HELLO OCTOBER | a cosy autumn week, cooking, food shopping, home updates & motherhood 

1 hour ❤❤❤ - Gemma please don’t worry about the perfectly polished vlogs, I think everyone appreciates a raw vlog. When I had my daughter 5 years ago I watched someone who had the perfect RU-vid mum life and I felt like a failure watching her, but now she talks about how she struggles with two kids and marriage etc and I appreciate the honesty and realness so much more. Bad days are temporary take the pressure off yourself you talking about your bad day or filming in a messy home is still an escape for us ❤❤

AN HOUR LONG VIDEO? We are all blessed 🤎 I’m currently in bed watching this while being all cozy

I've been watching this woman for 2 years and I have yet to find a comfort RU-vidr full of autumn and Christmas vibes ,like her 😭❤

Oh Gemma, I'm so glad you talked about your bad days and how you experience them. I have a six month old daughter and she's also teething and her sleep is so bad currently. I know exactly what the bubbling feeling is you talked about and these days are so rough. Please know that it is so encouraging when you film your bad days. It helps me feel not so alone ❤️

Ah Gemma, be kind to yourself my darling. My daughter is now almost 15 years old and I want to reassure you that everything you’re feeling is so, so normal. Becoming a mother is such a huge rollercoaster, hormones play a large part in the emotional side of it as well as the fact (as you pointed out) that everything in your life suddenly changes. You will adjust and in the meantime, please just be gentle with yourself and rest assured that you’re a wonderful mum doing your best xxx

Gemma you are doing a brilliant job. As a mother of four I can tell you we have all been there. He looks so healthy and happy.

Noah has changed so much in the last 3 weeks, got Mummy's eyes. Just lovely.

I’ve got a 12 week old baby and felt like I was the only one who feels this way, it was so refreshing to watch this video so thank you for making me feel that I’m not alone ❤

No one really talks about the anxiety that comes from our hormones readjusting after having a baby! I experienced the same thing! Take things moment by moment and day by day. Let a few things go on the hard days and give yourself grace. Motherhood almost forces us to slow down and smell the roses. ❤️

Gemma, you and Jamie are fab parents. I’m a 56yr Mum with 24 and soon to be 18 year old daughters and I still get Mum guilt. Neither of them were breast fed due to medical reasons and they have always been so healthy with no health worries. Keep doing what you are doing and what feels right for you and just trust and follow in your mothers intuition oh and ENJOY it all as it goes so fast. Xx

One hour! You are spoiling us. Oh I bet you absolutely cannot wait for your first Halloween with Noah, he is just so lucky. 💗💗

There’s nothing nicer than hearing a baby laughing….🥰

absolutely nobody does cosy a/w vlogs like Gemma 🥰🍂 just so calming and relaxing

I’m constantly anxious plus I suffer with depression + have ocd, sometimes I feel like I’m going divy + so up + down. So I really get it I hate having anxiety, your doing really well Gem honestly your my favourite RU-vidr + I stop everything to watch your videos, give yourself a Mahoosive pat on the back X

Awwww little Noah is getting so big he looks so much like you

Watching Gemma’s new Sunday morning video each week always puts me into a positive mood for the day 🍂🤍

Teddy behind the toaster is the cutest things I’ve seen all day 🥰😻❤️

I also felt like I was a totally different human, but after 1 year I felt like old me and new me melting together. You HAVE to make time for Gemma, time to feel like YOU. Make 1 hour in the week for self care ❤️ I also dealt with a lot of mom guilt and I’m still worrying about it. But I always say to myself: “if you are on an airplane and it’s about to crash, who are you giving the oxygen mask to first? You or your baby? Answer: you have to take the mask on first! Then you can help your baby ❤️= you are the best mother if you are happy! Your baby feel everything. Therefor it’s so so so important to make time for you and so you! ❤️ hope you can use it, it helped me a lot.

New traditions are so great when a love one is no longer present. My husband of 52 years died ten months ago and our only child, a son who lives on the west coast, decided to create new traditions. While I live on the east coast, we fly back and forth to different destinations to create new memories. We feel so fortunate to be able to have fun with friends and family in adventurous places. My son has dual American/UK passport having been born in Cambridge when his Dad did graduate work at Johns. Love your vlog!

