Oh gosh i'm so sorry I can't even begin to comprehend what you're feeling. Life always feels so tough but I love how strong you seem in this video and I hope that you're able to endure and prosper. Maybe if you have a friend or something you could ask them to stay for a little and figure out a better living situation in a more comfortable environment?
That Really Hurts !!!!!!!!! If you want to Leave then Please Go. Make No mistake I've Loved you and have given you almost everything you Wanted. This Really Hurts