look, a lot of parents is actually trying to be your friend or as known as a listener too at the same time they are also trying to look after you as a parent. So you need to think maybe friends is helpful to you too other than a respectful and responsible mother. Don't keep hold on what you don't have, instead look for a solution to what you don't have. Fill in the blank, my friend.
@@codyethan5370 Hey Cody, big thanks for reaching out with a detailed reply, this actually touched me and I'm glad someone actually understands it! You know, when I'm depressed, my brain doesn't really function positively, it's true that I was holding onto something that I don't have and I didn't even realize it, depression has blinded my positive vibes but your reply really opened many doors for me, I really like what you did here and I'll have to learn from you as well You and your comment here is amazing!
@@vivifyproductions9608 Anytime, pal. It makes me feel great that my words are able to help those who are in need. Hope everyone say kind words to one another, so the number of those who is under depression will decreased a lot.