Please allow yourself to express how you feel to us, it allows us see you for you unlike most youtubers, you keep it real. You're adapting to a new way of life looking after a beautiful little human, its so natural to feel overwhelmed. Cant wait to watch the rest of this :)

Thank you for being so open about your feelings. I've had the feeling you describe for seven years and it got even worse with my second child. It just feels like you're never done. It's like having an endless to-do list and never being able to rest and relax 😩.

i relate so much to the baby blues my son is almost 4 and I'm currently pregnant, i thought i was the only who felt like you did and I'm slowly learning to give myself some grace. Thank you for sharing your journey i honestly felt so alone and glad that I'm not the only mum feeling this way.

I hope Gemma knows she's a part of our Autumn 🍂, looking forward to the next 3 months vlogs 💖 xx

cant believe you blessed us with an hour video so precious, hope little tilly is okay. ive watched your journey for years literally so proud and happy for you and your family 🤎

I love the fact that you are so real. I love that you share that part with us. It makes us feel that when we have a bad day we aren’t failing, we are just living life. We are all trying to live our best life. Some days it’s great! Some days we are a hot mess and just want to have a good cry. You truly have such good content and I watch every video you put out and enjoy every one of them. You have a beautiful style in decor and self care and I’m inspired all the time.

Center Parcs set their Christmas holiday dates, you can’t get longer or shorter than the dates they set for Christmas breaks. This year it’s 23-27th just so you know for planning xx

Just to remind you that you’re doing an amazing job. You’re the best and perfect mummy for little Noah and I know these early days are hard. We are almost a year into parenthood and I’m only just getting back into the swing of cooking whereas you, super mum, are still feeding your family and not to mention juggling so so much all at once. Keep your head up ❤️

Teddy behind the toaster was the cutest thing ever and hilarious 😂

You can tell he is teething because of his rosy cheeks. Boy is he a doll. Those blue round eyes are amazing.

I listen to some of my Christmas songs throughout the year… if it brings me joy, I do it

Don't be scared to talk about your downs,love that kind videos like this one. You are so real and loving. How we can't love you? Be strong, you are amazing 🥰

Gemma it is post partum emotional problems, it will go away don't worry. He is adorable!

Cosy one hour long video...we're here Gemma!!...you're doing Great!..💗💗💗

I've been watching u for the absolute longest 3 years and ur fall and winter videos are my favourite ❤️🍁

An hour long clog is what I need! How cosy does Noah look in his sleep suit! He’s so funny 💜 Hope you all have a lovely week 🌸 Happy Monday

Teddy behind the toaster made me laugh so much! He is so adorable. I am so sorry to hear about Tilly I pray everything works out 🙀🙀🥰🥰

I have a 2 month old baby girl and I have plenty days where we just cry together. I also only lasted a week with breastfeeding and felt really guilty about it. The mum guilt is real and the midwives do put an enormous amount of pressure on you to make it work. Thank you for being honest, Its an amazing time but it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. 💕

I lost my father too, and it breaks my heart to see you go through the same pain. I know it can be challenging, especially around holidays, but if you are open to his presence and listen for messages he is there with you still. I love you so much I can't believe I got to see you have a baby and your way of life and just watch your life blossom over time... I look up to you so much you have no idea how much you've inspired me to make the most out of life. You do so much for your family and I truly honor that.

A vlog over an hour now this is good news so excited to sit down and watch this 🥰

All your feelings are normal, I had 6, it's an ongoing process. You'll learn that taking some time for yourself, by yourself will make a world of difference. A walk, a long nap, etc..don't feel bad if you need to ask Jamie or mom for a little time or an afternoon. Don't feel guilty, don't worry, it doesn't make you not capable.(it'll all be there when you return 🙂). Youre learning to adjust. you'll feel better & refreshed🥰. Every mom wants to be the best she can, but sometimes we have to put the cape in the washer🥰

I LOVED THIS VIDEO! Thank you Gemma for showing us your day to day with your lovely family. Just go with it hun, we don't want perfection, we are just so happy to see you and be updated 😊 xxx I am mum of 7. You are doing fabulously! It really is normal for your emotions to be all over the place. We love you xxx

Do you know what, I don’t have a child and I don’t want one anytime soon but watching your videos are my favourite at the moment as you’re very genuine and down to earth and still relatable! So many people now are becoming really unrelatable, and it’s makes them seem a bit out of touch with their audience, but still really love and enjoy your content so keep doing ya thing girl 💖💖

When I saw the hour vlog posted this morning I planned my bath hours in advance just to watch it!! 2 glasses of wine later and many pumpkin candles burnt… I feel so chill. Thank you beautiful for being our escape and I so hope you’re doing well. Plus Noah is defo the spitting image of Jamie! Omg he is so cute!! Love you and your little family xx

Omg Noah makes me smile, enjoy Gemma they don't stay small for long and you find yourself missing these times . He's absolutely beautiful 😍

Aww I love the look of the photos and frames, Tilly and Teddy should defo get a frame 🖼️ to complete the family gallery. 💜

Gemma, you are one of the most genuine RU-vid person. You let people know that bad days happen, that life isn't perfect. Teddy made me laugh hiding behind the toaster - my cat Bella hisses when she sees window cleaner's van arrive and tries to attack him through the glass. Happy Autumn xx

I love this kind of videos and your personality Gemma. I discovered you two years ago when I was having one of the worst moments in my Life and you always bring me relax and calm. Thank you so much. Kisses from Spain

You are doing an amazing! I’m 47 and have a son who is nearly 22 and a daughter who is 18. Yet , I remember everything your feeling. ❤ love your videos as you remind me to be grateful for the cosy evenings 😘 take care x

Would love to spend a day with you Gemma:) coffee, laughs, buy candles, all the goodness to make the day cosy and complete:)

BEAUTIFUL NOAH👶Gemma don't worry about vlogs or putting videos out.. Your a momma now and yes your life did change.. From a mom of a boy ...your anxiety you have is because your a good mom and worry.. It does get better you just have to control what makes you anxious... I think it's precious time you have with your baby... Time is the biggest robber of life and you can't get it back.. So enjoy and put out videos for special occasions and seasons... Much love to you and your family 👪 ❤️

Oh wow, I haven't been on your channel in awhile! Congratulations on being a mother! You are doing a great job, just know that! Happy you were able to have a spa day! Being a mother-first time mother is no joke. But, precious moments in deed. I'm a mother of two teenagers... My oldest will be 18 next month 🥲. I so remember feeling the exact same way as you do now! It's tough, but you'll get through it. ❤❤

It’s nice to see this side because we are all human .. I’ve been crying all day 😢 your RU-vid is my relax happy place ❤ your doing a great job 👏🏼

Gemma, this is Camila watching you from Colombia! I´m mom too and you are dealing with grief of loosing the old you. You will never be the same as you were before having your baby boy but is totally normal. It´s is fine to feel sad. It will take you about two years to re structure the new Gemma, to find out how she changed and to love the new version. Don´t forget to take care about your self, you look georgeous! But take time for you, take time for your husband in the same way you take time for your baby. The most important thing is to put your well being in the first place. If you are fine, the rest will just flow. Let the time do its thing... your are doing AMAZING°!!

Firstly sending hugs. I get those 'all the emotions' feelings. They're normal but it's horrible feeling so disconnected and lost. You've had some tough and huge changes. You're adapting and finding the now you. I love these kind of vlogs from you. Its like you're really letting us into you're life, it's brave to be vulnerable. Thank you for sharing. You're a fab mum and you're meeting all his needs, Noah looks so happy x

I watch True Crime all the time around my little one 😂 bless him he has no idea what’s going on but laughs etc

Gemma, don’t ever apologise for feeling like a bad mum, we are all different and thank goodness we are, never worry about things that can’t happen, your philosophy is, if it’s meant to be it will be, and not being able to breast feed is one of them, you are healthy and so is Noah, love your vlogs, been following you for over 7 years now and believe me you were the first person I ever watched on RU-vid that got me hooked so you are doing things right babe xxxx

I'm a recent viewer of yours but I absolutely love your vlogs, they give such a cozy feeling 😍 You spoil us with such long vlogs, I love it!

Love this video. It won’t feel like this at the minute, but this won’t last forever. As they say, the days are long but the years are short. When you are in the midst of it, you feel like you can’t see the woods for the trees. It’s so hard. You are a lovely family ❤️

I'm so glad you uploaded this video. I'm sorry you're having a bad day. I'm now 28weeks pregnant and we have been told he'll be early than we expected due to me having health conditions. I've been worrying about what it'll be like once he arrives. Again I'm sorry, hope you're feeling better soon, but it's reassuring to know that it's okay to have bad days. Thank you for still posting your videos! Love from the North East x

Literally just watched the cleaning one and commented, looks like it's another brew for me and watch why the babies are settled 😍😍 thankyou x

Thank you for being so honest about your mental health. It’s so important for people to know not feeling great all the time is normal.

Just had my baby boy 2 weeks ago and the postpartum recovery has been so much more difficult than I thought, now only suffering with mild cramps but think about it constantly as I haven’t found anything that has distracted me from it and the health anxiety I now have after giving birth to him, your vlogs however this one in particular has honestly made me feel so much better and actually distracted me from how I’ve been feeling lately❤️it’s also so refreshing and comforting knowing that I’m not the only one struggling and that it’s normal to have good and bad days so Thankyou so much for this vlog I really needed it ❤️

I appreciate the honestly and realness so much more! It helps me feel less alone, instead of coming online and feeling like a failure to my 6 month old because I’m not the portraying the ‘perfect life’ 💕

Nothing is a lovely wee chap with a big smile. I can remember getting back into the land of the living for a nice meal, it's so important to get some time to yourselves.

Thank you for sharing the truths of motherhood. I am childfree by choice and will be forever so it is really nice to see the full picture.

One of your videos came up while I was cleaning and I was just hooked. It's something about your videos that are so calming and inspire me to be a bit more productive, not just with studies or work but also self care. I'm in my early 20's and started living alone for the first time so I struggled a lot with getting used to a new life and feeling lonely. Your videos have definitely helped make this huge change a bit more bearable. Thank you for your videos!

Motherhood definitely isn't all rainbows and roses. 😬 Such a massive change. took me so long to settle in and get used to it. Didn't seem real for a long time. For me I think it was a huge shock. But I love my son so much unconditionally and have done seen day 1. He's taught me so much and helped me grow as a person xx

Gemma, I just want to say thank you for this video, I am a first time mum to my 5 month old daughter and it’s been a breath of fresh air listening and watching such a raw and honest vlog. You’re doing brilliant, we are all these little ones need right now 🤍

Your Not alone in the Mood Swings! I'm seeing a Counselor right now for Anxiety and Depression. Anyway, you'll be in my prayers. 🙏 Jamie is a Great Support System. Noah is a beauty! Love you all 💕

I agree with you Gemma about breast feeding that not enough is encouraged about it prior to birth and in the hospital. I fed 2 children and it it wasn’t for my British Mother who encouraged me on the down days I could not have done it. You must feed a lot in the beginning and drink lots of fluids and try to not be stressed. I found that not substituting formal alternately with nursing was the key for me to successful nursing. Good luck in the future and just enjoy every moment of Noah’s life.

Gemna, you are a great mom. Noah is thriving. I'm a gran now; you are a natural mom. Give yourself some grace.

Am I the only one to think Gemma is the Queen of Cosy Fall / Winter / Festive / Christmas content ? 🤔😍🎃🎄🍁🍂

Honestly you have no idea how refreshing it is to hear you talk about how your feeling right now. I’ve been watching all your recent vlogs after giving birth and thinking how is she doing it? How are you (seemingly) carrying on as normal as if the baby has barely affected your life and honestly it has made me feel a little down thinking why can’t I be like you and be on top of everything so Thankyou for your honestly Gemma it’s comforting to hear I’m not the only one going through this right now ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Waking up on a Sunday, and watching a video upload from Gemma - is cosy vibes. 🥰

My love to Tilly really hope she's going to be OK. Much love ❤

Honestly adore all of your videos but this one was just so raw and precious

I had the exact same experience with breast feeding with both my children and each time it was a mental struggle of feeling guilty and not feeling good enough Its not something that it talked about so I'm glad you are.

Just something that makes me calm before the work week 🍂🤍

Please don't worry about the length of your vlogs. I love long vlogs and your channel is the best xx

I love a raw vlog, they still feel cosy and are a true escape for me, as a mum of two with 20 months between them, I had to come to terms with looking like crap the majority of the time! I struggled with it! Motherhood is a wild ride, but the best ride ever! ❤

i never clicked so fast on a notification before your vlogs are so cosy and they make my heart happy i swear 🤍

I hadn't watched your videos in about a year and I am so glad I started back up again. I forgot how funny you are Gemma. Baby Noah is just the cutest little boy ever!

Oh how I long for these cozy Sunday catch ups. Gemma you bring joy to my life. You are the definition of peace and happiness. ❤️🥰

Thank you for a wonderful Sunday morning vlog. One hour with you makes my day!!!🤎🍁🦊🍂🍂🍄

Just keep going Gemma and don’t worry about everything being perfect. You are perfect. Life is so very tough having your first baby. Noah has to rely on you two for xxxeverything at the moment and it’s very tough for you at the moment. Life will get back to some normality in time. Just don’t be too hard on yourself and enjoy this very special time. You’ve done so very well and you’re an amazing mum. Just keep doing what you’re doing. Sending hugs and kisses.

I have an 11 month old, and I suffered badly at the beginning of her life, in thd newborn days up to 3 months old. I struggled badly with baby blues/postpartum anxiety, for absolutely no reason, I'd just get overwhelming feelings of dread, worry, and dreaded the nights because lack of sleep was the trigger for my anxiety, it was hard! I struggled to clean the house, cook, do myself up, go out, everything was just so overwhelming to do and navigate life was just in general horrible. Fast forward to when she was 6 months it calmed down and as she got older and bigger and slept better my feelings and hormones wore off. I really take my hats off to you for even having the energy to even set up, film, edit and then upload. I myself upload a few videos here and there but since having baby I just haven't had thr time as well as working 😭 to see you say that you were having a bad day with these similar feelings. Made me feel less alone, because do you know what.... NOONE ever speaks about it?? Like everyone that's had a baby on RU-vid (everyone now) atleast all the girls I watch anyways... all seem like their life is hunky dory and makes me feel like I'm not normal for feeling this way, why are they not feeling these feelings? How comes they just popped a baby and their life doesn't seem affected at all? Is it all just for the camera? I don't know but I honestly struggled so much but it helped to speak about it to friends and family. So thank you for being relatable 🤍😭

Bravo Gemma! I watched and watching all your videos now again. This is the girl I met 5, 6 years ago. And now is better! A lovely woman. Bravo for all the work you do and you do it perfect. The feelings for a new mother, working woman, for a woman who cares for her house, and for her fellow, are exactly the same with what you are feeling. you want to cry, to laugh, you feel tiered but also active. keep going girl. you are not alone! Love!

After so many years you’re still my favourite RU-vidr. My daughter is down for a nap and I’ve turned off CBeebies and sat down with a cuppa! How cosy🙈🍁

Absolutely loved it Gemma, you just keep it real! I think us faithful followers would watch and enjoy whatever you put out. 🥰

Hour long video. Gemma, you made my day ❤

I literally just came onto RU-vid to see if you had posted and this notification came up😍🙌🏼

We’re certainly having some beautiful sunsets here at the moment. Don’t ever apologise for the ‘bad’ days, we all have them. I totally relate to that bubbling feeling of anxiety rising up through your body, I thought I was literally having breathing problems until I realised it was anxiety. Good quality sleep, good quality food and plenty of meaningful distraction helps me but everyone is different. Having a baby rules at least one of those things out. You are doing a wonderful job with your baby and all these ‘hard’ times will pass ( my daughter is 28 now).

Being a mom is the hardest journey and baby brain doesn't go away! I completely understand changing Christmas traditions after a loved one is gone. Since my dad's passing we go away for Christmas. This year its NYC! Love your vlogs!

Thank you Gemma for finding the time to do a one hour vlog. I have to say I think Noah definitely has your eyes. He is getting so big so fast. Teddy hiding behind the toaster was so funny, my cat once hid behind the microwave when we first got him home and we couldn’t find him for awhile. 😊💕

I really appreciate when you are raw and show how you really feel. It does not make me as a subscriber feel bad mentally, it just makes me feel less alone 🤍😊 mental health is important and you still make me happy with your videos even if you are not happy all the time. It does not make you a mood killer or whatever, it makes you human! 🤍I care about you even if we have never met and I want to see how you are doing honestly 🤍 You are like a friend in some wierd way. You are not a burden for being raw in your videos! Love your content! Never say sorry for showing your mental health. It is so important! Xx

Omg one hour! Honestly wish I was productive as you girl ilysm and I bet you are so excited for you first halloween with Noah❤❤

A hour…. Like a mini film .. perfect 😍

One hour vlogs yes!!!! This is what I’ve missed

☺️🤍omg why is Noah the most cutest baby ever !

Never ever feel guilty for formula feeding. There are so many mothers out there including my own mother who couldn't breast feed. She found it extremely painful and my 2 siblings including myself couldn't latch properly. Don't feel bad at all. It shouldn't be frowned upon because it's your baby and your body. If you're in pain then you need to listen to your body, no matter someone else's feelings or opinions on it. I am so proud of you Gemma! I hope Tilly gets better too. I've been watching your videos since I believe your first house with your ex and you have no idea how proud and happy I am for you, Jaime, Tilly, Teddy and Noah💕Release the mum guilt love. You're doing well and we are human. Mistakes will be made whether you're a mum, dad or a human without children.